A/N: Yeah, I know I said I wouldn't update this story before updating "And down came the rain" but I had this great idea for this chapter and I just had to update… but I'm not sure if everybody will like this chapter… but… yeah… just read and tell me what you think…

Kudos to my dear Cherrie-chan for being a wonderful beta… and Cherry Jade has a new one-shot "Wish". It's awesome and if you are a RaeRob-fan, you love it… just read it…

Dedicated to Chica De Los Ojos Cafe, Aurora Mikayla, sekai no yakusoku, Cherry Jade, Tecna and Mol

Disclaimer: No, I don´t own them…

Chapter Six:

Change You

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"Hey."

Raven quickly turned her head to the door that connected the living-room with the floor and looked into Roy Harper's smiling face. He was clad in a jeans and a red shirt.

"You're up early." He remarked and proceeded to sit next to her on the sofa.

"I can say the same thing about you." Raven retorted.

Another smile was her answer. "So, why are you up that early?" He decided to ask her.

Raven rolled her eyes. "It's not that early. It's 7 o'clock…"

"Maybe," Roy said nonchalantly. "But it's still early! So…?"

"I… couldn't sleep…" She responded vaguely and hoped that Roy would believe her.

"You're lying." Roy pointed out calmly.

Ok, that did it to her. "Why does everybody think I'm lying?"

"Because you are." Roy stated simply as he looked at her profile.

"And how, pray tell, do you know that?" Raven asked her voice tripping with sarcasm.

"Maybe because you can't even look at me when you answer…" He trailed off and watched how Raven's eyes winded for a moment before she caught herself and slowly turned her face to him.

"I am not lying!" Raven forced out and asked herself why she felt so angry and mad. It wasn't like her to show any emotions… especially not anger.

"You know, sometimes… talking about your problems helps."

"And sometimes it just makes it worse," Raven whispered softly, but Roy heard it anyway. "There is nothing to talk about and I don't see why it would matter to you!" Maybe being cold and unfeeling would stop him.

For some minutes there was just silence between them and Raven thought that she had finally manage to shut him up, but her bewilderment she felt a pang of hurt. She didn't want him to give up on her.

She wanted… What did she want?

"It hurts, doesn't it?" His question pierced through her thoughts and left her speechless.

"W… What?" She asked although she knew what he meant.

"Knowing that your father will leave you and forget who you are. Knowing that the one person you love won't to see how much you love him… can't see that you'd die for him." Roy spoke softly and never looked away from her pale face.

Raven gasped as she heard his words. How did he…?

Before she could say anything, Roy continued to speak. "But believe me, it'll get easier. You… you'll learn to live with the pain and…"

"Stop," Raven interrupted him. "Just… stop…" Her face was contorted in sadness. She hated to feel that way… she hated to feel helpless… she hated that he see through her façade so easily and she hated… that he was right.

"Raven, I didn't mean to-" Roy began, but wasn't able to finish his apology.

"What do you know about how I feel? You don't know anything!" Raven spat out angrily and sprang off the couch. She halted in her track when a strong hand grabbed her wrist and pulled her towards the couch.

"I know how much it hurts to let the person you love go away…" Roy spoke once Raven faced him and it surprised her that his voice sounded so… so… sad and distant.

Roy stood up from the couch and held his hand to her. "C'mon, let me show you something…"

Raven looked sceptically at his extended hand. "What do you-"

He silenced her with a shake of his head. "Do you trust me?"

Raven's amethyst eyes wandered from his hand to his face. Roy looked at her with a warm smile and a hopeful expression.

Just as she reached out for his hand, Raven heard the phone in her room ringing.

Flashback

"Do you remember that when we were eight and for almost a year someone would call you every morning and wake you up, but the person had not said a thing?"

Raven nodded and Richard continued. "The person was me. At that time… I feared that you would die and disappear… just like my parents had died and I wanted to be sure that you were still there… and sometimes… I still do it…" He confessed and a slight blush spread over his cheek.

…

"I'll talk to you tomorrow, okay?" Richard said before she could close the door.

"Yeah," She waved him off and closed the door.

Raven heard them walk away from her room and leaned her head against the cool door. "I love you!" She whispered and fell against the door and slid down until she was crouched with her knees to her chest and the tears came crashing hard and fast.

"I love you!"

End flashback

The phone kept ringing and Raven looked again at Roy's hand and with a small smile, she placed her hand in his. "Let's go." Was all she said as the phone kept ringing mercilessly non stop.

Half an hour later, Raven and Roy stood in front of a small white house with a small garden.

It was a nice house… the kind of house Raven wished for herself when she… she had a family on her own.

The dark haired young woman looked at the man next to her. "Roy, what are we doing here?" She asked.

"You'll see…" Roy answered her cryptically and led her to the door and ringed the bell. Only 30 seconds later the door sprang open and a little girl about four years with long honey blond hairs and beautiful light blue eyes jumped into Roy's waiting arms.

"You are finally here! I waited for so long!" The little girl screeched excitedly.

Raven found herself smiling at the little girl. She was really sweet.

Her little arms wounded itself around Roy's neck and she buried her face into the crook between his neck and shoulder. "I missed you! Did you miss me too, Daddy?"

"D- Daddy?" Raven repeated as Roy just smiled and hold the little girl tighter. "Of course I missed you, Lian."

"Are we going to visit mum?" Lian asked and her pretty blue eyes were shadowed with sadness.

Roy gently brushed away the bangs from the little girl's eyes and nodded at her. "Just let me say hello to you grandma, okay…"

Lian nodded and then turned her attention to Raven, who had watched the scene in awe. "Who are you?" Was the first question that came out of the little girl's mouth.

"Ehm… I'm… Raven…" Raven told her.

"Like the bird?" Lian asked in awe.

"Yeah…"

"I like your name and I like birds…"

"Uh… thanks. But your name is pretty too." Raven smiled up at the girl who was still hold my Roy.

"My mum named me Lian, you know?" Raven noticed that Lian sounded sad when she talked about her mother. "Are you daddy's friend?" Lian's sweet voice interrupted her thoughts.

Raven's eyes met Roy's and she smiled at the girl. "Yeah, I'm daddy's friend."

"That's good, because I like you!" The child announced. "She's beautiful, isn't she daddy?" She turned her small glowing face to her father.

Roy smiled as Raven blushed furiously. "Oh yes, she's very beautiful." He was happy to see that Raven's blush intensified at his words.

"Will you come and visit my mum with us?" Lian asked in a small voice.

"I don't-" Roy interrupted her.

"She will come with us." His voice was firm. Roy bended down to let his daughter on the ground. "Stay here with Raven. I will just say hello to grandma and then we'll go." His gaze wandered to Raven and asked her silently if she was alright with that.

And although Raven was more than confused about all that was happening, she nodded and smiled at the man.

She watched as Roy walked into the house, but was startled as a small, warm hand reached out for hers. Looking down, the dark haired woman saw Lian grasping her hand and squeezing it tightly.

It surprised how good it felt to hold the little girl's hand and out of a sentimental instinct, Raven intertwined her hand with Lian's.

It was only ten minuets later Roy came out again, but Raven already knew that Lian liked cats and that she wished to have a cat and that loved cheesecakes and that blue and red and purple were her favourite colors and that Zoë Passmore was her best friend.

Raven couldn't help herself but smile that the energetic little girl. You just had to love her. She was too cute and kind and lovely not to.

"So, can we go now?" Roy voiced and looked from his daughter to Raven.

Before Raven could ask him where exactly they would be going, Lian smiled a big toothy smile and grabbed with her free hand her fathers pulling him and Raven away.

They walked in silence for fifteen minutes and Raven was comfortable with the silence, but still she had so many questions she wanted to ask Roy… so many things she didn't understand. All her thoughts came to halt when they stopped in front of a small cemetery.

Raven looked up at Roy as they began to enter the cemetery through the gate, but all she could find was a blank expression. She felt the small hand squeeze hers tightly, before Lian let go of her hand and ran to tombstone surrounded by beautiful flowers.

Roy followed his daughter and now stood in front of the tombstone and it was then everything Roy had said made sense… it was then Raven began to realize.

Slowly she walked to Roy and Lian and once she stood next to them her eyes fell on the tombstone.

Kate Levin

A loving mother

A loving woman

Forever in our hearts

"Roy…" Raven began, but somehow she didn't know what she should say.

"Kate… and I met each other when we were fifteen," Roy suddenly spoke up and his voice was breaking from all the emotions. "We immediately feel in love, but it took a long time to convince her that I was serious with her… most of my money was spent for flowers." He chuckled sadly at the memory. "But… it was worth it. We were together for a year when we found that she… she was pregnant. We were just sixteen, but for both of us it was clear what we would do." Roy stooped as his eyes landed on his daughter who was kneeling in front of the gravestone and talked with her mother before his gaze met Raven's. "Kate parents didn't take it too well and practically kicked her out, but my mother… helped us and although we knew it would be difficult… I… we began look forward for our baby."

"And then she was in labour and everything was fine: Lian was born and it was the most wonderful moment in my life when I finally held her in my arms… but there were some complications…" He took a deep breath and Raven saw his hands clenching on his sides. "… she… she… died. After all the pain she had to endure, she died without being able hold her daughter. She died and I couldn't say her how much I love her and how she means to me… she died…"

"Roy, I'm…"

"But you know, although I wanted to die with her that moment, I realized that she had given me something wonderful and precious: She had given me a wonderful daughter."

"Lian was the only thing that kept me alive and as the years passed I learned to live with pain… and I realized that although I will love Kate forever, I have to let go…" He trailed off as he felt his voice shaking.

Raven looked sadly at the man next to her. He had lost the love of his life and he was still living… he was still strong… he was still happy.

"Roy… I… thank you… thank you very much…" Raven fidget, before she found the right words.

Roy turned to her. His sorrowful eyes looking deeply into her wide violet orbs. "You're welcome." And Raven was glad that he understood what she meant without needing to explain it.

"She was beautiful, you know…" Roy said after a few moments of silence. "So very beautiful…"

"I'm sure she was," Raven replied. "I mean, Lian has to inherit her beauty from somewhere and since it can't be from you…" A chuckle interrupted her and Raven smiled as she saw him smiling gently at her.

"C'mon Raven, you know I'm handsome." He teased.

"You wish." Was her dry reply and after a moment of thought she grabbed his hand and squeezed it gently. "There's a place I know that has wonderful cheescakes… we… could go there and you… you could tell me about how to let go…?" She hated how her voice sounded so unsure and broken, but she forget all her doubts as Roy smiled warmly down at her.

"That sounds great."

'Maybe letting go won´t be that difficult…?" Raven thought as she looked at Roy and his warm and smiling face.

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A/N1: Ok, so… what do you think…? I thought it would be a good idea to bring Roy´s daughter from the comics into the story… as I said before I love Speedy´s character in the comics and how human he is in the comics… I mean, c´mon a superhero who was a drug addicted…?

And I have to admit that I begin to adore the RaeSpeedy pairing… that´s why I´m currently trying to write an RaeSpeedy one-shot, but RaeRob will be mentioned as well… you will see what I mean once I upload the story…

A/N2: I wanted to thank everybody who had reviewed for the last chapter and so far… I mean, the story got over 200 reviews… that´s amazing. It´s really great that you like this story so much... so, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you...

Next chapter: A shocking and intime detail about Richard´s and Raven´s friendship will be revealed. Richard tries to understand his feelings while Raven realizes that letting go is harder that it sounds…

Ok, that´s it… for now…

Until next chapter

Alena