A/N: OK guys, I severely toned down the content from the original version that is posted on the Dirty Little Secret Instant Star Message Board. I know frowns upon NC-17 chapters, so I need to up this rating a bit for some of it's content. It's watered down a bit (especially the ending) from the original, but I'm sure you can see where it's all going. I hope you guys enjoy the chapter, and I told ya, I'm updating like a fiend to get you all caught up. Hopefully it'll be soon. :D Thanks for all your wonderful comments, for those of you who reviewed, and those of you who didn't, shame on you and shall the…review gods punish you! ;) (j/k).

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Chapter 20

Liar, liar. She thought, tears beginning to fill her eyes. How could I be so stupid to think he'd fall for me again? She wondered, feeling bitterness beginning to consume her. Of course he wouldn't want her…Temporary Insanity had always been our theme. Tears clouded her vision and they ran freely down her face.

"Jude…" Tommy's voice came to her, softly, as if he was tormented as much as she was.

"Don't Tommy." Jude said, feeling a sob well up in her throat. His hands took hers and she turned her face to look at him. His eyes were soft, and she realized she'd only seen that look in his eyes once. It was years ago, and it had been when she had hated him for 'lying' to her. It was the look in his eyes when he practically confessed he loved her.

"Jude…I…I never stopped loving you." He said, his voice tense, as if he was afraid of rejection. Jude stared into his eyes in mild shock. She didn't expect him to tell the truth. It just wasn't something he did…especially when it was tough. She felt more tears fall down her face, but they weren't tears of sorrow anymore. They were tears of utter happiness. "Don't cry girl." Tommy said, taking her face in his hands and kissing her damp cheeks and then on the lips. It was a soft and gentle kiss, not as heated as the one previously, but it didn't lack in emotion. It was the kind of kiss that was feather light and loving, and it left Jude wondering if it were just a dream.

They pulled away and stared intently in each other's eyes.

"Tommy, I love you." Jude said, the words flowed out of her mouth without a thought, and she watched him for his reaction. She watched his eyes, his blue eyes smoky with emotions and Jude couldn't get a read on him.

"Jude…" He said, slowly, as if he didn't want to say what he as about to say. "I'm still with Michelle." Tommy said, looking torn. Jude sighed in frustration.

She got up from the couch and began to pace the room. "You know what Tommy! Stop playing me and make your choice! Forget Michelle, forget the world, forget three years had ever past! Forget my dad, Fuck the world, the press, just look at me and tell me you don't want to be with me!" Jude stopped in mid pace and turned to face him. "It's not like" She stopped herself before the words came out. She was going to slip about Michelle. She couldn't do it, not like this, not this way. It'd only succeed in further pissing him off. "Forget it." Jude said, stalking towards the door.

"Jude, where are you going?" Tommy asked, leaping up from the couch to follow her.

"Away from you." She spat, not turning to face him. She stopped at the door and worked on slipping her shoes on when Tommy stood in front of the door. Jude stared at him. "Tommy, let me go." She said, staring into his eyes.

"I'm not letting you walk out on me again." Tommy said, his voice shaky with emotion and Jude let out a long breathe. "I'm sorry Jude…I'm sorry for the way this all played out." He said, looking defeated.

"I was serious about what I said before Tommy. Forget three years had past, and forget about my dad…would you still be with me?" She asked, her eyes begging him for the truth.

"I wouldn't have left you for the world." Tommy answered, his eyes staring into hers.

"You didn't have to." Jude whispered as his hand came up to caress her cheek. She leaned into histouch and her eyes fluttered close as she revealed in the feeling of his hand on her. Heat flooded her cheeks and her chest felt heavy with emotion. She could feel his intense gaze on her and she felt him move closer to her, the close proximity of his body causing her to feel weak.

He paused in hesitation, his body pressed up against hers, forcing her to be pinned against the wall. Jude felt a whimper escape her throat as she waited impatiently for him to be the one to make the move. She didn't want to seduce him; She wanted him to want her because it was what he wanted.

After what felt like an eternity for her, his mouth connected with hers, slow and seemingly uncertain. Jude didn't hesitate in her response. One of her arms wrapped around his head, her hands pushing his mouth closer to hers. Her other slinked around his waist and pressed him against her. Tommy's hands cupped her cheeks and held her in position.

They kissed passionately and tongues dueled in need. Tommy pulled back from her, causing her to whimper from the loss of contact. His hand stroked her cheek and Jude shuddered at the soft ministration. She forced herself to keep her eyes open and when she stared into his eyes, she found them dark with a primal need. His head dipped down and he kissed the soft flesh where the shoulder and neck connected. Jude let out a gasp and tilted her head away from him slightly, giving him full access to her throat. He nipped, sucked, and kissed the tender flesh and his attention made her feel weak and wanting more contact.

Jude's hands went to his shirt and began to unbutton it with shaking fingers.

"We should move this elsewhere." Tommy said into her throat, his warm breath on her neck causing her to shiver once again. Jude didn't comment, couldn't comment. She found herself unable to speak. He did that to her, always did; just a smile was enough to make her melt into a puddle, his touch intoxicated her and left her wanting more.

He took kissed her softly on the lips and led them down the hallway, slowly so neither lost their balance. Jude came willingly and she worked his shirt off his shoulders and it was discarded somewhere between the foyer and the hall. Jude moaned into his mouth at the feather light touches across her stomach and he pulled her shirt up and they broke apart only long enough to toss her shirt aside.

They stumbled into the bedroom, passion growing and they fell back onto the bed. They quickly shed other articles of clothing and soon they were both down to their underwear. Tommy pulled away from her and stared into her eyes.

"If I don't stop now, I don't think I'll be able to." Tommy said, his voice coming out between pants for air. Jude's right hand went up to tangle into his soft hair and Tommy's eyes slid close as she massaged his scalp.

"I don't want you to stop." She said, her voice quivering with need and her eyes full of passion and love. Jude pulled his mouth to hers and she felt him give into love. Their love.They continued to kiss, passion growing and need becoming overwhelming to the senses. They quickly lost the rest of their garments and they made love long into the night, giving into three years of longing.