Hey all my faithful readers! Whats crackin? N2M here cpet harley is having trouble with her word thingy so now I cant read her wonderful, funny story! Poor HAR! Anyways..Keith says that my story is too dramatic. I'm not so sure, but Har said that she almost cried twice..is that a good thing?

I dunno..but this chapter is dedicated to my friend Ashli, even though she hates anime.. :(

Past Love and Memories

Last Time

"Hai, I know." Akumi looked down at her hands, and her tail that was rapped around Shippou, seemed to droop. Than all of a sudden she lookd up. Her eyes were flaming with hatred. "He's the one who told me I would never be loved." Her fists clenched as if she wish it was Sesshomaru's neck she held in her hands.

Now

Everyone went silent. It felt like ages until Shippou finally spoke. "So your in love with Sesshomaru?"

Akumi snarled and bared her fangs at the thought. She was careful to push Shippou away before she lost control of her anger. "I did love that bastard excuse for a dog. But he showed his true colors when he let me know that I was unloved. I now hate him. If I EVER see him again, it will be to soon."

No one bothered to let her know that Inuyasha was Sesshomaru's half brother, and that he appeared on there journey every few weeks or so. They didn't really want to be the ones at the end of her wrath. Myouga however seemed to be the most scared. He quickly pulled on his bundle and said, "Well it seems I had best be off. No telling when you will need to leave. I will just..uhh..be out of your hair."

"Oh NO you don't!" Akumi growled. Her eyes were slowly going back to normal, but she still had anger burning in her eyes. She gripped the panicked flea by the neck of his shirt. "You will NOT tell Sesshomaru abot my return. If I see him, I will kill him. I do not care if he is your lord, and do not care if he is the Lord of the Western Lands. If he crosses my path, he will meet his demise by my claws. I no longer hold love for him in my heart. All that lies in the place he once filled is hurt and hatred." She looked thoughtful for a second and said, "Mostly hatred."

She then dropped the flea to land on his ass. She felt bad so she helped him up and looked at him. "Now, you said that my brother is a live. Does he reside in the Eastern Castle? And is he doing well?" The anger and hate she had in her eyes flooded away to be replaced by hope and worry.

"He is fine my Lady. He now has a mate and rules the East as well as your father. He misses you very much, and leaves his home once a month to search for you. You should go there soon. At least to ail his fears for his little sister." He looked solemn then. Akumi couldn't help but think that he was just trying to get her to leave this place. For the life of her she couldn't figure out why. Little did she know, was that under Sesshoamru's ruling, the West had expanded. She was now in Lord Sesshomaru's Western Lands.

Sesshomaru Time

Sesshomaru woke with a start. It was that blasted dream again. He has had it every day for the past week now. He hadn't had it in 50 years, and now all of a sudden it was happening again. He growled at the girls incolense. She disappeared with out a trace. He knew her parents had known where she was, but they would not relent. It had been folly for her to leave like that, but he could not help but think that it was his fault.

'Perposperouse! The foolish girl had left on her own accord. It's not my fault if the bitch died.' He said to himself. He was once again plauged by his inner beast.

'You do not know if she is dead. The witch just said that she was beyond your reach. Perhaps the dreams mean she is back.' The inner beast offered. He didn't get any thanks for his helpfull advice though.

'And why would This Sesshomaru care if the bitch was back or not. this Sesshomaru care's for no one.' He growled at his inner beats. Chastizing him for think about another, when he cared for no one. He was unaware of his heart acheing for this dream girl.

'What of Rin? Do you not care for her? And what of those 50 years you searched for her? Why did you act so?' His inner beast had hit a nerve, and he knew it.

'Rin is different, and I care for her in a SMALL way. But those 50 years were only because I was honor bound. She was an ally to the Western House. It was only proper for me to search for her.' He answered it with a icy tone, but he gave his beast a mental roll of his eyes.

'But you searched for her yourself. You could have had others search for her. And if I remember correctly, which our mind never fails to do, your reason was because you trusted no other to look for her. You should just admitt it my friend, you do care for her.' His beast was getting rather tired of the argument he was having. 'Besides, we have a right to have what is OURS!' He growled out that last statement, daring someone to say that the female belonged to another male.

This Sesshomaru cares for no one! And she is not ours!' His eyes were bleeding red.

'Who are you trying to convince? Me or yourslef?' The beast left, leaving Sesshomaru with an image of his demon side smirking at him.

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Sesshomaru left his chambers about ten minutes later. He wasn't hungry so he quickly went to the gardens. When he got there he saw Rin running around with Jaken trying to put flowers in his hair, if the green toad had any. If it wasn't so out of charecter for him, he would have smiled at her innocence. But that quickly brought him back to the girl of his dreams. Literally.

'She looked so hurt as if I had stabbed a dagger through her heart. Why would it hurt her so? Why do I care? Love is a weakness and is unneeded. She learned a lesson that day. She will have become stronger for it.'

He looked passed Rin's gantics and to the East. 'That's if she's alive.'

He sighed inaudibly and looked to the lake on his grounds. He watched as his imagination showed the purple haired demoness that showed him kindness, no matter how cold and heartless he was to her. The one he he had hurt. The one he had tried to protect, but had ended hurting himself.

"Akumi." he whispered, just loud enough to hear her name on his lips.

Well I think that was a good chapter! I finally brought Sesshomaru's thoughts in! I'm so happy! I would be a lot more happy, if I could figure out how to bring Kouga in! I mean a story isn't a story without Kouga!

Kouga: Damn straight!

Me: LOL! well its the truth. In fact the only one we could live without would be...Sesshomaru!

Sessh: What did you say? puppy dog tears and out

Me: awww...I didn't mean it Sesshy! specially after last night:)

Inu: well so you guys don't get all sappy, im going to do the recomendation...We reccomend the story A Cross of Blades by Striking Falcon. It's really good and Kagome and the others go to a magic/combat type of school. They do missions when an embassador declares war on the whole world! It's really good!

Me: YEP it is! Remember to review people! Inuyasha seems to read the a lot. I only have one, but he wont stop reading it! Jeez what a freak! LOL JK!

Anyways..one more thing! HOP TO TYPING HARLEY YOUR LEAVING ME IN SUSPENCE! :(