Hey guys. Here's the next chapter. This will be changed. A guest reviewer pointed out some things so I have decided to change this chapter and the next one so I'm editing and combining them. Hope yall enjoy.
At around 4:00 A.M. Olivia was awakened by someone shaking her shoulder.
After putting Amanda to bed the night before and seeing Alex, Kim and Fin out who had all promised to return the next day, the brunette had gone to bed herself after checking on Amanda. Sitting up and turning on a lamp, she was shocked to see the blonde in front of her shaking uncontrollably with a black eye and a split lip.
That shock quickly turned to concern/slight anger, but she did her best to remain calm for Amanda's sake.
"Amanda sweetheart, what on Earth happened?" "Come up here," she said, gently lifting her onto the bed beside her.
"Mama," she said as if that explained everything and Liv let out a sigh but remained calm.
"What about her," she said as gently as she could and Amanda just looked at her. "Mama," she said once more and the brunette handed her a pad and Pencil, knowing she was nonverbal at this point.
"I went to see mama," she read aloud and Olivia looked at her sharply, her fear and anger rapidly building.
"you did what?" She exclaimed and the blonde flinched back as if she was expecting the brunette to hit her. "Went to see mama and daddy," she said, not understanding why that wasn't a good idea. Of course Olivia knew this so she slowly took a deep breath before beginning to speak.
"Amanda, baby, that's not a good idea," she began andAmanda just stared at her.
"Why?" She asked quietly and Olivia took a different approach.
"Baby, you know how at work when you do something to put yourself in danger, like going undercover without me knowing and I have to reprimand you?" She asked. "Uh-huh," she said before going silent once more and Liv smiled, knowing she was getting somewhere.
"Well it's kinda like that." "Your parents aren't good to you like I am, and they sometimes hit you," she said, and her heart broke at the tears that appeared in her eyes.
"Like the bad man?" She whispered and the brunette froze. She knew Amanda didn't totally understand what she had just revealed but she pushed that aside for now. "Yeah, baby, like the bad man," Liv whispered.
"Didn't want mama to hit me," she said and the brunette just held her. "I know sweetheart, but that's why it's important that you don't go see them anymore," she said and Amanda nodded.
"Are you mad?" She asked in a small voice and Olivia shook her head.
"I'm not happy but I'm not mad," she answered.
"I know they weren't nice but I still love them," she said after a while and the brunette just pulled her closer. "You're aloud to love them, but I can't let you see them," she said, before taking a deep breath and continuing.
"They wanted you to come with them," she said and the blonde nodded. "Still see you," she said and the brunette shook her head sadly before revealing the truth and she hoped it didn't send her into a panic.
"No, baby, you wouldn't." "They wouldn't have let you," she revealed and Amanda broke down into hysterical sobs.
"Nooo," she shrieked and Olivia mentally prepared herself for the task of getting Amanda calm. "They promised," she wailed and Olivia gently pulled her into her lap, shushing her quietly.
"Don't let them take me away," she cried, gripping onto the brunette like a lifeline.
"Baby, shhh, no one is taking you anywhere." "Kim got them to leave, but that's why it's important that you don't go see them," she explains as she saw the blonde reaching for the chew pendant.
"Here, baby," she said and sighed when Amanda began chewing on the pendant and sighing in content as she began to calm as she cuddled into the brunette.
"Good girl, sweetie, just relax, I'm right here," she whispered and looked down a few minutes later to see Amanda had fallen asleep.
Scrubbing a hand over her face she let out a tired sigh. It was to early to deal with this.
Getting up and gently covering the blonde with the blankets she quietly left the room before calling Alex.
"Olivia?" Do you know what time it is?" She asked, as she sat up and turned on a lamp. "I'm sorry, but this is important," she said.
"It must be if you're calling at 5:00 A.M.," the attorney responded and Liv just let out a tired sigh.
"It is." "I woke up to Amanda returning from seeing her mother," she ranted and Alex sighed. "She did what?" Alex yelled before taking a deep breath. "She doesn't get it, Alex," Olivia said. "Even at work she will do something and i have to explain to her why that's not ok," she continued.
"I know Liv, but she needs you," the attorney said and Liv immediately deflated like a balloon before sinking onto the sofa.
"I know, and I'm not leaving her, but it's just hard sometimes," she said quietly.
"I just wanted you to know though incase they decide to come back," she said.
"It'll be ok, we will deal with whatever happens," she said and Liv thanked her before hanging up.
"Livy," came a terrified scream from the bedroom and the brunette was on her feet in a moment, quickly entering the room where Amanda was sitting up in bed, wide eyed as tears flowed from her eyes.
"Hey hey, what's wrong," she said worriedly as she immediately hugged her friend.
"He's out, he's out," she shrieked, pointing to the tv and the brunette stared in horror at the screen displaying the news report.
"Man who held an Svu detective captive for a year escaped while being transferred to prison after being sentenced to life with no chance of parole.
"Liv," Amanda cried desperately as she laid completely on top of the brunette, one hand grasping Olivia's pajama top and Olivia shifted them into a more comfortable position before hugging her detective back just as fiercely, wondering what the hell she was going to do now.
"Come on, baby," she whispered, standing with the blonde in her arms. "We are going to the station," she said.
"Ok," Amanda responded before dressing and following her captain out the door.
"Once at the station they began going over what they knew.
"He wants Amanda," Fin said after a beat of silence, glancing worriedly at his partner who had slipped back into her submissive role from her time with her abductor and was knelt beside Olivia's chair. .
"We want let that happen," Sonny responded before Kim and Alex entered the squad room.
Looking around, the two blonde's were stunned at what they saw.
Olivia was in her office trying to figure out how he could've escaped while Amanda was knelt at Olivia's feet, almost submissively, her head in the brunette's lap.
"Why is she kneeling like that?" Kim finally asked as tears ran down her face and Alex let out a sad sigh before responding.
"That bastard made her do this for a year, this is all she knows." "She's never acted like this before though," Kim argued and the attorney put up a hand. "No she hasn't, but he's out now, and with everything going on with your parents, this is familiar to her, even though deep down she knows this is wrong," she explained and Kim nodded.
"Will Olivia be dominant with her?" Kim asked worriedly after a bit of silence and Alex nodded before explaining.
"To a degree yes, but not in the way you're thinking," she said and the younger Rollins let out the breath she didn't realize she was holding.
"So he apparently got a hold of a guards gun and that's how he was able to escape," said Olivia as she exited her office, Amanda following behind her, not saying a word, worrying everyone in the room.
A phone ringing shattered the silence of the squad room and Fin answered it.
"Special victims unit," he answered and he had to do everything he could not to hang up the phone.
"It's him," he mouthed. "Keep him talking," the brunette whispered but he shook his head.
"He wants to talk to Amanda," he said and before anyone knew what was happening she took the phone putting it on speaker.
"Hello, Amanda," the chilling voice said and the blonde immediately went to her boss but instead of hugging her she knelt by her chair.
"Good girl," came the voice from the phone and they all stared in shock.
"Cameras?" Olivia finally spoke after a bit of silence and he chuckled.
"She's such a good submissive, Olivia," he said and all of them just wanted to throw up.
"I won't let you take her," Olivia snapped, and he just grinned. "I'll get her back, and none of you will ever find her," he said before hanging up.
They all sat in silence, absorbing what had just happened and Olivia was surprised when she felt Amanda climbing into her office chair with her, wanting to be held.
"Hey, baby, you know you never have to be submissive with me," she whispered and she just nodded before making herself comfortable in Olivia's lap.
She was very confused. There was Olivia, kind, gentle and loving and she never hurt her. Then there was the man who held her captive and beat, raped and treated her like he owned her every day for a year.
Deep down, she knew what was truly right, but his treatment of her had left its mark, especially made to be submissive. It might not be right, but it kept her from getting beaten so much. She learned staying quiet and doing exactly what he said was the best thing.
Olivia, immediately reading her thoughts pulled her closer, kissing her head before quietly whispering, "I know you're struggling right now, but it will be ok, I promise."
Suddenly Fin stood up from his desk, grabbing his jacket and keys. "I got him," he said and Olivia, Kat and Sonny just gave him a look.
"I got his address from the trace," he said and they all stood up but the brunette stopped Amanda who was following them.
"Baby, you can't go," she said gently. "Stay with Kim and Alex," she said and surprisingly Amanda went to her desk with no complaints before beginning to work on paperwork that she hadn't been able to finish yet.
Arriving at the house, Olivia looked at Kat, Fin and Sonny. "I'll take the front and Fin you're with me and Kat you and Sonny go around back," she said and they nodded before splitting up and entering the house.
"NY PD," they called out, beginning to clear the rooms.
"Freeze," Olivia yelled, coming face to face with Amanda's abductor.
"Hands on your head," Fin said, coming up to them with Kat and sonny following behind the seasoned detective.
"How is my girl?"
"I miss her," he practically purred, looking right at the brunette making Fin slam him into the wall before handcuffing him roughly.
"I want to see her," he continued and Olivia just glared. "There's no way in hell that's happening," the brunette growled as they lead him out of the house and loaded him into the back of the squad car.
"She loves being submissive, you should keep training her," he said, and it was all the brunette could do not to throw a punch.
"You weren't training her," she growled, and took a threatening step forward.
"You beat, raped and treated her like a piece of property," she continued and he cut her off before saying, "Yeah and she sure does obey, doesn't she?"
"Tell me, Olivia, does she still kneel?"
"Does she go without clothes?"
"She loved the chains and collar."
"They rattled when she would try to break free, and sometimes—," he started before stopping and looking at Olivia, his excitement obvious, "She would call for you," he said before smiling evilly and the brunette had to fight the urge to throw up.
"You're the worst kind of predator, and I'm going to make sure you pay," she finally said before walking away.
Arriving back at the station, Olivia entered the squad room to see Amanda still at her desk reading through papers at an inhuman speed and she smiled. "I still have no idea how she reads that fast," Alex said and Kim and Olivia just nodded.
"Did you get him?" Kim asked, but before Olivia could respond Amanda dropped to her knees in front of the brunette.
Sighing and squatting down in front of her, Olivia began gently running her fingers through her hair.
"Baby, come here, you don't have to kneel," she said quietly, waiting for Amanda to come out of her submissive headspace.
Eventually the logical part of Amanda kicked in and she immediately hugged the brunette, purring in content as her captain began playing with her hair once more. "You wanna cuddle?" She asked, standing with Amanda in her arms, who showed no signs of letting go. "Uh-huh, your chair," she said, motioning to Olivia's office chair and the brunette smiled gently, realizing she wanted that particular chair because it rocked.
"Ok baby," she said taking a seat and chuckling as Amanda placed her hand back in her hair.
Taking the hint, Olivia continued her gentle ministrations making Alex and Kim smile. "We got him," Olivia said after a bit and Amanda tensed immediately, beginning to tremble in her arms.
"It's ok, baby, he won't get near you," she began but Amanda just shook her head. "I want a go home, with you," she begged, letting Olivia know she wouldn't be going with Alex and Kim and she let out a sigh. She needed to be here, but Amanda was the most important thing right now. "Ok, sweetie, Fin, Kat and sonny can handle things," she said. "I'll stay to be sure he indeed gets to prison this time," Alex said and Olivia nodded her thanks. "Well, I'm going to attempt to drive home," she said, nodding to the blonde who still showed no signs of wanting to be put down.
Arriving home, Olivia placed Amanda gently on the sofa and walked into the kitchen to make some tea. Amanda was still very much confused. She was struggling with what was right and wrong.
Suddenly, out of no where, Amanda began crying as a flash of her abductor raping her flashed in her head and the brunette came running into the room. Amanda began full-on sobbing when she saw Olivia, desperately trying to ward off the flashback but the memory hit her full force. "Li... Li... Liv, please help me," she screamed, curling up into a ball and rocking back and forth.
"You're mine now." "Olivia will never want you when I'm done with you," came the voice of her abductor and when he finished, there was a 2nd man, then a 3rd, then a 4th...
She sobbed as more of his friends took turns violating her.
"Amanda, baby, look at me," she said as she carefully knelt down in front of her friend.
"Make it stop, please make it stop, they're taking turns and there's so many of them, Liv," she wailed and Olivia's heart broke, hating to see the pain her detective was going through.
"Baby, shh, it's Olivia," she began, reaching out to stroke her hair and surprisingly she didn't pull away.
"We are both ok," she whispered. "You're safe here with me, and I love you so much," she continued and Amanda's eyes flew open before coming to land on her.
"That's my good girl, just relax," she said and Amanda through herself at her as tears ran down her face.
"They took turns," she shrieked and the brunette carefully stood up before beginning to walk around the room, trying to calm her down.
"Shh, you're ok, you're not there anymore," she whispered as her own eyes pricked with tears as her detective's hand clutched her shirt and tried to pull herself even closer to her, making her take a seat in the rocking chair with her in her lap.
"It's ok," she said gently when she heard a whimper. "I'll hold you," she said and Amanda sighed in content at the skin to skin contact.
"That what you wanted?" She said tenderly and Amanda just nodded, cuddling closer.
"Uh-huh," she mumbled and Liv knew she was fighting sleep now.
"Tired?" She cooed gently as she slowly ran her hands over her detective's back and shoulders, knowing if she kept up this slow rhythm she would be asleep in seconds.
"Mmmmmmmmmm," She mumbled and the brunette smiled softly before getting them into a laying position.
"Baby, you know I'd never hurt you, right?" Olivia said and Amanda just nodded, relaxing completely as her boss gentle finger tips ran softly over her bare back and shoulders.
"Mmmmmmmmmmmmmm," Amanda mumbled beginning to shift before settling down and Liv kissed her softly before continuing the comforting motion with her hands.
"Mmmmmmmmmm, feels good, tired," she mumbled once more and Liv shushed her quietly.
"I know."
"Go to sleep, baby."
"Mmmm love you," she said before sleep pulled her under completely and Liv wasn't to far behind her.
A while later after the blonde's therapy appointment they returned home and Olivia was stunned as Amanda began moving her stuff into the spare room as tears ran down her face. "Baby, what's wrong?" She whispered but the blonde just continued gathering her stuff in response.
"I have to leave," she sobbed, and the brunette immediately felt her heart shatter into a million pieces. "Sweetheart, did something happen at therapy?" She asked, fear rapidly building not understanding what was going on.
"Yes," she said as she began shaking Uncontrollably.
"Mama," she said and Olivia's eyes widened in horror. "Baby, what did she say?" She asked and the blonde hugged her tightly as she continued to cry. "Either stay with Kim or I have to live with them," she shrieked but I don't want that.
"I want you," she began wailing and the brunette watched sadly as her detective's breathing picked up speed and she began hyperventilating. "Hey hey, sweetheart, she said as she placed her hand under Amanda's t-shirt, flat against her bare back and frowned as she felt the muscles ripple under her touch. "Baby, breathe," she continued gently as her detective continued panicing.
"I ca... ca... can't breathe," she gasped, her breaths coming in quick gasps and Olivia placed a hand on Amanda's chest this time and her worries increased even more at the rapid heartbeat she could feel under her palm.
She needed to call Kim, but getting Amanda calmed down was the most important thing right now. "Amanda, baby, I'm not leaving you." "Do you here me?" She asked gently shifting the shaking form in her arms so that she was sitting sideways in her lap.
"I r-ruined everything," she managed to get out from between trembling lips and Olivia began rocking her slowly and trying to fight off her own tears pooling in her deep brown eyes. "Hey hey, no you didn't," she said adamantly and sighed in relief as Amanda's breathing began slowly returning to normal.
"Please Liv, don't make me go," she begged and neither of them could hold back their tears at this point and they both broke down, clinging tightly to one another, wondering how to get out of this.