Hey guys. Hope yall enjoy this one. In this chapter Olivia answers Amanda's question and there's sort of a time jump. Be sure yall reread chapters 23 and 24 because there were some changes.
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Previously on the recovery of Amanda
"Can... Can... Can I live with you, Livy?"
The car was silent after the blonde's heartfelt question. They just looked at one another for a long time without saying a word, but then Olivia finally spoke.
"Baby, nothing would make me happier than to have you live with me." "I know it's hard for you to be on your own," she continued and the blonde leaned across the consul and hugged the brunette as happy tears ran down her face.
"T-thank you, Liv," she said with a watery smile.
"I'll try to start sleeping in my own room," she said with a sniffle and Olivia tilted her chin, making sure she was eye to eye with her detective before speaking softly. "Sweetheart, I know you need me, and that's ok."
"Eventually yes, I am sure you may want to try sleeping on your own but for now it is totally ok," she continued, kissing the blonde tresses softly.
Arriving home Amanda got ready for bed while the brunette worked on some paperwork. "Liv, I'm headed to bed," she said quietly.
"Ok, baby. "I'll be there in a bit."
A few hours later, Olivia was awoken by a blood curdling scream. Sitting up and turning on a lamp she saw Amanda tossing and turning next to her as tears ran in rivers down her face.
"Open your mouth," he growled and all she could do was sob. She had been very bad. Amanda had bitten one of his friends and he was furious.
"No please," she sobbed as he roughly forced himself inside her mouth and she gagged in response.
"Suck," he screamed, slapping her hard and she had no choice but to comply. "Amanda, sweetheart, wake up," Olivia said gently running her hand through the blonde's sweat-soaked hair and her heart constricted painfully in her chest as she saw her gagging in her sleep.
"You're such a good girl, Amanda," he groaned as he finished and it was more than she could take and she began vomiting. Olivia quickly turned the blonde onto her side before attempting to wake her up once more as the tears she'd been trying to hold back came pouring out as she saw Amanda's reaction to the dream.
"Come on, sweetheart, just wake up for me," she said.
"Wake up?" "Was she sleeping?" "Where was her master, God, know."
Jerking awake, gasping and spitting Amanda franticly looked around the room before her eyes finally landed on Olivia.
"Liv," she sobbed and the brunette moved closer before gently beginning to rub her back in wide, comforting circles. "You're ok, baby but we need to get you changed," she explained gently and looking down Amanda began to cry as she not only saw but felt the sticky liquid slide down the front of her shirt.
"He... he... he put it in my-in my-in my mouth," she shrieked and the brunette's eyes spilled over once more and she pulled Amanda against her side, careful to avoid her soiled shirt but unable to sit there and do nothing. "Baby, shhh, you're ok," she said softly and gently lead her into the bathroom.
"I'm gonna change the sheets while you clean up." "Is that ok?" She asked and the blonde nodded.
Pressing a kiss to her head she went back into the bedroom but left the bathroom door open just incase Amanda needed her.
As she stripped the sheets and tossed them into the washing machine with the blonde's soiled pajamas she couldn't help but remember the look on Amanda's face and her eyes once more welled with tears imagining how much worse it was on the blonde.
entering the bathroom she saw that Amanda hadn't moved and she was shivering. "Carefully she opened the shower door, switched off the water and wrapped Amanda in a fluffy towel before gently leading her back into the bedroom where she helped her change.
"Here, sweetheart, have some water," she said softly and Amanda attempted to take the glass but her hands were shaking so much Liv had to help her. "Easy," she cooed, gently helping the blonde drink from the glass. When she was done she handed the glass back to Olivia and the brunette placed it on the nightstand.
Suddenly a sob broke from Amanda and she began crying tears of dispare. "Shhh baby, you're ok," Olivia said as Amanda fell against her.
"He made me, he made me," she sobbed as her breathing rapidly increased and Olivia immediately slipped her hand under Amanda's t-shirt, and placed her hand against Amanda's back beginning to rub in wide, comforting circles, knowing she responded positively to skin on skin contact.
"He made me, Olivia." "I didn't want to, it really hurt," she cried, clinging desperately to the only person she could be herself with.
"Oh, my love, I know you didn't want to," she said, still rubbing Amanda's back. "Shh," she said and finally Amanda began to relax but she didn't remove her arms from where they were wrapped around Olivia's neck.
When Olivia removed her hands from Amanda's back and pulled down her top however; she began to panic. "No please," she said as her heart rate once again picked up speed.
"Ok baby, I won't let you go but we need to lay down and get more sleep." "You must be exhausted," she said.
She managed to get them into a laying position without causing to much upset on Amanda's part and they were now cuddled together under the blankets with Amanda's head resting in the crook of Olivia's neck.
She stayed awake long after Amanda fell asleep as her mind raced with thoughts of what was to come.
They had to clean out Amanda's apartment and figure out what things she was keeping, and she wasn't sure if she needed to inform her boss of her new living situation or not.
"They could worry about that tomorrow though," she thought as her eyes finally drifted shut as exhaustion took over.
1month later
"Liv?" Amanda called as she entered their apartment after returning from work on a warm June evening. It had been a month of ups and downs.
They had gotten Amanda moved in and she was still going to therapy.
Dr. Phillips was quite impressed with Amanda's progress. She was becoming more comfortable around Fin and Sonny and she had been seeing Kim regularly.
She still had the flashbacks and nightmares but she was learning how to manage them. "Liv?" She called once more, her heart beginning to race when she couldn't find her.
"Hey, sweetheart," she said, exiting the bedroom and Amanda sighed in relief. "I-I couldn't find you, and it-it was dark," she said with a shutter, hugging her boss tightly.
"Oh, my sweet girl," she said, hugging her back and rocking her slightly.
"You're ok. "I promise," she said gently and Amanda's heart rate finally began to slow.
"Where were you, Livy?" She asked in a small voice and Olivia's heart nearly broke. "I was in the shower, baby," she said softly and Amanda finally relaxed completely.
"So, Dr. Phillips thinks I may be able to return to work full-time as long as I stay on desk duty, at least for a little while," she said a while later as they sat eating dinner.
"A-A-Are you ok with that?"She stuttered, looking at her boss with wide eyes. "Of course, sweetie," she said gently, reaching across the table and taking her detective's hand.
The next day Amanda enter-the the station with Olivia following closely behind her.
Walking to her desk, she was surprised to see she had a card and some flowers.
Smiling slightly and thinking they must be from the squad she was gripped with terror when she realized just who they were from.
"To my sweetest Amanda, until you are mine again," it read and she immediately began shaking uncontrollably before letting out a scream for the only person she wanted.
"Livy!" Olivia's head popped up at the scream and she was out of her office and over to Amanda before Fin could make a move.
"Hey hey, baby, what is it?" "What's wrong," she asked before noticing the card and her blood immediately began to boil but she knew she needed to remain calm.
"Fin, get over to the prison and find out how he was able to have these delivered." "Kat, go talk to the front desk and see if you can find the person who actually delivered these to this unit," she said before beginning to guide Amanda into her office.
"On it," they called back.
Entering the office and closing the door as well as shutting the blinds, Olivia lead her detective over to the sofa before taking a seat with her. "Livy!" "Livy," she shrieked as she desperately tried to move closer and the brunette placed one hand under her knees and the other around her back before lifting her into her lap and cradling her like a baby.
"Shhh, sweetheart, I'm right here." "I've got you," she said but was stopped by another shriek of her nikname and she sighed before beginning to slowly rock. "Livy!" She cried hysterically, small fingers gripping the brunette's work shirt and she began speaking quietly into her ear. "Honey, I'm right here," she whispered, kissing her head comfortingly.
"Livy!" She shrieked once again and Olivia's own eyes filled with tears.
"Come on, baby, lets try to calm down," she said as she gently leaned back against the arm of the couch with Amanda resting against her chest and her head in the crook of the brunette's arm.
She began to hum softly and it immediately had a calming effect on the woman in her arms. Her hysterical cries stopped and she relaxed completely into the brunette, fingers still gripping her shirt.
A few minutes later, Olivia heard soft babbling and she looked down to see her detective looking at her with the most trusting expression she'd ever seen and she smiled sadly. This had causedAmanda to regress to a baby.
"Hey there, sweet girl," she cooed and grinned when a small hand clumsily touched her face, another wide smile crossing the blonde's soft features as she gazed adoringly at her.
Knowing if she didn't want to take work home with her she needed to continue working she gently placed the blonde on the floor. "Baby,I have to get back to work, but you can play while I finish up,"she whispered and chuckled fondly as she got a pacifier and her blanket and climbed into the brunette's office chair.
"I guess you want to cuddle, don't you?" She asked and smiled at the unintelligible babbling she received in response.
Scooping her up, the brunette took a seat in her chair and began working, keeping one arm around Amanda who was contentedly sucking on the pacifier as she blinked her eyes repeatedly and Liv slowly began rocking the chair back and forth.
After only a few minutes she felt the blonde completely relax in her arms and she knew she was asleep.
A while later Fin entered the office and smiled at the sight. "Liv," he whispered and the brunette looked up from her paperwork. "I wasn't able to figure out how he got the flowers and card but Kat found the guy who delivered them." "He's not talking though," he continued and Liv let out a frustrated sigh.
"He won't give up," she said and he nodded. "So what do we do?" He asked and she just let out another sigh.
"We just wait, but I'm keeping an extra close eye on her," she said and he nodded in agreement.
"Is she regressed?" He asked, motioning to the pacifier in the blonde's mouth and she nodded, pressing a kiss to the blonde head tucked against her.
"Go home, Liv," he said and she just gave him a look. "It's ok, we can handle it," he assured and she finally conceded.
After arriving home Olivia got Amanda settled on the couch before getting changed and returning to the living room herself and when she saw her she let out a happy shriek.
"Hey there, my love," she cooed gently and she smiled softly at the babbling she once again received.
"Are you hungry?" She asked after a bit and smiled fondly at the high-pitched shriek she got in response.
"Ok, baby, let's go get dinner," she cooed, lifting the blonde into her arms where she began chewing on her fingers.
After they had eaten Olivia carried Amanda into the bathroom. The blonde had spaghetti sauce everywhere and she was in desperate need of a bath, however; the brunette assumed she would more than likely need a new change of clothes herself.
Her detective loved bath time and that often resulted in not only the brunette being soaked, but the bathroom floor as well.
"Ok, baby, here we go," she cooed, placing the blonde in the tub, making her squeal in delight and splash the water, making it spill over the side of the tub, soaking the brunette's jeans in the process.
Her excitement only increased when Olivia added bubbles and she reached out with a clumsy hand and touched the side of the brunette's face, coding it with suds and water. .
"Hey, honey," she cooed in response to the blonde's action, beginning to wash her long hair., scratching lightly at her scalp and making the blonde lean towards her in response, wanting to be held.
"Hold on, baby," she whispered as she gently hugged her and sighing as Amanda fully hugged her, soaking her shirt.
She suddenly began giggling and shrieking uncontrollably as the brunette picked up a handful of bubbles and placed them on the blonde's chin.
Amanda's response was to clumsily splash around in the water, before once again bursting into hysterical shrieks of laughter as she saw the water go over the side of the bathtub, once again soaking the tiles as well as Olivia's clothes and she let out a sigh.
"Ok, sweet girl, time to rinse your hair and wash you off and then we have to get out," she said after a few more minutes and the blonde immediately began pouting. . "Hey now," she cooed. "We have a mess to clean up, see?" Amanda glanced at the tiles before bursting into giggles once more, making Olivia smile in response.
"Oh, you think that's funny?" She asked. "I'll tell you what's funny," she said before beginning to tickle the blonde, making her shriek with laughter and begin squirming to get away, making more water go over the side of the tub, which only increased her giggles.
A little while later, Olivia was surprised when she heard the blonde speak. "Li-Liv," she whispered.
"Hey, baby," she said, pulling Amanda close to her. "Are you ok?" She asked and the blue eyes immediately filled with tears.
"No."
"Don't let him take me away." "I want to stay with you, Livy."
"Hey, shh, calm down," she cooed gently, beginning to rock her in her arms but it didn't seem to be working.
"You're gonna make me walk around, aren't you?" She asked gently after a few minutes and the blonde nodded.
Finally after a few minutes Amanda began to calm down. "He knows where we work," she suddenly shrieked and Olivia immediately resumed her comforting rocking motion.
"Sweetheart, I promise you're safe."
Finally after a bit Amanda began drifting off to sleep, safe in the arms of her protecter.