Hey guys. I haven't given up on the story but I just haven't gotten a lot of reviews so I wasn't really sure if anyone still read this anymore but to my guest reviewer, your review made my day. I hope you enjoy this chapter. Thank you so much for reviewing and I'm glad that you're enjoying the story. If you have anything you want to see please let me know. I did my best with the toddler talk. I've never done this before in a story. I've always just had her regress to a baby but I wanted to try something different. Any feedback on this is very much appreciated.
"Hey, sweetheart. I need to go to work. Do you want to come with?" Olivia asked a week later as she entered the living room. It had been decided that Amanda would take a few more days off, and Olivia was returning to work today, having stayed with the blonde for the last week.
"Do you want to come with?" "Yes. Stay in your office." She responded, nervusly ringing her hands together. "Ok, honey. You can do whatever you need, you know that. "Whatever you need." She repeated, glancing at her boss who nodded softly.
"You know you're safe. I promise you. He will never come near you again." Olivia spoke as they drove to the station, noticing Amanda's nervus energy. "Never come near you again. Watch something?" She asked once she had gotten her thoughts in order and Olivia nodded, knowing automaticly what she would pick.
"Sure, sweetie. You don't return to work officially until tomorrow anyways so you can just relax today if you want." "Help?" "If you feel up to it, yes. I have no problem with you doing paperwork." The brunette responded gently and they rode the rest of the way in comfortable silence.
"What is she watching?" Fin questioned when he noticed Amanda listening to something on Olivia's Ipad. "Supernatural. She's on season 4, again. I have no idea how she can watch something over and over." She said before continuing before he could speek. "And yes, I've actually gotten into it myself." She quipped, laughing at his mock look of shock on his face. "Gotten into it myself." Amanda repeated suddenly, having removed the headphones and the brunette nodded with a slight smile, pressing a kiss to her head as she made her way to her desk.
"Can I help you?" Amanda asked a few hours later when a young woman entered the station. "Is this the special victims unit?"
"Yes." "I need to report a rape."
"Ok. Have a seat." The blonde responded, gesturing to the vacant chair near her desk.
"What have we got, guys?" Olivia asked as she entered the squadroom an hour later having gotten the call from Fin. "Bella parmer, 9. She has been abused by her stepfather." Amanda said quietly, a tremmer running through her small frame and Olivia frowned in concern but filed that away for later. Right now they had a case to solve.
"Apparently her mom started noticing things so she spoke with her and Bella confirmed it." Fin added, glancing at his partner who had suddenly crawled under her desk and when he glanced down, he saw her shaking violently, eyes completely glazed over. "Liv." He whispered nodding to Amanda and Olivia dropped to her knees, immediately knowing what was happening.
"Amanda, baby can you hear me? It's Olivia." She whispered. "Daddy, please don't. It hurtsdown there." Amanda whined desperately and her captain froze, fearand dread settling deep within her.
"Baby it's ok. I'm right here. Just come back to me." The brunette urged gently but firmly, unable to stand seeing her detective in pain and mentally preparing to possiblly have a little one on her hands.
"Livy I sowwy. Pwees no hit. I be good girl." Amanda said, having opened her eyes but not quite pulling herself out of the flashback just yet.
"You're a very good girl, sweetheart." "How old are you, honey?"
"I dis many." She responded holding up two fingers and Olivia sighed, not in any way upset with the blonde little one but knowing Amanda's secret was about to be revealed to the rest of the group.
"She's two? She's two?" Kat blerted, staring in shock, Amanda's words running on repeat in her brain and Olivia rubbed her forehead. A headache was coming on but she knew Amanda needed her.
"Yes. Apparently all the abuse she's gone through has..." She started but then stopped, cuddling Amanda close, watching as she calmly sucked on a bottle before continuing to explain. "It's messed with her and this is how she's dealing with it.
I'm sorry the rest of you are just finding out but she didn't want anyone to know." Olivia explained.
"You knew?" Sonny asked, glancing at Fin who nodded, attempting to take the almost empty bottle from his partner's mouth but Olivia shook her head, hearing a whine from Amanda, the blonde sucking more firmly on the nipple of the bottle.
"It's ok baby girl. No one is taking it from you." Olivia cooed, letting her finish what was left, knowing it was keeping her calm.
"So, this is what has been going on?" Kat questioned softly, watching as Amanda snuggled more firmly into Olivia's arms, the bottle never leaving her mouth.
"Baby, do you want your paci?" She inquired softly and her little one nodded, letting her replace the bottle, relaxing as soon as it was inserted. "Yes, for the most part. Sometimes her autism takes over and some days it's both." She responded quietly, beginning to rock slowly.
"You like your paci, sweet girl?" She cooed, her only response being Amanda sucking more firmly, a few tears leaking from her eyes and Olivia gently wiped them away. "It's ok, sweetie. I'm right here and no one will judge you." She said, glancing at Kat and sonny who shook their heads immediately.
"How long will this last?" Kat questioned, glancing at the two. "I don't know. It depends on the situation. Every time is different." Olivia answered.
"Ok, my love we're home. Let's just relax for a while." The brunette whispered softly as she entered the apartment. Amanda had not returned to her adult self but luckily Alex had been in the area. She had stayed with her until the case was complete, which Olivia was immensely thankful for.
"Amanda, honey can you talk to me?" She questioned, needing to know how regressed the younger woman was. "I sowwy, wivy. I be good girl." She whispered, beginning to shake and tremble and the brunette had to do everything in her power not to lose it.
"Oh, baby. You are. You're always good." She said, rocking her gently.
"I go night night?" Amanda asked, yawning and cuddling deeper into Olivia's arms. "Yes, sweetheart. You can go night night."
"I seep with you?" "Of course, baby." She cooed, knowing the blonde wouldn't let her out of her sight, especially with the flashback to her assault as a child. Anything having to do with her father was always very traumatic, and in turn, the blonde would become very clingy and fearful anytime Olivia would try to be away from her.
"Daddy, no! I be good girl. Pwease no more." Amanda screamed later that night, startling Olivia awake in the process and she immediately jumped into action. "Hey, angel. Wake up. It's ok.
I'm right here, baby. It's Liv." She said softly, shaking the blonde lightly.
"No, wivy. Pwease help. I be good. I be good, pwomise." She wailed, jolting awake and curling into a ball and shaking violently when she realized she'd wet the bed.
She'd been a very bad girl. "No beat me. I be good. I be good." She whispered. "Why would I beat you, baby. You didn't-" Olivia started but then stopped, noticing the damp patch on the sheets. "Oh, sweetie it's ok. We are gonna get you all cleaned up. I'm gonna change the sheets and it'll be all over." She cooed, carefully lifting Amanda into her arms and starting into the bathroom.
"Story, wivy?" She whispered and Olivia smiled. "Sure, honey, I'll tell you a story." She responded, knowing exactly what she wanted to hear and beginning the familar tale as she drew the blonde a bath.
"So, just as I'm entering the building, Cragen appears." "Uh-oh." The blonde giggled, her adult memories allowing her to recall the last time her boss told her this story and the brunette smiled dispite the situation. "That's right, sweetheart. Cragen was not at all pleased." She explained as she finished changing the sheets."Uh-oh." Amanda giggled once more, snuggling against Olivia under the covers. "Twouble?" "Yes, baby. I was in big trouble." The brunette confirmed with a chuckle, remembering Cragen's words.
"Nothew one, wivy?" "Not tonight, baby." She whispered, pressing a kiss to her head.
"We have to go back to sleep now. My big girl has a long day tomorrow." She explained, smiling when Amanda laid her head on her chest.
"K. I wove you." "I love you too, baby. I love you too." Olivia responded.