That Saturday morning my big make over began. The girls put the dye in my hair, plucked my eye brows, painted my nails and put a little fake tan on my legs. I'd gotten a faint tan over the summer, but my legs were still blindingly white.

I wasn't aloud to look in a mirror until we were about to leave for the party they told me. I became more nervous as time went on. Liz straitened my hair with a straitening iron. It took such a long time to iron out all my curls.

Next, it was time to put on my make up. Maria does it for me. I'm not sure what she's doing, but she tells me to shut my eyes a lot. Finally, I put on my outfit and it's time for the big moment. To see what I look like!

I stagger a little on my heels and hold my arms out for balance. When I walk into the living room where the other girls are waiting for me, already dressed to go. They look shocked at the sight of me. I'm just dying to see. "Can I look in a mirror yet?" I inquire nervously. "Of course!" Liz takes me up to her parent's bedroom to look into the full length mirror. I can hardly recognise the reflection staring back at me! My red, frizzy hair is sleek, strait, shiny and brown. It's so much longer straitened.

I look very different with make up on and my clothes make me feel so much older and confidant. I look just like one of the other girls and I love it. I'd spent so much time looking and feeling different. I was just happy to feel like I belonged.

George Weiss's place isn't far from Liz's so we decide to walk. I'm a little slower than the others in my heels and they're hurting my feet just a little bit but I'm too excited to let on to the others. From down the street I can hear the loud music and the sound of teens inside. It doesn't sound like 'just a small gathering'. We don't bother to knock on the front door, we just walk strait in.

A very drunk Lauren Aronsen approaches us in the doorway. "OH my GOD! Hi Girls!" She shrieks. Lauren isn't particularly close to any of us, she's one of Sanjita's friends, I wonder if her and Jessi are here. It's also a worry she seems so obviously drunk. There's alcohol at this party? Are George's parents even here? " Who's your friend?" She asks, dumbfounded pointing at me. "That's Mallory Pike you moron!" Mara shouts at her and shoves her out of the way and we walk into the kitchen. I overhear Lauren argue out loud that I look nothing like Mallory Pike. I smile to myself, knowing that she's right.

The girls go and help themselves to drinks. I'm handed a plastic cup of punch by Liz. "What's in it?" I ask, sniffing it. It's definitely alcoholic. Liz & Maria have them too, Mara and Jamie have beer. "God knows!" Laughs Liz, taking a large mouthful. I guess one can't hurt? I take a sip, it's very sweet and doesn't taste bad at all. I'd never thought of myself drinking at all at this age, but what could go wrong?

The night goes on and the party gets louder and the guests get drunker. Jamie ends up going up stairs with John Rosen, she doesn't come back to the party. I turn around and suddenly catch a glimpse of Jessi and Sanjita. Jessi is awkwardly doing her ballet moves and trying not to fall over, I think she's been drinking too. Sanjita is literally on the floor with laughter. I don't know whether or not I should go over and talk to Jessi.

So instead I go and help myself to another drink. Suddenly, another drink turns into a bout 5 more and I'm feeling light headed and I'm finding it hard to focus my vision. It's even harder to walk on my heels and I don't know where any of my friends are.

I begin to panic and walk around quickly in search of them. I'm stopped suddenly and nearly fall to the floor. I look up, I've walked strait into Craig. How embarrassing! Luckily he doesn't seem angry at me. "Oh, I'm sorry." I tell him without being able to look at him. I feel my cheeks blushing again. " It's fine Mallory, you really look fantastic tonight, I hardly recognised you." He tells me with a smile. The next thing I know he's no where to be seen either.

I see Jessi again, now I'm really angry at her. How could she have done this to me? I'm going to tell her how I feel about her! I walk strait up to her and stop right in her face. "Hello Jessica." I greet her coldly staring into her shocked expression. "Mal?" She stammers, a little unsure, squinting her eyes as if to make sure it's really me. "I just wanted to tell you I couldn't give a stuff any more, so you can stop trying to avoid me. I don't need you Jessica Ramsey, I don't care if I ever see you again!" I don't realise the volume of my voice. A few people around us have stopped talking and turned to look at us, stunned. Jessi looks a little relieved but also a little upset. I grin at her and walk away. Except my feet give out under me and I fall to the ground.

Embarrassing. I can hear a loud, obnoxious laugh nearby, that could only belong to Sanjita. She's such an insensitive moron, Jessi deserves her. I see an outstretched hand in front of my face. I look up, it belongs to Mark O' Connell. I'd never spoken to him before. He's a friend of John Rosen and Craig Avazian. He pulls my upright and I'm too embarrassed to thank him. I run off back into the kitchen and help myself to a glass of water. I'm getting tired and I just want to go home.

Finally, I find Liz. She tells me she's ready to go and she couldn't care less if we leave Jamie here. We find Mara and Maria shortly after. The walk back home is longer than the way there. No one says much of anything at all.