A/N: Thanks again for your reviews. As I told you in the other chapter this is a personal paranoia and probably a few things doesn't make sense… though after reading some things I think couples like Mac&Lindsay will make sense… it will be weird. But this is my world and here I make the rules. Hope you continue enjoying this journey with me 'cause I really do it. Thanks again!

Chapter 4: One

Did I ask too much
More than a lot
You gave me nothing
Now it's all I got
We're one
But we're not the same
Well we
Hurt each other
Then we do it again

One love
One blood
One life
You got to do what you should
One life
With each other
One life
But we're not the same
We get to
Carry each other
Carry each other

( One – U2 )

Locked in her bathroom she took the test again. Two lines. Two damned bloody lines. More than positive that should mean negative. 'Cause it was a bad thing. It represented an awkward situation. A change not expected and, unfortunately, not desired. There was only one thing left to do: to confirm the bad news. So, she called her doctor and set an appointment for a week later.

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Back at the office, things weren't better and they could get worse. It was only a matter of time. Mac was obviously searching something with Lindsay who was happy with the thought of sharing a bed with her boss. The two of them though, inside knew the only thing that would keep them together would be the need to bury their inner feelings for other people apart from their minds.

"So… we're still up tonight?" Mac asked

"Definitely. I'm looking forward to it" Lindsay answered him smiling

"Ok. Pick you up at seven."

After leaving his subordinate alone again, Mac replayed that smile in his mind. It was warm and beautiful but nothing compared to Stella big smiles. Smiles that, not long ago, were only for him but that now were nowhere to be seen. Why? Was his fault? Did he really hurt Stella bad that night two months ago?. She had kept her word and continued their friendship as if nothing had really happened. Was it only a façade?

He was unaware of it but Stella had been observing his interaction with Lindsay. It couldn't hurt more. Her desires to share a life with him were slowly disappearing and he couldn't do anything but to cry. She was a good actress but, sooner or later, someone would find out she wasn't in her best mood. And more complicated would be explaining a pregnancy.

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"I've really had a great time Mac. Who would have thought skating could be so funny?" Lindsay said laughing.

"I know. But don't say a word about my skating skills at work. I have a reputation to maintain." He answered laughing too.

He took her hand. Lindsay was looking really beautiful that night. City lights made her look even better. He had taken her to dinner and then in their way to the cinema, he had suggested her that maybe skating would be fun. And it had been.

"Mac.. "

His face turned serious. Their noses were nearly touching and he could feel her breath on his neck. She was nervous though she had imagined her first kiss in New York a lot of times before. Nearly everything was perfect.

"I've enjoyed a lot your company tonight" he said.

"Me too."

And then, he leant on her and kissed her awaiting lips. It was a tentative kiss at first but a few seconds later turned into a desperate, filled with passion, kiss. One to awake the inner envy of all the people that were in Lindsay's street.

"Wanna come up?"

He nodded.

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Stella was dressed in a hospital gown. She was waiting for her doctor to show up who was more than a quarter late. Her stomach was filled with nerves.

Finally, Dr. Monica Jerningham made her appearance.

"Hi Stella. I'm sorry for being late. Had some problems with another patient. Let's see if you're going to be a mother"

Dr. Jerningham made Stella lie down, prepared herself, put some jelly on Stella's tummy and prepared to do an ultrasound.

"Are you ready?" Dr. Jerningham said to her smiling

Stella only nodded. There was her future.

"Ok…. Let's see…. Look who's here!.. You're definitly pregnant Stella, look… this is your baby" and she pointed to what it seemed like a peanut in the screen.

"Is he fine?"

"It looks perfectly normal, Stella. Congratulations!"

Tears formed in her eyes. How something so small could be so beautiful? The moment Stella saw her unborn child on the screen all her worries disappeared. This was something worth to fight for. Even if she was alone.