In order to make your own life, first you have to know the points you were manipulated at, who did this, how they did it and why. After that you'll have to figure out what your other options at that point, and how it affected your life.

After you know all about that, you'll begin to realize how to make your life yours.

The first step to do that is to manage to review your life from a third person's point of view.

Harry smiled as he looked up from Slytherin's book, he could remember waking up this afternoon wondering how he ended up in bed, but pushing it aside as he was feeling more rested then he could ever remember.

Feeling famished, he went down to the kitchen to grab some food. On the table he found a large meal worthy of Dudley, when he was seven, along with a note that read: leave something and you're grounded for a week.

He of course was more than happy to comply. Finishing his meal, he washed the dishes and went back to his room. He found Hedwig had arrived; she perched on Harry's shoulder and nipped his ear lovingly, he talked to her for a while then figured that now was as good time as any to send his letter to the Order.

Hey birds

All is quiet around here; they are awfully tolerant to me.

Listen I think I need correspondence with my friends this summer so don't even think about reducing my mail, I don't want to know anything about you so don't fret.

I could really do without direct human contact for the time being.

Write more in three days

H. J. Potter.

Giving the letter to Hedwig along with an owl treat, he returned to his reading.

Not many people can be objective when reviewing their own life, that's why a mentor is needed to help the student see the missing points of view.

It's not recommended to continue reading till you have you have reviewed a good portion of your life's events. Till then you may want to practice other arts to help get a better grip on your mind and emotions.

Harry tried to recall parts of his life, but every time a sour memory came up he'd lose control and feel like either crying or destroying something. Feeling he'd have to wait till his emotions were a little more under control and his memory a little more detailed. He decided to grab some dinner and call it an early night then see what the other books had to offer tomorrow.

In the kitchen he found the same amount of food with the same note beside it.

He had a very strange nightmare this night, the usual about that night in the ministry except that Bellatrix had a blank look on her face and a single tear on her cheek.

He couldn't ponder on it long though, because Remus started to yell at him for killing Sirius.

The next morning he woke up in a very sad mood compared to the day before. The nightmare had haunted him; did Remus really blame him for the death of Sirius? He dearly hoped not, he needed the werewolf in his life.

He went downstairs to nick a bite and shower, and then he went back up to his room to read.

The sacred art of meditation helps those who practice it to gain the ultimate control over their emotions. Their final goal is to become one with their inner selves. In the end the scholar will be accepting to all that comes in their way calmly and without prejudice.

Harry looked at the book with hope in his eyes, it promised him of something he truly missed since he joined Hogwarts, thinking before acting. One would wonder if he would have survived all the years with the Dursleys if he had the same attitude he took since he attended Hogwarts.

Thinking of that made him think of Hagrid, his first magical contact. Hermione once told him that the first contact with muggle born or raised students had to be done by a fully qualified wizard or witch, hers being professor McGonagall. But Hagrid wasn't, he let it go for now and decided to question it later.

The first step of meditation is to learn how to clear your mind. To do that you'll have to follow those steps.

One: find a comfortable position to sit and relax.

Harry chose to sit cross legged with his back to the wall.

Two: close your eyes and hold your hands in your lap with fingers interlaced.
Three: concentrate only on your breathing, count it and try not to think of anything else.

The clear state of mind is reached when you only hear your breathing.

Each time you do this something will distract you till you mastered that exercise. First it'll be the sound of your heartbeats. It'll take you longer and longer to be distracted till you can hold your mind clear for as long as you like.

It's advisable to eat a hearty meal before this exercise since you don't know how long you'll take trying it, and so that hunger won't distract you.

Harry's mind was reeling in thought, if these instructions were true, then Snape instead of teaching him the basics of clearing his mind; he did all his power to distract him. Why? And why even when Voldemort broke into his mind he didn't feel as violated as he did with Snape? He clearly hoped that Rowena's book will give him some answers.

He continued practicing meditation till he felt the need to sleep and went over to his bed. His dreams that night consisted of a mix between those five women who made him feel warm, and the look on Bellatrix's face right after she killed Sirius.

(A.N: what do you think? Did I deliver? I want to know your opinions in this; I was going to write chapter 6 from the points of view of most of the main characters in the fic, however chapter 7 will have some letters that could help deduce most of chapter 6.

I'll wait another two days to write chapter 5 so tell me what you think.)

Dragon master: I'm sorry I would have loved to add some of the characters you spoke about, the problem is. While my plot could easily allow me to add them without looking far fetching, there were not enough of them in Harry's five books to build anything on.

That said I had to make do with the little I had on the Slytherin account. Also can you send me when you start your harem fic? My mail is on my page.

Hayley: don't worry. Tonks will have him first.