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Now on with the story…

Chapter 6: Can I be Your Memory?

Cole took one last look at the woman standing in front of him. A woman who would have his heart completely for the rest of both their lives. The last look of love. The aura around her became brighter and her bodily figure becoming transparent and he knew that he needed to say this now or he would never have another chance, "Goodbye Phoebe. It will never get better or sweeter than you. You are my forever. In a lifetime of war, you gave me peace. And even though you may not see me, I'll be there. Every second of every day, I'll be there. I love you."

"I love you too," she whispered, but with more passion and love than she had ever spoken to him with before, because she knew this would be the last time.

With one blinding white flash, she was gone, leaving behind the happiness she and Cole had just shared, the memories of how great her life could be.

Did I disappoint you or let you down?

Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?

'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,

Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.

So I took what's mine by eternal right.

Took your soul out into the night.

It may be over but it won't stop there,

I am here for you if you'd only care.

You touched my heart you touched my soul.

You changed my life and all my goals.

And love is blind and that I knew when,

My heart was blinded by you.

I've kissed your lips and held your hand.

Shared your dreams and shared your bed.

I know you well, I know your smell.

I've been addicted to you.

The rain had begun to pour outside. A man stood next to the window watching as the lightning lit up San Francisco. Cole turned his back to the window and looked solemnly at Phoebe, she hadn't woken up yet. Maybe it was taking longer for her memories to be taken away from her, he thought. Maybe she was putting up a fight.

After all, so much had been rehatched that it would take a lot to suppress it back into her subconscious.

He began to think that maybe things would have gone differently if he hadn't let himself feel all those years ago. If they hadn't gotten in so deep maybe she wouldn't have been so screwed up. He shouldn't have taken advantage of her back when they had first met, but that had been his demonic half, only out for power. But she brought out the human in him, she brought out the love he didn't think he could feel. Deep in his soul, he knew they could never work, but he loved her too much to give up… maybe that was where he went wrong.

As he watched her it was killing him to see her struggling, and him not being able to do anything to help her. But then again, this was how it had been for almost the past two and a half years. He was beginning to cope with the fact that he couldn't help her. But tonight, their meeting, sparked up so many feelings within Cole… feelings that he had been so desperately trying to suppress during the years. Maybe he needed Phoebe just as much as she needed him that night. Hell, it wasn't maybe, he knew he needed her. A lonely tear rolled down his cheek. He didn't bother to wipe it away, no one would see him anyway. 'Maybe if I had said something else-" he thought. But it didn't matter now, she was gone, maybe not willingly, but she was gone.

Phoebe began to stir on the sofa closest to him. Piper, Paige and the rest of the crew would be down shortly, and Cole didn't want to stick around knowing and witnessing the fact that Phoebe remembered nothing. He couldn't bare to do that. So he wiped away the flood of tears that had fallen from his eyes and tried to think of where he could go… he knew the perfect place.

Goodbye my lover.

Goodbye my friend.

You have been the one.

You have been the one for me.

Phoebe awoke with a start, looking at her surroundings. She was lying on one of the sofa's in the living room.

"Paige!"

"Oh My God! Phoebe?" This voice was not Paige's Phoebe noticed, it was her older sister Piper.

"Piper? Is that you? Did you just get back? What happened?" Phoebe asked as her sisters ran down the staircase.

"No, we've been back about an hour. Everyone's fine! We're all okay, we were just worried about you," Piper added.

"About me? Why? But how could you guys be back an hour? I never heard you upstairs."

"Well you wouldn't would you?" Paige cut in, "Phoebe, you were blacked out"

"Blacked out? What do you mean?"

"When that thorn demon attacked us, you got infected. I came downstairs earlier this evening and found you unconscious at the foot of the stairs. I managed to get you to the couch and that's when I called for Kyle."

"Kyle?" Phoebe eyed her sister approvingly, "Way to go sis."

"So not the point right now Phoebe!" Paige warned her, though a slight grin played on her lips, "So you don't remember anything?" quickly changing the subject back to her sister, "We checked out the thorn demons and found that they prey on the souls of the broken hearted or those who have built a wall around their heart, unwilling anyone to enter. You had seven hours on another plane to sort it out… mend your heart. It said that most people don't make it out though, from the other plane. But you did, which is great! But you still remember nothing?"

"Nothing," Phoebe repeated as she looked to the ground and put her hands through her hair, trying to force some recollection of what might have happened, "But truthfully, I feel like this huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I guess I did put the pieces back together… I'd like to know how though."

Paige and Piper looked to her sympathetically but Phoebe put on a brave smile. At that moment Leo came down the stairs.

"Hey! Phoebe! You're up!"

"I'm up!" Phoebe exclaimed with fake enthusiasm, "It's great to see you back Leo, it wouldn't have been the same without you."

"It's great to see you awake, and likewise. I'm just glad to be back." Leo sat behind Piper on the arm of the couch, placed his hands on her shoulders and kissed the top of her head.

Paige urged Phoebe to keep going, "You were saying."

"It doesn't matter now anyway. I'm here, I'm safe, and I can move on with my life. Heck, maybe you guys will get your niece after all."

"Phoebe," Piper warned, "you don't want to go jumping into pregnancies now. You don't even know who the father of this little girl will be!"

"I know Piper, I was only kidding. I just meant, I feel like I can actually put myself out there this time… let people in, without the burden." Phoebe yawned exhaustedly, "Actually, what I want to do right now is take a nap… I don't know what I was doing in that other plane but I feel like I ran a marathon! I'll catch up with you guys later. And you-" she pointed to Paige as she began to walk up the staircase, "I expect to hear all about what happened with Agent McHottie!"

Piper nudged Paige in the ribcage, playfully laughing, while Paige could only grin, looking happier than she had in months.

Cole paced back and fourth the mausoleum wondering whether or not Phoebe had gotten back yet. 'Maybe she's stuck on a different plane, she could be alone and scared,' he thought.

"Maybe I'll just stop by to see if everything went okay," he spoke to himself, "I mean, I don't have to stay for long… just to see if she's alright-"

He kept talking to himself as he shimmered to the manor.

I am a dreamer and when I wake,

You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.

Phoebe awoke from a not-so-dreamless sleep and looked around her room. It looked so empty. There were no pictures of a family that Phoebe had dreamed about, it was just her. She couldn't help but remember a time when this very room wasn't so lonely. In fact it had been very chaotic and exciting, and it held the promise of a happy future, her happy future.

She shook the thoughts from her head and walked over to her closet. It was in there somewhere, she knew it was. Finally she found it, a small box hidden in the back of her closet. She brought it with her to the edge of her bed where she slid onto the floor.

She opened the box and in it were filled with all the mementoes of a relationship that had been over for years. Why she still kept the box, she didn't know, but there it was. She placed her hands on one of his old shirts, a black turtleneck, she remembered how good he looked in it and smiled painfully to herself. She brought it to her face and took in its scent… it still smelled like him. She placed it down and instead, picked up a picture frame.

Phoebe looked to the picture residing in her hand, it was of two people gazing lovingly into each other's eyes, both unaware that the picture was being taken. Phoebe longed to feel that way again, the way she felt when she looked into Cole's eyes. God, she didn't even know why she was thinking about him again, she hadn't thought of him in years. Why did she all-of-the-sudden feel the urge to be with him again? Tears welled in the brim of her eyes, threatening to fall. It didn't matter anyway, she thought, because he's dead, he doesn't exist anymore, and that was partly her fault. She could have stopped Paige, she could have forgiven him. But no, she had to close off her heart to him and make him lose control. The truth was, she was scared… she was scared of opening herself up, to be hurt again, especially by him. But that was no excuse to treat him the way she did. She knew she had still loved him, but she still refused his love. She took one last look at the picture before throwing it against the wall, shards of glass flying everywhere. Phoebe brought her knees to her chest and wrapped her arms around them. She laid her head back down as the tears streamed down her face.

And as you move on, remember me,

Remember us and all we used to be

I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.

I've watched you sleeping for a while.

I'd be the father of your child.

I'd spend a lifetime with you.

I know your fears and you know mine.

We've had our doubts but now we're fine,

And I love you, I swear that's true.

I cannot live without you.

Cole had been watching her the entire time, his heart breaking more every second. It was flattering to know that she had kept his things, though it was his pride that had been thinking that. The aching part of him knew that this was for the best. She was moving on. But it was good to know that he would always hold a place in her heart… even if he couldn't have all of it.

Goodbye my lover.

Goodbye my friend.

You have been the one.

You have been the one for me.

She noticed the broken picture frame lying on the floor, the picture had fallen out but a small folded piece of paper had been placed behind it. She got up and picked up the piece of paper, avoiding any broken glass, and wiping away the tears from her eyes. She unfolded the paper and seeing what it was almost brought her to her knees. The tears once again began to roll down her cheeks, and her hand flew over her mouth as she silently read what was on the old sheet of paper.

Dear Phoebe,

If I'm dead right now, I know it was at your hand. No one else in heaven or hell had power over me. Please don't cry. I was dead before I met you, I was born the day you loved me. And my love for you will keep me alive forever.

Love Cole

Phoebe felt lost, as if she didn't know where she was. Those words hit her like a ton of bricks thefirst time she read them and they had the same impact this time. The only thing was that he wasn't coming back this time, like he had then. He was gone. She looked to the ground and among the bits of glass were two golden bands. She palmed the two wedding rings and stared at them intently. Her hand closed and she gripped the rings tightly as the sobs consumed her body.

Cole looked at Phoebe standing in front of him, she was so brittle. He sucked up his pride and whispered softly, "Goodbye Phoebe. Parting is such sweet sorrow"

She fell to the floor once again in sobs, amidst the broken glass, but she didn't care. For once, she didn't care if she hurt, she didn't care if she broke. She let go of her pride and did something that she never had before, she finally grieved the loss of her husband… her family.

And somewhere, somewhere in the back of her mind she heard a faint, hollow whisper and felt a shiver go down her spine. A smile formed on her grief stricken face and she whispered the words between her sobs, "… Goodbye Cole."

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.

I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.

I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

It was a tough decision but I went with Goodbye My Lover by James Blunt… my other choices were Tonight I Wanna Cry by Keith Urban, and What Hurts The Most by Rascal Flatts… if you have any comments please review!

Next Chapter we'll see if Phoebe can actually move on .. If so, with who?