It's been so long since I've been back, I wonder how they are going, what they have been up to. I wonder if they made new friends or if they are still in their little groups. I hope they have done well and stuck together maybe they have even met but most of all I hope they are safe and well. I mean, it's been several years now since I last heard from them and even more since I've seen them.
Though right now I bet they hate me because as far as most of them are aware I have been dead for three years, an accident they claimed. Only one knows I am alive, and I hate having to do this to them, him especially, but it was the only way to keep them safe. I kept up with them as best as I could over the years, but it isn't the same as seeing them, being able to know they are okay and be their watching them grow and enjoy life. I remember each one of their faces when they were told, I burned them all into my memory. I made sure I would never forget they horror, denial and grief that took over their faces at least for those that showed emotion. There was one that really broke my heart, as soon as he was told I wanted to open the door and run to him. His face closed off into a cold mask without a trace of emotion to be seen, I had told him just the week before that I would be back that I wouldn't leave him behind but there I was leaving him with no one who understood him. I left him alone to face those cruel little human beings on his own.
Don't get me wrong I never wanted this to happen, I never wanted to leave them but isn't that how it always happens. I left to keep them safe, safe from me, from those who wanted to find me. I needed to make them believe and in doing so I broke both my heart and theirs.
It a funny thing isn't it, when stories come full circle, chapters ending and new ones starting in the same place the story started but only years apart. It was a day like this even cloudy and a slow shower that looks like it will be heavier. It was a day just like this I broke their hearts and it's this exact day that I head home, back to where it all began and I just hope god I hope that they won't hate me forever and I can explain before going to school if not then I dread to know what will happen. Whatever happens though I know I deserve it; it would only be fair.
"OI, Tala you ready to go? We leave in 10."
Aaaah good old Tokala always making sure I get a move on, Geesh, you would think I'm the one that makes us late everywhere.
"well I'll never know what will happen till I get there will I? time to say goodbye and head home, its finally safe. How about a proper goodbye boy's?"
I smile as six different howls cut through the afternoon drizzle before turning around and walking to the ATVs ready to take us to the airport. It's time to go home, I just hope they forgive me.
The whole flight back to japan I was anxious and stressed mostly about the upcoming meetings but also the fact my four-legged family will not be with me for at least a week. I am not sure how I will talk to everyone and I am expecting a few cold shoulders, I don't know what I'll do with myself without my pack with me if they outright reject me straight up. I can't help but bounce my leg up and down and fidget. I should have expected his response, though I still jumped when Toka force my knee down with his hand.
"stop, you need to calm down. You can't do anything until you talk to them okay. So, chill" Tokala has been with me constantly for the last two years so he knows me to well.
I look over at him, his red hair cut short kind of like Levi from Attack on Titan, I keep telling him it doesn't make him anything like Levi though. I can see the annoyance all over his face but there is a fondness in his eyes that helps me calm but only a little.
"I can't help it, they won't want to speak to me again, I swear" I tuck my white hair behind my ear and pull the red tips forward to keep my hands busy.
"I am staying in the area for a month if you need me, okay? All will be fine."
I look over at Tokala, looking him straight in his eyes, I found reassurance and pride. I breathed out and smiled, nodding I leaned back in my seat just in time for us to land.
Tokala walks me out of the airport to catch my ride to the new place, I pull him up before he can leave.
"hey, you sure you don't want to come with me. There will be plenty of space." I look up at him, yes, he's bloody tall when we aren't sitting down, my lip between my teeth as I worry.
He doesn't even answer he just laughs as a car pulls up in front of us and pats me on the head. I pout and glare up at him.
"don't look at me like that kiddo get going. You have some boys to meet."
I don't get a chance to reply as Itona rolled down the window to yell at me.
" OI TALA GET IN"
"Have you been spending too much tie with those thugs again Ito?" I smile when I hear him grunt at me, that kid I swear. I turn to Kala and punch his shoulder. "I am sure you will see me soon, take care" I smile as he whines, saying I broke his arm. I shake my head as I climb in the car, not another word is said between us before Itona and I drive off.
The ride to my estate, and didn't that cost a pretty penny, was quiet but I could feel his eyes on me the whole time I'm gazing out the window. I am sure I would have hole in my head if it was possible. I sigh and decide to bite the bullet.
"What's with the stare?" I turn to face him as we pull up to the gate and I'm not even the least bit surprised he doesn't have to stop and wait for the gate; I mean he did do all my security for me.
"they have been worried about you; you know. I said you were fine every time we talked but they still worry since no one has seen or heard from you in two years."
That's right, I haven't been able to make it back to classroom 3-E since we graduated, I haven't been able to go back and talk to Korosensie, but I also haven't been able to talk to anyone either. The only reason I could talk to Itona was because he was my tech man when I needed help with my gadgets, or I was trying something new for him. God, I miss Class 3-E.
"I missed them to you know, I miss the end class. I wasn't the same working without the class. It felt different doing the same thing but without them." I sigh and shake my head "unfortunately they will have to wait for a reunion as I have a big mess to clean up and I could use a good thing after what is bound to be a cluster fuck."
He looked at me out the corner of his eye and nodded. "I won't tell them your back yet then or they would be here within the hour and you know it."
I smile and laugh; I mean he wasn't wrong. At least this way I might get a few hours freedom before the calls start to pour in. "Your welcome here anytime" I pause "without breaking in like everyone else will." Itona shakes his head as we get out of the car. We both know he wouldn't have a problem breaking in if he wanted to. I give him a hug, ruffle his hair in thanks after I grab my bag from the back seat before he gets backing the car and drives off. I watch him go; I really have missed them. I turn and look at the house…well that was putting it lightly. It had at least five rooms, the master bedroom and then guest rooms. I didn't know if they will accept me, but I always will have a room here for my five friends even if they don't want anything to do with me.
This place is on a massive plot of land, that was a must for my little pack to run, a volleyball court (indoor and beach) the indoor court was multifunctional court. It had Basketball folded up to the roof, holes in the floor for poles that were needed for various sports. The one special thing about this court was Itona made the floor and that means there are only one set of lines down at any time. Itona, the awesome genius that he is, mechanized the floor so I could switch the lines out at will. There is a games/movie room that is connected to the room I set up for Kenma. I had an indoor pool put in as well as a gym. I wanted my friends to have a place here if they ever needed it for any reason. The place was big, bigger than I would ever need on my own, but I wanted to make sure it had the room for everyone and more if they have people over for any reason.
It has been a long day and I think I might be ready for bed, god planes suck. A nice hot shower should do the trick.
I was right, the steam and heat felt wonderful after constant cold showers lately and my muscles never felt better. I looked in the mirror and there I was wrapped in a towel, my hair dripping down my back. The scar that peeked over my shoulder could be seen and if I turned around you could trace it down to my hip. There was a fading bruise from where, my black alpha, Senka had choked me with my shirt while pulling my unconscious form into a cave two weeks ago after I fell down in torrential rain like the idiot I was, if it wasn't for him I would have been far worse off once Kala found us. If I dropped the towel, I know I would see many other scars but instead I cleaned my teeth, picked up my fang necklace and walked into my room for a much-needed sleep.
It was 5am when I woke up the next morning, the sun shining through my window. Bloody jet lag made me sleep in. I dragged myself out of bed and ran through my morning routine. I went for a 3k run just to get me awake and so I couldn't explore to much without my pack because believe it or not the whole lot of them would be testy if I went without them. I hadn't checked my phone and I was dreading picking it up honestly so being the queen of procrastinating that I am I decided that a shower and breakfast would be my next course of action. After breakfast I made my way back to my room slowly, I really didn't want to see my phone. I opened the door to my room and took it in. the bed was bigger than needed and made of a cherry wood which was the same for all the furniture in the room. The bed was big since the pack liked to sleep together and that included me. Everything was made of solid and dense wood to hold up to the pack, the lights hung from the black roof that gave away to red/brown walls. I found it easier to clean when it comes to blood. There was gold fitting in the room and glass doors that open to the balcony. I have a tv on the wall that I can see from the bed which was awesome.
I sigh, I can't put it off anymore for I am sure I have way too many messages from Tokala telling me to get a move on. Picking up my phone up off the bed side table and turning my phone on I find I right and am glad I left it on silent since he sent every single word in its own message, the bloody idiot but I admit it made me smile and that was probably his intention. I go over the mental list of things I need to do today and find it surprisingly small, get uniform and food and done. I wouldn't actually need my uniform for two weeks since I refused to go until my pack arrived at least but I needed to get it early since I figured I would be busy trying to make it up to friends and settling in to my place. I would be a second year, I was going back a grade, spending an extra year in school but I wanted the time to make it up to one of my friends, they deserved it. Just as I was about to go about my duties for the day my phone pinged with a new message and this time Kala sent it like a normal person.
I knew you would be tired so I made sure you would have plenty of time to see your friends. Look in the kitchen and there is food and if you check the closet your uniforms are there. —Dumbass Fox
I do as he says and check my closet and just as he said my new uniform was hanging there mocking me.
DING
YOUR WELCOME-Dumbass Fox
I sigh and don't bother replying no I just need to get to hype myself up to face the fall out and by god I don't want to. I sigh (I've been doing that a lot since I got back), grab the fang necklace and tie it around my neck before heading to the garage to grab the keys to my bike. I finally find the right cupboard and pull out the folder they were stuck to, gosh he really did think of everything since everyone's info was in the folder, so I didn't have to hunt them down. I licked through it and out of all of them I just knew Satori would be the hardest and so he was the one I wanted to get out of the way first. God I was dreading it. I put the folder and a cap in a bag, grab the keys to my bike, pull on my jacket and helmet to go with my boots and jeans and take off, deciding that I would the admin building to his school boarding accommodations first.
I saw the gate to Shiratorizawa and started to slow down and dam the campus was bigger than I thought. I barely got my cap on and pulled low before someone saw me gosh that was quick, I only just started pulling my jacket collar up trying to hide when one of the boys yelled to get going or demon coach would be on their ass. I froze and looked over to see BOYS VOLLEYBALL CLUB on their jackets as they run off. I missed my chance to see his face, but I caught sight of his hair as it disappeared around the corner. I couldn't miss it; I see the colour in the mirror every day.
Maybe I can talk to the coach and get Satori pulled out. If I am going to do it, I need to move, who knows how long they will be. So not going to lie I totally had to ask for directions twice, Kala would be laughing at me, before I finally found the right gym. I peeked inside to check I had the right gym before I entered.
"Hey…. Hey why are you here?" I look up to see who was calling me. It's a young man with a buzz cut hair. I barely look at him before I reply.
"I'm looking for the boy's volley coach. Can you help?" I tilt my cap back a little and smile. I watch him point over to an older man sitting on a bench looking through a few papers. "thank you, sir," I give one last smile and walk off. My smile doesn't leave my place until I'm in front of the coach.
"Hi, I was told you're the coach." I smile and play with my hair.
He keeps his eyes on his papers "Yes. What do you want?"
I drop the smile as I realise this is going to be harder than I thought but I decided to just go for it anyway.
"I need to speak with one of your- "I am cut off from saying anymore.
"No"
I pull up short at his abrupt answer. I pull my bag forward and pull out the folder to find the coaches name.
"Tangi san please recons- "I don't get to finish as his head snaps up and the use of his first name making me pause.
"I need to speak with one of your players it's very important." My voice and tone serious but it loses effect with my bag in front of me. I shrug my shoulder to push my bag back up and in doing so jolts the folder causing something to fall out. I don't notice until it hits the floor. I freeze and look down.
'crap it's my badge, shit' I look up to see Washijos face and he's frozen,
"we will take this to my office."
His tone left no room to argue, not that I was going to. I followed him into his office in the back of the gym. He closed the door and draw the blonds over the window before sitting behind his desk. I stood against the wall, one leg bent, and head tilted down as I gave him time. He looked pensive for a few minutes before breaking the silence.
"who is it and what did they do? Will I need to kick them off the team?" he asked several questions without letting me answer, chin resting on his steepled hands, he looks at me
I smile from beneath my cap, he sure cared for his boys. I look up and take off my cap letting my shoulder length red tipped white hair fall and looked up at my friends' coach.
"Washijo-san no one is in trouble, no you will not need to kick him off the team." I didn't get to continue before he spoke up.
"Then what would someone like you need with one of my athletes? I can't let them off training without a decent reason."
I took a deep breath to steady myself before I told him a very sort overview of why I was here. "I am here to see Satori Tendo. You see sir he believes that I am dead and with good reason. It's going on four years since he was told I was dead. It was for his own protection at the time, but I can't not tell him now it's safe." I take a pause to try and read his eyes "I can't tell you anything else unfortunately. I have been given a limited number of people I can tell, and Satori isn't the only friend I had to leave behind."
I hurried to finish when I saw him about to speak, by the time I was finished my hands were on his desk and my eyes pleading. He studied me, stared at me like he was trying to find all my secrets. I held his eyes and waited.
"I understand you can't tell me. Will he be out of training for a while?"
"that will be up to him or you, I won't decide that." Just as I finish speaking, we hear the team start to enter the gym.
"wait here and I'll make sure he comes in."
I nod my head and pull my hair back up under my hat and go back to my spot on the wall and wait. I hear the coach yelling something about grades the office. I try and fade into the wall as I hear footsteps and Tendo groaning about schoolwork. The door opens and in he walks, he goes straight to the desk without noticing me and I take the time to see him, see how he's grown and see his eyes. On glimpse of his eyes and I feel guilty, they are sad almost dead even though he masks it well. I close the door and lock it, the sound of the lock catches his attention, his head snaps up and he stares at me.
"oooo and who are you?" he asks, his voice sounding a little creepy and I know it is on purpose.
"Four years and you still use that creep little voice of yours Satori."
I look up enough to see his eyes. He is now leaning over the table and his head tilted at an awkward looking angle. He looks like what is probably normal for him, but his eyes are confused, I can see that much.
I can't take it anymore.
"Satori Tendo about four years ago you were told a friend of yours, Tala Kaida, was dead"
I didn't get to say anything else.
"How do you know that name?" his voice is cold and calm, never a good combination.
I throw my badge, one he should recognize from the guys who said I was dead, as I spoke up.
"I know the story, very well actually, she gave up her friends for their safety. She made the choice to say she was dead to make sure they were not pulled into her terrible situation. I am her to tell you she isn't dead, and she is home." My voice gets quitter the more I speak. When I finish, I look up at him and he is frozen. Staring. Eyes wide. I take a deep breath and take off my cap, letting my hair fall. "I am sorry Satori, my little guess monster." I just let the last syllable leave my lips when I was slapped and pushed against the wall. The office shook. I caught his eyes and they were storming with emotions. The most prominent two being confusion and anger. I could understand that and even understand him wanting to hit me in fact I was expecting another blow but her just kept looking at me.
"Your angry and confused, I understand- "that seemed to set him off
"UNDER…. UNDERSTAND NO YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND" He started yelling and I let him, he needed this at least.
"YOU LEFT ME ALONE. YOU CAN'T UNDERST- "I couldn't stop myself I pushed him away. I could understand loneliness all too well.
He was shocked I pushed him and cut himself off.
"I'm sorry I'm sorry I didn't want to please believe me." I pleaded with him, but he stayed silent, so I started rambling.
"I found out things I wasn't meant to while I was at school, you know I can't help but dig up information, and when they realised I saw it…..mum and dad died because of me…they kept killing people I knew….didn't want you involved…or dead I couldn't take it if you died while I could protect you. I was at kuni- "I didn't get to finish before Satori ho had been silent hugged me tight and I could feel tears flowing through my hair. I was shocked, I thought he would be the worst yet here he is hugging me. I decided to just keep explaining.
"they sent me to Kunugigaoka junior high after they told everyone I was dead so I could still go to school, but I ended up in class 3-E, I sure you heard of it. I ended up being good at tracking and I was offered a chance to hunt down the people responsible. If I managed to do so they said I could go home and tell all my friends that I was alive. I thought everyone would be adults by the time this happened but here we are. I was put into a canine tracking unit, but I ended up with my own squad and all are wolves or close enough because you know I suck at people." I felt him shake and I couldn't tell if he was laughing or crying. I kept going "they will be here in a week, animal customs and all though I feel sorry for the people handling them since they barely listen to me and" I felt Satori pull away from me and cup my face. He was smiling but had tears running down his face.
He keeps smiling and looking at me like he can't believe it.
"it has to be you, no one rants like you." He said it through his tears and the tension in the room. It started as a giggle and it just grew. I didn't mean to, but I was so relieved. I hugged him tight and kept laughing. We clung to each other, laughing and crying. We were so wrapped up in each other we didn't realise the gym was quiet.
We eventually calmed down, I could tell he was still worried and angry and filled with disbelief.
"You can stay with me tonight if you like." He just hugged me tighter and I took that as a yes.
The next morning, I woke up felling like I was a teddy bear, I looked down to see bright red hair. He might be taller than me but god he was trying his hardest to curl up around me. There was no way I was getting up without waking him up. I thought back on yesterday, it had gone a lot better than I thought and he didn't want to let me out of his sight which led to us to this current situation.
We explained well into the night about what the other had missed and it seemed both his parents and kids just got worse after I left. God I just wanted to punch his parents; it was no wonder he spent his nights in the dorms instead of at home.
I picked up my phone to check the time. It was 530am. I was going to make sure he missed practice this morning, we only went to sleep four hours ago. School doesn't start for another few hours.
I looked down at his face while I played with his hair, I always loved his hair. I'm glad he's sleeping so well though I'm not surprised after last night. At Shiratorizawa things didn't seem to go to bad but I think that may have just been the shock of a dead girl standing in front of him because after we got back to my place things got bad, really bad. There was a lot of shouting and things thrown including fists. He raged at me asking me how I could do that. I close my eyes and just hug him tighter.
I walked him into the kitchen and sat him down while I grabbed us a drink from the fridge. I didn't know what to say in the dead tense silence that was occupying the room.
"I know you explained but why, why did you have to leave me? Why did you leave me alone?"
His voice was quiet and filled with sorrow and betrayal as the sound quivered. I looked in his eyes and they were guarded and cold. I didn't even get to think on my response before words started falling from my mouth.
"I'm sorry I didn't want to, but it was leave or you could get hurt. I'm sorry I'm so sor- "
Tendo jumped up and threw his glass at the wall, I jumped.
"you're sorry, your Sorry?" he scoffed and started pacing "YOU LEFT ME! You left me alone to go through all that. My parents were never home and when they were, well" he started laughing. I walked in front of him, but it seemed that the sight of me made him snap, he picked up a vase and threw it passed my head.
"HOW COULD YOU?!" he started throwing punches and pushing me into walls. I just took it and kept saying sorry, there wasn't anything else I could do.
"WHY ARENT YOU FIGHTING? WHY? I HATE YOU. WHY?" tears falling from his eyes.
Eventually he ran out of steam and we just stood there, his head on my shoulder before I slid down the wall, clutching him to me. We eventually stumbled up to my room and we talked. I told he his coach said he didn't need to go to practice and a day or two off school wouldn't hurt but he said he needed to go to school, he was happy I'm okay and glad I'm back but he needed a distraction for a while. I was just happy he was talking to me.
Satori flings himself sideways and kisses the ground.
"I'm never riding with you again" he flips over and points at me, I smirk.
"well if someone got out of bed when they were supposed to it wouldn't be a problem, oh and classes are about to start" I smile as I watch horror pass over his face before running into the school. I watch him run off to class, at least he doesn't look as sad as yesterday. I watch him enter the school and for the door to close before I drive off. One down only four more to go, let's hope the next ones don't get any worse.
Focusing on the road I made my decision; the next target was Bokuto Koutarou.