Disclaimer: I do not own Yu Yu Hakusho, you all do know that right? Good. Oh, and the last tidbit of the poem isn't mine, u'll see what I mean at the bottom but everything else is.
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Summary: I'm waiting, just waiting. Waiting for something that...will probably never appear. Where was the love that used to be?
Waiting For a Love
Side Story—That Will Never Be
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In a whirl of blood and roses,
Can you see me?
In the darkness of the night,
Can you find me?
In my dreams,
Will you hide from me?
In my mind,
Will you face me?
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There once was a time when we were everything to one another. A time when we would speak freely, when whispered little nothings were plenty and the time we had together was valued, but that's all gone now. All of it. Gone.
Where did it go? It couldn't have simply evaporated into nothing...could it? Did it just disappear without a cause? I can't help but question myself about these things. They never seem to leave my conscience and continue to plague me in every way.
I question myself when all I wanted to do was to question you. When did we truly start falling apart? Was it when we met Yusuke? When I betrayed you? But haven't we gotten past all that already?
Thick blobs of tears fell from his eyes as they slowly made their way down his cheek. Was Hiei truly so unwilling to face him? Was everything they've worked for, all rubbish to him? He truly didn't know. He just didn't know...
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In my eyes, you're an angel bathed in light.
In my heart, you're a demon made in darkness.
Power unlimited, am I worthy?
Affection unrequited, do you even need me?
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It's been getting worse lately; every glance, every word, every chance. Your words now sting, whereas they once were gentle; your glances now burn, whereas they once were soothing. What do you want from me? You won't let me leave, yet you won't let me stay. If you won't even allow me to be with you, why can't you just end this relationship right here and now?
Why not end...us?
Sitting here in my dark and dank room with nothing to do, I can't help but wonder...why you keep stringing me along.
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In the light of day, darkness consumes all.
In the dark of night, light disappears.
Is there naught for pain?
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It hurts, it truly does. When someone says they love you, and then leaves you to fend for yourself. Was that how love worked in the human world? To enrapture you in its warmth and then to leave you yearning for more?
Kurama buried his headunderneath his pillow and sighed for the hundredth time that day. He was sick of Hiei stomping on his heart. It was time he did something to change his life. He just couldn't be Hiei's doormat for the rest of his life.
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Lonely is this feeling I can do not but comprehend
For the smile on your face is just for show
Inside you're screaming 'let me go'
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"Kurama?" I look at your face and all I can do is smile sadly. What was I supposed to do in this situation? Do I leave you hanging with a simple goodbye? Do I tell you how much you've hurt and broken me? Do I ask you to forgive me for not being enough? How am I supposed to end this relationship, when all you can do is stand there waiting for it to happen?
I don't know what to do…I just don't know.
I shook my head and put on a lovely smile.
"Nothing Hiei…nothing."
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Give and let go
To the words that made you feel you weren't alone
And it's funny how we find out
Time can solve the mysteries
But love is only temporary
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"How can you do this to me!" Hiei ran around my room knocking things over...and all I could do was to stare blindly at the wall, tears streaming down my face. I hadn't expected this reaction. I thought you wouldn't have cared; that you would have glared at me, insulted me, then leaft me to be alone. I was wrong...so dreadfullywrong.
"I thought you said you loved me! You liar! You're just like everyone else! LIAR!"
I almost held out my hands to him that day, wanting to soothe his aching heart, but I only ended up embracing myself. I love you, I truly do...but I just can't take it anymore. You say you love me, yet you do nothing toprove it. You say I'm a liar and that I don't love you, but how can I show you I love you when you're never there?
I felt bitter; bitter at you for making me feel this way, bitter at myself for allowing you to treat me this way...I was bitter at the world. Where were you when I tried to express my love? Where were you when Ifell and scraped my knee on the pavement floor? Where were you when I was hurt and all alone? Where were you?
"I can't do this anymore Hiei...I just...can't..." Closing my eyes, I slumped against the wall and let myself fall.
"I'm sorry...so sorry..."
When I opened my eyes again...you were gone.
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The walls built to protect us
Are all gone
Leaving me to die
All alone
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TBC?
A/N: I apologize for deleting and reposting this fic, I'm just not quite satisfied with it, at least until now. I also have no idea whenmy otherstory will be updated again, but it won't be before this month is over.
I have a lot of things to get together in order to finish any preparations for going to Exeter Academy in New Hampshire. I will be away in the summary for all of July and half of August, but I'll definitely update before I go, and when I get back. Hope you enjoyed the chapter.
Note: This part of the poem:
"For the smile on your face is just for show, Inside you're screaming 'let me go'" and "Give and let go, To the words that made you feel you weren't alone, And it's funny how we find out, Time can solve the mysteries, But love is only temporary"
...is not mine. I had that taken directly from a song titled "Hello Hello" by SR-71. It's a truly fabulous song, do listen to it sometime. However, the rest is mine, so appreciate a lil ne?
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