Date Written: 4/5/06
Rating: T
Characters/Pairings: Doumeki/Watanuki, Yuuko
Word Count: 345 without the lyrics, 383 with
Spoilers: None
Warnings: ANGST OMG the angst
Disclaimer: Neither xxxHolic or 'What Hurts the Most' belong to me.
Author Notes: Inspired by the song 'What Hurts the Most' by Rascal Flatts. And yes, I'm a huge dork.
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What hurts the most
was being so close.
And havin' so much to say
and watchin' you walk away.
And never knowin'
what could've been
and not seein' that loving you
is what I was tryin' to do.
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Watanuki was now known as the quiet kid at school. He never smiled anymore, not even to Himawari-chan. The girl had even taken to bringing him food instead of it being the other way around.
Yuuko actually worried about the boy. Normally she wouldn't have been upset, but this time she didn't know if the boy could recover... And he hadn't even done a thing to deserve it.
But she knew that life was not fair--it was an inevitable realization in her line of work.
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The bespectacled teen walked down the paved walk, his eyes focused on his feet. The ground under his feet changed from cement to tar and back as he walked from school to his destination. Sometimes, another pair of shoes would cross his vision, but he never looked up at them.
Left, right, left, left... The trail wasn't long, but it felt like it took forever. He only looked up when he stepped onto the consecrated ground of the Doumeki temple.
There was a small shrine in the back of the temple. Watanuki lit a stick of incense before continuing past the shrine, near the growth at the back of the property.
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Watanuki was laying in Doumeki's arms. The two were laying on Watanuki's futon in his apartment, snuggling under the covers together. Doumeki was stroking Watanuki's back, the two of them basking in the afterglow of sex. "Hey, Kimihiro?"
"Yeah?"
"What do you see when you think of the future?"
Watanuki grinned and propped himself up on his elbows. "What do you see?"
"You," Doumeki replied seriously.
Watanuki laughed and kissed him. "You're so freakin' corny, you know that?"
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Watanuki knelt before the tombstone. His fingers carefully traced the name on the tombstone over and over, as if he was trying to convince himself that it wasn't true, that it wasn't his lover's name chiseled there. His fingers went over it one more time, tracing the characters: Doumeki Shizuka.
"It was you," Watanuki choked out, tears falling thick and fast and wetting the granite. "I saw you, Shizuka"
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