I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see
I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all
'Chasing Cars'
Snow Patrol
She expected him to walk through the door at any time. She still couldn't believe that he was gone. That she would not be held in his arms again, that she would never hear his voice again, that she would never get to tell him how much she loves him.
At first she found it very hard to believe. When Donna told her she didn't cry. She just stood and shook. She didn't cry at the funeral. She didn't cry when she saw his coffin being lowered into the grave. She didn't cry but each day broke her heart a little more. Each day it became more and more apparent. Each day she sat and thought about their time together. It took two months for her to piece it al together. To realise that she will never find anyone as perfect for her as Steven Hyde was. That she will never love someone so much that losing him was like losing a part of her soul.
It was Christmas. Two months after that fateful night where she lost Hyde. Two months and she could only bring herself to visit his grave. The snow was fresh on the ground and as she made her way across the cemetery her feet made little imprints on the powdered snow. She stood and stared at his tombstone, at the dead flowers poking through the snow. Her heart broke at the thought that her Steven was under that snow, the thought that he was dead. The thought that he died thinking that she no longer loved him. She wished she hadn't lied. Wished that in her fear in being hurt again that she hadn't stood and told him that he meant nothing to her, because he did. He was her world and now he was gone. She fell to her knees and curled up on top of his grave. She curled up and the tears rolled down her face. She cried and she crumbled. Months of tears and heartbreak poured out and she whispered 'I love you' until her throat was hoarse.
They found her the next morning. Curled up in a ball at the foot of his headstone covered in a blanket of snow, her lips blue and her tears frozen on her face. She died as she wanted. Loving him and as close to him as she could ever physically be.
Their love for each other was their end.
Yet their love for each other is never-ending.
For never was a story of more woe,
Than this of Jackie and her Hyde.