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How have you all been? I hope that you're staying healthy both physically and mentally during this pandemic times, I know sitting down for more than 8 hours can't be healthy for anyone.
I apologize for the long stretches between updates but now, my work load has increased tenfold. Of course, his also means an economic improvement, but I have less and less time to dedicate to my hobby, which is of course, writing. I still think about this story and I'm still going to finish it, but I ask of you to be patient because I still don't know when the next update will happen.
To apologize for my tardiness, I'm leaving here a full chapter of *cough, cough* sex. Well, not the whole chapter, but...yeah. Jan Di and Ji Hoo's first time. Who's ready? Girls below 18, please refrain your eyes from both this chapter and the board *goes hide*
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Ji Hoo opened his eyes and didn't know exactly what time it was. He turned his head to the right and the clock read 10.30am.
He sighed.
It had been a while since he had slept so much, he was surprised none of his brothers had gone to wake him up.
Suddenly, the sleepy haze left Ji Hoo's mind and he quickly sat up.
Had it been a dream? It must had been...Right? There was no way that he...with the girl his brother liked.
He swinged his legs to get out of the bed and furrowed his brow. He remembered everything, clearly; he didn't even need to close his eyes to recall what he was hoping was just a dream. His left hand went to tame his reddish locks when his eyes caught sight of something that hasn't been on his wrist before. A bluish anklet with a shark tooth imitation in the middle, it was Jan Di's, he'd seen it on her ankle last night.
"Last night…"
He had no excuse for what he had done, Ji Hoo had just wanted to stop the cold seeping through his bones to the very center of his soul and Jan Di was there.
Okay, so he was making excuses…
"Would you have done the same if it had been Ga Eul the one who showed concern for you?" he asked his own reflection once he got to the bathroom "Or one of the girls who came with Yi Jung and Woo Bin?" He knew his answer, he knew the reason why he had laid bare his insecurities and needs was because it had been Jan Di the one there to receive them.
She was just so candid and down to earth that he knew she was one of the few that didn't feel some kind of pity for him.
But still...his best friend's girl?
She's not his girl yet.
"That's just lame." He told his reflection again "Stop it."
He got ready, took off the anklet and decided to go on with his day, if Jan Di wanted to talk about it at some point, he would.
Surprising thing was, Jan Di didn't look for him. She didn't give him any awkward glances but didn't avoid him either. They had greeted each other and then went on with the planned schedule for the day.
Ji Hoo felt relieved in a way. He knew what had happened between them the previous night wasn't something to just be forgotten or left to dust, they would discuss it, but for now, Jan Di was giving him space and he embraced that gesture.
He found himself dozing off in front of a lake later that day; F4, their dates, Jan Di and Ga Eul had decided to just relax and sunbathe for a bit. Amidst his sleepy haze, he heard Ga Eul's worried voice, calling for Jan Di. Ji Hoo thought it was a dream until he distinctly heard the cry for help from Ga Eul.
He sat up and saw Jun Pyo with his feet on the water, struggling to dive in and save Jan Di.
Jan Di.
Who was drowning.
His feet reacted faster than his mind and when they finally clicked, he found himself already far deep inside the lake, diving in and pulling up the unconscious girl.
Ji Hoo swam back as fast as he could with the extra weight and when he felt the lake's bottom at his feet, he quickly stood up and scooped Jan Di in his arms. Surprisingly, Yi Jung was the first one to get to him, trying to help in carrying Jan Di. The rest were around, looking to help in any way. Ji Hoo noticed one of the girls Woo Bin had brought straightening one of the beach chairs so he could lay Jan Di down. Once she was on the chair, Ga Eul tried to make her react, he could tell she was worried sick and tear-eyed. He looked at Yi Jung who had his cellphone out, already looking for an ambulance service as seconds went by and Jan Di still didn't move.
Without saying anything, Ji Hoo went to check if Jan Di was breathing, but he couldn't hear anything. He gently but swiftly pushed Ga Eul out of the way and positioned one hand in between Jan Di's breasts and the other on top of it, beginning chest compressions.
Wake up, wake up, wake up, wake up...Was the constant chant inside his head until a cough sound made him look at Jan Di's face again, spurting water and coughing desperately to get some air inside her lungs. Ji Hoo released the heavy breath he had been holding in.
"Jan Di-ah!" Ga Eul was full-on crying while Jan Di tried to weakly sit up. Ji Hoo looked to his left and saw Jun Pyo leaving; he understood what his friend might be feeling in that moment, so he decided to give him some space.
"Why did you go so far inside, Jan Di-ah?" Ga Eul kept asking.
"I-" Jan Di tried to clear her throat but one look at her and they all could see it must have hurt to expel that much water from her lungs. "I was fine, but my leg cramped and I couldn't do a thing" Her voice was raspy and she ashamedly thanked everyone for being worried for her.
"Yi Jung," Ji Hoo called to his friend, "can you still call that ambulance service? Just to be on the clear."
"Sure." Yi Jung had also been scared for Jan Di.
Ji Hoo looked back to the chair and found her eyes. She looked tired and even a bit scared.
"Come, you need to rest." And before everyone he patted his own shoulder to let Jan Di know he intended to carry her again. He had thought of a piggyback ride, but then, he didn't know how weak she felt. The surprise hit the group again when Jan Di, without putting up a fight, simply settled her arm around Ji Hoo's neck while he did the same under her legs and lifted her up, as if it was an everyday occurance. "Yi Jung, send whoever is coming to her room. Ga Eul-ssi, could you please retrieve her room card? I know you want to keep her company."
"Yes, I do." Ga Eul quickly gathered Jan Di's things and followed suit to his step, leaving the rest of the party behind, unclear on what to do now that the relaxing mood was so obviously lost.
Ji Hoo was a bit worried now that he could feel how limp Jan Di's body felt in his arms, so he quickened his stride to get to her room faster.
"Ga Eul-ssi."
"Yes?" The girl felt a bit intimidated by Ji Hoo, more so than even Yi Jung.
"Could you please run to the kitchen and ask them to prepare something very light and easy to swallow? I think her throat is feeling raw."
"Yes, of course. I'll go right away." She handed him the room card and went to the kitchen.
Ji Hoo finally got to her cabin. He carefully placed her on the bed, ignoring her complaints about wetting the covers.
"Are you okay?" He finally asked her.
"Yes, I'm okay" her raspy voice replied.
"You gave us all a scare back then. I know you're a swimmer, but still, you shouldn't have gone so far from us."
"I'm sorry."
He sighed, Ji Hoo wasn't scolding her, he just had been very scared for her and wanted Jan Di to be more careful for the remaining days on the island.
He then saw that his hand had gone to her face and got surprised. When had he done that?
Ji Hoo quickly pulled back, not before watching a small tremor shake Jan Di's body though.
"Ga Eul will be here soon, same as an EMT. Don't give them a hard time and rest lots." Jan Di nodded. "I'll see you later?" Jan Di smiled this time as she nodded and also bowed her head to him.
Ji Hoo left the room and rested against the railing to wait for Ga Eul. Not much later, she arrived and he was able to give the room card back to her, letting her know an EMT was on the way. Ga Eul thanked him profusely before going inside. He thought about going back to his room and grabbing something to eat on the way, so he went to the kitchen and asked for a fruit salad.
While he waited, he took a magazine that he found lying around. Ji Hoo wasn't expecting, though, to find a full, 4 page article about Min Seo Hyun and her new boyfriend, a French politician.
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Jan Di woke up to find Ga Eul gently rousing her from sleep. She sat up feeling immensely better and totally parched, so she gulped down a whole bottle of mineral water, although carefully at Ga Eul's insistence.
"We should get ready. Woo Bin sunbae told me we're expected at dinner."
"Okay, let me get something to put on" Jan Di went through some of the dresses Jun Pyo had insisted she should buy and decided on a red simple one with a flower imprint on the chest. Also, Ga Eul put a flower on her hair so it would match with her attire.
The girls went to meet the rest of the party, they were all there except Jun Pyo.
"Where's that hard headed leader of us?" Yi Jung had his arm around the waist of his date.
"He told me as soon as we were ready, we should go to the front part or the villa and wait." Woo Bin shrugged, they all knew their gestures bordered the dramatic.
Jan Di found Ji Hoo's eyes and she couldn't discern what he was thinking. She lightly cocked her head to a side to ask what was wrong, but he simply turned his gaze away.
They all started to walk toward the meeting place and when they finally arrived, they found Jun Pyo sitting near a table filled with every food one could possibly imagine.
She was still reeling at the abundance in front of her when she felt Jun Pyo kinda roughly pull her to another table, telling Jan Di that was all for her.
"Do you think I'm Godzilla or something?" There was no way she could eat all that. Still, Jun Pyo started talking about how she needed to eat things that had more potassium in them and so on and so forth.
She again felt Ji Hoo's eyes on her, but by the time she turned to look at him, he had stood up and left the room. When Jan Di turned to her plate again she found it full and several other little bowls with different things to try. Her throat still hurt so she knew she wasn't going to be able to swallow all of that comfortably. This made her think of the food that had been brought to her room and that Ga Eul nearly forced her to eat, telling Ji Hoo already knew Jan Di wouldn't want to because of her throat but that he had made sure to ask Ga Eul to order something light and easy to swallow.
Do not compare them again.
But she had just done that. It was really amazing to her how two people as different as them were such good friends.
Jan Di grabbed a fork and looked at Jun Pyo expectantly. To her great surprise, he took the hint and left her alone to eat. She chose the lighter dishes and ate bits here and there so as not to offend Jun Pyo's effort; for some reason, it seemed like he felt guilty about her drowning.
The night was uneventful, with a cheery atmosphere, good food and company and lots of laughter. They brought a champagne bottle and Jan Di drank two glasses, feeling the fuzzy feeling of the beverage pooling in the lower pit of her stomach and making her skin rise in temperature a degree or two.
Jan Di was talking with Ga Eul and Jun Pyo was trying to also be part of the conversation when Woo Bin approached them with a concerned look in his face.
"Did you know about this?" he handed his phone to Jun Pyo who, after reading whatever it was there, lost his previous relaxed expression.
"When did this happen?" Woo Bin called Yi Jung as well.
"The article is from today but it says there that their relationship isn't as new as we believe."
When Jan Di went to ask what they were talking about, Jun Pyo handed her the phone. Ga Eul huddled next to her and saw a picture on Min Seo Hyun, with a blinding smile on her face while taking the arm of a foreign man.
The new power couple that promises to take this country by surprise! The title read, and then it went to describe how this man was the next favorite candidate to take over the President, with royal blood in his veins and background. How he seemed to have it all, but always thought something missed until he met Min Seo Hyun, a successful Korean lawyer who had raised on her own two feet after rejecting her family's power.
Jan Di felt dizzy again, and this time it had nothing to do with the champagne. Ga Eul pulled her away from the group after giving the phone back to Woo Bin.
"Now I know why your Prince changed so much."
"Ga Eul, what am I going to do? I'm sure Ji Hoo sunbae must hate me now."
"What are you talking about?"
Jan Di remembered, clear as day, the words she had said to Ji Hoo months ago, about how Seo Hyun was like Princess Diana, that she was meant to help the people and find her own Prince to marry. Now her words had become true.
"I need to go" she told Ga Eul but they were both pulled back to the group. Soon enough, fireworks filled the air and all of them cheered at the beautiful display, but Jan Di's head wasn't in the pyrotechnic games, it was on the guy she liked, the guy she had kissed just the previous night, and on her understanding on why he had done so.
She was forced to stay throughout the whole celebration, not that she didn't try to escape, but it was impossible with all of them getting happier as the alcohol kept flowing. She and Ga Eul were the only ones that still held onto their first glasses of mojitos while they sipped as slowly as they could to avoid the refill that would surely follow as soon as they emptied the drink.
Jan Di went to the bathroom for a bit, and before getting out she thought this was her best chance to just ditch the party but as soon as she opened the door, she found Jun Pyo standing on the opposite side of the wall.
"What are you doing here?" She asked.
"Do you forget who owns this place?" That was right, he could probably even go inside the women's bathroom and no one will accuse him for it. He approached her and Jan Di could see he was already a bit tipsy.
"Geum Jan Di...Have you accepted my heart?"
Her breath hitched. She knew Jun Pyo was doing all of this because, for some strange reason, he liked her. Still, he was looking directly into her eyes and the least thing Jan Di could do, was to give him an honest answer. She took a deep breath and talked.
"Goo Jun Pyo...I'm very grateful for this whole gesture" Even if you dragged me and forced me to come "But I just don't-"
"Wait! Perhaps I'm rushing you."
"No, that's not it. I know what I feel." And I'm really scared of it.
Jun Pyo saw that she was serious about it, but he still had one more ace under his sleeve.
"Tomorrow," he said, "I will listen to your answer tomorrow. Just...sleep on it. I promise I'll listen to what you have to say at the end of the day of tomorrow." Jan Di thought it was stupid to delay the inevitable, but at least now she had an excuse to leave, so she nodded. Jun Pyo nodded too, before bidding her goodnight and going back to where the party was.
Jan Di knew this was her chance, she quickly went to the place where she had found Ji Hoo the previous night in the hopes to do so again. Luckily, she did.
He was there, sitting on that old boat, huddled against the wind and looking even more miserable than the day before.
She took off her shoes and started running until she was next to him. Ji Hoo knew Jan Di was there but he didn't turn to look at her.
"Is it true?" Was the first thing she asked "It's just a rumor, right?" But he didn't answer, and Jan Di felt her eyes burning at the tears that came rushing forward at the pain she started to feel in her chest. "I'm sorry. I really didn't-"
"It seems like you understand her better than I do." Ji Hoo finally turned to look at her.
"Sunbae…"
"He is someone who is very compatible with Seo Hyun. I would never be able to compare with him." The words fell from his mouth and tasted like acid and anger and self-pity and he hated that. Why couldn't Jan Di just go and leave him alone in his misery?
"It's not like that!" Her vehemence floored him "It can't be like that" and he could see a tear rolling down her cheek.
Why was she crying like that? Why did she seem so interested in what he felt? He got that she liked him, but did a simple like lead you to suffer for the other person as well?
Ji Hoo felt destroyed inside, what was there to do? Apparently, hold onto the girl who was next to him. He went and tightly embraced her, almost crushing her small waist with his arms. Jan Di hugged him back. He could feel her tears on his shoulder and his own coming to his eyes. Please, stop crying.
"Please, be happy" her voice was a whisper that forced him to close his eyes "Please, tell me you'll be happy. If Sunbae is suffering, I'll suffer too." Please, don't hate me, she thought with all her might.
He needed to see her, to look into her eyes for what he needed her to understand.
"How could I not like a girl like you?" She seemed surprised at his words, had she voiced the last part aloud? Before she could ask this, he leaned in and kissed her. It wasn't gentle or soft as the ones they'd shared the night before, this kiss carried sadness, defeat, hope, longing and the distinctive taste of surrender.
Jan Di tried to keep up as best as she could, for she wanted to receive whatever pain he could be feeling and share it so the burden lessened at least a bit.
After a minute or so, the eagerness started to dim, the kiss turned slow but kept on being deep, and when Jan Di felt a moist tongue touching her own, her knees failed her.
Ji Hoo supported her as he explored, properly, for the first time, her mouth.
His good judgement evaded him, whatever thoughts or considerations for his best friend he might have had went out the window when he felt Jan Di responding to his advances. Suddenly, it was too much but not enough, he needed more.
He needed more.
The kiss ended in between sweet pecks and nose touches.
"I…" God help him "You dropped your anklet in the sand yesterday. I have it in my room."
It was not a question, but the inquiry was not lost on Jan Di. Immature and inexperienced with boys as she was, enough mangas and TV soap operas let her know what this meant.
"Okay."
Ji Hoo took her hand before he could form any good reason to stop what he was about to do and led her to his room. They walked in quick strides, looking left and right to avoid any prying eyes and the moonlight as much as they could.
When they got to his cabin, Ji Hoo let her hand go and opened the door. He went in, held the door and looked at her. She could choose to wait outside, he would wait for two more seconds before going to grab the trinket she lost.
Jan Di knew the rhythm in which her heart was beating was erratic and loud, but still, she took a deep breath and went inside Ji Hoo's room.
When Ji Hoo saw her going in, he closed his eyes as if in pain. He would've understood if she didn't come in, or ran back to her own cabin, to the security of her own bed...but she had chosen to come in.
Jan Di kept on walking, still with the lights off; when she heard the unmistakable sound of the door locking.
Not closing. Locking.
If you closed your door, the system gave you one beep. If you locked down your room, the system gave you a three note tune.
She swallowed hard and turned to look at Ji Hoo, who seemed to also be surprised at how things were happening.
"Um...just...Sit wherever you'd like."
He wasn't sure if all of this was really happening when he saw Jan Di walking towards his bed and sitting down by the foot of it.
All the pretense he had of going to look for her anklet was forgotten.
He sat next to her, both of them saying nothing for a couple of minutes that felt like hours.
"You can go if you want to." Ji Hoo finally said "You don't have to stay."
"I want to stay," was her answer as she turned to look him in the eye.
"I'm not myself right now, and I'm not sure of what I am capable of." The ugly truth, not complete, but just enough for her to understand if she hadn't yet.
"I'm still staying with you."
Ji Hoo looked at Jan Di, trying to bring himself to push her away from his room, from his life, but he couldn't.
He kissed her. He had given her fair warning, and not at the same time. He wanted to have something that helped him squash the dark feelings inside him, and Jan Di managed to help him in that endeavor. He pushed her onto the bed and she let him do it, finding his face with her hands and caressing small patterns on his cheeks. Ji Hoo placed his hand on her hip and squeezed a bit at the flesh there, gaining a small yelp from Jan Di.
Her hands were trembling a bit, but still tried to be strong when she began to explore the person in front of her. Neck, shoulders, chest...Jan Di didn't dare to go any further, but her advances had emboldened Ji Hoo, who left her hip to pull at the hem of her dress and caress her thigh.
Her mouth left his in a surprised gasp that hid a small moan on her part.
Both of them were breathing hard, looking into each other's eyes, knowing where this was leading to, where it would end if they kept on going down this road.
Ji Hoo stood kneeled on the bed and offered her his hand.
Jan Di took it.
Standing up, Ji Hoo cradled her face in his hands, his eyes roamed across it and memorized how she looked right then...Cheeks flushed, lips swollen.
He swallowed before delving into her mouth again, not holding back, tasting her fully and enjoying the way she felt while trying to do the same. His hands left her face and traveled to her neck, looking for whatever was holding her dress up and finding a button. Without stopping, he let the button free and that's when Jan Di froze, gasping for air, grasping at his shirt. Ji Hoo kissed her jaw and trailed a path to her ear while letting the fabric fall from her. It didn't fall to the floor but to her waist. That was enough...for now.
Jan Di started shaking and tried to cover herself. She had a simple white strapless bra on and just then a hard cold realization came to her. She wasn't wearing any makeup, her panties didn't match her bra, she needed to take a shower -yes, another- and shave, she needed time to prepare for this, although not even a year would make her match the beauty of Min Seo Hyun.
Ji Hoo took her wrists and prevented her from shielding the view. Jan Di watched as Ji Hoo eyes hungrily took in all the exposed skin, lit only by the moonlight who sneaked in by his window. His hands caressed her shoulders down to her arms, her waist, her back...
Why was he looking at her like that? She didn't know, but she was the only one on display and that wasn't fair.
With all the courage she could manage, trying to find the buzz of the champagne and the mojito in her system, Jan Di pulled at the hem of Ji Hoo's shirt.
Ji Hoo stopped his inspection and looked into her eyes. Jan Di's expression was so innocent, asking for permission to look at him too, not raising her head, just her eyes and still pulling up his shirt a bit. His hands left the warm skin of her waist and went to her hands, to help her reveal himself to her. JI Hoo directed Jan Di and finally just stretched his arms until she removed his white shirt. When she used it to cover her chest, he took the garment away and tossed it on the floor, taking her hand and placing it on his chest. The feel of his galloping heart helped Jan Di calm down a bit.
Standing still, Ji Hoo waited for her to make the next move. Jan Di understood and, very slowly, traced her fingers across his chest; then she lifted her other hand and she rested the whole palm into the lower part of his back.
Lust.
She was scared at the feeling once again.
When the fortune-teller had told her she was going to lose something important, an image of her and Jun Pyo in her bedroom flashed in her mind. It had been awful, it had made her skin crawl...Later that night, she had kissed Ji Hoo, and after going to bed, another picture came to her mind. This time it was her Prince with her in her bedroom, undressing her and whispering sweet words of love into her ear. She had woken up feeling her panties wet. Jan Di thought about it, was that lust? She hadn't been sure, the embarrassment won over her curiosity. But now, standing before the real Ji Hoo, being able to touch him freely even if he didn't love her as she did him, she could feel the heat pooling once again in the cloth between her legs and thought that perhaps this was it...Lust.
She was afraid. Not of what he would do, not of him, never of him...But what about her? What was she going to do?
Just as the thought seeped into her mind, Jan Di felt Ji Hoo pulling her into his chest, his hands dancing once more over her skin, finding the clasp of the bra and quickly undoing it.
It was going to be okay, he had done this before, she just needed to let go and trust him.
The sound of her bra falling to the ground made Ji Hoo pull Jan Di deeper into him, feeling her breasts crushing against his chest, heaving with her heavy breathing. He took his time, feeling the warmth of the body in front of him. Seo Hyun had felt different. With them, things had happened way more quickly, even their most slow love-making was way faster than what he was doing right now. She was also taller, and she directed him, taught him what he needed to do...Now he was the one in charge of the ship.
When he ground his hips against hers, he felt Jan Di literally melting, fighting the heightened sensations she was feeling just to stay on her feet. Kissing her once more, shivering at the stroking of her fingers on his skin, he gently pushed her onto the bed one more time, discarding his sandals in the process.
The kisses on the bed began to become more exploratory on both of their parts, Jan Di tasted the skin of his neck and jaw, while Ji Hoo licked at her collarbone and took one of her hands to put above her head. The caress that started on her belly started to go further up slowly, one inch at a time until Ji Hoo had his hand hovering on one of Jan Di's breasts. She arched her back and met his hand, squirming when his fingers started playing with her.
She couldn't help the panting, Jan Di was a good swimmer, even if she had almost drowned that day, she was good, she could dive and stay underwater for a long time, but right then, she couldn't seem to keep any air inside. That and the constant throbbing in her inner regions wasn't making it easy to maintain any semblance of control.
As any other girl out there, she had imagined how her first time would be, and in none of those scenarios did it happen like this.
Her dress was taken off her with extreme care and a trail of kisses to her belly. When Ji Hoo went back to her, she felt his pants gone as well, a hard pressure against her pelvis.
Desperately, Ji Hoo kissed her again, roaming his hands everywhere on her skin, messing with her hair, making her flower disentangle and finally laid crushed under his ministrations.
Why had Seo Hyun left him? Why hadn't he been enough? Why hadn't he done enough? What could he have done? What if he had stayed in Paris and fought for her?
It wasn't fair, it wasn't fair to him or to Seo Hyun to think like that. It had been too late for them, even if they had spent a wonderful time together, it had just been the conclusion of a long time of puppy love. Thing is, it crushed him more than he thought possible.
And he had cried, he had shrunk and tried to discard his feelings for her even though he knew that wasn't the answer. The cold had started as soon as he had set foot on Korea, no amount of clothing or heating had done nothing for him...until Jan Di.
Geum Jan Di
He opened his eyes, and found a different face from the one he had been thinking of, her hair was darker and her eyes were screwed shut with force.
What was wrong?
That he was thinking of Seo Hyun when he had another woman in his bed.
That he was taking advantage of said woman's love for him to do what he was doing.
That he had been touching her, his hand inside her panties, while thinking of his ex.
He felt like crap.
Of course this was Jan Di's first time, and here he was, focused on a memory instead of her and her surrender to him.
Ji Hoo's desire softened at the sight before him. Jan Di was embarrassed, her legs opened while his thumb made circles around the place that made any woman shiver in pleasure...But she wasn't the woman he loved, she wasn't Seo Hyun.
What kind of bastard am I?
He forced himself to look at her, to get rid of any thoughts of Seo Hyun and to give Jan Di the release she deserved.
Taking off her underwear to have better access, he was about to return to his previous position when her legs trapped him, startling him for a bit as he felt her hands pulling his mouth to hers to taste him in a heated kiss…
He poured himself in the kiss, finding it easy to do so, it wasn't that he didn't like Jan Di, she just wasn't the woman he had fallen in love with.
Jan Di seemed at a loss after a few more minutes of heavy petting and kissing, so Ji Hoo returned his hand to the place between her legs, working slow strokes, marveling at the wetness and heady scent beginning to fill the room.
She moaned. He hadn't heard that before. Was this the first? Or had he simply been too occupied with his thoughts that he hadn't paid attention?
He cursed inside.
Pushing himself on her, he started to grind against her core and Jan Di gasped in pleasure, her hands on his biceps and small puffs of breath falling on his neck.
When she raised her eyes to his gaze, he saw her need, love and desire. Mouth open, trying to catch her breath and then teeth that bit on her lower lip from time to time, trying to control herself.
A tremor traveled from the base of his neck and morphed into a twitch that awakened his lust one more time. Ji Hoo found himself reflected in Jan Di's eyes, in those open, trusting, black pools of hers. One of his fingers entered her heat and it easily slipped in, his breath started to rag as he pushed in another one, caressing her clitoris again at the same time.
The tightness of her walls sucked his fingers in and the tautness of her body shocked him.
Jan Di was coming. Freely, fearlessly, beautifully and he had to control his breathing, for Ji Hoo felt the twitching of his masculinity almost losing the battle before the spectacle he was witnessing.
Feminine mewls left Jan Di as she tried to regain any semblance of composure. That had taken her by surprise, her legs were shaking, her heart was no longer functioning correctly. She could count with one hand the times she had done some self-experimentation, so to feel someone else's hand, Ji hoo's hand on her, had robbed her speech and thought. She could only feel and open herself to his touch. She felt tired, she felt happy, she felt sated.
But what about him?
When she was able to move again, she turned her eyes to his. What she found made her breath hitch. A hunger so clear, so raw…
Her hand slowly traveled down between their bodies and found the hardness of his. Ji Hoo shuddered at her touch and grabbed her hand to stop her. But Jan Di wasn't deterred and started to kiss his neck, his Adam's apple who bobbed up and down to her touches. When his mouth finally gave up and kissed her, his grip on her hand failed and she went back to touch him.
This time though, Jan Di got worried. True, she had felt him against her just a few minutes ago but…
How is this supposed to fit inside me?
She wasn't a fool, she knew the logistics of how this was supposed to happen, but to really feel with her hand just how big he was, that was a completely different thing.
Ji Hoo on the other part, seemed to be enjoying her inexperienced fondling a little too much, for he had removed his underwear and now they finally laid together naked on his bed.
The kissing restarted at a hot pace, limbs fumbling to find the most comfortable position, goosebumps covered her body when Ji Hoo's tongue found her nipple and whatever worry she had, Jan Di decided to simply trust him...So she let go.
Her body relaxed and her hips moved against his own. Ji Hoo grabbed himself in his hand and took position in front of her entrance, touching their most intimate places for the first time. Ji Hoo stopped his feast on her chest to look at Jan Di. He found her so perfectly disheveled and thoroughly kissed...He touched her cheek and she turned her face, found his thumb and sucked it.
Next thing they knew, was that Ji Hoo was sheathed in her.
Jan Di cried out her pain, keenly but lowly. Her nails dug into the flesh they were on and Ji Hoo sharply breathed in at his own share of pain. The tightness, the broken skin, the absolutely scalding sensation of Jan Di pushed him over the edge more and more as seconds ticked by.
There was no romance or slowness here, just the need to reach whatever was at the other side for them. Ji Hoo took one of Jan Di's knees and opened her more to him, the fit was tight, but they worked around it. His thrusts weren't quick, but they were deep. Ji Hoo tried to take his time, tried his best to be patient, but Jan Di's sounds, kisses and touches urged him to keep on taking her. He could actually hear the headboard banging against the wall with each one of his thrusts.
Jan Di was pinned down, trapped by the weight and motion of Ji Hoo's body. Her skin was covered in a thin sheen of sweat, and the sound of flesh against flesh could be loudly heard. His hands, although they could've touched any place he would've wanted to, were on her face or her thighs, holding her close, kissing her, sharing her breath.
Her hands trailed deep scratches down his back as she tried to hold on and Ji Hoo didn't care, he wanted Jan Di to hold on to him, he wanted to take her, but give himself to her too.
Right that second, all he could think, feel and focus on was Geum Jan Di.
His rhythm started to fail as he approached the end and he actually hit the pillow while grunting, trying to fend off his own carnal need to bite her and mark Jan Di as his. One more wet kiss, and a bite on his lower lip later, he couldn't hold it in anymore and spilled all of him inside of Jan Di. He sounded like a wounded animal, gasping for air, moaning at the pleasure of the release.
Jan Di had her eyes open, she had wanted to see what he looked like in that exact moment. Even if she hadn't reached her peak again, she wanted to watch him reach his own. The dull pain was still too present for her to feel the same satisfaction. However, to be able to give this to Ji Hoo, to take his mind off things, to lessen his pain, his burden...she was fine with that.
They embraced each other, sharing languid and slow kisses and looks. Ji Hoo was in awe of her, still amazed at her strength and his weakness. His back started to hurt a bit, no doubt due to Jan Di's nails but he could take it, that pain was nothing compared to how he had hurt her that night, both physically and emotionally. Ji Hoo eventually grew soft and disentangled from her arms to pull out as gently as he could. Jan Di's hiss let him know she was tender still.
She felt something oozing from out of her but didn't go to take care of it in the bathroom because Ji Hoo hadn't left the bed. He instead shifted so he could pull down the covers and she followed suit, letting herself be held in his arms.
Ji Hoo caressed her skin once more, but it felt caring and loving instead of desperate and lustful, not that she minded either type of touch either.
They shared another kiss and this time neither knew which one of them fell asleep first, pressed tightly to the other.
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Jan Di slowly opened her eyes.
The moonlight had passed long ago, at least, as far as she could tell from the orange tint the sky showed. When her gaze went to her right, she saw a man's naked back and brown-reddish hair. She sighed at the memories that came to her mind, and a bit at the pain she felt in her hips when she tried to move.
Her inner thighs felt weird, something sticky had already dried and it didn't feel good, she needed a shower. She sat up on the bed and felt places she didn't know she could feel, but didn't dwell on it too much when a shiver went through her body, complaining at the loss of warmth. Jan Di found her dress and underwear and quickly put it on, looking back from time to time at the sleeping form in the bed. The clock read 3.26am.
When she finally thought her hair was more or less tamed, she kneeled next to Ji Hoo's side of the bed.
He looked peaceful and tranquil and she blushed at being so taken by how handsome he was. Suddenly, her hand went to her neck and touched it lightly, making another memory come to the front of her mind.
She had made love...she had been made love to, by Yoon Ji Hoo.
Even if I wasn't the one in his mind...
She willed her tears away. The happiness she felt at what had happened couldn't be tainted by anything. She knew what she had set herself for when she entered his room last night, and Jan Di regretted not even one second of it.
She smiled and, ever so lightly, kissed Ji Hoo's cheek.
Jan Di turned around, picked up her shoes and started looking for his pants, she needed his room card if she wanted to get out. When she finally found it, she ran to the door, unlocked it and was about to get out when she saw a vase of flowers on a counter next to the door. She hadn't seen those when she first went in, perhaps because Ji Hoo had been standing there or perhaps because she was focused on something else.
It was absolutely beautiful, deep red with white borders and center...She took one, opened the door, looked back for the last time, smiled and finally left Ji Hoo's room.