Chapter 13- Spiraling

She sat there on her makeshift hospital bed, knees bobbing. Grissom had gone to Sara's apartment to her a fresh set of clothing for the next day and her over night bag, while Nick and Warrick were sent to Alyssa's.

"If I find anything out of place…" Alyssa started.

"Slightly OCD are we?" Sara said dozing off.

"…No…" she lied.

"I'm Exhausted," Sara whined

"No you my dear are on drugs, you'll pass out soon…" Alyssa looked over to find Sara knocked out, "…enough." She finished with a laugh.

The door swung open. She half expected the doctor, but came face to face with a lady with long red hair. Her eyes were strikingly green and Alyssa started to feel uneasy.

"I'm Dr. Bridge, I will be evaluating-"

"My stability, my mental health… I know." She sighed

The redhead read over her notes. "I see you've been through these enough times."

Alyssa looked over at Sara to make sure she was asleep. The lady turned around and dragged the sheet across for privacy.

"Better?" Alyssa shrugged in silence.

"I've been through sessions." Alyssa said looking at her hands.

"Why did you scream?"

Silence.

"You need to tell me."

Alyssa sighed. "I heard my Mother scream."

"Why?"

Alyssa sat up to be eye level with the woman as a tear trickled down her cheek.

"What do you want to know?" She finally asked the Doctor.

"Everything,"

Alyssa slouched a bit and leaned back on her pillow. "I was 13. We were going to a dance recital heading North through the intersection, on a green light and there was a red truck, heading left and ran the red." She hesitated and started to shake.

"My father blamed me for her death, anyway he could show me or any chance he could tell me… he would. No matter where we were or what I did, he'd let me know that I was the reason for her dying." Alyssa looked up, eyes red.

"How?" the Doctor said softly.

"Anyway he could, he'd take out his loneliness on me ..." She strained and stretched out her upper arm revealing burn marks and scares. She dragged her knees up to her chest still shaking. She felt a lump rise in her throat. "When I was 16, I had just, come home form school and he…." She gulped. "I-I found him…found him-"

Alyssa's hands flew to her head as screaming became louder. Tears squeezed out of her tightly shut eyes. The Doctor pressed the emergency call button as the monitor quickened rapidly. Doctors and Nurses rushed in and not one of the two women had previously heard a body enter the room mid conversation.

Then it went black.

"Sir You Must leave." A nurse ordered and a pile of people rushed in.

"What's going on? What happened to her?" Nick asked throwing the bag on the couch.

"She's gone." A nurse called as the screaming stopped. "Get her into intensive care immediately, we need some one monitoring her brain," called the doctor by her bed.

Nick watched as they rolled away the lifeless body.

"All I wanted was Dinner…." Nick said defeated.

Grissom & Warrick were all in the room next to Sara who had been woken by her colleagues' helpless screams.

"Sara did you hear anything at all?" Grissom asked again.

"No, nothing. Only screaming, where's Nick?" Sara looked around.

"Nick came in?" Grissom asked. He had arrived after Warrick who had been parking the truck.

Warrick nodded. "I didn't see him when I got in…I'll go find him." Warrick turned around and walked out.

Grissom turned to Sara and sat on the side of her bed facing her. "How are you feeling?" Grissom asked.

Sara looked taken back. "Well, I want to go home, my forehead is sore… but other then that, I feel guilty." Sara gave her boss a lopsided smile.

"Sara It's not your fault. There's nothing that can be done honey, we just have to wait. You know, I was worried Sara." Grissom said softly.

Sara's eyes shot open. "You were." She said disbelievingly.

Grissom nodded. "Now we can't go for dinner..." He teased.

"Well… we could order room service? Shouldn't we be waiting and watching for her?" Sara replied.

"Hospital food wasn't my idea of gourmet and we are waiting, Sara you need to eat." Grissom sighed and stood up. "I'll get some food from the cafeteria. What would you like?" Sara smiled closed mouthed. I'm having dinner with Grissom, in a hospital bed. Her mind began to wonder to other things that could be done on a hospital bed.

She suddenly felt the need for her UV light.

Snapping out of it she looked up with brown eyes, "salad…..with a coffee,"

"You had a dosage not long ago, Miss. Sidle, You're having juice.

Sara made a face as Grissom left, she sighed.

"Nick, HEY Nicky." Warrick said coming off the elevator. He had searched the entire hospital for his friend and found him in the waiting room of the intensive care unit.

Nick looked up then back at his hands.

"How's she doing?" Warrick asked. Nick just shrugged.

"No one will say anything, they keep running in and out." He continued. "You know I asked her for breakfast this morning. I was going to ask her to dinner or something later this week." Nick looked up at Warrick.

"Man that's rough." Nick nodded in agreement

"She'll pull through. What happened anyways?"

Nick looked at Warrick. "When she said no therapist, we should have listened. She wigged out when she was explaining her head pains, Rick she's got no one."

"Not true Nicky, she us," Warrick patted his friend on the back as Nick nodded.

Warrick's cell phone went off.

"It's Greg."

TBC...