Chapter 31- Freak

"Take it,"

"No."

"Just…Take it."

"No!"

"For the love of… Jesu-Holy Ch-Just Take the damn test."

"I am not taking it."

"Why won't you take it?"

"Because, I don't feel like it!" Alyssa sighed and faced the bathroom wall. All was fine before, Alyssa was about to take the test, then it all changed.

"What? But you Ju-"

"I. Don't. Want. To. Take. It! would you like me to spell it for you? I am NOT going to have a baby. It's impossible." She spun around and backed Nick into the door.

"Just take it."

"No."

"Holy SHIT!" Nick gave an angry laugh. "You know what, fine. FINE, I'm going to watch TV." He tossed the box on the sink and left the bathroom.

The brunette in the bathroom watched the man she loved leave and slammed her apartment bathroom door behind him, locking it with a loud click.

She'd had enough. She felt sick, hot and extremely moody. This wasn't going well Alyssa decided as she brushed her teeth. It had been nearly two days since their heart to heart in the locker room and she was already pushing him away. I must get a thrill from self torture She sighed to her self. She looked at the test then at her self in the mirror. "There is no explanation for this… this." She whispered and opened the box. If it was negative, then it was negative, if it was positive, well… that's a whole other problem…

Nick sat on the living room couch, squirming and flipping through channels from sports to animals to cartoons that were never around during his childhood. He looked at the empty hall, hoping to see a certain brunette walk in and cuddle at his side, like she would when they were at his apartment. He loved her, he truly didn't know how it happened, but he did, and as much as he maybe ready for a family, he didn't think she would be, for a while… if she ever would be.

Alyssa washed her hands and dried them as she looked at the cup and pregnancy stick on the back of the toilet then the timer. "Why do they have to be so…gross..." she whined as she opened the bathroom room door. Stepping into the hallways she looked around her hallway and walked slowly into the living room, only to find Nick flipping through channels. She watched his handsome profile, she noticed he had cut his sideburns a little but was letting his hair grow out. She liked it longer though. He must have sensed her, she decided, as her turned to face her. She watched him as he eyed her, "I'm sorry." She said quietly and stepped forward.

He shook his head, "I shouldn't have pushed you, it's just, it's been 2 days and I was-"

"Getting anxious, I know, me too." She gave an apologetic smirk. "Forgive me?"

Nick smiled and nodded, motioning her over with open arms.

Alyssa stepped forward but nearly fell over as a ding came from her bathroom. She watched as Nick furrowed his eyebrows and watched as Alyssa's face fell and she stuttered, "I-Uh-I-I'll be right back." She turned and scurried to the bathroom.

Alyssa slowly walked through the doorway, eyes shut tight She had not doubt in her mind she'd be a horrible mother, she hadn't known her own long enough to see what a good mother would be like. She clenched her fist and fought tears. 1…2…3… She shot her eyes open and looked at the stick. She stepped forward cautiously to read the sign on the stick. As she caught sight of it, she sucked in a breath and felt her self get dizzy. As she steadied her self at the sink, she caught a glimpse of her reflection in the mirror. She looked down her brown hair and her into her own green eyes. She wasn't crying. She should have been, but wasn't. Dropping her gaze to her flat stomach, Alyssa placed her hand on it, mesmerized. And at that very moment, the same scared broken brunette decided she'd be the best mother she could, and that she wasn't alone. "I don't need to be alone." She whispered.

Nick stood in the middle of the living room in Alyssa apartment. He took a look around and caught sites of all the bright colors, the pale yellows, oranges, soft reds. He noticed she tried to surround her self with warm colors, with happy colors. He wondered what her timer was for, but deep down her knew, he knew she gave in and took it. Hearing a shuffle behind him caused Nick to slowly turn and face Alyssa, whose head was down, staring at her bare feet and cupped pajama pants.

"Was that…" he trailed off as she nodded.

"Are you…?" She nodded again, glare on her carpet.

"Positive?"

"Positive…" she whispered.

"So you're having a baby?"

"We're having a baby." She corrected him.

Nick place his index finger under his chin pushed it up and smirked.

"We can do this…?" he asked cautiously.

"Yes, I think so."

"We can," he said more confidently as he pulled her into a tight embrace.

"I hope it has your confidence." She mumbled into his chest.

"And you're eyes and your brains," he added.

"No, both our brains," She corrected looking up.

"We'd have a pretty smart kid." He said letting go of her to look down at her.

She nodded and gave a coy smile. "Yea but I hope it has my wit." She winked and stepped towards the phone.

"Who are you calling?" he watched as she dialed.

"My adopted sister," She smiled and put the phone to her ear.

"You have an adopted sister?" He asked, but was rewarded with a shake of her hand.

Alyssa chatted lightly for about 3 minutes, soaking in the congratulations and daily happenings from back in Jersey, before she announced she had a guest and had to go.

"Alright, By Rachel, Yes. Ok." Alyssa hung the phone up and turned to Nick, "Yes I do."

Nick raised his eyebrows. "What else don't I know about you," He began to panic.

Alyssa walked over and placed her hand on his arm, gently. "She's 4 years older, I was her foster sister and then her parents decided to adopt me a year later. They died about 2 years ago." She said looking up at Nick as he nodded. "I'll tell you whatever you need to know, Nick." She said reassuringly.

Nick smiled down at her and for the first time in 4 days, he leaned for and planted his lips on her softly. Alyssa pressed into his lips, longing for more, to make up for what she lost. Just as Nick's tongue slipped between her parted lips, another timer went off.

"What the…?"

"Yea we have to leave for work." She moaned and pulled back.

"You time everything?"

Alyssa nodded and scurried into her bed room slipping on her pants and shirt for work. "Yes." She finally called as she touched up her make up and ran her fingers through her hair, running into the main room.

"Ready?" she asked rushing past him and slipping her heels on.

"That was fast." Nick said slipping his shoes on.

Alyssa nodded and pulled two Tupperware buckets from the fridges and some fruits.

"Not OCD are we?"

"A little," she admitted pulling the door open. "Out of my house Stokes," She teased.

"Freak," He whispered and kissed her forehead.

"Yea well you love me for it." She smirked and closed the door.

TBC...

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