Another Kanone fic from me. I wanted to capture his mindset when he became a Hunter, before facing Eyes and the others. Slight shounen-ai, Kanone's thoughts, addressed to Eyes.

Disclaimer: Spiral and Kanone are still not mine.( sniffles quietly.)

On with the story.

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/ Betrayal, such a funny word. /

I wonder who started it. Did I betray you? Or was it you all along?

/ Traitor. /

Is what you will call me. I don't care anymore.

/ Promise. /

I couldn't keep it. I wonder why. I left your side.

/ Even if it is complete darkness, if we are together…. It will be alright. /

So, why? Why couldn't we do it, Eyes? Why didn't we just keep walking together?

/ Truth. /

The only thing I ever told you. But you never believed me. It was just me talking to myself.

I knew it. But it still hurts.

/ Happiness of the believer. /

All it took was a single lie, to tear us apart and throw us on different paths. Maybe we were nothing special to begin with.

/ Reason. /

I wish I had one. I wanted to stay, believe me, I did. But you didn't need me anymore. And I had to leave.

/ Lost. /

Is what I'm right now. Stuck in the middle of nowhere.

And I don't know where I'm walking.

What I do know is that it's…….

/ Cold. Lonely. /

Destiny was never really important to me. I would always accept whatever fate threw at me, at us. I did my best to ensure that we survived, with our own strength.

The only thing important to me through my entire existence is……..

/ You. /

It's true. It's you. You, you and only you. Without you, I won't last. Kanone Hilbert will be reduced to nothing. Maybe, I've already dissolved into nothingness.

Without you, I'll …….

/ Die. /

It's a good thing I'm not afraid of death, ne?

I don't expect you to shed tears when that happens.

And you won't even have to, if I ……

/ Kill you First. /

Call me selfish if you must. But I'll do it. I'll end everything. You and the others. I want all of you, to die by my hands. It has dragged on for too long already. After all, I can't let any of you be killed at the hands of an ordinary Hunter now, can I?

Especially you, Eyes.

Because, I'm still very much…….

/ In love with you. /

You are something I'll never regret.

Believe it or not, I'm happy that we met, Eyes. Even if I had to be a blade child for that to happen. I'm happy we could grow up together, that we accompanied each other for that short span of time.

You never flinched when I threw a knife at you. You never moved, didn't even blink. And that was not your defiance. It was your faith, in me.

You never shared my beliefs, but you trusted me, didn't you? You probably still do.

Just like that, you would place your life in my hands. Everytime. Without question.

And I never really understood your reasons. I still don't.

But what I do know now is how much I …..

/ Miss it, Need it, need you. /

But my love has become warped. And I don't mind hurting you…..

/ As long as it's me, and as long as it's you. /

In the end I couldn't become your friend or lover.

Maybe that's why, I became…..

/ Your Hunter. /

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a/n: this is basically for the manga. my knowledge of the manga is limited to spoilers from the net, so please don't be mad at me if anything seems OOC. I just love Kanone too much, and can't stop writing about him!

I hope the writing style was not too confusing. it just worked out that way.

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thank u for reading.