Country Kind Of Love

Guest: Sorry for the cliffhanger! And thank you :)

LoveLastsForever: It does come close to that! But not all the way… This actually is version 2 of how this could have gone, so I'm kinda sorry...

NetflixPerson01: Well, it does seem like a good option, I think if I were her I'd go back...

Addison-fan: Thank you! I hope you'll still love this one...

Luvaddek: But do you really fight if there is nothing left to fight for?

Em: Oh, you KNOW? :D Had I read this review sooner she (spoiler alert) would have left! :D

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Chapter 13

"Are you going somewhere?" Miranda asked once she was inside of the apartment and saw a small suitcase by the door.

"I'm going back to New York." Addison's voice was barely above a whisper as tears streamed down her cheeks once again.

"Please don't tell me you're serious about this."

"I am. I hurt the one person I've ever cared about and I can't ever fix this again. So I'm leaving. Not because I want to be with Jason but because seeing Derek breaks my heart." She shrugged her shoulders and looked at the ground. Of course she knew that leaving never was the answer to anything but she just didn't know what else to do.

"But don't you think there's a possibility you can fix this between you and Shepherd?" When Addison only shook her head Miranda sighed. "Don't leave. If you really care about him, don't leave because even if the chances might seem slim now you'll never know if things couldn't have worked out if you just leave." She set the ice cream down on the coffee table. "Just think about it, okay? And I'd miss you if you left." She nudged her friend slightly, who couldn't help the slight smile.

"Thanks, Miranda. I'll think about it."

xxx

"She's leaving." Miranda came to stand next to Derek that night at the hospital. He looked even more tired than he had before and just slowly turned his head to look at her. "I know you care about her and she's not leaving because of the other guy but because she can't be around you."

Without a word Derek closed his chart and began to walk down the hall, getting faster and faster with each step he took until he was running as fast as he could.

"Derek." Addison gasped when she opened the door to her apartment and saw who was standing on the other end. Without saying a word he pulled her close and kissed her with all the pent up feelings he had been holding back for the past week. Her arms immediately came to wrap around his neck as she pulled him inside and he softly pushed her back, trapping her between him and the now closed door. Slowly his fingers found their way underneath the top she was wearing and when she moaned against his lips he pressed her against the door just a little more firmly. Once her top was shed and she had unbuttoned his shirt he began to trail kisses along her jaw, down her neck and towards her chest, causing her breathing to grow more shallow before she pushed him away just slightly and took his hand in hers to pull him towards her bedroom. Derek's mind was spinning and he couldn't have formed a coherent thought if his life depended on it, especially when he looked at her standing in front of him. Within a few seconds her lips were back on his and he slowly lowered her onto her bed until her back hit the mattress before moving on top of her, never breaking their kiss. For a moment she debated whether to stop this and talk because it really was what they should have been doing but then he ran his fingertips up her sides and over the material of her bra as his lips found that spot behind her ear and her mind went completely blank. Addison moaned and closed her eyes when he unclasped her bra and softly sucked on the now exposed skin as her fingers moved to the button of his jeans, which she opened and pushed the jeans down as far as she could before he pulled back slightly and took them off, hers following only moments later. Her heart was threatening to beat out of her chest when their gazes met and after only mere seconds she couldn't take it any longer and pulled him down further so she could kiss him again. And then everything became a blur and all that was left was passion.

xxx

The next morning Addison was leaning against the railing and looked down on the city in front of her. She had been called into the hospital early that morning and had reluctantly left a sleeping Derek behind in her apartment. When she thought back of everything that had happened between the two of them she still couldn't quite believe it. He had actually come and she couldn't help the smile on her lips when she thought back to last night's events. When she had packed her bags with the intention of leaving for good she had been completely heart broken but then he had knocked on her door and now everything seemed to be going back to normal. Finally.

"Oh, thank goodness you didn't leave." Miranda let out a breath of relief when she approached her friend. When she had seen the packed bags she had been sure that Addison would leave and Miranda was sure that her friend would have left if she hadn't had a visit from a certain someone. "So I'm guessing telling Shepherd you were leaving was one of my better ideas."

"That was you?" Addison turned her head to the side and smiled at Miranda, who only nodded her head. "Thank you."

"I figured that would be enough to get you guys to talk again."

"Well, we haven't really talked yet…" Addison sighed and ran her fingers through her hair.

"What? But he—" Miranda stopped herself before continuing. "Never mind, I get it…"

"Yeah, I got called in this morning and since there really wasn't enough time then and it was five in the morning I figured we could just talk today…"

"You sound uncertain."

Addison just shook her head and looked back at the city. "When I woke up I was so happy and the more I think about it the more it starts to gnaw at me that we haven't talked. I didn't ask him why he came over, I was just so happy to have him there, with me. To know that, apparently, he missed me as much as I missed him…" She took a deep breath. "But thinking about it now I'm just so unsure…"

"Maybe you should just start overthinking it." Miranda shrugged her shoulders. "I mean, the two of you were pretty sickening and from what I've heard around the hospital Shepherd doesn't get like that over just anyone."

"Miranda, I honestly wonder why people call you 'the nazi' because you're really one of my favourite people here."

"Don't tell the others though, it'll ruin my reputation." Miranda winked when her pager went off. "Good luck with Shepherd."

"Thank you. For everything." Addison smiled softly.

xxx

Later that night Addison was sitting in the gallery, watching one of Derek's surgeries along with a few interns. But when Derek's eyes met hers a strange feeling overcame her. He didn't look like he normally did when he spotted her during on of his surgeries. She didn't know what it was but something seemed different because his eyes always gave him away. When he left the operating room she closed the chart in her lap that she had just stared at after their strange moment earlier and slowly got up. Maybe Miranda was right - maybe she was really overthinking everything. With a deep breath Addison got up and walked out of the gallery and when she turned the corner there he was, standing right in front of her and suddenly she had no idea what to say so she just stood there and looked at him.

"Can we talk?" He asked after a few moments of them just staring at each other and Addison nodded her head before following him through the door to the stairwell.

"Derek, I'm sorry I left so early this morning but I got called in and –" she started but he interrupted her.

"Last night was a mistake." He said without even looking at her. Derek tried to look at everything but at the woman in front of him so he didn't see her eyes widening slightly. He didn't see the tears forming in her eyes, how her fingers trembled ever so slightly when she brushed a strand of loose hair out of her face and he didn't see how heartbroken she looked. "Addie, we made a mistake last night." He repeated with a sigh and ran his fingers through his hair. "That wasn't supposed to happen. Not after everything that's happened."

Addison took a deep breath and nodded her head, unable to reply and somehow wondering how she was going to keep on standing because all she wanted to do right now was to just lie down, draw all the curtains shut and cry. A mistake. A mistake. That's what he thought it all was.

"I'm sorry, Addie." Now he looked at her and saw her cringe slightly when he called her Addie. "But it was just—"

"A mistake, I get it." She whispered and looked at the floor. "I should go." She said after a moment and quickly walked out of the door, back onto the busy halls of the hospital before he had a chance to say anything. Addison felt like her heart had been broken into millions of pieces. He thought that it had been a mistake. That, apparently, there was no going back to how things were. Before he had knocked on her door she had thought it couldn't get any worse but this right now she felt like she couldn't breathe or feel anything anymore. She didn't know how she made it out of the door and she didn't understand how the stars could still be shining above her when she felt like her entire world had just broken down.

I'm sorry you guys but I wrote two versions of this chapter and this is the one I thought would be most appropriate. I know it seems cruel right now but them just making up didn't seem right, it didn't seem very realistic, I mean, I'm far too old to believe that it would have been realistic.

Please tell me what you think. Reviews are love ;) and suggestions are always welcome, I hope you're not too sad.