So sorry about the long update! So, so, so, so, SO SORRY!
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Chapter 5
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Emma's eyes fluttered open and she just sat lay there for a moment, not sure where exactly she was looking, then suddenly, two eyes popped open.
Emma screamed and jumped up which simply caused the owner of the eyes to do the same thing, she then recognized the person in question.
"Jay?" she exclaimed.
Jay rubbed his head as he noticed his black cap strewn on the floor.
"Yep…the one and only." He said before collapsing back onto the bed.
"Oh my god." Emma said, checking her body over, "We didn't…like…did we?"
"Uh…" Jay thought for a moment before realizing what she was talking about, "NO! I just came in here to check on you and then well…you were sleeping so I got into bed with you and fell asleep, is that a crime?"
Emma rolled her eyes and muttered a 'whatever'.
"Nice choice of pajamas, Green Peace." Jay said.
Emma glanced down at her pajamas; she was wearing a white wife beater that rode to her belly button along with a pair of silky mint green pajama pants that had monkeys on them.
Emma rolled her eyes, "Thanks…you wouldn't have to have seen me in them however if you would have just stayed in school instead of coming here and crashing in my bed with me."
"Hey now, I ditched school for you so you should be happy." Jay said with a smirk that only yelled 'sarcasm' and nothing but.
"I have to tutor you anyway, so let's just get started, okay?"
Jay nodded, "Sure."
Emma gave a small smile and ran up the stairs.
Jay tilted his head back and sighed before jogging after her.
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After an hour of useless tutoring, Emma dropped the pencil on the table and leaned back against the couch, letting out a long sigh of frustration, "How can you not get this? It's easy!" she exclaimed.
"Yeah, for someone like you, Miss Straight A's." Jay said sarcastically.
"Well maybe if you paid attention in school and actually went more than every other day, you might understand the curriculum as well, but no, you spend your time with Alex and Amy and Towerz and usually ditch school so it's not my fault that you're in need of a tutor." Emma said.
"I do pay attention in school FYI; there are just more important things in the world than school, okay?"
"Yeah, I know there are more important things than school but drugs, and alcohol, and hooking up aren't them." Emma said offensively.
"You sure as hell didn't mind to seem hooking up much last year." Jay said stubbornly.
Emma stared at him, her blue/green eyes cold, "Don't bring up that shit from last year Jay. You gave me gonorrhea."
"How many damn times do I have to say I'm sorry to you Nelson? Huh? How fucking many?" Jay asked, shooting up from the couch.
Emma got up as well and marched right over to him until they were almost standing nose to nose, "You can't apologize for what you did to me Jay, it was my own damn choice but you should have been a lot more responsible but I take half the credit for actually doing it in the first place, I never should have."
"Then why did you?" Jay asked, his arms crossed over his chest.
"Excuse me?" Emma asked, pretending not to have heard the question, for she did not want to give the answer.
"Why did you hook up with me in the van then if you didn't want to?"
Emma gulped, "Because I was stupid last year, I guess." She lied...true, it had been stupid of her, but that wasn't the main reason.
"Sure…okay. I can read you like a book Nelson, so why not just tell me the real truth?"
Emma let out a sigh, "Because when I was with you, I felt a lot better than I had since the shooting. You made me feel free, and like I could have fun, I guess that I had feelings brewing for you and that's pretty much it."
Jay's heart began to hammer, "You had feelings for me?"
Emma nodded bashfully, "Yeah, I guess I did."
For some reason, as soon as those words dropped from her lips, it seemed as if the gap between her face and Jay's was growing smaller and smaller.
Emma could feel her cheeks burning and her heart pounding against her chest before she finally broke away and came to her senses, "But that was then, and this is now. So let's just get back to tutoring, okay?" she asked and then spun around quickly, hoping to decrease the pounding of her heart.
Jay sighed, "Okay." He said and moved back over to the couch.
"Do you want anything to drink or anything?" Emma questioned.
"Nah, I'm okay." Jay said.
"Well, I'm thirsty." Emma responded and walked into the kitchen, grabbing a bottle of water from the fridge and then twisting it open.
Just then she heard a door shut.
Emma glanced over and noticed that Jay was no longer on the couch, as soon as she heard his Civic driving off; she knew she had officially been ditched.
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Jay drove down the road, his radio blasting.
He wasn't sure why he had exactly ditched Emma Nelson, perhaps because she wouldn't kiss him.
But why would he get mad about that? He had Alex, and Emma was well…Emma. Not a likely candidate for who he would date.
Why would I even think for a second about dating her? Jay asked himself.
He didn't need to though, he knew the answer already; he was falling for her just like he had last year.
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Jay pulled into the driveway of Alex's small and rustic house only to see her run out of it and stomp over to him.
"Where the hell were you today!" she exclaimed.
"Whoa, sorry. I just didn't feel like going to school." Jay said.
"You just ditched me!" Alex exclaimed, "If you're cheating on me you better say it now instead of later, because then, maybe I'll go a bit easier on you when I kick your ass!"
Jay backed off a bit as he got out of the car, "I'm not cheating on you. And you keep secrets from me too, like Vancouver!" Jay yelled right back.
Alex's eyes widened before the fury entered them again, "That was what I was trying to tell you at school before you just walked out of there!"
"Well, I'm sorry. But I'm listening now, so why are you leaving me and going to Vancouver?"
Alex sighed and placed her hands on her hips, "My sister, she's having trouble…financially. Since I was always the independent and 'most likely to be successful in life' one in our family, she thinks I can help her get out of debt and some other stuff like that."
"Oh, sorry." Jay said.
Alex glanced at him with confusion, "What is up with you anymore? You're timid now, it's driving me crazy!"
Jay let out a chuckle, "I'm…sorry?"
Alex rolled her eyes.
"Well what do you want me to do to make you feel better than you have felt all day?"
Alex glanced up at him suggestively and nodded her head back towards her house, "Mom's out…dad's at work."
Jay nodded and pulled her into a soft kiss before guiding her back into the house, trying to make himself believe that this was what he really wanted.
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Emma flipped through the channels on her television repeatedly three times boredly.
I can't believe he ditched me, that jerk. I should have known that would happen.
Just then, her phone rang.
Emma picked it up and glanced at the Caller ID which read, M SANTOS.
Emma pressed TALK.
"Hello?"
"Hey." Manny said from the other line, "Where were you today?"
"I was up late last night, so I pretty much just slept all day." Emma said.
"Oh…" Manny said, "Well I was thinking of going to the mall, do you want to come with? I totally need a new outfit."
"For what?" Emma asked.
"Doesn't matter," Manny said, "so do you want to come?"
Emma shrugged her shoulders, "Sure."
She could just tell that Manny was grinning, "Okay, great. Be there in a bit." She said and clicked off the phone.
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"See, Em? This is exactly what we needed." Manny said with a grin as she and Emma strolled through the mall corridors with many shopping bags in their hands.
"Yeah…sure." Emma said mindlessly, glancing around the mall at everybody around them.
"Great, there's the Beer Brigade." Manny muttered under her breath.
Emma's blonde head looked up only to see Towerz, Amy, and Jay with his arm snaked around Alex's waist, and they were walking towards them.
Jay continued to fixate his eyes on anything besides Emma but he was feeling that it was near impossible, because she was practically staring him down to a pulp.
"Hey, Nature Girl, why don't you go and focus your eyes on somebody besides my boyfriend?" Alex asked, shooting her an evil look with her oceanic eyes as the groups brushed past each other.
"Yeah, I'm not interested." Jay said coldly.
Manny rolled her eyes, "Oh lay off it losers! We'll see you at the party."
Amy's eyes widened, "You're coming to the party? Who the hell would let two preps like you in?"
"Spinner thanks." Manny snapped.
"Well, I'll have to be sure to tell them thanks for opening the party to the public."
"I'm only going because Spinner wants to rekindle our romance so I said I'd meet him at this party and I'm sure Emma would hate to miss out on it."
"No not really." Emma whispered into her ear.
Manny shushed her and turned back to the others, "So we'll see you tonight at Sean's place."
Alex rolled her eyes, "Yeah, whatever." She said boredly.
Manny grinned in return, "Great! Bye now, c'mon Em." She said and led her best friend out of the mall.
Manny began to walk towards her car before Emma grabbed her wrist and pulled her back, "Manny, what the hell was that!"
"We're going to a party, what else would it be?"
"I don't want to go to that party." Emma said.
"Em, I'm not going to a party like that alone! You're my best friend, and I just figured you'd want to come too."
Emma shook her head, "Yeah, well I don't."
Manny glanced up at her with her pleading dark eyes, "Em, please…I don't want to go alone."
Emma tried to dart her green eyes away as Manny began the puppy dog pout.
"Please Em…please, please, please?" she practically began to jump up and down.
Emma sighed and glanced down at the ground, contemplating.
Well I don't really want to go and have to face Jay and Alex making out the whole time…but if I wore a really hot outfit, I could make him jealous. Wait…why would I want him to make him jealous?
Cuz you like him stupid. The other side of her conscience said.
Doubtable…
You know you do…and you bought some really hot outfits tonight.
Not hot enough…
Ooh, so you do admit it? You do want Jay to think you look hot.
Well obviously!
Then wear one of those outfits and make him wish that he would never have left this afternoon…
He likes Alex…not me.
I'm pretty damn sure he likes you.
Well nothing I could wear is good enough.
Something is…just do it Em!
Don't make me sound like a Nike commercial!
We're the same person, just opposite sides of the brain; don't make us seem like two different people.
Don't make us sound like two different people then!
Wear the outfit.
What if it doesn't do any good?
You'll never know unless you try…
Damn it!
"Okay, fine…I'll do it." Emma said with a sigh.
Manny squealed and threw her arms around her best friend's shoulders, "You're the best Em!"
I better look the best too…
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Okay, there was Chapter 5 and I hope you liked it!
Once again, so sorry about the long updates! I was finishing up the school year and all but now I am yours for the summer… (Cheesy grin) lol, so I will be updating a lot more frequently since I'll be able to get more writing done!
Okay so please review! And please no flames!
Lotsa love!
-Degrassichick
P.S. Hope all the conscience talk didn't confuse you. The bold print was signifying one side of the conscience and the regular was obviously the other side!