A/N: Okay… another angsty chapter (I hope) though not much to do with Jate… okay here you go!
Disclaimer: I wish I owned LOST… then I could make Jack cry all the time…
(Jin's point of view)
I'll admit it… I have a bit of a temper. I didn't always used to be like this though. It was only after I started to work for Sun's father when the temper started up. He trained me to flare up when I didn't get what I wanted and to remain calm and cool when things were going my way. It's become a part of me even though I hate it. It's affected Sun a lot though because she has a mind of her own. She disobeys me and constantly challenges me and it causes the angry side of me to take over. Sun doesn't know though that I love her free and independent spirit. All the time I watch her and wish that I could be more like her and less like me. It hurts me when I yell at her or destroy the things she loves in a fit of anger. Not only does it hurt me emotionally but also then I have no way of speaking with the other survivors besides my hand gestures. I never remember how much I need and love Sun until she's distant from me and isn't there to support me. I take many things for granted and Sun is one of them.
(No point of view)
Sun sat in her tent, fighting the tears back. She thought about Jin and how angry she was with him and how much he hurt her. Just at that moment though Kate stormed past her tent with tears streaming down her own face. Worried for Kate, Sun forgot about her Jin problems and dashed out to see if Kate was alright.
"Kate! Kate wait!" Sun saw Kate visibly tense but slow down when she recognized her voice. Sun took that as a sign of permission and dashed over to Kate's side. "What's going on Kate?" Sun asked with concern etched in her voice.
"It's nothing!" Kate lashed out savagely at Sun. Kate's fierce look immediately faded though once she saw the hurt and confusion written on Sun's face. "I'm sorry Sun but… it's too complicated to explain."
"Is it about Jack?" Sun suggested and Kate's eyes nearly popped out of her head. Sun smiled weakly at Kate's reaction and didn't need any other explanation. "I suppose it's a woman thing… to know when another woman is having men problems." Kate smiled softly but she also noticed that Sun's own eyes were slightly puffy and red.
"How's Jin?" Kate asked casually but immediately dropped it when she saw anger and sadness flash across Sun's face. Sun appreciated the effort but wanted desperately to turn the conversation back towards Kate.
"So… do you want to talk about it?" Kate hesitated for a moment but finally unleashed her emotions starting with the kiss and then everything after that. Sun nodded in understanding and gave the best advice she could think of.
"I think that if you want to stop hurting so much you need to just talk to Jack. Maybe you could even tell him what you just told me," Sun said wisely but Kate didn't buy it. She smiled anyway and thanked Sun gently.
"Thanks Sun… for listening to me. I don't think I've ever put so much confidence in one person… if you don't mind though I think I might want to be alone for a while." Sun nodded and left Kate to her thoughts.
Kate settled herself on her favorite spot on the beach and merely watched the waves for a moment. Her thoughts immediately turned to Jack though and their last conversation together.
"Am I really that far out of the loop Jack? Am I officially kicked out of your club now?"
"Well maybe you should've thought about that before you decided to randomly kiss me and then run away!"
Kate constantly beat herself up about that kiss. Not really the fact that she had kissed Jack but more that she chose that particular moment to kiss him and then get so confused and upset that she just left him there. She knew it wasn't fair to Jack but she didn't know what else to do. Kate buried her head in her arms and began to sob in them. She made so many mistakes in her real life and now… Kate continued to sob at this thought. She remembered Jack on the beach that day when she had tried to tell him about her past.
"Everyone deserves a second chance…"
Kate sobbed even harder because she knew that now she was screwing up her new life. The life that she had started on this island was getting worse and worse.
"I'm worthless… Jack doesn't deserve a screw up like me anyway. He would probably only want to fix me anyway! What if I don't want to be fixed? I know now that I don't want to be Jack's newest project!" Kate thought, savagely attacking herself and then rounding on Jack. She saw that wedding ring that he kept hidden all the time. "Was she just a project too? Once she was fixed he dropped her for someone else who was broken?" This thought sent Kate over the edge and she decided right then and there that she wanted nothing more to do with the survivors or Jack. Standing up Kate ran at break neck speed to the jungle, enjoying the thrill of the unknown and danger that she was plunging into. She always did.
Meanwhile Sun was dreaming of a distant memory. It was of a time after she was married and taking English classes.
"Jin! How come you're home so early?" an excited Sun cried as her husband walked through the door three hours early. Jin smiled at his wife and gave her a tender kiss on the top of her head.
"You're father decided that I should come home early to see you. He knows and I know that you get lonely here." Sun smiled a brilliant smile.
"Well that's great! I wasn't going to start on dinner for another hour or so but I can put something quick together for us!" she exclaimed excitedly and Jin nodded his head.
"I'm going to go get changed out of these work clothes and take a quick breather." Sun nodded and there was concern in her eyes. She knew that her father over worked Jin and that most days when he did come home when she was awake he just went to bed without a word to her. It pained her to see him so stressed all the time. Pushing these concerns behind her Sun preheated the oven and began working on Jin's favorite meal. While she was waiting for water to boil she saw Jin's briefcase was still sitting on the floor. Deciding to take it to her and Jin's room for Jin she lifted it up to carry it. The only thing was once she lifted it up the lid popped off and all of it's contents spilled out. Sun suppressed a cry of shock as she saw knives that had a rusty color on them (she later recognized it as dried blood), blood stained shirts, pictures of people that were labeled with either "Owes Money" or "Threat", and a list of names. Just at that moment Jin popped his head out to ask what the wonderful smell coming from the kitchen was.
"Sun…" the words dropped from his mouth though when he saw Sun standing there with the open briefcase and its spilled contents. "What are you doing Sun." Jin didn't ask it like a question though. Sun stared like a deer caught in the headlights for a moment but then began her excuse.
"Well… I thought that you might like it… if I put your briefcase away for you… but when I picked it up…" Sun didn't get to finish though because Jin was now close to yelling.
"How many times do I have to tell you NEVER to touch my things from work Sun!" Jin bellowed. Sun shrank back in fear, Jin can be pretty intimidating when he's angry.
"I'm sorry Jin… i-it was an accident! Can we just pretend that it didn't happen…"
"NO WE CAN'T SUN!" Jin yelled and he slapped Sun in his fit of rage. There was a tense silence where the two just stared at each other. Sun carefully picked herself up from the floor (the slap knocked her down) glared at Jin and ran. She ran from the apartment and tried to ignore Jin yelling her name after her. Suddenly she found herself at the apartment where she learned English. Sun remembered what happened at the last lesson… her teacher had implied that he loved her more than Jin and at the moment she believed it to be true. Taking a deep breath Sun opened the apartment door and closed it carefully behind her.
Sun woke up in surprise and in tears. Jin heard her sobs from outside the tent and rushed to her side.
"What happened? What's wrong?" Jin asked quickly in Korean but Sun just shrank away from him.
"Get away from me! Get away from me Jin!" she screamed and looking hurt, Jin left.
A/N: Okay… I lied… there was quite a bit of Jate angst in that chapter… that wasn't particularly FUN to write but it was interesting to write. Please review!