Confession

Disclaimer: I don't own neither teh songs expressed in this strand norTsubasa. Copyright to CLAMP and the songs are copyright to their respective owners.

Intro: My first song fic! Yay! This is a sweet song. This idea popped into my head while reading the lyrics. So here is fic numero twelve. Next fic is lovely and lucky number thirteen!

Strand Rating: Sugesstive/Sexual Themes, Language, Shounen-Ai, Yaoi, Alcohol References, and let's say Nudity for the fun of it. (sticks out tongue)

Pairing: Fai x Kurogane – Tsubasa RESERVoir CHRoNiCLE

A/N: The shy side of Fai… (sighs)

Song: Avril Lavigne – Things I'll Never Say


I'm in love with Kurogane. I'm in love with Kurogane. I'm in love with Kurogane.

-O-

I'm tugging at my hair
I'm pulling at my clothes
I'm trying to keep my cool
I know it shows
I'm staring at my feet
My checks are turning red
I'm searching for the words inside my head

-O-

"Kurogane? Do you have time? I need to speak with you personally. Alone."

"What are you talking about? Damn mage."

"It's a personal matter, Kuro-Ve. Okay?"

"Whatever."

-O-

Cause I'm feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you're worth it
You're worth it
Yeah

-O-

You're late. Why today? Of all days. Today was supposed to be perfect. I did everything perfect today and you're late…

Why do you make me feel like this? I bet you probably don't even realize it. That's why I've kept it in so long… But not today.

Today is different.

-O-

If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I wanna blow you... away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Yes, I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say

-O-

"Now what the Hell do you want?"

"I need to tell you something."

"And that is…?"

"I'm… I'm…. I'm-"

-O-

It don't do me any good
It's just a waste of time
What use is it to you
What's on my mind
If ain't coming out
We're not going anywhere
So why can't I just tell you that I care

-O-

"Well, it's hard to hold onto something that doesn't want to be held. And when that something doesn't care about the outcome or feelings, it really hurts. But I can't help it. I'm really, really… really…"

"Really…?"

-O-

If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I wanna blow you... away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Yes, I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say

-O-

"…It's that,"

"Hurry it up, we're supposed to be helping the brat and-"

"I-"

-O-

What's wrong with my tongue
These words keep slipping away
I stutter
I stubble
Like I've got nothing to say
Cause I'm feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you're worth it

-O-

"was just thinking of an easier way to help them collect feathers! But, it's a secret!"

"What the Hell? Why?"

"Because I have to help you! And Kuro-Min doesn't like to be helped!"

-O-

Guess I'm pushing my life away
With these things I'll never say

-O-

"Okay. We got the stupid feather. We better get this to the little missy. Let's go."

"Aren't you glad we did this privately?"

"…hmph."

"Ummm… Kuro-Con?"

"Yeah."

"Svet eich ka."

"…Eh?"

-O-

If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I wanna blow you... away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Yes, I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say

-O-

"Looks like we wandered a little too far. Oh well. What's that you were saying, Fai?"

"Ah?"

-O-

With these things I'll never say

-O-

"It's nothing... I was just wishing aloud."


Afterthoughts: Depressing at the end? I think so. More angsty than romantic, really. I was listening to the song at first but changed back to Better than Ezra. It's better for the angst.