Chapter 1
Everyone in the Akatsuki had their own quirks and personalities. Deidara however shares my love for explosions. On the rare occasions I was around him he would show off some of his creations. They weren't anything special in clay form. They were rather funny looking actually. But the explosions were awesome! My time in the Akatsuki gave me more freedom than Konoha ever did. I could blow things up as I want... As long as it wasn't inside. I had been able to learn far more about myself through my experiments and training with them was fun.
For once someone's attention wasn't focused on someone else rather than me. They definitely never held back. They pushed me to be all I could be and then some. I couldn't believe how well I could get along with all of them. They were criminals. People I should hate or want to kill. To punish them for their crimes, but there was something about all of them. Like they were all kindred spirits to not only one another but for me as well. I couldn't hide from them like I did everyone else. Whenever I tried they could tell. Well, most of the time anyway. Hidan was rough to get along with due to his religious desires and lack of thought. However, when you could keep him off the touchy subject he was actually pretty fun. It didn't take me long to find out that he has a sense of humor.
I even started helping Konan in the kitchen when I realized it was only her who always cooked. Which definitely helped warm the guys up to me. Apparently, the way to a man's heart is actually through his stomach. Even if Hidan would tend to come into the kitchen and pick food from over my shoulder. Pein would mostly have Konan bring his meals to him in his room. There were times though he would join everyone else to eat but that was rare. Tobi was always annoying and nearly always around. He was paired with Zetsu. The only member of the Akatsuki that could stand him in the slightest.
Kakuzu was always on about money. The man is so greedy it's hard to talk to him. There is more to life than money but, I also felt like him. I hate not having a seemingly unlimited supply and having to do without. Not being able to just buy things because I want to. It's annoying. He's right, money is how the world works. Everything runs off of money and the Akatsuki is no different. Money is necessary for everything. I also really don't like how he gets most of his cash. Cash cows. He calls them but really they are mostly innocent people. Prestiged for their own accomplishments. Actually, deep down. It really pisses me off. He knows it too. This is why he would only offer to take me with them if their target was another criminal.
I ran my mouth one time for too long. I made him mad. He attacked me. Found out I was difficult to kill. We moved on, but he did warn me to watch my mouth or he really would kill me. Sasori on the other hand, he is prickly. Tries to act like he doesn't care. The fact of what he has done to his own body gives me the creeps. However, he does care. More than he'd like people to believe. He's smart too and enjoys popping into my lab to help out. With his help, we were able to figure out what was causing my subjects to go insane. My energy within my blood. Apparently mixing my energy with that of humans is more troublesome than I had thought when compared to what tended to happen when Sasuke and I would collide jutsu.
With his help, we were able to safely inject one of my subjects with the vial and he healed. Without the pesky after effects. This breakthrough was by far the largest one I've accomplished. However, taking away their humanity was still beyond impossible. My blood just would not allow it. It was Sasori that pointed it out aloud to me. That maybe it just was not meant to be. If it was possible for other breeds like maybe Aphrodite, it definitely wasn't for me. My energy was too toxic.
This had set me back. I felt like I had failed Light but in a way. It made me feel less like a failure. It wasn't because I'm not strong enough. It just was not meant to be. It took a long time for me to get over that realization though. I felt like I had lost my entire reason for existing. It was Itachi that pulled me back out of my despair. Even if not completely. I began to feel like we need each other. To alleviate our pain if only temporarily.
These last few years, I spent most of my time with Kisame and Itachi. They trained me, day in and day out. We camped outside most of the time and others we stay at hidden hideouts throughout the continent. Never staying in one place for too long due to orders and objectives that needed to be completed. Every time my thoughts would drift back to Konoha it was Kisame that would bring me back. They both said it is easier to continue forward when you don't look back. They had shown me that by looking back you only hurt yourself. What is, what is. What's done is done. Kisame's words had taken me by surprise and initially, I had wanted to fight against them. Those very words meant that Light is dead, end of story, and right now we are alive.
It means to live in the now. Don't dwell on the past or the future. I'm still having a difficult time accepting that even if it is becoming a little bit easier. Kisame can actually say something smart periodically. Just like Naruto could. It does not mean he is necessarily smart but there are tendencies when his brain does kick in. Periodically when I was left on my own in the tower I did find myself wondering if my old teammates were looking for me like Zetsu said they had looked for Sasuke. A part of me wanted to think they had but the more rational side of me knew. The only one I truly got along with was Sasuke and he is in Orochimaru's clutches. There was no reason for the rest of them to even think about looking for me. I was, truly alone in that village.
Setting up from my place in a tree I look down at the other two who were laying next to the smoldering fire. With a sigh, I jump down from my tree and walk over to Itachi. Without looking up at me he rolls over onto his side to face me as I kneel. "Cannot sleep again." He mutters sleepily and I move to lay on the ground next to him. Laying on my side as well so we were facing each other. "No." I speak quietly to him and he nods the majority of his face hidden by his cloak.
Reaching up I pull the collar of his cloak down before pressing my lips against his. With the swirling emotions humming inside of me I know I won't be able to sleep tonight. Every time I close my eyes I am finding myself thinking about that village. The people there within those walls. The bonds I had formed while I was there. I need them to be removed from my mind and heart even if just for a short while. Itachi raises up onto his elbow and catches hold of my hips. Using the strength he's built up for years to pull me closer to him without breaking the kiss as if I weigh nothing at all. He moves over me, placing himself between my legs as his hands rest at either side of my head.
~...~
Itachi's lips move from hers to trail along her chin. Once he reaches her ear he opens his eyes glancing in the direction of Kisame to make certain he was still asleep. "Release your mind." Itachi breathes quietly causing his warm breath to coat her ear. This is nothing new to him. Ever since they began her training she would have nights where her heart and mind dwell on her past, further causing her turmoil and making it so she can't sleep. Shifting onto his knees he nips her ear before leaving her on the ground below him. Gently unfastening the buttons to her cloak leading from the hem of the accessory to her belly button.
Kira reaches down gripping onto his own cloak and pulls at the seams. Opening his cloak for him. Her charcoal eyes glinting off of the dying fire. Emotions she usually buries at the surface and shimmer before his eyes. Emotions she doesn't want entice him further forward. He knows she fights with PTSD from her time in the village. Just as he knows being away from the ones she cares about hurts her further causing her pain. The first time she had coaxed him into pushing her emotions back down he had tried to resist, but he had found. She eased his pain as much as he eased her's. Gripping onto her pants he yanks them down over her hips and to her ankles watching as she nips at her bottom lip. Watching his every move in anticipation.
Pulling his own pants down he bears himself to her. His hands running along the length of his cock already hardened with his desire for what is about to happen. Itachi watches as her gaze shifts down to his hand, the burning need pushing further to the surface. Burying the painful emotions that had just been within her eyes as she watches him slowly stroke himself. Just like always she waits where he left her for him to maneuver her to where he wants her. A submission before they began their nighttime activities he never thought was possible for the woman to do.
Itachi grabs her legs and raises them so they rest on his shoulder as he releases his cock and grabs onto her hips and pulls her closer to him until he can feel himself brush against her warm wet folds. As he moves his hand between them again, her eyes close as she presses her ankles against his shoulder. Raising herself up for him. Guiding the head of his cock to her opening he watches her reactions. Her fangs already threatening to break the skin at her lip. Her arms moving above her to rest on the ground next to her head. With a roll of his hips, he slides himself slowly into her. Sheathing his length in her warmth nearly had him groaning as her inner muscles automatically clamp around him.
Once he was completely in, he resituates her legs so he is now between them. Using them on his shoulders to lift her higher and angle her hips. As he begins his slow silent thrusts, Kira curls her hands into loose fists, gripping the high collar of her cloak. Her tense features relax in the dying light ever before she looks up at him again. The heavy desire in her gaze captures his attention as he continues to pump his hips. -Beautiful.- He thinks silently to himself nearly wanting to lose control of his restraint if only to make her call out the very sounds she's holding back. Instead, he keeps his movement slow and steady feeling how each thrust she clamps down around him further coaxing him towards his own peek. All the while being careful to not wake the man sleeping near them.
~...~
After we dress my body finally feels heavy as if I could sleep for days. Itachi lays back down on the ground almost as if we hadn't done anything at all. So once again like I have done more times than I can count in the past. I lay down next to him and scoot back against him. Closing my eyes and feeling the warmth coming off of his body, listening to the steady sound of his breathing. The rhythmic beat of his heart against my back. I yawn and let myself fall asleep as my thoughts had finally ceased, clearing my mind so I can rest. His arm slips around my waist and I could feel his breath on the back of my neck. Further lulling me off to sleep. Here, I'm not alone. Here I have friends and family.
The next day our Leader's voice had echoed in our heads interrupting our conversation. Previously he had told us to be on standby, which was a nice change of pace. Normally by now, we would be off on another job, but today we were able to just hang out. Talk, laugh, Kisame and I bantered playfully. It was relaxing. Closing my eyes I listen to the leader. He was talking about it being time to seal the one tails. Everyone was supposed to get comfortable because it was going to take three days to complete. However, since I'm not a main member that did not apply to me. "So what am I supposed to do?" I ask him, nearly sighing as Itachi and Kisame jump up onto the boulders behind us and set down looking as if they were meditating.
"I want you to go where Deidara and Sasori are. Watch the perimeter, the one tail was the Kazekage." I see, so there is a good chance we will have visitors. "I understand, I'm on my way." I tell him before I stand and look up at my two teammates. "Be careful guys, I can't watch your backs this time."
"Hn." Itachi grunts making me smirk. "Watch your back squirt." Kisame laughs before they both fall silent, focusing on the task at hand. Leaving their sides was weird but orders were orders. Running down the tree-covered rolling mountain, I jump partway down towards the trees below to cut off a little time. Leader wants me there. That means quickly. Shaking my head I move from tree to tree focusing on my surroundings. Not just so I don't lose my way but to keep an eye out for trespassers.
Luckily we were in the fire country previously so it wasn't that far of a distance to travel. Which is probably why the leader wanted me there instead of with Kisame and Itachi. Stopping in a tree I cut my chakra off and conceal myself. Crouching to hide behind the leaves as I feel someone enter my perimeter. Four, there are four. Looking towards my right I wait until I saw something moving along in the trees. My heart gave a pound as they came closer. There was a blond out front, a serious look etched upon her features, and a large fan on her back. The next trailing slightly behind her had my breath catching in my throat.
Silver gravity-defying hair, a blue mask covering from his nose down, his forehead protector pulled over his left eye. Behind him was a head of familiar pink hair, her headband now red on her head. She was wearing gloves and armored boots. Complete focus on her face. Last but certainly not least pulling up the rear was a blond. Wearing orange and black clothes. A black headband over his forehead. His bright blue eyes dulled with his own thoughts. His brows furrow just before he picks up his speed. Making the others do the same as he passes them.
I wait on my perch for a short time longer until I was certain they were far enough away that I could safely resume my course. Moving faster through the trees than I had before until I reach a cliff next to a small pathway overlooking the hideout. Taking to the left along the ravine I find a spot to set. Far enough away I could not easily be found but still keeping the entrance within my sight. Naruto certainly has grown. It's almost hard to believe he was once a funny-looking ray of sunshine. I find myself smiling at the images in my mind of my old team. "They've both grown."
With one leg hanging off the tree branch I bring my left leg up and rest my arm over my knee. My bangs in braids tied in with the rest of my long black hair pulled up into a ponytail swaying in the breeze coming from my right. The collar of my robe billowing in front of my face. Pushing out with my energy I coat the area around the hideout in a thin subtle layer so I can feel for the intruders I am supposed to be on the lookout for. Inside I can feel Deidara and Sasori standing on the hands of the statue. The astral forms of the Akatsuki's main force upon the fingers as well.
I can tell the jutsu is already underway, from feeling the Jinchuriki within the walls and his own energy flowing from him into the statue. This is definitely going to take a while. I sigh and close my eyes enjoying the sound of the water below me and the birds chirping happily in the sky above me. Something was telling me, this peaceful silence will end. I thought as I retrieve my hat from within my robes and place it over my head.
