Here it is! Yay! A new chapter! Hope you like it!
"I can't do this."
Brooke was at her apartment looking at the wedding planner book.
Haley had run off somewhere and was planning to get ready at Karen's. So she wouldn't be back at the apartment.
Peyton was off doing errands for Brooke and checking the plans for the wedding.
Lucas was supposed to be helping run Nathan thought everything.
And Nathan . . . was set to marry Haley.
Brooke sniffed and wiped her eyes dry. "No. I can't do this." she whispered to herself.
She stood up and picked up the planner, she continued to look at it was was suddenly disgusted at herself. Because that was her work. All she had done over the past few months was help something that she didn't even want in the first place. She kept egging it on . . . and liked every bit of it.
Mostly because throughout the time she was pretending it was her wedding.
Brooke walked to the door, opened it, and stepped outside. She walked to the railing and looked downwards.
'I could do something very drastic right now.' she thought to herself. 'I could throw myself over.' she looked down again. It was quite a fall. 'Or . . .'
She stepped up on the railing and closed her eyes. She took a deep breath . . . and threw the wedding planner over with all her might. Finally she opened her eyes just as it landed on the ground some feet away.
"I won't do this." Said Brooke through tears.
She ran back inside, grabbed her car keys, coat and slammed the door behind her.
She put on her coat on while running down the stairs and tried to control her tears.
When she arrived inside her car she started her engine and started driving. She drove as fast as she could and was very thankful that no police were around. After a few moments she arrived at Nathan's apartment.
Brooke hurridly got out and pratically ran up the stairs to his door. When she go there she wiped her eyes dry, took a deep breath and knocked. Praying that he was there.
When Nathan answered the door her heart began to race. It looked as though he was getting ready because he was brushing his teeth.
His eyes lit up when he saw her. "Hey Brooke." he took the toothbrush out of his mouth. "Didn't expect to see you here. Though you would've been getting ready or something."
Brooke nodded her head, then shook it. "No actually. I came to tell you something."
"Okay."
"Um . . . Nate . . . I wanted to tell you," she closed her eyes. 'I can do this! Don't chicken out now!' "I-I . . . I lo . . . lo . . . " she opened her eyes and looked at him.
He was standing there getting ready with toothpaste foam around his mouth. When she looked behind him she saw that his tux was laid out ready for him.
He continued to wait for her answer.
Brooke sighed and said. "I just wanted to know if you were ready yet."
Nathan's face fell slightly. He was actually hoping she would say something else. "O-oh . . . no not yet. Just brushing my teeth when you came by." he waved his toothbrush.
Brooke nodded. "Okay, well you continue to get ready and remember be at the beach at 1:00. No later. 'Kay?"
He nodded.
She put on a fake smile. "Good. Now I'm gonna go and get ready. See you later."
She quickly turned around and ran down the stairs to her car.
Just as she rached the car she let the tears fall. She then quickly looked up at the door and noticed Nathan was looking at her. So she quickly got in the car.
Brooke was so blinded by tears that she could barely put the key in the ignition. "This was my choice and I screwed it up! What the hell happened?"
When she finally got around to starting the car she couldn't think of what to do. Right now she wanted nothing more then to cry on somebody's shoulder. But the on person who was always best at comforting her, was the one person that she couldn't talk to about this situation. Haley.
Brooke had no idea what to do. So she just started driving. Finally after awhile she picked up her cell phone. Through the tears and sniffing she dialed a number. Just someone she knew she could talk to and would never judge her.
"Hello?"
Brooke sighed with relief to know he was there. "Hey Mouth." she choked up.
"Brooke? Are you okay? You sound like your crying." Mouth asked her.
"I screwed up Mouth. I screwed up my entire life. I chickened out." cried Brooke.
Mouth was concerned. "What do you mean?"
"I'm not gonna go to the wedding. I can't. I won't."
"But Brooke. You're the wedding planner. Plus your a bridesmaid."
She shook her head. "I don't care Mouth. Don't you see why? I can't see Nathan marry Haley. Don't you remember what I told you?"
Mouth remember suddenly. "Oh yeah. I understand now."
"And what's worse was that I was gonna tell him how I feel but I totally freaked out and didn't!" she sobbed into the phone.
"It's okay Brooke." Mouth told her. "You don't have to go. Just go somewhere that'll make you feel better so you can skip out."
Brooke nodded her head. "Well, right now I'm driving and it seems that I'm headed towards the Rivercourt. A place I haven't been in years." she turned into the Rivercourt.
"Now I'll give an excuse as to why you're not there. Hopefully it'll work. Okay? So you calm down and it'll all be over soon. . . I hope." he told her.
Brooke wiped her nose and sniffed. "Thanks Mouth. I appreciate it. I guess I'll let you go. I'll talk to you later."
"Bye."
She hung up and began banging her head on the steering wheel.
Finally after she got a major headache she stopped, looked up and said. "Naley sucks."
Hm. Okay there you go. A long chapter! Woot! Sorry it took a long time for it to pop up. It's actually been around for days! But I haven't had the time to type it! Anywho, PLEASE READ & REVIEW! If you do I'll update soon! Promise!
