Oh God, why couldn't Izzie just say that she needed to talk or that we were in the middle of a conversation, anything to give me a little time to sort out what i'm going to say! I was NOT planning on having to do this tonight, Meredith thought as she was walking down the stairs to meet Finn in the entrance hall.

"Hey", she said with a smile when she finally reached him. She crossed her arms over her chest and kind of glanced down at her feet. She was too guilty to look at him straight in the eye, and was absolutely terrified of hurting him. She didn't want to be the one who broke him down further after the death of his wife.

"We need to talk...about Derek.", he replied. Finn was almost too scared to have this conversation he thought he already knew what the outcome would be and he really wasn't ready for it. But he had already gotten up the guts to come the house and he made a vow right there and then that he would not back down now. He was going to find out what was going on before it was too late, and before he was in too deep over his head. Better to lose her now then find out in a couple of months that it had all been a lie.

"We should go up to my room to talk about this", Meredith cocked her head in order to get him to follow her up the stairs. She didn't want the rest of the interns to over hear this conversation.

Finn followed her up the stairs staying a little bit backed away from her he didn't want his senses to be filled with her lavender scented self, he knew it would turn him into jello and then he wouldn't be able to stick to his guns, but just then a thought came into his mind, I wonder if her scent has that effect on Derek... It probably does, he sighed quickly so that Meredith couldn't hear him, Well that helped that a little, now I'm thinking about her and Derek.

Meredith held her bedroom door open for him, and motioned for him to have a seat on her bed. She closed the door behind her and tried to brace herself for what was coming. She took a slow, deep breath and took her seat at the opposite side of the bed.

Finn finally broke the silence, "Tell me about you and Derek. I know was something there and I know there probably still is".

"What is it that you want to know exactly?" She asked, she had no idea where to begin.

"The Details."

Meredith took another deep breath and started to talk, "Well, I met him my first night in Seattle. I had gone to the Emerald City Bar to have a few drinks and he came up to me and started flirting. We both got drunk and taking advantage of each other at my house. I thought it would be a one night stand, that I would never see him again." She paused. It was painfull to recap all the hurt that he had caused to her for someone else who knew nothing of her past at all.

"But you did see him again...", Finn urged her on.

She looked up at him with a very serious look on her face. "Yes, the next day, my first day as a surgical intern, and as it turned out he was an attending, one of my bosses. He persued me for awhile before I gave in, I didn't want people to think I was dating him to get ahead, but there was just something about him," she smiled softly to herself, Finn tried not to notice but he did and it hurt him a little, "I fell in love with him, I fell hard and fast." The dreamy look left her eyes and she started to tear up," I thought I was done, that I had met the man that I would spend my life with."

She paused for a moment trying to control her emotions.

God, it was more serious than I thought. I thought maybe a fling with a married man. She is way more scary and damaged than I thought.How could he have done this to her and then tell me that he loves her, Finn was waiting for her to continue, he didn't want to rush her, he could tell it was getting hard.

"We had been dating for about four or five months when his wife, Addison, showed up at the hospital. He told me it was over with her and that all he had to do was sign the divorce papers, but when it came down to it he couldn't end his marrige with out trying to make it work again. So, he left me."

"And it has been over since then?" Finn asked hopefully.

" Technically..Yes, until tonight when we ---" Finn cut her off.

"Don't say it, I know what happened, so please don't say it". Finn took a deep breath he couldn't believe what he was about to do, make it easy for her, he actually wasn't too upset, maybe he kind of knew all along. " Derek loves you, he doesn't love his wife. I can tell by the way the way he looks at you. He looks at Addison like an old friend that he has a history with and enjoys spending time with, he looks at you like I used to look at Liz, like the entire world resides within your eyes. If you find something like that you shouldn't give it up without a fight. Maybe we weren't meant for each other, but you were meant to come into my life to show me that it is possible for me to move on...And I will always be thankful for that. Don't give up on Derek." They smiled at each other and before Meredith knew it Finn had walked out and closed her bedroom door behind him.