Kakashi had called me to the Hokage tent early that morning. The journals I had requested had finally been produced. So I had gone. And just like before, things were weird. He kept trying to say something with that tone that was all but screaming he wanted to talk about something that I didn't want to even have brought up… Him and Aphrodite. So I had all but grabbed the books and ran out of the tent. I don't understand why he keeps trying to bring up their relationship. I figured it out already, and it's confusing. The only way I can work the outcome of it altogether is that he was toying with my emotions that entire time. But then I'd come up with the problem that, it's not like Kakashi to do something like that.
Have I really become so paranoid that I'm seeing betrayal in everything? I mean come on. I like to think I'm rational and yes I think about things a bit too much. I also enjoy a good puzzle to piece together. But, paranoid? Could it really be that? It's actually possible when I think about it. He hid the fact that he's been with Aphrodite off and on for the last few years ever since I got back to the village. I don't like however since I figured it out, I've been questioning everything I know about him. Not really just him though, I've been repeatedly questioning why I even care. I chose Sasuke so it shouldn't matter. And then I figured out my dilemma. It's Aphrodite. She not only betrayed me in the past but she's hid things from me and probably still is. It's not too far-fetched to figure out that Kakashi has been hiding things from me too. Like the fact about them. Now, whenever I think about it... I wonder if Kakashi ever did feel the way he acted. I mean it's not like he ever came out and said those words to me but he kissed me, twice. Even took me in my room as if I were his. He never openly said anything but his emotions screamed out in his touch like always. Was he lying?
Shaking my head I jump out of my tree and slip the book that contains my name into my ninja pouch. Looking down at Kakashi's name swirling endlessly in a sea of gold I found myself frowning. I never lied about my feelings. I do love all three of them and even though I knew I had to choose just one, a part of me didn't want to. The very selfish part of me wanted to keep all three of them the way we were… Is this why I'm upset about him and Aphrodite? As if I had a claim to the three of them and she's trespassing? I'm not sure if I'm that far off the mark at this point. Sighing I close my eyes. I really am horrible. Even I know it's a mixture between the untimeliness of Kakashi and Aphrodite and my own selfish feelings.
Sighing heavily I find myself walking through the area making sure to not walk into any villagers or even ninja. I'm just going to put the book on his table and get out. I tell myself knowing that right now, distance is probably best. To top it off, Sasuke has been distant from me too. I knew he would be mad that I would ask Itachi to spar and not him, and I knew the probability of him either ignoring me or acting out was rather high. I had just hoped he would understand that I needed to let loose. Then again, he is a lot like Light was. Even back then I knew if I was going to have a decent conversation between L and I, it had to be done without him around. He was always giving L death glares when I was around.
I've known since I realized the similarities that there are differences between them. Light even though he was a killer he wasn't actually a violent person. Sasuke has proven to be rather violent but he's also a ninja, it's a part of his job. Light was usually always calm and Sasuke lets his temper get the better of him. Light would kill be it criminals or people after him. Sasuke only killed when he was with Orochimaru and it was only when he couldn't avoid it. Yes, they are so alike even I get caught up in the similarities. Yet, for every similarity there are differences.
I had thought long and hard about all of it. I noticed similarities in all three of them, as well as differences. Itachi isn't as straightforward, he would never be as bold as Light. Yet he was also a killer just like him, he never let himself get worked up enough he would lose complete control over his emotions. He is methodical and his deductive skills are scary. But all of their differences were far greater. Kakashi himself is a lot like Light but yet also not. It is Sasuke that pushes the memory of Light to the front of my mind. But all three of them make my heart skip. There is one fatal difference in two out of three of them. Light trusted me. Even when he couldn't see my end game, he trusted me. All I had to do was ask him to do something a certain way and he did it without question. In fact, that is one of the main reasons I believed he was under my -spell.-
If I told any one of these three to do something without giving them a complete explanation. There would be an onslaught of questions or even a refusal to do it. Well, except for one mostly. What makes this world so difficult, is the fact that no one trusts me. Not like that anyway. Sighing I open the Hokage tent fully expecting to slip in and slip out. What I hadn't expected was seeing Kakashi, wearing the red and white Hokage hat. Sasuke and Itachi standing in the tent just off to the side away from the table. Tilting my head I walk in. "What's going on?" I ask drawing their gazes to me. "Kira, I had sent someone to find you." Kakashi speaks up from his chair only successfully drawing out a sound of confusion from me.
"I'm sending the three of you towards the waterfall nation." He states gently probably because he could tell I am confused. "We have reason to believe Damen is there. Your mission is to go to the waterfall nation and investigate." Oh, now I understand. "Right." I state before turning to leave as Sasuke and Itachi move back towards the door of the tent. "Oh, and... It's finished." I mutter before setting the book down on the table as I was on my way out of the tent. I guess now it can be used for more than just him writing me when he needs to but I can use it to keep him updated on this mission.
Glancing at the two boys once I leave the tent I nearly smirk but the anger in their gazes sobered me. They are mad at each other again or still, not sure which. "Let's go." I mutter before leaping up into the trees behind the Hokage tent. The waterfall nation is settled between the land of earth and the land of fire. It's small in comparison to the two but it is also larger than the other unnamed countries that border the land of fire. The drop-off Itachi, Fishface, and I used when we hunted down our last mark before I was sent to the Leaf is actually on the edge of the waterfall nation.
"I never thought we would be the ones doing reconnaissance on this." I mutter as I feel Itachi and Sasuke move up behind me. "With our team, it can't be helped." Itachi speaks up with his usual empty tone drawing my gaze over my shoulder to him a moment. "I know. We are badasses." I shrug and finally manage a chuckle out of Sasuke. Maybe things will actually be fine. Looking over my shoulder towards Sasuke's brooding face I couldn't help but smile seeing his signature smirk in place. I don't like the thoughts his distance put into my mind. It was lonely, uncomfortable, and painful as if my feelings weren't my own.
Slowing down I slip myself between the two of them and smile slightly as both glance down towards me. "Don't leave me on my own again." I mutter quietly next to them. I purposefully didn't use words like you guys or you two that way they could take it however they felt most comfortable. "What's with you and Kakashi. You both weren't acting normal." Sasuke pipes up drawing my attention more towards him and I nearly tilt my head. "He's dating Aphrodite and has been." I mutter causing a shocked grunt to come from him as I leap forward back to my place at the front of the team.
"I don't see how you're so calm. Didn't Aphrodite do something to you?" Sasuke questions causing me to turn in mid-jump to look at him a moment. A smirk is visible on my features that I honestly don't feel. Turning forward again I land on the next branch in time to keep going. "Sasuke, I may not show it, but yes I'm upset. However, if we let our emotions take control we can cause irreparable damage. To not only those around us, the ones we are mad at. But the village and ourselves. The times we could go around showing off our anger have passed. If we lose control with the way we are now, people will die. Including people that have nothing to do with our reasons."
"So what are you gonna do?" His question moves through the trees around us heavily. I find myself closing my eyes a moment and taking in a slow breath. "What I've always done. Nothing."
"How can you.." Sasuke begins before he gives a grunt probably because Itachi gave him a hard look for me. "Itachi, it's fine. Sasuke has always been like this." I sigh and stop on the next branch, waiting for them to stop with me before I turn around to look at Sasuke. "Hate leads to more Hate. I may not trust Aphrodite but I cannot let myself hate her even after everything she's done. Last time I allowed the feeling to take place. I wanted to kill her by any means so I fought her. Back then she was still too powerful and I know that if she had really let herself fight me seriously I would have been the one who ended up dead. I realized what that hatred did to me and I wanted to correct it. So I focused on becoming stronger then when Itachi collected me from the village I let my anger with Aphrodite, with the village, sway me again. I don't regret my time in the Akatsuki, I never will." My hands curl into fists at my sides as I turn my head away from Sasuke. "I may not know why Kakashi did what he did. Just as I don't know Aphrodite's end game yet. But, I cannot drag anyone else into this mess. Even when Aphrodite betrayed me, I didn't want to pull the villagers into it. As far as I was concerned before my hatred took root, it was between me and those four. No one else knew what happened so why hurt them?" Turning around I push forward again. My own words weighing on my mind. It seems like I've been doing it again. Letting my confusion and anger get the better of me.
"Hn, cryptic as always." Sasuke mutters and I shake my head. "You won't even tell me what she did." This time I glance over my shoulder towards him a moment. "If I did, you would let your anger and hatred seep back in. I cannot let that happen." With those words, Sasuke clicks his tongue and I feel him narrow his eyes. Not on me but more from his own thoughts. "I would lose you again." I mutter drawing his gaze back to me, his eyes widening with my words. He's always been confusing to me, but with knowing the reason why now. It's easier for me to understand what he had been thinking. He was wondering why I would say that. Wondering if it was really that bad or if I just don't trust him.
Shaking my head I stop again but this time when Sasuke stops I leap back towards him. Landing on him the moment his feet touches the tree branch. Straddling his hips I look down into his hardened and cold hues. Ignoring Itachi's gaze I lower myself until my lips are almost touching Sasuke's. "If I tell you. I will stop you from attacking the village. Got that?" With these words, Sasuke's eyes narrow on me nearly making me frown. "I say this because when you thought Itachi killed your clan just to test his own abilities you threw everything away consuming yourself in your hatred. Then when I told you the truth about Danzo, I read it in your eyes that you would have directed your revenge at him. This is not something that needs your vengeance." I all but hiss in my words feeling my lips brushing against his as I speak.
"Fine by me." He mutters and I can feel his breath on my skin nearly causing me to shiver in a good way. Moving my head I move my lips to his ear. "Before the third exams when you were 12. The third Hokage wanted to know as much as he possibly could about me in case I went to Orochimaru. He thought my eyes were a Dojutsu like your Sharingan. When I refused to tell him anything he sent Aphrodite after me. Keeping her knowledge of who and what we are away from him as she does with me. She knocked me out and handed me over to be interrogated. I was tortured for nearly a month straight before they let me go finally understanding that I did not lie to them because I honestly knew nothing." I raise up sitting on his hips and looking down into his hooded gaze. Reaching for my halter I pull the fabric aside just enough to finally show him my brand near my collar bone. "The true reason why I was hospitalized when you were off training with Kakashi. It wasn't because I hurt myself training. They tortured me until I no longer healed and they couldn't just start their tactics all over again."
Releasing my halter I sigh and close my eyes. "The third is dead and he's the one that ordered it. Even when I knew he was going to die it didn't bother me one bit. I wasn't happy about it, I wasn't angry, I wasn't sad. I felt nothing about it. I envy you Sasuke." I admit and look up towards the sky through the treetops. Reaching up I sift my fingers into my bangs and raise them off of my face and out of my eyes. "I didn't keep this from you because I don't trust you. I envy your emotions. You can wholeheartedly feel things in ways I just can't." Getting off of him I look over my shoulder towards Itachi. "Let's set up camp here tonight. Tomorrow we can leave at daybreak." I mutter before jumping off the tree to the ground.
That night Kira stayed up in a tree leaving Sasuke and Itachi on the ground near the fire. Itachi places his left arm on his knee and closes his eyes focusing his hearing on the area around them. When Kira's breathing evens out a small smile shows through his usual empty mask. -Time sure has changed since she couldn't sleep on her own.- He thought to himself. Though with the thought that followed his smile fades. As he remembers her talking to Sasuke earlier and openly admitting her thoughts to him. -Is that why she chose him? Because of the emotions, he bears openly?- He silently thought to himself. Even now Sasuke was dealing with the news she had placed on his shoulders. The fact that not only Aphrodite had turned her over to the third but how she had been tortured while he was training under Kakashi. He was oblivious to everything.
She was wrong about one thing. Sasuke didn't hate the leaf for what happened to her. He blames himself. He should have known. "I know you still feel inferior to me." Itachi's empty tone meets Sasuke's ears. "She chose you." He mutters leaving Sasuke to wonder if his brother was finally trying to clear the air between them. Sasuke clicks his tongue to his own thoughts remembering the battle between Itachi and Kira. To be honest, he felt like he lost her when she had gone to Itachi to spar with. But, he could still feel her lips as she spoke to him earlier. The way they brushed against his with barely any contact. The warmth he felt when she had tackled him to the tree. Getting up Sasuke moves up into the trees without a second glance at Itachi.
-She is mine.- He inwardly tells himself as he lands on her tree branch. Her sleeping form practically glowing in the moonlight as she rests against the main part of the tree. Kneeling he places his leg between hers as he braces himself above her with his hands on the bark at the sides of her head. -She's mine.- He tells himself again before with a smirk he lowers himself down and catches her lips with his. At first, her eyes shoot open in shock and she gasps in startlement but quickly recovered when her eyes focused on his. Her hands move up around his shoulders and when he feels her fingers sift into his hair he smirks again as he pulls his lips from hers keeping her close as she had done earlier. "You're mine." He breathes as he slips his hand under her halter top reaching for the pillows of her breast. Her cheeks darken as his hands curl around her and he claims her lips again. This time he wasn't going to control himself. He is going to claim every inch of her tonight and his brother still awake on the ground will finally understand that Kira is his. -Itachi, will never have you.-
The moment Sasuke's fingers pinch at her right nipple Kira's head swam. Her hands move from his hair, trailing over his fabric-covered shoulders and down his arms to his elbows. As Sasuke feels her reaching for his shirt he pulls his hand from her breasts and catches her wrist. The spar between her and Itachi was still heavy on his mind. How he had felt watching her smile as she attacked his brother. -She should have chosen me, dammit.- He inwardly curses bringing her arms up and pinning them against the bark above her head. Shifting her wrists so he was holding onto them with his left hand before returning his write beneath her halter to her womanly mounds. With her movement restricted Kira couldn't help but squirm under him. His lips press harder against hers as if he had wanted to cause her a bit of pain. The pinch at her nipples was rough and made her squeak ever before he shifts himself over her. His legs spread hers further apart as he settles himself between them. It was as if Sasuke, wants her to know how much she had hurt him over the years. How deeply her keeping things from him pains him. How angry she had made him choosing to spar with Itachi. And yet, how much he craves her at the same time.
Sasuke releases her wrist as he sets up, grabbing the hem of her pants and yanking them down to her ankles. Pulling on the hem of her shirt he lifts it so it was now settled around her neck. Further pinning her arms ever before he grabs her wrists again he pulls down his own pants to free himself from the fabirc. He presses her wrists into the bark of the tree. Leaning down he brings his lips close to hers. "You... are mine." He claims again just before pushing himself inside of her without restraint. Completely filling her with his hard length in one quick push. Kira couldn't help the gasp mixed with a moan that escapes from her as she wiggles against him. Her body was held in place by his own and his grip. Further restrained by her shirt and her pants. There wasn't much she could do even if she wanted to. Sasuke's thrusts came hard and quick, pushing her harder against the rough bark further mixing her pain with pleasure. When his lips leave hers he trails them over her jaw before biting her neck causing further torturous jolts to her body.
She could hear him smirk near her ear just before he bites her again. Bringing out another loud call of pleasure from her. When he releases her sore wrists he moved down a bit. Keeping up his pulsating thrusts as his hands grip onto her breasts. Squeezing one as he nips the nipple on her other one. Sasuke was taking joy in each throaty sound coming from her even as he sucks her hardened peak into his mouth and squeezes the other. Her apex clenching and gripping around his cock with each rough bite and pinch pushing him to continue as his pleasure builds. When her body begins to quiver beneath him as she reaches her limit. He pulls away from her at the last moment. His eyes raking over her form taking in her moon-lit beauty as her breaths come out in pants, the desire heavily in her eyes as she looks up at him. Her restricted form from her clothing. The entire sight before him nearly had him licking his lips. Grabbing her legs he lifts her up until they were resting on his shoulders. His tongue first ran along her folds causing her to gasp and slightly jerk. At first, as he splits her open with his fingers he grazes her nub with his teeth before actually nipping down on the tender flesh causing another breathy moan to escape from her.
Smirking to himself he slides his tongue into her opening and swirls it around. Groaning at her taste as he grabs her hips and pulls her closer to him. Pressing his face further against her as he greedily devours her juices. Pushing her to her climax as he sucks at her nub before delving his tongue back into her. Kira's legs press down on his shoulders as she bucks her hips. Her moan reverberates around him as her hot juices flow around his tongue. When her moans settle down he pulls away from her again. Moving up her body and pressing his lips against hers. Pushing her lingering juices into her mouth with his tongue as he kisses her roughly. His hands grip onto her breasts nearly causing a choked gasp from her as he smirks against her lips. When he raises up again he reaches up and brushes the excess cum from his face leaving her skin tingling in the aftermath of his touch. "I'm not done yet." He breathes out heavily. His voice is husky with his own built-up need for her. These words had her looking up at him again, her own smirk working at the corner of her lips. "Rollover." He tells her watching as she works her shirt down enough she can move her arms more freely. She rolls over onto her hands and knees before looking back towards him. Her dark eyes shimmer with her emotions as she watches him. He watches her a moment before positioning himself behind her. Raising his cock to her folds, he shoves himself inside again causing a breathy gasp to escape from her already tightened walls from her climax clamping even further around him. Sasuke nearly shutters at the intoxicating feel of her around him. Her hot juices that till surround her, soaking his cock threatening to take his mind away from him.
As Sasuke unsheathes himself from her, he couldn't help but chuckle seeing her bottom lip poke out in a pout. Yet when he grips onto her rear and spreads her cheeks for him he looks down at her completely. Leaning down to her he runs his tongue around her anus taking pride in her shocked gasp as his grip on her tightens to keep her in place. When he was sure she couldn't move away from him again he pushes his tongue into her, coating her with his saliva. Hearing her suck in a breath before she relaxes and a moan slips from her he darts his tongue into her one more time before positioning himself behind her again on his knees. Guiding the head of his cock to her opening with one hand as he keeps her in place with his other. Slowly pushing himself into her. For the first time tonight, he was being gentle as he glances up seeing her wince in pain before she hides her face from him. Taking his time he coaxes the head of his cock into her. Expanding her and feeling as her muscles try to push him out. Once he passes the threshold he couldn't help but smirk before suddenly shoving himself deeper inside her.
This feeling was foreign to Kira. New, and odd at first. But she soon found herself moaning as her body racks with a newfound pleasure she had never experienced before. Sending tingles over her body as she breaks out in goosebumps. Her body quivers with his steady movements ever before she looks over her shoulder at him. The darkness lines his features and within his gaze as he focuses on what he is doing. She couldn't help but lick her lips taking in the sight of him before he shifts her a glance. His right hand reaches forward grabbing her shoulder and raising her up onto her knees as he guides her hips with his left. Pulling her back flush against his chest ever before his hand slips around her. His fingers delve into her in time with his thrusts as he keeps her in place with his left hand. His lips graze her neck before he nips at her ear. "I love you, Kira." He claims quietly before his pace picks up. Pushing her towards her second orgasm as his own builds. "Sasuke." She breathes out in a moan causing him to chuckle.
