"How the HELL is he here?!"

I could hear every octave Richie went up on as he yelled while pointing at me. I tried not to hear, but the others minds practically screamed the same question as they silently waited for the answer.

"G..g..good behavior?" Bill weakly suggested with a not too convincing smiling as he shrugged.

"Bull Shit!" Richie definitely wasn't gonna let it go without an answer that made sense. "No offense Bobby," he looked apologetically at me before looking sternly at Bill, waving his arms about, "any other time I'd believe that excuse seeing how much of a softy this guy is, but after being sentenced guilty for murder? Bull Shit!"

The rest of the Loser looked guilty as they agreed. Bill fidgeting as he tried to think of an excuse that might work.

"I owe you the truth… but.." why was this so hard to say? I had already told myself I wouldn't tell them right away, but I couldn't keep it from them entirely. I never would have thought myself to have so many conflicting emotions. Letting myself be swallowed by the mindless hunting and eating seemed so easy and tempting to telling them the truth.

I took a deep breath, sighing heavily as I rubbed my face. I wouldn't do that to them while I had the control to choose not to be that monster. So for the time being I'd give them parts of the truth and withhold what I could until later.

"Things got worse after I was put away." I didn't look at any of their faces. My eyes focusing on their feet or my hands as they fiddled and rubbed together.

"I… I don't wish to go in to detail at this time… but things happened… "

The silence was deafening, but the first words spoken were thunderous.

"IT did something to get you out…didn't it?" Beverly spoke softly, a small whiff of fear soon joined by others.

My hands flew to my nose and mouth to try and block the smell as I turned away quickly. Crouching in a far corner to pull myself in and keep myself from punching at the new enticing scents.

I was so quick that it felt like hours before I heard the first gasp at my sudden movements to get away.

"Guys you need to calm down!" I could almost feel Billy move between them and me. As if his small form was enough to shield them from me. No… he wasn't shield them. He shielding me. He wasn't just trying to calm them so Pennywise wouldn't come out. He was also keeping them from coming at me as I suddenly caught new smells that replaced the fear. Anger mixed with hate. All of it radiating towards me.

"This is Bobby! You you got to calm down! We all need to get Algol's of ourselves cause if we don't we'll all end up dead."

"Not if we beat the clown before he can try killing us again!" Richie was trying to push past Billy as he yelled, but some how the other boy was strong enough to keep him from passing.

I could seeing it all from my corner. All different views from their eyes. I needed to pull back in before I lost more control and gave myself away. I was already invading their privacy doing this. Hah, I cared about privacy for once in my life.

I clamped my hands tighter over my mouth to hold the giggles bubbling up to the surface. I hadn't thought it'd be this hard to control myself around them, but it was proving harder then I had ever imagined.

"If it's not IT killing us it will be the other thing that came here!" Billy shouted over the arguing. When had they began to argue? Silence came over the room again.

"Other thing? What do you mean Bill? Beverly Was first to speak up and ask what the others now worried upon hearing.

I peaked behind me slowly, keeping my face covered as I chanced a look at them all. Billy standing some how taller as the others were completely focused on him alone now.

"It was t just some random murderer that took Officer Linda…" My chest tightened as he said her name. The rest of the Loser's looking at me with pity instead of hate. My vision blurred as I felt wetness streak my cheeks and run down the back of my hands.

"Something made sure to kill Linda… and it went after Bobby and it's after us as well. It wants to feed off us all!" Bill was almost shouting as he drew their attention back to him.

"Like… the clown?" Ben mumbled from the back of the group.

"No…" I felt the words leave me as I drew my hands shaking away from my face. Tears, snot and drool all over them and my face as I turned to look at them fully. Staying small as I looked up at them, I could see their eyes widen. My eyes felt ablaze and most likely were glowing a bright red.

"He won't fed off your fear and flesh." My tongue pulling long on the last word.

"He'll keep you alive as long as he wants. He'll feed off your dreams and nightmares as you sleep, like popcorn and snacks, but when he's done with that he'll feed on your hopes and dreams for your life. He'll suck your mind fright until it is but a husk. A empty shell. If you're lucky it will kill you."

"If we're not?" Eddie squeaked behind Richie. My eyes locking directly on him.

"A living doll. A shell. Just staring at the walls. You maybe aware, but you would have no means to tell anyone. Trapped inside your own head. Unmoving for the rest of your short life."

Everyone was staring at me now. I could feel some of my features had changed as I'd spoke. The lines on my face were quite visible from the corners of my eyes. The white had yet to creep into my skin, but if this kept up it would only be a matter of time.

I didn't know how coiled my muscles were until I felt Billy's hand on my shoulder, causing me to start. My mind snapping back to itself. I felt the red lines seep back into my skin and my eyes dull as I focused on being just Bobby again.

My hands were shaking as I looked at them again. Tissues suddenly appearing in my view. I looked up to see it was Beverly. I took them with shaking hands and a quiet thank you as he rubbed the gross contents off my hands with the tissues. Rubbing my face as well for good measure.

"I… I hadn't … I hadn't wanted to tell you what was happening until we had taken care of that Thing…" I mumbled, keeping my eyes low, "I… I didn't want what happened to happen and I…"

"He was worried for our safety." Bill poke up. "You saw what happened when you let any fear out. He didn't want that fear to put us in danger."

"You were scared you'd hurt us?" Beverly was still holding the tissues in front of me as I felt her and everyone else's eyes on me.

I merely nodded feebly.

"Y…yes…"

"Then I want to apologize Bobby. We all do."

"What?!"

"Shut up Richie!" They all shouted at once at him. I couldn't help the chuckle that came out hearing them.

"As I was saying," Beverly spoke once more, "we owe you an apology for trying to attack you. We let what IT did to us cloud our judgement and forget you're not IT."

My eye widened at hearing her words. I looked up at her, a soft smile on her face. She meant what she was saying. I looked to the others and even they were nodding in agreement. Even Richie who was grumbling nodded.

I felt fresh tears start as I took a new tissues to rub my eyes.

"Will figure this out Bobby. Once we find a way to get rid of this new monster, we'll find a way to get rid of IT from you." Bill spoke so confidently. He believed what he said and I knew he was determined enough to try.

"That's the thing though Billy… you need a monster to fight a monster."