AN/ thank you for all the reviews im working on chapter by chapter and graduating in a few weeks so right now its slow but dont worry we are gonna finish this story and ideas are welcomed i have no idea whats gonna happen just yet on chapter 4 maybe mac leaves or confronts harm and renee or something... thanks again sam for being my beta and helping


Harm had the day off and spent most of the morning trying to get a hold of Mac. He had called her, but got no answer. Grabbing the car keys he headed out of his apartment and got into his car driving off. His mind played out so many sinarios, all ended up with Mac being hurt or worse.

Sarah was asleep on her couch and suddenly jumped after hearing pounding on her door. She looked around for a moment, unsure what to think, until she heard her name. She went to the door opening it " What is it Harm?"

He looked at her shocked " What is it! I've been calling you for the longest time, and you never answered, so I panicked" he looked at her in disbelief.

She looked at him and sighed " I turned off the ringer, I'm sorry"

He came in and shut the door " What's wrong? Are you sick?"

Mac sat on the couch and looked at him " ..something like that..."

Harm walked over to her and sat down touching her forehead " You're not warm.."

Sarah moved away from his is hand " I'm ok its just a bug no biggy, really Harm" she sighed he's still with Renee.. He doesn't love you.. she told herself.

He watched her closely " What's wrong?" he pleaded and caressed her cheek with his hand.

She leaned into it a bit, her body betraying her. Closing her eyes, she sighed " It's nothing, nothing at all.."

He didn't believe her but didn't pressure her any further " ok, If that's what you think" he leaned in and kissed her forehead, pulling her into his arms and holding her, for what seemed like hours, but in fact were just a few minutes.

Sarah closed her eyes and sighed as Harm held her to him, it seemed all the pain lifted away when she was around him, yet she knew it wouldn't last long, the pain would be back again soon. "Harm" she muttered in his shirt.

"Hmm?"

" Nothing never mind.." she leaned into him more.

" What's the matter Sarah?" he looked right into her eyes, which were full of tears. " come on, you can tell me, what are best friends for, huh?"

Her stomach turned when he mentioned best friends she didn't know why, but she wanted more, she didn't want to be just his best friend.

Harm leaned down and kissed her and started pushing her back on the couch, but stopped himself " I can't.." he said not knowing he said it out loud. " I should go, this isn't right" he kissed her on the forehead and walked out the door, leaving her in a state of shock on the couch.

He headed for his car and sped off, not knowing that he just broke her heart even more now then before.

Sarah watched the door for a long time. She shut off the lights and locked the door, before she went to bed and cried herself to sleep.


Harm's:

Harm drove around for a while before he headed back to his place. Went inside the building and stopped suddenly, " Renee? What are you doing here?" he said as he played with his keys in his hand.

Renee was leaning against the door and looked up at him " I want answers and I think we should go inside and talk"

He sighed " Now? Can't this wait? "

" No, this can't wait Harm !" she demanded as he came forward to open the door. Renee moved aside and walked in ahead of him before he could react.

He groaned quietly and walked in " Renee there is nothing to talk about."

" Oh, I think there is Harmon Rabb Jr." she crossed her arms to her chest " tell me it was a one night stand and you were drunk" she pleaded. " I love you Harm.."

Harm wasn't sure what to say to her.

" look Renee" he started but stopped " I wasn't drunk and I'm glad I did it"

Her face turned red " What do you mean! You wanted to cheat on me?

He almost laughed " cheat on you Renee? -I've almost never seen you and when I did, you seemed to want to show me off to your friends, it was driving me nuts! I'm not your possession."

" How was I supposed to know that was how you felt? huh? -You never once told me!"

" That's a bunch of bull Renee! I told you plenty of times, ...but you're too damn dumb to listen." he muttered the last few words.

Renee's head whipped around " What was that Harm?

"Nothing Renee. Nothing at all!" he tossed his keys down " Are we done? -Because I would like to get drunk and pass out if you don't mind"

Her jaw dropped abit " You'd rather get drunk then talk to me?

" oh for heaven's sake no. Now why would I want that?" He replied sarcastically.

She was frustrated with him and he knew it. He loved to push her buttons.

" I'm going to go now before I say something and regret it later" she grabbed her purse and went to the door

" this isn't over Harm. Not by a long shot" she opened the door and let it slam shut behind her.

" Looking forward to it!" he yelled, even though he knew she couldn't hear him " Why did I even date her?" he muttered as he grabbed a beer and sat on the couch to drown his sorrows.