Jag HQ 3 Days later

Sarah spent the whole first half of the day trying to avoid Harm, by working on the case they had together, she was defending and Harm was prosecuting the article 92 of a ensign Robert Kelly.

She was convinced however he was guilty but she was told to defend.

The trial didn't go well and made her mood even worse as she pushed the doors open and walked out, but was pulled back when a arm grabbed her.

She looked back and noticed it was Harm and he wasn't very happy with her.

" Mac what the hell was that in there? That was a low blow, I thought you were defending him not prosecuting?"

She pulled her arm free " Don't touch me Harm! Just back off and leave me alone." with that said she walked off leaving Harm to watch her retreating form.

Harm shook his head and headed back inside to gather his things and made his way to his office.

Sarah felt hot tears forming in her eyes as she sat there she forced them back and went to work for the next few hours. Ignoring those who came to check on her or knocked on the door. She stared at her brief case and sighed as she got up and grabbed the bag inside and headed to the bathroom.

Harm went to talk to Mac and noticed she wasn't in her office " Harriet where's Mac?"

Harriet looked up and shrugged " I don't know sir"

He sighed " ok, thanks " he went to go check outside to see if her car was still there or maybe she was out there herself. He walked around JAG and sat on a bench a while when he notice a car pull up and park. " My day can't get any better, can it..." he said to himself as the woman climbed out and smiled. He forced himself to smiled " What are you doing here?"

Renee replied, " Harm look I want to apologize for last night I shouldn't have said anything" She kissed him and sat down next to him " I didn't know you felt that way. I promise I won't do that again"

He sighed and looked at her and smiled but didn't apologize for what he had said last night, which caused her to give him a 'well I apologized, now you' look.

He looked at the time " I have to go back in" he got up and started inside to his office, but was stopped when Tiner called for him saying the admiral needed a moment of his time.

Renee sat there for a minute letting everything what just happened sinking in, and walked inside and noticed Mac walking back from the bathroom with a small bag. Mac had not noticed Renee as she walked by, her mind was else where.

Renee headed deeper in the bullpen heading for Harm's office when she saw Mac tossing the bag in the garbage and leaving her office.

Renee looked around noticing no one was watching and casually walked into Mac's office and looked in the garbage and gasping in surprise. She bit her lip and looked at the door before she pocketed the items and headed right into Harm's office. She leaned against the desk and watched out the door and noticed how tense Mac and Harm were around each other. Harm tried to touch Mac but Mac went on defensive and drew back. Harm gave up and walked into his office where Renee hugged him and sat down in the chair as he walked around to his own chair.


Later that night

Mac's Apt…….

She sat in semi darkness, having chosen to keep the lights to a minimum when she entered her apartment. How could she be so careless? She chastised herself for the stupidity. He would never understand. Would he? She didn't know, and couldn't bare to guess right at this moment.

The cuddling warmth of her cozy couch and afghan blanket were not enough to keep the scared chill from her bones. Her mind, a dizzy of emotions and thoughts, she tried to sort through them. Her mind told her to do the responsible thing, to forget this even happened and get rid of it. She couldn't raise a child alone, she wouldn't. She shook her head in agreement. She grew up with a drunk father. She would not put that on a child too. She was alcoholic, just like her father. No child deserved that type of person as a parent. It's not fair to the child to live without a parent either. She nodded to that point.

But it wasn't her mind that was the issue here. It was her heart. The fact was, she already loved this baby inside her. She loved the man who gave her this life, this little being cradled in her womb. She knew in her heart she would have this baby, no manner of logic would tell her otherwise. She wasn't that type of person. The idea of abortion, although logical for this situation, was something she knew she couldn't live with. She would never forgive herself if she went through with it.

She gently placed a hand on her slim belly. She made a promise to the child with in. "I will do my best...Always" she whispered.

Right then her eyes caught the image of Harm and herself. It was the one from Afghanistan. He was laughing, and lord knew he was beautiful when he laughed. Her heart ached for him. That once night they had together, was the stuff of dreams. Mac knew she'd never have him again, just as she knew she'd never feel the way she did in his arms, with anyone else.

"At least I have you" she whispered, her thumb rubbing gently on her belly. She would keep this baby, her little piece of him.

Mac didn't know how this would work out. Would she stay at JAG? Could she keep quiet to Harm about the baby? What would she say to him, when he started asking her questions? He was far from stupid, although she wondered sometimes about him. He would get the idea sooner or later. He'd count back, he'd ask. God, that was a question she didn't know if she could lie to. She wanted him to know, wanted him to be there with her when the baby was born.

She wanted him to be there for the baby. Tears fell from her eyes, although she hadn't known they were there until they rolled off her chin. She didn't know what she would say, but she knew she'd love this baby with everything she had. Just like she did for him.

Her thoughts were interrupted a while later from a knock at the door causing her to look up. She sighed and went to the door and opened it. " What do you want?" she asked as Renee pushed passed her and walked into her home.

" We need to talk..." Renee said coolly

" What about?" Sarah said not closing the door

" About you seducing Harm and getting him into bed.." Renee stared at Sarah

"What? I didn't seduce anyone Renee and I think it's time for you to leave now"

Renee knew how stubborn Mac could be and walked close to her " I'm going to say this once Mac, stay away from Harm or else I'll go to the admiral and have a chat with him about this." with that said she walked off.

" I don't take kindly to threats Renee" she said slamming the door. Sarah went to the couch and sat there for a while and then went to bed crying herself to sleep.

A/N: Those of you who have been complaining that it needs to be fixed it is i added the last chapter just so you would have something while i wait for my beta to finish i didnt want to rush her.

Im now working on chap 5 and kinda stuck im getting it completed however lol

BTW: yes i wanna kill renee as well