Author's note: Tanks to Tamara for doing the Beta! You're my hero!

Changes Chapter 34

It appeared to him as if he was seeing and experiencing the same horrible things over and over again. He saw her dying in the water, dying after he had to stab her and now she lay lifelessly on this cold lab table and wasn't waking up. Logan leaned against the window and watched her. He didn't take notice of Moira, why should he? His only interest was the red haired woman who kept on sleeping this unhealthy sleep for over two weeks now, while he was going crazy. He had barely slept during that time. Either was he taking care of his children during the day, while he was watching over her at night Thanks to 'Ro he was able to do it. But even if he seemed calm and controlled, he was far from it. He wanted to be close to her again, to be able to touch her and smell her. He missed her warmth at night next to him, missed her voice, and her whole being… He had thought about things that might help her, but couldn't come up with any solution. He was sick of the Professor telling him he just had to wait until her body recovered again. He couldn't wait longer, wouldn't wait longer. Day after day it became harder for him to tame the beast within him. His nightmares returned about a week ago making it impossible for him to find any sleep at night, if he tried to rest at least for a few hours. Logan had to think about his conversation with Hank, which had taken place two days ago…

"Can't sleep again?" Hank asked and the door closed behind him when he joined Logan who was sitting on the chair in front of the window.

"Nope," he grunted and ran a hand over his tired and exhausted face.

"Look, my friend," he heard Beasts say in his best lecturer tone. "You can't do this forever. Your body needs rest… I know you want to be close to Jean, but…you can't just walk around for weeks without sleeping." Worriedly he looked down on him.

"I know," was all Logan had to say, his eyes were still fixed on Jean.

Hank walked over to the window and watched her, too. "Her body is recovering too slowly… It's a shame that we can't take her to any hospitals without risking her being killed by humans."

"Situation in the cities is getting worse, huh?"

"You bet!" Hank said and turned around. "Yesterday they killed five mutanst. I wonder where this is going to end…" Sadly, he looked down. "I wished they'd never invented the cure. It has made things only worse then before…"

"What happened happened. It's too late to regret it," Logan grunted and joined him at the window.

The other man noticed the anger in his opposite's eyes. He knew how hard it must be for him to watch the mother of his children in this state. "How are you dealing with it Logan?"

He gave him a look before he switched back to Jean. "Living through it. Shouldn't her blood be recovered again?"

Hank sighed. "Well, if she had your healing factor, definitely…"

Logan looked at him. He narrowed his eyes, thinking. "Well, couldn't it be just copied?"

The blue mutant frowned. "What do you mean? Copied like a book?"

"They extracted Leech's powers so it should be possible to extract mine, too, shouldn't it?" he asked him. "You're the geneticists, so tell me!"

Hank considered the things his friend had said for a moment as he gazed down at Jean. "With the right equipment it should be possible…"

"And we don't have it?"

"No, we don't have it. And besides", he said giving him a warning look, "it could become dangerous for you. If any scientist found out that something like your healing factor existed…he would lock you up and perform some nasty experiments on you. And even if it worked there is always a chance that it would do her more harm than good."

Logan glowered at him. "I was a lab rat before, pal. I know how this works…" A familiar skint echoed through the small room. "See?"

Hank knew what he meant. He laid a hand on Logan's shoulder. "And because of it you should know what risks it brings with it. Just be patient Logan. She will wake up and…"

"I know the truth, bub", his opposite interrupted him with narrowed eyes. "'Ro told me…"

Hank lowered his hand and sighed. "What?" Logan growled. "Did you really believe I wouldn't find out?"

"Logan," the blue man tried to explain, but decided it would only make it worse. "Just be patient. Think about your kids… I doubt they want to lose their father too. Don't you think?" With one last pleading look at him, Hank walked out of the room, leaving Logan brooding for the rest of the night while he watched over Jean…

He sighed and lowered his gaze. With his hands buried in his jeans pockets he thought it through. There had to be a way. If there were any chance to help her, he would try it. All of a sudden the door on the left opened. Wondering who was strolling around so late at night, Logan turned his head and sighed in annoyance as he recognized Scott.

"How is she doing?", the man asked and stopped right next to him.

"Baking cookies in the kitchen," Logan growled. "What do you think?" He looked into the room again; ignoring the look the other man gave him.

"Logan, it was just a question", Scott huffed angrily. Taking a deep breath he said, "I came down here to talk to you."

"Why? You need to be beaten up again?"

"No, I mean really talking. At least if that's possible in view of your mood tonight." Scott waited for a reaction of his comrade. Finally, he heard him sighing and turning towards him.

"Fine, talk!" Logan growled and folded his arms across his chest, leaning against the widow, and glared at him.

Scott buried his hands in his pockets and looked for the right words. "I had some time to think and… I wanted to apologize…"

"What an honor…" Logan grunted sarcastically. "Did I hit your head to hard? How come you suddenly want to make friends with the animal?"

"Logan, I really mean it!", the other man said and looked at him in annoyance. He couldn't understand that his opposite was really as stubborn as a brick wall. "I made mistakes… I should have accepted Jean's decision and let her be happy. I know that I said things to you which can't possibly be excused…and I am really sorry for that and for attacking you…" He looked into the skeptical eyes of his opposite. He knew from the moment he came down that this was going to be hard. But he didn't imagine that it would become that hard.

"And what now? You want us to live happily ever after?"

"I want us to start all over again," Scott said calmly. "We have to deal with things here and we can't keep on fighting for years." He broke eye contact and looked towards Jean. "She has made her decision and I'm fine with it. Even if it's hard…" He switched his eyes again. "I know you love her. I've watched you in the past weeks…so, I am sorry for doing those things to the two of you and I hope you can forgive me. And if you need help with the team…just ask me."

Logan nodded, thinking. He would never admit it, but he was surprised to hear those words from Scott. He looked into the room for a brief moment again. "So, do you think you'll have a problem taking orders?"

Scott smirked. He recognized the words he'd said to Logan back before they had headed to rescue Rogue. "I don't know," he answered playfully, using the same answer Logan had given him back then. "Give me one."

Logan had to smirk and walked towards the door. "Take care of the school and Jean."

"Where're ya going?" Scott asked him in confusion.

"Feeding the cubs," the other man grunted and the door closed behind him.

Ororo looked up sleepily as the door opened to Logan's room. She was lying on the bed and realized she must have fallen asleep. Slowly, she sat up when Logan entered and looked up at him. "Hey," she greeted him tiredly. "I thought you were staying downstairs again."

"Can't sleep", he replied tersely and looked into the two cradles.

Storm glanced at her watch. "Already time?" she mumbled to herself and got up to help him. He handed her a bottle while he took his daughter into his arms and placed a light kiss to her forehead. "Hey pumpkin…" Carefully, he sat down on the bed and watched her, while Ororo sat down next to him.

"Any changes?" she asked him after a while. He shook his head. "I'm sorry…" She looked down and gave the boy a short smile.

"How's Bobby? Is he still overprotective?" Logan asked. He remembered Rogue coming to him completely pissed and annoyed, since Bobby was scared that it could happen to her too. He followed her all around the house, making sure that nothing could happen to her…

Logan looked up as his room door opened. "Hey, can I stay here for a while?" Rogue asked, waiting for him to tell her to come in.

"Sure," he said and sat upright on his bed, since he had dozed on it before. "What's wrong?" He watched the young woman in an advanced stage of pregnancy coming closer and sitting down next to him.

She sighed in annoyance. "He's getting on my nerves," she only said and Logan had to guess.

"Bobby?"

She nodded. "Since the thing happened to Jean, he refuses to leave me alone for only a second. Would you believe that I stepped on him when I wanted to get out of bed because he snuck into my room and slept on the floor?"

Logan had to chuckle a bit. "He's worried."

"He's overprotective and annoying!" she corrected him, while her hand rested on her belly.

"Look, he's afraid that it could happen to you too. So, he wants to be with you in case that anything does happen", he tried to explain calmly.

Rogue gave him a despaired look. Recalling Jubilee and Kitty telling her that she got way too emotional and sensitive during her pregnancy, she tried to discover if she might have overreacted. "But you haven't been like this during Jean's pregnancy. I mean, you never left her side, but I can't remember you telling her that she shouldn't do this or that."

He smirked. "Because I knew that she would slap me if I did…"

"So you want me to slap him?" she asked, smirking.

"No, kid," Logan said and gave her a look. "I want you to talk to him."

She nodded. "I'll try…" She noticed his look and wondered what he was thinking right now. Silence filled the room, since neither of them said anything. "How're your kids?" she suddenly asked and looked at the two cradles.

"Good, so far," he answered. "How about you?" He couldn't help but feeling worried. He knew that the baby was fine, that she was fine, but still he shared Bobby's fear…

"I'm fine…just getting nervous…" she smiled at him shyly and cleared her throat. "Actually, I wanted to ask you something, but…"

He bent forward to have a better look at her. "But?"

She gave him a sad look. "I thought it wasn't the time to bother you. Because of Jean and all…" She lowered her gaze.

Logan made a face and touched her chin for a brief moment to make her look up again. "Ya never bother me, kid… So what is it ya wanna ask me?"

She swallowed and cleared her throat once more, before she turned towards him. Nervously, she played with the cloth of her shirt. "Well…I…I was wondering if you…"

He smirked. "Kid, as long as this isn't a proposal, I'm not gonna eat ya, so what is it?"

Rogue had to smile. She knew he wasn't feeling so well lately, but still he tried to cheer her up. Finally, she looked up at him. "Would you be the godfather of Isabella?"

Logan looked down for a brief moment making Rogue think that she had definitely asked him the wrong thing. "Isabella, huh? Do you really want it?" he asked her and scrutinized her face.

"I wouldn't be asking otherwise," she gave back. "I want her to be in good hands if something happens," Rogue added calmly.

"Kid, nothing gonna happen to ya!"

"Well, you never know, right?" she asked him and noticed the pain in his eyes. "So, would you do it?"

Logan thought about it briefly. He had already enough to do with taking care of his kids and worrying about Jean. "If Jean gets better, then yes… 'Kay?"

She nodded. "'Kay." He got up and reached out to help her getting off the bed. "Thanks, Logan," she said and hugged him, before she placed a light kiss on his cheek. "And I'm sure Jean will be better soon…don't worry…"

"Thanks, kid," he gave her a small smile and watched her leave.

"Well, at least I heard her yelling at him today," Storm answered.

"Hmm…" he growled and thought about their conversation. "Could you watch over the kids again tomorrow?" he asked her after a while, without looking at her.

Storm raised an eyebrow. "Sure. Why are you asking?"

He put the empty bottle on the bedside table and lay down, while he stroked Lily's back, who was lying on his chest. "I need some rest…"

She nodded. "Good idea," she told him with a look only he could understand. He knew that she was aware of his lack of sleep again. "Come on, sweetheart," she said in a loving voice. "Burping time."

Logan watched her stroking the boy's back. "Thanks, 'Ro," he suddenly said and she turned her head in surprise. He could have sworn that she'd blushed.

"No problem," she smiled and broke eye contact, before she took care of the boy again. "Try to sleep a bit." She got up, but he held her back.

"You can stay here. I'll sleep downstairs," he said and laid Lily down into the cradle again. Ororo noticed the strange look in his eyes with which he was looking at his kids. "Logan," she asked him worriedly. "You're not up to something, are you?"

"I'm up to going to sleep, 'Ro. That's all," he smirked. He noticed that she still eyed him suspiciously. He sighed and walked up towards her, hearing the rain pouring on the outside. "What's wrong?"

Storm shrugged. "I don't like the way you look at them," she said calmly and met his eyes.

"I'm tired, 'Ro, that's all," he said again, hoping to convince her this time. She looked down, arms folded in front of her chest. He touched her cheek for a brief moment and made her look at him again. "If anything's wrong, I'm downstairs, 'kay?" Still skeptical, she finally nodded and looked at him surprised as he placed a light kiss on her cheek. "Thanks, 'Ro," he said, before he turned around, buried his hands in pockets and closed the door behind him. Still staring at the door, she felt fear spreading in her chest.

XXX

"I don't know, Hank," Peter said and looked at the wall. "The room is too small for all the stuff…"

"We don't have any bigger rooms. Except if you want Charles to give up his headmaster room", Hank winked at the young man in front of him. The whole day through they were working on finishing Logan's old room. Right now they had the problem that the room was too small for all the baby stuff and the double bed. "Well, let's see" He looked at the plan they'd made again.

"Why don't you just connect this room with the next one?" they suddenly heard the Professor's voice at the door and looked up.

Peter frowned. "But Kitty…"

"Kitty moves into Jubilees room. They were coming to me with this for the past three weeks, so I finally agreed to it. Even if I think that it means trouble." The Professor looked at Hank's plan. "So, if you place a door right over there," he pointed to the right side of the wall. "You can connect both rooms with each other."

"Should be possible," Peter said and moved towards it.

"But Peter," Charles said urgently. "Please use tools!" He smiled at the boy and turned around again.

"Have you seen Scott today?" Hank asked him and he stopped. "He wanted to help us carrying all the stuff up to this level. I couldn't find him earlier…"

The Professor closed his eyes for a brief moment and concentrated before he opened them, looking worried. "He's in the garage. But he seems to be very outraged."

"Probably one of the kids again", Peter said. "Last time they'd hidden his favorite bike. And you know how he is when it comes to it!"

"I hope you're right," Charles said before he left the room.

"So, ready for some action?" Hank said and put the plan away.

They kept on working the whole day through until the late evening. Exhausted they walked down to the kitchen where the others were already waiting with dinner.

"I doubt the two of you will stay together longer than a week!" Bobby teased Kitty and Jubilee.

"Wanna bet?" Jubilee gave back. "It's gonna be fun! I'm tellin' ya!"

"Hey, where are Scott and Storm?" Hank asked the younger mutants and looked around. "And Logan? I haven't seen him the whole day through."

Rogue swallowed her soup and laid the spoon down before she took a piece of bread from the basket. "Storm said he wanted to sleep."

"That was late last night when he said it, Rogue", Jubilee said. "As far as I know at least."

The other woman shrugged. "Well, he hasn't slept for a few days…"

"He never sleeps during a whole day!" Jubilee gave back.

"Girls!" Bobby said and raised his hands. "We get it now!" He rolled his eyes and looked at Peter. "Sorry, for not helping ya with the room."

His opposite waved off. "We're nearly finished."

"Okay, I'm only asking once!" they suddenly heard Scott's angry voice at the door and soon the man came into the kitchen with a more than pissed off look on his face. "Where's my bike?" The younger mutants looked at each other in confusion and shook their heads. "Come on! It was there last night, so where did you put it?" He looked to and fro between them.

"We don't know! Really!" Bobby answered. "Kitty was moving into Jubes room and she helped her with it, I was with Rogue and Peter helped Hank with Logan's room… So we don't have anything to do with your bike."

Scott sighed and folded his arms in front of his chest. He had searched the whole grounds for his bike, but couldn't find it anywhere. The last time the kids had played such a trick on him was long time ago. "Look, I've enough to do with taking care of the X-Men and watching over Jean…"

"Hold on a second!" Hank interrupted him. "That's Logan's job. He's the leader now, remember?"

"He told me to take care of things," Scott gave back and noticed the strange look on Hank's face.

He was thinking. "Why would he do that?"

Scott shrugged. "Probably because he has enough to do with the kids?", he asked him ironically.

"He wouldn't tell you to watch over Jean," Hank shot back. "Something's wrong."

Scott was just about to answer when Storm came into the kitchen completely beside herself followed by the Professor. Everyone looked at them, instantly worried.

"He's gone," she said breathlessly.

"What?" Scott asked her and stepped closer.

"I wanted to wake him and the window was open…he's gone…" she told him sobbing. "He left…"

"So, who took your bike, eh?" Bobby asked Scott and shook his head.

"Logan wouldn't leave without a reason!" Rogue said in disbelief and looked at the others.

"I knew he was up to something, damn it!", Ororo suddenly cried and buried her face in her hands, while Scott tried to soothe her. "Why didn't I stop him?"

Hank looked at them deadly serious. "I think I know what he's up too," he said through gritted teeth, causing the others to turn their heads.

"What?" Charles asked him and came closer.

"I've warned him about that," the blue mutant shook his head.

XXX

Warren Worthington Jr. was on his way back to his office. He still had work to do and knew it was going to be a long night before he would find sleep. He closed the door behind him and got rid off his coat before he walked over to his desk. Snikt. He froze at the sound and didn't dare to turn around first. Worthington swallowed when he felt that eyes were staring at him from behind. Slowly, he turned around. The shadow of a man was projected by the light of the moon on the door. Warren stumbled backwards as he saw 3 sharp knives in the hand of the person. "I'm…I'm sorry… Please, I've got a son…", he stuttered and watched the man coming closer. His heart raced in his chest and his eyes were fixed on the person in front of him. Suddenly, he realized that it wasn't knives in the hand of his opposite. "You're a mutant… Look, I can understand that you're pissed… I'm sorry how the cure worked… My son is also a mutant… So, please…don't kill me…"

His opposite grabbed him from the ground and pulled him up, while his dark eyes looked at him piercingly. "You gonna do something for me, bub," was all Logan said before he pushed him towards the door.

Okay, first chapter which was not prewritten. I just typed it. Thanks for the reviews again. Oh, and to explain the name Isabella: As I said, the one who had written review number 100 got an email and I told her that she could name Rogue's baby. So, thanks to Corellianjedi2 for picking a name! And thanks to Tamara for offering doing a Beta read. I'll send the next chapter as soon as I've written it. ;) See ya!