Disclaimer: It's getting to be a real bore now, but I'd say it anyway. No rights owned to Will&Grace. Just to the storyplot.
Chapter 5.
A week later
11.30 pm
Will was still living with Karen a week later. They hadn't been separated since it happened and Karen was starting to let go of her nightmares, though she could still fall back into heavy cries and Will was always there to pick her up again.
One night while lying in bed, Will talked to Karen.
"Karen, you have to tell them. It's been a week and they do care about you and love you. I promise they won't judge you. If you want I will be there when you say it. And as I've promised before, I still promise to never leave until you really want me to. I just think that you should tell them, that's all." Will said and sighed.
He felt so sorry for Karen, he had to make her feel better and the only way to have her process the whole thing was for her to talk about it and come to terms with what's happened to her.
Karen was quiet, laying in her usual position, her head on Will's chest hearing his heartbeats. That's what made her calm enough to go to sleep. She listened to him as he spoke and she knew he was right. She should tell them, though she couldn't find the strength or the courage to do so. Somewhere deep inside, she knew that both Jack and Grace cared for her deeply and that they loved her. She loved them both too and she would go through fire and ice for all three of them if it made them happy, but this thing she couldn't bring herself to do. It was just to hard to talk about and she couldn't believe that she had told Will, though she was happy that he knew. He was always there for her, making her feel safe and she knew that he'd never leave her if she didn't want him to.
"Will, I want to tell them now. I do, but I can't. It's not that easy as you think to tell someone you love that you've been raped."
That was the second time she said the word rape since it happened.
"Karen, I've never thought that it was an easy thing to say, but I think and know that you will feel better if you tell them. Then you wouldn't have to hide anything anymore and you can have more friends around, not just me."
"But I like that it's just you and me Will" she replied and sighed.
The tears threatened to come again, she was amazed that her body could contain such an amount of tears.
"I do too Karen" Will said. "But it would be even more nice if all four of us could hang out again you know. Like we used to. Grace and Jack are worried and wonders about you."
"How do you know that?"
"I've talked to them on the phone."
"When did you do that?"
"When you were in the shower, I talked to Grace. I had to lie to her, she didn't buy it though. I could hear it in her voice, but since it was about you she kept quiet and didn't ask anymore. They both sense something really big and they are really worried you know?"
Karen didn't say anything. She wanted to tell her friends. They were the most important thing in her life now since Stan was gone.
"Alright Will. Can we go home to your place tomorrow and tell them?"
He put his fingers under her chin and carefully tilted her head backwards so that he could look her in the eyes. Her eyes glistened with tears that threatened to come out.
"Absolutely."
"You will be there with me right?"
"Of course I will. I'll never leave you, you know that."
She knew and she loved him more by the fact that he said it.
8.30 am
Next morning however she had second thoughts. She couldn't go through with it. During the night she had woken up several times from nightmares and they were all about the rape and that she was going to let Grace and Jack know. She had dreamt that while the rape was happening they would just stand next to her and watch and point finger and say that it was all her fault and she had noone to blame but herself.
Will had been there everytime she woke up, trying to calm her down and relax again. She would and fell asleep again, only to wake up by the same nightmare minutes later. This night had been the worst since it happened and she couldn't tell Grace or Jack now.
"Karen. It was just nightmares" Will tried to calm her. "They don't mean anything."
Will was standing on the floor fully dressed in his now not so clean suit. He had to take some sickleave from work to be with Karen, but it was so worth it. During the week she had been recovering bit, though it was a long way to go still. Now though, it seemed like she had hit a bump in the path and she didn't know how to cross it.
Karen was sitting on the bed in her sweats. Her eyes all puffy and red from crying and no sleep. Her hair was a mess, a real mess that would take some time to clear up. She sat a bit bent over with her feet on the floor looking down onto it. Her body was shivering and she was cold. She was nervous and really scared.
"Karen, please, please get up and get dressed and then we'll get Rosario to make some breakfast, what do you say?" Will asked her.
She didn't say anything, but she actually got up off the bed and stood on the floor. That was the first time she was out of bed for something else than a shower or a hot bath. She still felt dirty, even though she had had so many showers.
Will started leaving the room so Karen could get dressed.
"Please Will, don't leave" he heard Karen's scared voice.
"Honey, you know I won't leave, I was just going outside the door so you could change your clothes."
That was the first time he had addressed her with something else than Karen or Kare. She liked it.
"OK, but don't shut it please" she said insecurily and changed her clothes into clean sweatpants and a big t-shirt.
"I won't" he said and went outside.
When she was dressed, she tried to do something about the mess in her hair. It took a while but she finally managed to straighten it out. She put it up in a small ponytail and got to the door where Will was standing just outside. He looked at her. He was impressed. She had clean clothes on and her hair was not a mess anymore.
"Way to go Karebear" he said and put his arm around her shoulders. "You got dressed and your hair isn't a mess anymore."
She smiled and leaned her head against his shoulder. Will started walking, but she was standing still.
"What is it Karen?" he wondered and stopped.
She was frozen. The door to the library had been opened and someone with dark clothes walked out of it. It was the chimneysweeper.
"Karen, that was the chimneysweeper. There's no need to be worried. I promise I won't let anything happen to you. You know that. Come one. Let's go and eat breakfast."
She didn't move.
"Karen, I will carry you down if you don't walk by yourself. You need to eat and you need to move your legs or else your muscles will deteriorate.
She still didn't move. Will sighed and walked back to her, sweeping her up in his strong arms. She started to panic, but Will calmed her down.
"Calm down Karen. It's just me and I'm not dropping you or let anyone else get a hand on you, I promise" he said whispering.
She relaxed a little in his arms and allowed him to carry her. She put her arms around his neck and leaned her head against his shoulder.
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A/N R&R Please. I love reviews and they make my muse stay so ... please reviews. I crave them. Is the story good?
