Return To Innocence

Chapter 7-The Call

When Sirius pulled back, I stared at him for a brief moment before I slapped him.

"What was that for?" James asked looking stunned himself, but it was Remus who I was keeping an eye on.

He went completely white as a sheet.

"Why the hell did you kiss me?" I demanded angrily.

"Because I am in love with you too," Sirius said.

I froze.

There was a heavy feeling in the air as though someone had dropped a bomb in the common room.

Remus couldn't speak, but I somehow managed to find my voice.

"Sirius," I began but he shook his head, cutting me off.

"Look, I know you're in love with Remus…I just wanted to let you know. Sorry mate for kissing your girl like that. It was an impulse and I should've never done it," Sirius apologized to Remus.

All Remus could do was nod.

Sirius then turned and headed into the boys' dorm.

"Wow," James said his blue eyes wide behind his glasses. "I never expected that."

"Neither did I," Lily said then turned her eyes onto me.

Remus cleared his throat finally and just shifted his eyes onto the fire that crackled softly.

"I'll set Sirius straight later," I said softly. "I don't want to hurt him either. He's a good guy."

Lily and James nodded.

"Okay, I'm pooped," James said yawning and stretching. "I'm gonna head to bed. Good night guys."

"Night," Remus and I said in unison with Lily.

Lily soon followed leaving Remus and I alone. I took a seat next to Remus and snuggled up against his arm, linking my arm around his and resting my cheek against his shoulder. But to my surprise, he pulled away.

"What's the matter?" I asked startled as I turned to face him with a worried expression on my face.

"Nothing," Remus muttered turning his face away.

"Remus, I know you…spit it out," I said.

Remus turned and faced me.

"I am just scared of losing you that's all," he admitted quietly. "When I saw Sirius kiss you I was really shocked and hurt."

"I didn't kiss him back, Mooney…remember that," I said softly.

"Did you want to?" Remus asked quietly.

I looked at him like he was mental.

"Absolutely not!" I cried. "Remus, you're the one I love alright? What's bringing this on all of a sudden?"

Remus leaned close so that our faces were inches apart.

"Because if something happens to me, I don't want you to be alone and miserable," he said quietly staring into my eyes. "If I die, then I want you to be with Sirius. I was thinking of this last night. So I'm going to tell Sirius the plan."

"What? What are you talking about Remus? You're not going to die. Stop talking like that," I said feeling my throat aching with disappointment and pain.

Remus took my face in his hands and stroked my cheeks with his thumbs.

"Mads, I joined Lord Voldemort," he said clearly not afraid of speaking his name. "To spy on him. I seriously doubt it could have a good ending if he finds out why I really joined him."

"He won't find out!" I cried as the tears spilled over and streaked down my cheeks. "You're going to be fine!"

Remus looked at me with a grave expression.

"I can't be sure…but again, I don't want you to be lonely in the world IF something does happen to me okay?"

I burst into tears and just slumped against him, pressing my face into his chest deeply. I felt his arms encircling me tightly. I tightly wrapped my arms around him as well. I loved him so much.

Remus rested his chin on top of my head and he exhaled.

"Don't worry okay?" he whispered as he arched his head slightly so that he was whispering in my ear. "I promise I won't let anything happen to you."

I pulled back from the embrace.

"Fine, but what about something happening to you?" I demanded as tears still kept flowing.

I turned and left the common room.

REMUS.

I stared after Maddie. I sighed and headed to Professor Dumbledore's office. I was going to tell him of my plan.

I headed up to the office and stood on the golden stairs that had a phoenix with his wings spread at the top in gold as the stairs began circling, bringing me up to Dumbledore's office.

I knocked on Professor Dumbledore's door.

"Come in," he called.

I entered.

The Headmaster was sitting behind his desk. His blue eyes twinkled behind his half moon spectacles when I entered.

"Hello Remus," he said pleasantly. "What can I do for you?"

I sat in the chair.

"I joined Lord Voldemort," I blurted out.

For a moment, Professor Dumbledore looked absolutely shocked and stunned but I babbled on.

"But I only joined him to spy on him and to protect Maddie," I continued. "I would never really turn to him but I want him caught so I figured this would be the best way to do it…to spy on him."

Realization dawned on Dumbledore's face.

"Remus," he said quietly. "It's very dangerous what you just did, but I understand WHY you did it…to protect someone you care about. But if Lord Voldemort finds out that the real reason you joined him was to spy on him and feed information to the Ministry, he'll kill you without hesitation. Are you aware of that?"

I nodded.

"But is Maddie?"

Again I nodded.

"I mean are you aware that you will cause Maddie MORE pain because you deliberately put yourself in harms way? If she loses you," Dumbledore said kindly.

I sighed. "I just want to protect her, sir, that's all,"

"I think the only way to protect her is to leave her be," Dumbledore said kindly.

I sighed.

"I don't approve of this because of how dangerous it is," Dumbledore said quietly. "But I will help you. I'll alert the Ministry as to what you're doing then we can come up with some kind of code to transfer what Lord Voldemort is doing without him even suspecting anything."

"What about the Muggle wire?" I suggested. "The Muggle Law Enforcement uses it to catch criminals in confessions."

Professor Dumbledore's blue eyes twinkled. "I don't think the Dark Lord would ever expect that. He would be expecting something magical…so yes that might be a good idea. Go to bed and tomorrow we'll see what the Ministry has to say."

I nodded and left Dumbledore's office.

MADDIE.

I was angry at Remus for only thinking of himself. He wasn't listening to just how dangerous this situation really was. If Lord Voldemort found out that Remus betrayed him, forget it. I shuddered to think of what he would do although I already knew the answer…he'd kill Remus.

The next morning at breakfast, I was sitting at the Gryffindor table. Lily, James and Sirius were already there. Remus came down shortly looking bright and cheerful for some reason. He took a seat across from me and began helping himself to some of the crumpets and pancakes.

"Morning," he said.

I ignored him.

"I take it you slept well?" Sirius asked Remus.

The two of them had managed to make up and they were now friends after that little 'fight' they had. Lily told me what it was about.

"Just fine," he said. "I just got word from Professor Dumbledore from the Ministry that they liked my idea of spying on the Dark Lord. They approved of the Muggle method of 'bugging' someone. So the Auror's will be able to listen to the Dark Lord's plans first hand from the Ministry. If I should get into any trouble, they'll Apparate in a second."

I felt his eyes on me.

Sirius just shook his head and James swallowed, and tried to look happy.

"That's good Remus," he said at last. "Just come back to us in one piece alright?"

Lily was silent and it was me who finally blew up.

"That's not the point!" I shouted at him. "The point is putting yourself in harms way! He's ruthless, cruel, cold and uncaring! He won't think twice about killing you!"

Remus calmly stood up.

"Maddie, please," he pleaded. "Let me explain…"

He went to grab my arm to lead me out of the Great Hall, but I jerked my arm out of the way.

"Just go," I said coldly as angry tears formed in my eyes. "See if I care if something happens to you."

With that, I left the Hall, leaving my breakfast untouched.

I headed out onto the grounds. The cold wind whipped my hair around my face and stung my tear stained cheeks. I began sobbing quietly. I heard someone coming up behind me. I whirled around. It was Sirius.

"Remus wanted me to tell you that he loves you more than life and would never hurt you," Sirius said swallowing.

"What? He didn't have the balls to tell me himself so he sends a lap dog?" I asked icily. "And some way of showing me he loves me…by joining the Dark Lord to spy on him! Of all the stupid, selfish things, that has to take the cake and he's hurting me now."

Sirius put his hands on my shoulders. Before I knew it, I'd slumped into Sirius' arms and pressed my face into his chest. I burst into tears and just cried. I wrapped my arms around Sirius' midsection. Sirius wrapped his arms around me tightly and just held me.

REMUS.

My heart was breaking because Sirius had come back about 20 minutes later and told me that Maddie was completely crushed, but I knew I had to do this.

"I hope you know what you're doing, mate," James said looking at me. "Just be careful alright?"

Tylus Apparated that afternoon near the Forbidden Forest. Lord Voldemort wanted me now. I told James, Lily and Sirius who he was.

Lily hugged me next.

"Please come back to us okay?" she whispered.

Sirius gave me a hug also as soon as she had let go.

"Keep an eye on Maddie alright?" I whispered to him. "Take care of her for me. I'll be back soon I promise."

Sirius nodded.

Maddie had refused to join us outside and was now in the library. James gave me a quick hug too. I glanced up at the castle, wishing Maddie was here.

I headed over to Tylus.

"Come with me," he said.

He took my arm and we both Apparated off the grounds. I had the little wires taped to my bare chest and it was on right now. Back at the Ministry, a group of Auror's were listening to every detail.

We Apparated into an opened moor. A dense fog hovered above the damp dew covered ground. Lord Voldemort was dressed in the usual hooded robe, obscuring his face from view.

"Lupin," his cold voice drawled. "Excellent. I have the first job for you to take care of."

I shivered under my Gryffindor robe and uniform. It was chilly out and I'd wished I'd pulled on my cloak.

"Really?" I cleared my throat. "And what would that be?"

Lord Voldemort stepped closer.

"I want you to kill Tylus,"

Tylus' eyes widened in fear and shock.

"Wh-what?" I stammered. "Why?"

"Because I don't need him anymore. I have you," he said cruelly.

Tylus was frightened and began stuttering.

"Kill him, Lupin," Lord Voldemort snapped.

"W-Where are we?" I stammered, stalling.

"3 Miles from Manchester," Voldemort said. "Now KILL him and stop stalling!"

I reached into my robe and shakily pulled out my wand. I aimed it at Tylus.

Tylus began pleading not to kill him.

"Do it," Voldemort ordered. "Or I swear I will kill that witch of yours for fun."

Maddie…

I swallowed and suddenly felt sick to my stomach. I shut my eyes with my wand aimed at Tylus.

"Avada Kedavra," I whispered.

I heard a 'thud' then silence.

"Good," Voldemort said pleased.

I opened my eyes. Tylus was lying face down on the grass. I dropped to my knees, completely shocked at what I had just done.

"Now you may go back to that pitiful school," Voldemort said. "Until I need you again. Tell anyone what you're doing and in a flash that witch of yours is dead…got it?"

I nodded.

He vanished, and I Apparated back to Hogwarts.

MADDIE.

Remus had Apparated back. Lily had rushed into the library to tell me the news. He had only been gone for a few hours.

"He's okay," Lily said relieved. "Un-Harmed."

"Yeah for how long?" I snapped and slammed the book shut that I was reading. The bang echoed through the library like a wave. "It's only a matter of time before Mr. Evil himself finds out the real reason behind Remus' sudden affection for the 'Dark Side' of things."

Lily looked at my sympathetically and put an arm around my shoulders. I got up and suddenly, the library swayed before my eyes. I grabbed onto Lily's shoulder for support.

"Whoa," I said clutching her shoulder.

"You okay? What's wrong?" Lily demanded anxiously.

"I think I'm going to be sick," I said and sure enough, I vomited right there, narrowly missing Lily's shoes.

I was just sitting on one of the hospital cots in the hospital wing. Lily was sitting beside me, stroking my hair. I was leaning forward with my elbows resting on my thighs and my hands propping up my forehead. My hair fell forward. A bucket was between my ankles.

Remus, James and Sirius came bursting into the hospital wing.

"Is she alright?"

"What's happened?"

"Is she going to be okay?"

Remus dropped to his knees in front of me and put his hands on my knees. He reached up and gently tucked a strand of my blond hair behind my ear.

"Slow down," Lily said. "She's fine. She got sick in the library…she's going to be fine."

"She's right," Madam Pomfrey said brightly coming over to us. "The both of them are going to be just fine."

"Meh? Come again?" Sirius asked looking up at Madam Pomfrey.

"The both of them…Miss Weston is pregnant,"

Remus' eyes rolled up into his head and he fell sideways as he passed out.