-Chapter-35-

-Rachel pov-

"So let's get down to business" I look at my dads as Beth sleeps on my left and Rebecca on my right "My grandparents sent my dads on a goose chase on accident, my mom was just plain stupid, and I have had attempted suicide"

"We start on that part" I look at a frowning Santana "Why did you do it? Was it us? Did something happen at school? Do you want away from us that bad?"

"I lied a little bit" I sigh and make sure everyone is in my line of sight "I did not just pull out all of the papers just for dates...I was trying to figure out who could be moved to what"

"You were looking at secondary roles and hidden things you might have missed" I nod and Judy tilts her head confused still "Why though?"

"We have so many little and the caregivers are great!" I sigh and look toward the pets "But I am the one who takes care of them the most and I wanted to make sure they had someone also"

"I can not lie and say we do not feel left out" Emma frowns and goes on "We just...the littles get so much more stuff! We have the barn yeah but what about the other pets? We have some yarn, a few toys, and the dogs are out of bones! No one will buy anything to replace it!"

"We could help" We all look at LeRoy surprised "Look we have talked about this and we support it"

"We have messed up a lot in our little girls life" Hiram looks at me with tears in his eyes "We almost lost her and realized...well you all have been so good to her! We would do whatever we could to be able to help you all!"

I smile as a tear falls down "Thank you" They both give watery smiles back and I take a deep breath "I also want you all to have this as a relationship too! Dates, more cuddles, more kisses, and not everything has to rely on me! I have been a bad dom and I need to make up for that"

"We could help too" I turn toward the door and see my grandparents "I just got my baby girl back and like hell I will lose her because of depression!"

"Thank you" my vision goes blurry as I start to shake "I have been so worried! I have been so afraid of ruining everything and breaking you all! I have caused myself so much stress and I am so sorry! I do not want to die! I never want to leave any of you! I am so sorry!"

(Lyrics from genius)

[SUBMISSIVES AND FAMILY]

Ah, ah, ah-ah-ah

Ah, ah, ah-ah-ah

Ah, ah, ah-ah-ah

Ah, ah, ah-ah-ah

[QUINN]

You're not alone

Together we stand

I'll be by your side

You know, I'll take your hand

[SANTANA]

And when it gets cold

And it feels like the end

There's no place to go

You know, I won't give in

[SUBMISSIVES AND FAMILY]

(Aaah-aaah)

[QUINN]

No, I won't give in

[SUBMISSIVES AND FAMILY]

(Aaah-aaah)

[SUBMISSIVES AND FAMILY]

(Keep holding on)

[JUDY]

'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

[SUBMISSIVES AND FAMILY]

(Just stay strong)

[MARIBEL]

'Cause, you know, I'm here for you

[AMELIA]

I'm here for you

[SUGAR & (SUBMISSIVES AND FAMILY)]

There's nothing you can say (Nothing you can say)

Nothing you can do (Nothing you can do)

There's no other way when it comes to the truth

So (Keep holding on)

'Cause, you know, we'll make it through, we'll make it through

[CAROLE]

So far away

I wish you were here

Before it's too late

This could all disappear

[KITTY & SUGAR, (SUBMISSIVES AND FAMILY)]

Before the doors close,

And it comes to an end,

With you by my side,

I will fight and defend (Aaah-aaah)

I'll fight and defend (Aaah-aaah)

Yeah! Yeah!

[SUBMISSIVES AND FAMILY]

(Keep holding on)

[MARY]

'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

[SUBMISSIVES AND FAMILY]

(Just stay strong)

[KIM]

'Cause, you know, I'm here for you

[TERRI & (SUBMISSIVES AND FAMILY)]

There's nothing you can say (Nothing you can say)

Nothing you can do (Nothing you can do)

There's no other way when it comes to the truth

So (Keep holding on)

'Cause, you know, we'll make it through, we'll make it through

[HOLLY & APRIL]

Hear me when I say, when I say I believe

Nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change destiny

Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

[MERCEDES WITH SUBMISSIVES AND FAMILY]

La da da da

La da da da

La da da da da da da da da...

[EMMA] (TINA & SHELBY WITH SUBMISSIVES AND FAMILY)

(Keep holding on)

'Cause, you know, we'll make it through

(WITH FINN: we'll make it through)

(Just stay strong)

'Cause, you know, I'm here for you, (WITH FINN: I'm here for you)

[BRITTANY & SANTANA] (WITH SUBMISSIVES AND FAMILY)

There's nothing you can say (New Directions: Nothing you can say)

Nothing you can do (New Directions: Nothing you can do)

There's no other way (when it comes to the truth)

(So, keep holding on)

'Cause, you know, we'll make it through, we'll make it through

[SUBMISSIVES] (FAMILY):

(Oooh-oh!) Ah, ah, ah-ah-ah

Ah, ah, ah-ah-ah (Oh-oh!)

Ah, ah, ah-ah-ah (FINN & RACHEL: Keep holding on!)

Ah, ah, ah-ah-ah

(Oooh-oh!) Ah, ah, ah-ah-ah

Ah, ah, ah-ah-ah (Oh-oh!)

Ah, ah, ah-ah-ah (FINN & RACHEL: Keep holding on!)

Ah, ah, ah-ah-ah

[QUINN & BRITTANY (WITH SUBMISSIVES AND FAMILY)]

There's nothing you can say (Nothing you can say)

Nothing you can do (Nothing you can do)

There's no other way (When it comes to the truth)

So (Keep holding on)

Keep holding on

'Cause, you know, we'll make it through, we'll make it through

"That will never stop being true" Quinn walks over and cups my face "Now stop putting everything on your shoulders baby! We all are fine and you can finally sleep...we will be fine"

"Yeah" I yawn and start closing my eyes "I will see you all when I wake up"

"Of course love" I feel kisses on my forehead "We all will be here when you wake up and we will let you know how much we love you then too"

I smile and yawn again as I slip into a deep sleep.