(squeals as I jump up and down) I have 91 episodes of Konjiki no Gash Bell ordered! I'm so happy now! n.n n.n n.n n.n Buwahahaha!
o.o' Uh... not bragging... just felt like letting everybody know.. I've been in a bad mood all day but this is something i keep telling myself to put me in a happy mood again...
Disclaimer: I don't own this but right now i really don't care! n.n
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Chapter 10
You Say You Know Me
We finally got back to the ningen's mansion after a little while more of walking. Luckily I didn't have to carry her on the trip back since she had enough energy to travel on her own. The entire trip however she seemed rather... moody.
After the argument with Sherry's little question, she had been silent afterwards the entire walk back home. I assume that she was just thinking over the memory she regained-- the memory of her mother.
My family was never a large concern to me, but for her I suppose it was different. Before Sherry lost her memory, I do recall a few times when she mentioned her mother... I never really saw the woman, only a picture or two of her somewhere within that large mansion of hers. She was abused by her mother… that much I know. Childhood for her was difficult.
Both of us walked into the large, now empty mansion of hers. Out of the corner of my eye I saw Sherry wrap her arms around herself and head into another room. Silently, I followed her and entered the doorway and watched as she sat down on the nearest couch.
I said nothing but looked around the space we were in. It was just a regular room with nothing special about it, aside from the fact that it had quite a few portraits of past Belmond family members and different couches and rugs all aligned to the side. The windows were large and when it was day, let in a plentiful amount of light.
Sherry sighed and curled up on the couch, staring out in the middle of nowhere. Her dress slightly moved off her leg and I could see multiple scratches from the fight earlier. Damn woman didn't even bother cleaning herself when she had the chance…
She then turned her azure orbs over in my direction and looked directly in my eyes. I turned away after a moment, wondering what she was thinking about this time.
From behind me, I could hear her sigh. We both probably stayed silent for a few minutes before she blurted out, "Brago, you said that I didn't act like this in the past. What did I act like? I need to know!"
That was her important question? My eyes shifted over into her direction. She was staring at me with an upset look on her face. Sherry turned her head downwards and stared at her left hand, which she had grasped onto her other arm where another scratch was.
After hearing her issue I didn't respond. What was I to say? Her question needs to be clearer… From what she inquired, I could say whatever the hell I wanted and she would believe it (from how gullible she's become anyway…).
"Brago…" She stared at me with a pleading look. "I want to know – I have to know! Please tell me." She shifted her position on the couch. "You say you know me, so tell me what you know! It's not fair that I don't even know myself!"
Tears began to well up in the corner of her eyes, so the blonde wiped them away with her hand. Unfortunately that didn't work… she suddenly began bawling again like she had done now so many times. I looked off to the side, not wanting to see this little fit once more. I still couldn't help but feel sorry for her… Damn sensibility…
"First off," I said finally after a while, "The old Sherry never cried like this. She was tougher and more aware of what was going on." Folding my arms, I continued to stare at her. I don't think my proclamation helped any… She continued crying.
I just watched as she sat there, on the couch, making a complete fuss over the situation. Tears were rolling down her face like a waterfall. She began to hit the arm of the couch as she started talking in a rather loud, clearly upset, voice.
"IT'S NOT FAIR!" she screeched, "You knew how I acted – what I said, how I spoke, what my thoughts were – and I don't know a damn thing about myself anymore! WHY does it have to be this way? I hate this so much! IT'S SO DAMN UNFAIR!"
Still I said nothing, but watched as she stood up from her position on the furniture and began to kick the cushioned edges of the couch. After a few times of kicking it she stopped, pouted, and turned to face me with a large frown on her tearstained face. Suddenly after a few seconds, she whirled back around and, giving it all she had with all her might, swung her foot onto the couch one last time, letting a scream of pain out afterwards. Idiot…
Soon she settled down (a little anyway) and turned to face me again, a sharp look evident in her eyes. "You don't know how it is," she finally said bitterly, "I can't recall a thing about my past, and yet I woke up from a long sleep I was in and you were there in front of me, acting as if you knew me. And you still say you do, and you tell me that I acted differently. Yet when we finally… went to that place you said you 'found me,' it was almost as if I were in a dream… I remembered my mother…
"Brago… You don't know how painful it is… I remember all the screams, insults, and abuse my mother gave me… It was so incredibly painful… Yet it felt like a dream all at the same time," At this, she clenched her fists together and slightly began to shake her head. "It hurt… It hurt me so much… She punished me for things I didn't even mean to do. She called me a failure! Do you know how horrible it is, to be in an unusual place where everybody knows you but yourself, and the only thing you can remember is pain?"
I watched as tears began to trickle down her face even more. From looking at her expression and what she was talking about, I could see emotion in her eyes.
Pain…
Never before had I really thought about what it must be like for the onna. As I said before, my family wasn't something of large concern to me, but for her, it was obviously different. I had never felt abuse before, but she had. I had never felt emotional pain before (and I don't plan on it), but she had. She had felt so much more than I had or ever plan to feel. And it wasn't by choice, it was forced upon her.
Not as if there was anything I could do about it. So why was she telling me this?
"So please," she began, eyes shaking. "What was I like? I beg of you… please tell me…"
I sighed and looked away. There wasn't much choice of what I could do… So I decided to speak. "Well… You were very loyal to your promises," I said, "You were very confident in what you did and wouldn't ever let a target out of your sight. You weren't weak and stupid; you were strong and cunning… You read my spells with emotion, making them the strongest between ours and our opponents."
Her eyes lit up as I told her this. I could clearly see the happiness she was gaining as she learned more. She took a deep breath and almost seemed to hold it, but let it out slowly before asking, "How… how many spells did I help you gain?"
Closing my eyes, I began to think. How many had we gained? Let's see… before all of this happened, we had just encountered that one boy not too long ago that I just had to save a whole bunch of times… I had just learned the Dioga Gravidon, the fifth spell.
"Five," I said, turning my gaze back to the blonde. "You helped me gain five."
An illegible look overwhelmed her features. "Five…" she whispered. It vanished as her eyes lit up and she said, "I'm going to help you gain all five back then!" she said, tears continuing to form in her eyes, "I promise you that we'll have five before you even know it!"
I looked away from her as she lowered her head again. I could hear her murmuring things to herself silently (couldn't make out what she was saying though – it was even too quiet for me).
Turning back around, I just realized how distressed she looked. Her golden hair was mangled all on top of her head from the battle and continues stressing events, her face was tearstained, and she had scratches and bruises all over her pale body.
"I just want to remember again, Brago," said Sherry finally as I snapped out of my thoughts. I looked down at her as she stared over at me. "I want to make you happy… I know that you will be once I'm back to normal… That's all I want."
I said nothing but stared at her as she looked away from me. A red tint took an outbreak on her face and I felt slightly uncomfortable about this situation.
"Just want to make you satisfied with me… That's all I want." I looked over at her with an odd look placed on my face as she let out an uneasy laugh. "You… You could use a smile on your face anyway," she said.
At this I frowned, not liking the new topic she was picking to talk about. "Maybe you should just go and get cleaned up and rest some…" I said, trying to make her move on with what she was doing.
Her sapphire eyes glittered as a weak smile played with her lips. "Alright… I'll do that." I could tell she was in somewhat of a good mood again when she let out an immature giggle and skipped to the doorway, the blush still noticeable on her cheeks.
Before she walked off to go clean up, however, she stopped right in front of me and thanked me, before wrapping her arms around my shoulders and giving me a quick hug before she quickly ran off.
I stared with a bemused look on my face as I saw the last swish of her blonde hair go around the corner. A frown burrowed itself onto my face before I stormed off – muttering about how the new rule I had made was to never hug me.
When I reached the foot of the steps I stopped and sighed, staring up at the ceiling. A smirk crept upon my lips as I realized that, even though just a little memory was regained, Sherry was slowly becoming her normal self again. She hadn't had too many mood swings lately… She just cried a lot. And before I knew it, her personality would be back and the Battle for King would continue on…
And the throne would surely be mine.
Uh... i s'pose the hug could be fluff. n.n 'Tis a little too early for anything else to happen... Heheheh...
Hopefully i'll have the next chapter up soon. I'm having some difficulties figuring out what i could do for the next chapter (any suggestions?)... Eh... -.-
Read and review! I'm signing off and am going to go get some burgers with my mom!
