(twitch) They SO cut up that episode of Zatch Bell. . GRR. I'm not even gonna say anythin' else...
Well, anywho... That doesn't really help considering i'm already tired and have only had about 2-4 hours of sleep last night. (sigh) I should probably go to sleep soon but i really don't feel like it...
Eh, so i'm updating this. Enjoy the chapter!
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Chapter 25
Get Up
5:23 PM.
I stood bored by the window, staring tiredly out into the busy streets with my arms folded tightly across my chest. Here lately I had been doing this more often, as I noticed, just standing by the window, watching things go by…
It was irritating. There was nothing to do and I was craving yet another battle. So the fight with Hiebie and her bookkeeper shook me up just a little, but I had come to the conclusion that it was merely because Sherry, the old Sherry, was feeling quite stressed at the time, so she had poured her emotions to me while I unwilling accepted them. Most likely it had happened through the book, as I've also noticed that it's not just a way to channel human emotion into the spells, but human emotion into the demon of the book as well.
That in itself was just strange. Why did I have to put up with Sherry's relentless emotions when I already had other problems to take care of? It was so incredibly annoying. My human had—
Crap
I wished that I could stop thinking of Sherry in a possessive way, now it was my own damned emotions that were pouring out and I didn't know what to do to control them. I was not used to feeling such things and I certainly didn't want to be, either. She was changing, had changed me, and I certainly didn't like it. It was never supposed to have happened!
My brow furrowed deep into a frown and I physically shook my head. Stupid emotions… So senseless and unneeded…
"Brago?"
My attention was suddenly redirected to behind me and I turned to look; Sherry was standing about 10 feet away, staring at me blankly. We were both silent for a good long moment before the woman turned her head down to look at the ground before glancing up at me again.
"I, uh…" she trailed off and I impatiently waited. If she were not willing to talk, I'd still force it out of her…
She sighed before deciding to discontinue what she was saying. I wondered if she would even dare to speak again, but before the woman did anything else, she shook her head and almost looked as if she were about to turn around and head somewhere else before I intervened.
"Sherry!" I snapped and the woman turned to look at me, her eyes somewhat blank, though I could still see a hint of what almost looked like unease. She took a small step back while I took one forward and I stared down at her harshly. "You haven't spoken in days," I said and she redirected her gaze. "Are you ever going to talk? We need to get back to fighting in the war. You can't just stay here mourning as you stall for frickin' time!"
I had raised my voice intentionally to get my message clear and across, it didn't bother me much when the woman put on a somewhat hurt expression. I sighed and shook my head, continuing before she could even bother to say a word.
If you want to get revenge on that other demon, you can't just stay here forever," I said angrily and the blonde stared at me vacantly. "You can't fulfill you damn promises if you're always in your room crying! Now get up and do something!"
When Sherry still persisted to remain silent, I growled before running up and ramming her into the wall, pinning her against it as I grasped onto her wrists tightly, not at all letting her have any control in this situation. I could feel my anger rising while the woman stayed quiet. Finally, before I could say anything else, she beat me to it.
"I… I want to do something, but…" she trailed off, avoiding looking at me in the eye. I stared at her even harder as her lower lip began to tremble slightly and I couldn't help but keep my eyes on it. Don't give into temptation again…
"But what?" I inquired and she paused.
"I just… I don't know!" Sherry closed her eyes for a brief second and shook her head in protest. "After what… what happened… I just don't know what to do…" After that, she turned to look at me in the eye but quickly turned away again.
I leaned in closer, trying to control myself while I could, and said, "Well then, why don't you try and figure it out? You can't do anything when you're locked up all day."
"I know, but…" She stopped when I was a mere inch away from her, glaring at her harshly. Damn, it was hard enough to control myself in situations like this, I had to pull away while I could, but…
"Sherry," I hissed lowly, tightening my grip on her wrists to make her wake up a little, "Are you going to do something about it or not?"
"Brago, I…" My bookkeeper stared at me with wide eyes as I moved closer to her again. I hadn't truly realized I was so near her at the moment, my anger had blinded me for a second and then here I found myself about to…
The woman closed her eyes tightly before attempting to get out of my grip and push me off of her, I took this as a moment to back away from her since I, for some strange reason, found it hard to do so on my own. Backing up a couple of steps, I watched as the blonde slid down the wall and sunk to the floor, grasping onto her shoulders tightly as she began shaking.
"Tch," I started, "Get up."
"Brago, I…" She shook her head furiously and I watched her as she began to have her own mental argument with herself. It was pitiful, really, though I couldn't help but feel strange while I watched her as tears started to stroll down her cheeks once more. A frustrated expression overwhelmed her features as Sherry began to shake her head, constantly trying to say what was on her mind. "I don't, I don't, I don't know what, I… I…"
"Just spit it out already!" I yelled, clenching my own fists. "You've delayed us enough, now get a move on! Forget what happened before and get off your ass!"
"I—I don't know what to do!" proclaimed the other as her azure eyes bored into mine. "I wake up after such a long absence, and… and… And I found…!"
"I know what it is you found!" I angrily retorted back and my bookkeeper blinked, forcing more tears down her flushed face. "And I know what's been going on now, but what I don't know is how all this started! Now you're going to get up and fight like you used to, don't act like a weakling, Sherry. That's not how you're going to get your friend back!"
There was a slight pause and the woman stared at me blankly for another moment as more tears dripped down her face. Looking down, she gazed at the floor quietly as she took in what I said. After a minute, I saw her close her eyes as she sighed, more so sobbed, and brought her hands to her face.
"What is wrong with me?" murmured the ningen quietly as her body shook slightly. "I feel so frustrated… so confused… What am I to do, Brago?"
"You're going to get up like you used to do and fight," I responded in a quieter tone, Sherry seemed to take that as an answer, or at least that's what I assumed. She removed her hands from her face and pressed them onto the ground to support herself as she looked up at me through confused watery eyes.
"I…" she trailed off, almost as if she weren't really aware of what she was saying. With that, she closed her eyes and took a deep breath before reopening them to look at me again. She was silent but stood up and looked at me in the eye. In the tense moment, Sherry glanced to the other side of the room and I turned in the direction she glimpsed over at as well.
5:32 PM
"I want to get stronger," she said quietly after a moment, "To become the strongest, so that way I can free Koko from Zophise's grasp. I want to get our happiness back, I want to, I have to!" Sherry's hands began to tremble but she turned them into tight fists, her shoulders began to shake as she continued. "I want to do what's right in this battle! I want to do so many things, but I just…"
My bookkeeper shook her head, her blonde bangs shielding her eyes as she closed them and turned her head towards the ground. I said nothing but watched as she slowly began to shake her head and she then suddenly turned to look up at me.
"I—I'll continue fighting!" she said, tears rolling down her face. "The other teams are going to be beaten, Koko will be freed! I'll know who did this as well!" Still, I was silent, but I continued to watch as she somewhat began to calm down and she sighed once more before turning to look up at me. "I'll fight with the black book…"
At that, I couldn't help but smirk just a little, but I quickly wiped away the expression. So, she had finally overcome her mental obstacle. Now why couldn't I conquer mine? At least she was no longer as depressed as before, she would start to fight again.
"You done yet?" I asked dully and the woman nodded her head. "Good. We're leaving tonight, so get ready."
I turned away, though with my back to the blonde I could just barely hear her mutter about having to depart so soon. Quickly, I turned around and to glare at her and shoot off a sadistic smirk.
"Just call it… Punishment for the month of hell you gave me."
