Sorry for the delay in the update. I'm sort of busy but I will try and get the next chapter up sooner.
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Spencer calls Aiden to let him know of the change. A part of her wants to blow him off but the other part is saying the complete opposite thing.
Spencer: "Hey Aiden do u think you can pick me up at Ashley's house for our date. I'm staying at her house again."
Aiden: "Alright. Sure."
Spencer: "Alright I will see you then."
Two hours or so later, Ashley is pacing across her room, thinking about Spencer. Two hours and exactly 45 minutes ago, Aiden came and took Spencer away from her. Ashley did the best friend routine and sent Spencer on her way with a smile on her face. Spencer should be coming back soon.
Ashley: I wonder if she is having fun on her date. Who am I kidding? I hope she has a miserable time and Aiden screws up again. If she doesn't have a miserable time though I might lose the slight chance I have to be with Spencer. WE have kissed before and it was perfect. She is just scared. I don't know. I really like Spencer but I don't know if I will ever get a shot with her…and I really won't have a shot if she is Aiden's girlfriend. I'll tell her how I feel when she gets back. It's worth a shot.
Through Ashley's window, Ashley sees car headlights enter her driveway. Ashley walks over to her window and looks outside but stays close to the wall so they couldn't see her.
Aiden and Spencer get out of the car. Spencer walks around the car towards Aiden's side of the car and towards Ashley's house. Spencer stops and leans against Aiden's car. Aiden walks up and leans against his car right next to Spencer.
Aiden: "Today was fun and I had a great time with you."
Spencer smiles at Aiden. Their date was good.
Spencer: "I did too. The movie was good, too bad I missed some parts of it."
Aiden: "Yeah sorry about that. Actually I'm not really sorry about that. You're a really good kisser and I like kissing you."
Aiden smiles at Spencer. It was true. When the movie started losing his interest he turned to Spencer to get something that would keep his interest. Kissing Spencer, definitely kept his interest. Spencer smiles back at his comment.
Spencer: "You're a good kisser too." But I think I felt more with Ashley…no what am I saying. There is no Ashley and me. There will never be an "us", only in fantasy. Aiden is real and right now. "So I better go."
Spencer starts walking to the door but before she can get very far, Aiden grabs her hand and turns her around.
Aiden: "Hold up. Before you go…"
Aiden leans in and kisses Spencer. Ashley at her window frowns and looks down at the carpet.
Ashley: I guess they had a good night. Damn it. There goes my opportunity…right out the window. Never mind I won't tell her how I feel…since clearly she has feelings for someone else and supposedly not into girls….Fuck it. I need to move on.
Aiden: "Good night."
Aiden smirks. He got his good night kiss.
Spencer: "Good night."
Spencer smiles, walks to Ashley's door and rings the doorbell. Ashley walks downstairs to let Spencer in, her thoughts still clouding her mind. Spencer turns around and sees Aiden getting into his car. He looks back at Spencer and Spencer sends him off with a smile. Aiden smiles back and drives away.
Inside the house, Ashley takes a second to gather her emotion before opening the door. Through the door, Ashley talks through door.
Ashley: "Who is it?"
Spencer: "It's me, open up."
Ashley: Of course I know its you.
Ashley lets Spencer in and puts on a fake smile. Spencer smiles back but can feel there is something wrong with that smile. It wasn't the pure Ashley Davies smile.
Spencer: "Hey. You okay?"
Ashley: "Of course. Why wouldn't I be?" Besides for a little blonde cutie that I can never have…
Spencer: "Uhmm I don't know. Whatever. How was your night?"
Ashley: "The question is not how my night went. The question is how was your date? So spill." I don't want to know.
Spencer: "It was good."
Spencer and Ashley walk to Ash's room.
Ashley: "So I guess you really like him then?"
Spencer: I may like some one I shouldn't be more. "Yeah."
Ashley: "Is there going to be another one?"
Spencer: "I hope so."
Now its Spencer's turn to put on a fake smile. Its not like she completely hated the date, it was great but…that was just it 'but'. It could have been better.
Spencer: "I think I'm going to just go to bed now."
Ashley: "Okay. Yeah. Go for it."
Ashley watches Spencer change and get into her bed. Ashley's heartaches for something she feels she can't have and its tearing her apart.
Ashley: Why do I have sooo much feelings for this blonde. Oh My God. Why do I care so much about her? GAh. This just makes me so so so…mad.
Ashley: "I'm going to go outside."
Spencer: "Do you need any company?"
Ashley turns and walks out of the room.
Ashley: "No. You go to bed."
Spencer, calling after her: "Are you sure?"
Ashley: "Positive."
Ashley whispers so Spencer couldn't hear her: "I need to get away from you."
Ashley walks out into her backyard and takes a deep breath of the fresh air. The air was cold, but nice. Ashley walks over to her pool and starts takes off her pants and shirt. Even though it was cold she didn't care. Her pool would be heated and it will make her relax. Ashley dives into her pool and started to do laps across it. She pushes off the wall every time and swims underwater as long as her lungs can take and lifts her head up when she needed to breath. She pushes and swims as fast as she can. Eyes close, mind closed, thoughts and feelings at the back of her mind. All she is concentrating on is swimming to one side of the pool to the other. Feeling her rush past the water that felt like it was standing still. Just like time. The time she was in the pool, time was standing still for her. She knew she couldn't escape the madness but she just didn't want to face it because she knew once she got out of the pool, Ashley would have to figure out a way to get over Spencer and the hold she has on her. Ashley is not use to people having holds on her and that are there and not going anywhere. Spencer has to tight of a grip on her, Spencer and Ashley are too close and Ashley couldn't take being so close to someone she sincerely wants and have no chance in having it. It hurt her to much. Oh what she would give to be able to kiss Spencer again and for her to want it just as bad as she does.
Ashley: But that is not going to happen. This is the real world, nothing great ever comes my way and stays….just keep swimming…just keep swimming…swim-.
While Ashley is taking laps in the pool, Ashley is too busy concentrating on swimming through the water like if it wasn't there, didn't notice at the backyard's sliding door, watching her was no other than Spencer.
Spencer: Look at her go, like a beautiful mermaid but trapped in limited amount of water. She must feel closed in with nowhere to go and don't know where to go if she had the choice. A girl like her would go out of control if she felt she had nothing and was locked up in her own heart. Boxed in. That is why she gave me that fake smile. It's my fault...She doesn't know that, I wish I can feel her lips against mine again. Its been long time since Ashley kissed her, but I would never forget that day. I told her I thought I like girls and then I came back around and told her I was lying. Which the lie was that I was lying. But I can't be gay. I don't want to be gay. What would everyone else think of me?
Spencer in a whisper: "Ashley."
Ashley sensed someone is watching her and stops swimming and looks around. Spencer backs away from the sliding door, turns her back on Ashley and walks back upstairs to bed. Ashley looks to the door and sees Spencer walking away from her.
Ashley in a whisper: "...Spencer."
Ashley: Should I go after her? No. No. There is no point. She has Aiden now. I lost my chance. I need to get over it. Need to freaking move on with my life. I can't wait for her to decide what she wants.
Ashley waits 5 more minutes so Spencer has a chance to fall asleep and gets out of the pool and dries her self off and sneaks back up to her room and changes.
Ashley: I don't want to stay here, that is for sure, away from Spencer the better. Wasn't there a party tonight somewhere? Yeah there is. Not exactly the rich part of town but a party none the less. Alright that's the plan. Party time.
As Ashley leaves the house, Spencer is still awake and hears the front door close.
Spencer: Where is she going?
Spencer gets out of bed and looks out the window just in time to see Ashley drive out of her circular driveway. A frown forms on Spencer's face.
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