A Place Above the Sky
by HoushaseiMaffin

Disclaimer: CLAMP owns Cardcaptor Sakura, and I don't.

(Fujitaka's POV, talking to Nadeshiko)

I did not believe in love at first sight, until you fell out of the sky into my life. Then I knew love existed. When I laid eyes on you for the first time, the only thing I can remember thinking is Surely I am seeing an angel, and from that moment on, I was so completely in love with you.

Everything about you was so beautiful, so angelic: your long hair, the ways your eyes sparkled. It was your eyes that made you appear so angelic: they shone even when we were in shadows, as if they were reflecting some beautiful sunshine from within. They were truly a window into your soul, and every day your spirit shone through them, bringing joy to everyone around you. You had the power to bring hope and light to the darkest of times, no matter how far away hope seemed.

Even on the day you left this world, your spirit still shone, and you were the one who was strong when I couldn't be. I still remember that day perfectly, after all these years, the one day that brings sadness above all others.

You lay on the bed in our small bedroom. It was dark; the curtains were closed. Your face was so deathly white, and your hair hung limp against your face. Every breath seemed painful to you. Every word was a desperate struggle. Yet even then, you were still smiling, trying to be strong for my sake. Because of you, I held my tears in; because of you, I was strong.
"I love you Nadeshiko," I said, knowing those words would probably be the last I ever said to you. You only looked at me with your piercing gaze and said softly, breathlessly, "Be strong, Fujitaka. For our children and for me. Tell Toya and Sakura...that I love them. I love them more than they will ever know."

You closed your eyes for so long that I though maybe you had died. But finally, you opened them once more and said, slowly but so peacefully, "I love you, my dear husband. And I always will." And with that, you looked at me one last time, and your bright, joyful spirit shone through brighter than ever before. And I saw that Nadeshiko that I had once known: dancing carelessly through fields of flowers, laughing with joy at the sight of sunbeams through the clouds, playing tag in the backyard with Toya and Sakura, wrapping your arms around me and telling me how much you love me, how you will always love me...

And then the light in your eyes was gone, and Nadeshiko Kinomoto would no longer be found in this world, save in pictures and in memories. And the tears that I had been holding back for so long now ran down my face onto your lifeless body. And for many days after that, the world was so indescribably dark.

Yet your joyful, shining spirit lived on in your daughter Sakura, and every day I see more of you in her. And over the years, I have also discovered that there are some things stronger than the magic of Clow, stronger than anything in this world. For I still love you now, and not even death has been able to take my love away. And I will always love you. For you are now truly an angel, as you were always meant to be. I know you are watching me now, with your beautiful angelic eyes. You are waiting for me in a place that is as bright as you are, and as joyful as you are. You are waiting for the day when we will be together again, in that place above the sky.