As promised Finn returned later that night, unfortunately the couple had to stay in until the next morning just to be on the safe side. Finn slept in one chair next to Rory whilst Logan slept on the other, both were amazing through the night trying to help wanting Rory get as much rest as she could, but as she was the one feeding and both boys happily fell asleep using mummy as a dummy there wasn't much the pair could do. Logan had asked Finn if he was coming 'home' for a few weeks and he gladly accepted, keeping to himself that was his plan all along and after one final check from the doctors mum and babies were discharged to go home.
The next 10 days seemed to fly by in a whirl wind, lots of people in and lots of people out and if Rory was completely honest, she was fed up with it! It was lovely that everyone wanted to come and meet the boys and have cuddles but she also wanted time to bond. If she was brutally honest, she would have admitted that she loved breastfeeding because ut was an excuse for privacy and she was the only one who could feed them. She didn't want her boys being passed around from person to person but she was too polite to stop people coming. Finn on the other hand wasn't quite so polite, him and Logan had both noticed Rory's resistance to let people hold the babies and decided enough was enough. This next week was family time! But of course, family time included Finn, Steph and Colin! Rory never had a problem passing one or both of the boys off to one of the group but did seem to with most other people. Steph had reassured the boys it was nothing to worry about and tried to explain the situation from Rory's point of view. Although they both accepted Stephanie's explanation they had quietly vowed to keep a close eye on Rory just in case. And that's how the five friends found themselves walking around the park that afternoon. The boys first real proper outing!
Logan watched the mother of his children pushing the double pram around the park and his heart swelled. He had known he had loved Rory for years, long before they were even an official couple but after carrying his kids and seeing her be such an amazing mom he now loved her even more than he thought was possible. It was a different type of love he felt seeping though. He felt in awe of her. It still amazed him how the pair had produced such perfect little bundles. He knew people always thought that about their own children but all he saw when he looked at his wife and children was pure love, perfection and completeness. The pair had always planned on having children, yes granted not so soon but he couldn't have been happier with how things worked out. He also secretly liked Finn being back home. He understood Finn needed his own space and time with Mads, but it felt like this had brought them all back together closer again. He felt an arm around his shoulder and smiled over at Colin.
"This will be you soon man! Can you believe that we are married and having kids!"
Colin smiled at one of his eldest friends. Yeah, he could believe it was all happening, it was always going to be on the cards and he loved the fact that their children would all be close in age and grow up together just like the four of them had before Logan met Rory. He glanced over at Steph and smiled. She was starting to get a small bump, to others they probably wouldn't notice but the roundness of her belly and the swell in her chest now he could tell. It felt real. When he watched Steph with the boys his heart beat that bit faster at seeing it, knowing that soon that would be them. A journey they were all going to take together. Things had worked out just as he as always hoped they would.
"Got to admit huntz I can't wait, look at them, our wives now mothers, I know Steph hasn't had the baby yet but she's already in mom mode!"
The pair walked and talked and was laughing watching Finn getting closer and closer to the pram. Rory turned around and flashed them a knowing smile and the next minute Finn had the pram and was cooing over the boys. It made them all chuckle and the pair quickly made it back to their wives and strolled around the park hand in hand as Uncle Finn made faces at his beautiful Godsons.
October brought new challenges all around. The boys were now nearly 7 weeks old and Finn had gone back to staying at Maddie's most of the time. He had work early and was missing his other half. Rory and Logan had got into a really good routine, the boys were now only waking twice through the night to feed and Rory was expressing milk to get the boys used to a bottle as well. The christening had been last weekend and it was a small affair. Everyone was commenting on how much the boys had grown and changed in that time. Lincoln had dark hair like his mom and his eyes looked to be quite dark. They were still blue but Rory suspected they would go brown just like his dad. Isaac on the other hand had white blonde hair and the brightest blue eyes Rory had ever seen. People always commented on her blue eyes but looking at the turquoise colour Isaac had she knew they wouldn't be changing. It was like both boys where a complete mix of their parents and their personalities were already coming through.
Isaac although smaller than his brother definitely had a large personality, he knew what he wanted and made sure to let everyone know, Lincoln on the other hand seemed slightly more reserved, he watched everything and it was like his little mind was taking note of all his surroundings. From being born both boys were so observant even the midwives had commented on it.
Rory had had her six-week check-up and had healed lovely; her womb had gone back into its right place and all her stitches had now dissolved. Her bleeding had stopped at around 4 weeks and she had had her implant put back in. Her and logan hadn't been intimate yet and after the all clear from the doctor she knew she wanted to but a part of her was nervous. Her body had changed so much, her hips seemed to sit wider, her breasts where now full of milk and even the boys whimpering could set them off leaking. She had stretch marks and her skin was no longer flush to her body. It was all things she knew could and most probably would happen and she wasn't ashamed at all. She saw every stretch mark as a step closer to meeting her boys and wouldn't change a mark on her body because it gave her Lincoln and Isaac. But she still felt a little self-conscious and this is how she ended up sat on her sofa with Steph preparing herself to seek some female advice.
"Come on ror spill, what's going on in that head of yours?"
Stephanie could see Rory wanted to say something, she was rubbish at hiding her emotion's and the second that she started to nibble on her bottom lip and keep looking into her coffee cup Steph knew. The pair didn't have secrets, nothing was off-limits and they always told each other the truth. Who wanted a friend that would tell you that you look lovely in a dress when in reality it did nothing for you! True friends didn't have to smile and nod. Rory just sometimes needed a nudge and once the words started flowing Steph soon understood.
She had thought through this scenario herself, to Steph Rory didn't look much different from her pre pregnancy body only the fact that she now had an ample chest, but as Rory continued to spill all of her fears and insecurities Steph got it. She understood. She didn't think for one minute that Logan would comment or even notice the changes Rory was talking about, Rory showed Steph her belly and yes there was stretch marks and her skin was slightly saggier but she had had 2 babies six weeks ago, it was normal. Steph didn't believe for one minute all these celebrities that you see in the magazine and papers looked how they did after just giving birth! They were airbrushed and altered and Steph even knew of people in society that had c-sections and a tummy tuck at the same time! Yes, it was ridiculous but when you live in a world of constant judgement people went to extreme lengths. The two girls might not feel the same way but Steph could understand why people would go to such lengths.
Steph and Rory sat talking for just over an hour and after Rory had off loaded, she felt so much better! She knew logan wouldn't be bothered and if he was tough! She might not ever look how she used too and she was fine with that, if he wasn't that was his problem and not hers. She knew deep down he would love her no matter how she looked but her raging hormones no doubt had a large part to play in it. As if on cue Lincoln started to wake ready for his next feed and she knew Isaac wouldn't be far behind, she warmed up some of her milk in a jug of hot water ready for when Isacc woke and Steph would feed him as she placed Lincoln on the breast. No sooner did he latch his little eyes fluttered shut and his fingers would move much like a kitten bedding in on their mom. Rory loved the feeling breastfeeding emitted. She told Steph every time she fed it was like that first moment of holding them again after they were born. She knew it was each to their own on how they wanted to feed their kids and as long as baby is happy that's all that matters but she couldn't imagine never feeding!
Logan shut off his laptop and stretched in his chair, he was working from home for the time being, perks of being the boss and all that. He heard Steph leave about 10 minutes ago and wanted to speak to Rory. He wasn't purposefully listening into their conversation this afternoon but as he twigged what the girls were talking about his ears pricked up. He couldn't believe for one minute Rory would be conscious of how she looked. If anything, he found her more attractive now than he ever had! He hadn't mentioned sex to her once or even hinted, he didn't want her to feel pressured and in reality he had no clue how long after giving birth you were meant to take to heal.
Rory had told him about her appointment and everything had healed but he hadn't even put two and two together! He felt between a rock and a hard place, he wanted to go out there and tell her all her insecurities are silly and how he finds her even sexier now than he ever has, but he didn't want her to think he was listening and just saying it because he heard her. Also, he didn't want her to feel any pressure. He let out and sigh and ran his hands through his hair. Truth was he was shit at this sort of thing and never knew what to do or say. Sometimes he was okay, other times he made it so much worse and ended up digging himself a deeper hole! Shaking off his feeling his pushed out from his chair and began to make his way into the living room, he wouldn't say anything for a few days and then see is he could broach the subject in a different way. He might even google it tonight or maybe talk to Steph; she always knew what to say.
Rory stood at the cooker mixing up tonight's tea. She was doing a stir fry. Cooking still wasn't really her thing and she had cheated a little by getting at chicken stir fry box from the shop but it still needed cooking. She looked at the clock, Logan should be finishing up any minute. She didn't like knocking in case he was in the middle of a conference call but she was quite surprised he hadn't ventured out the office all afternoon. He was usually in and out every hour or so peeking at the boys. He must have been really busy today. Next thing she felt arms wrap around her waist from behind and leaned back into the man she was just thinking about. He kissed her neck and held her tighter.
"Hey mama what's for tea tonight smells lovely"
She felt the blush creep up her cheeks, Logan kept calling her mama and she loved it! But it always made her blush, she wasn't sure why but it made her insides feel funny, like when she first met him.
"Doing a chicken stir fry, I bought a pre-cut packet from the shop so I basically just had to chuck it all in the wok and make sure the chicken is cooked through and its done, it will be another 30 minutes or so yet though so go and get a shower if you want"
She finished with a smile and looked over her shoulder at her husband. The way he was looking at her was making her squirm. It must have been all the sex talk this afternoon with Steph but she wanted to clench her thighs together. She didn't know what was getting into her! Yes, they hadn't been intimate in a few weeks but they had just had 2 babies, she didn't expect after how she had been feeling that suddenly these feelings would start to appear! He must have seen something in her eyes because she saw the heated look in his eyes appear. Desire. She knew that look anywhere and the next thing she knew he had crashed his lips to hers and all thoughts of everything she had spoken about this afternoon disappeared.
He hadn't kissed her like this since having the boys and she never realised how much she craved it. How much she craved him! She kissed him back with just as much intensity and next thing she knew Logan had spun her around and lifted her onto the worktop. Instinctively she wrapped her legs around his waist effectively pulling him even closer and gasped when she felt just how affected he was. The pair pulled apart panting and Logan rested his forehead on hers.
"I love you so much ace"
"I love you too mac"
The pair stayed like this for what seemed forever just lost in each other's stare but in reality, it was mere seconds, when logan went to pull away Rory locked her legs around his waist trapping him. He turned back to look into her eyes once again, searching for the answer she knew he was questioning. She hoped he saw the truth in her eyes.
Logan searched her eyes, his mind was running a million miles an hour, he hadn't meant to kiss her like that but seeing her bent at the cooker and his boys fast asleep in their cots next to the sofa it was like some sort of domestic bliss. She kissed him back with just as much passion as he had her and when he told her he loved her he hoped she understood exactly what he meant. He knew she felt the affect she had had on him; her gasp just sent more blood south but he didn't want to push until she was the one to initiate it. The fact she had locked him in her legs was surely sign enough and seeing her usually bright blue eyes darken with lust it was all the answer he should have needed but he wanted to make sure, he needed to hear the words.
"Ace, if we start this, I might not be able to hold back, are you sure? Are you even healed enough?"
The way she was nibbling on her lip drove him mad! He was skimming his fingers lightly up and down the outside of her thighs and he felt her pull him even closer but until she said the words he didn't want to make a move.
"The doctor gave me the all clear a few days ago at the check up, I need you logan"
Well what man could resist that! He quickly picked her up and carried her to the sofa, he was desperate for her but he wanted to go slow, be gentle. Rory made quick work of ridding him of his shirt and he did the same to her, his skimmed his fingers up her sides and began kissing from her neck down. Her bra was off next but he made sure to not pay much attention to her breasts under the circumstances, he carried on kissing down her tummy and every stretch mark that brought him his boys, then gently slid off her legging and knickers, God the sight of her laid out in front of him was like a dream come true. She was utter perfection. Perfect for him.
"You are so beautiful ace and after carrying our children you are the sexiest thing I have ever seen"
His words alone made her moan and then when his head carried on south Rory felt like she was floating. The pair spent the next 30 minutes reacquainting themselves with each other's bodies, sex was amazing for them both and Rory mentally chastised herself at her earlier thoughts. The pair never got long to soak up their after-sex glow because all at once the timer on the cooker was going off which in turn woke both of the boys up so the pair quickly got up and got to the tasks at hand. That stolen 30 minutes of just logan and Rory was what the pair needed. No one ever knew what was around the corner but Rory could say whole heartedly that whatever it was her and Logan together would get through. She loved him now more than she ever thought possible and knew he felt the same way. Life may be getting more hectic but she wouldn't have it any other way.
