Sorry it took so long to update. I have been really lazy
Disclaimer: I don't own Full metal alchemist. I am just obsessed :D
Chapter 6
It was quiet, so quiet that Ed could hear his heart rumbling. His heart beat faster than ever and Ed pressed his hand against his chest. ' Forget it, forget it, ' he breathed heavily and bent over his crooked legs. ' But I am too scared,' he whined to himself. The left knee was touching his cheek and before he realized, salty tears were running down his face. ' I am too scared…'
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Roy walked faster and faster in his room. Thoughts of the certain evening still popped up and every time he remembered them, he wanted to hit himself. The despair was too much. It held his breath like death. 'He was binding Ed, groping his tiny waist.' He sank his hands to his black shiny hair and pulled it. Why did he do it?
' Because you felt so black, because you wanted to try it.'
Finally he sat down on his chair. It was big, smooth and black. He felt extremely disgusted by it and he jumped up again. His black eyes started to wander around and everything he saw was black. ' He pushed Ed mercilessly against the wall, pulling his wrists above the golden haired boy's head. Ed screamed, shouted, struggled, but he didn't care. He pushed his knee between the younger man's legs…'Roy felt sick and rushed to the window grasping the curtains. He pulled them apart and letting the pale sunlight flood in to the room.
" This isn't enough," he hissed behind his teeth. He walked over his large room, lighting the candles and turning on the lamps. Then he turned to look if it was enough.
" It needs something," he whispered and touched his forehead with his fingertips. His hand trembled and it was cold.
" This room needs Ed," he continued and like a mad person, he saw how Ed was sitting on his desk, brandishing his legs and smiling at him. ' He violated Ed and as if the situation was a miracle, Ed struggle himself free and escaped.' Roy was feeling guilty and he never had felt that way. It was a stranger in his heart and he wanted it to stop. This sudden feeling because of his actions was eating his heart away, and it somehow felt entitled to do so. Ed wouldn't be smiling right now he wouldn't trust him anymore.
" I am bastard. I keep hurting him. I play with his trust. I… I love him," he said aloud. He said what he felt and he didn't like it. Who would hurt his beloved one? No one he knew, no one but him. He remembered Ed's harsh breathing, his tearless sobbing and footsteps that lead him away from Roy. Suddenly Roy understood that if he wanted to keep Ed close, he should go searching.
" He is too scared," Roy said again, whispering out his words. He opened the door to the corridor and looked around. He didn't have any idea where to start. Ed couldn't be in his room, no, that would be too obvious. He gazed over his shoulder to the room that was now full of light. The pressure in Roy's heart still didn't give up. Only Ed could ease his pain and only Roy could ease Ed's pain.
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" I am alone in this darkness."
" I am the only one surviving in this darkness."
" I don't have wings, why should I fly?"
" If I die, would you bury my heart? I… I was ready to give it to you."
" I can't stop shaking."
" I don't want to be alone. I am scared. Where am I? I can't see anything. Roy?"
" I want to get out of here… but my legs are numb. Where's my body?"
" Hello? Who's there? Speak to me! Where are you?"
" I think I am going mad."
Low whispers whizzed out of Ed's mouth. He had forgot where he was. He thought he was dead, because he wasn't sure if he even was breathing. He didn't hear anything; maybe he really died. But why was he here? Maybe Al got lost and he left to find him. But then, where's Al? Maybe Al is dead too.
" Al…"
" Edward!"
Ed lifted his head a little bit. He had heard his own name and he hadn't said it. So Al wasn't dead. Ed started to get up, but his body didn't work.
" What the hell?" He asked. He had been delirious and he had talked with silence. He shook his head and tried to get up again. He could not leave here it wasn't safe enough. And he wasn't dead, but if he stayed here, he would be a nice corpse soon enough.
" Edward!"
He heard the again voice that called his name. The voice wasn't Al's. It reminded him of someone. Roy! It was Roy!
" Roy," he answered. " Where are you bastard?"
" Ed! Thank god! I searched for you everywhere. I didn't know you would be here… what are you doing? Ed… you don't look too good," Roy said and looked at the tiny boy, who struggled to get up. Ed's lips were blue and his face was paler than snow.
" I don't know! I don't remember… Why am I here? I don't hear anything but you. Where were you? Wasn't I with you?" Ed said quietly, wondering what he had done before coming here.
" Yes. You were with me… but Ed," Roy said and quickly lifted Ed into his arms.
" Before I tell you anything, I have to get you out of here," Roy said and felt how Ed pressed closer to him.
" Roy, where am I?
" In the graveyard," Roy answered and felt Ed shiver in his arms. Ed fell silent, and didn't say anything anymore to him.
" I remember now. Roy, I hate you."
