Thank you to Laura! For helping me with this chapter!
Sam slowly made her way to Phil's house, she knew the way to his house better than she knew the way to her own, she still wasn't sure what she would say to him, she couldn't just turn up on his doorstep and tell him how much she needed him, how long she's loved him. Would he even care that her and Stuart had finished? The two of them hadn't really seen eye to eye recently, Phil had been so jealous, become very much like the old him, uncaring, and selfish, thinking about only himself – or maybe that was her, maybe she was the one who had changed, maybe that's why Stuart hadn't seemed so upset to leave her? She was only using him, using him to force herself to believe she didn't need Phil, but she does, there was no point lying to herself anymore. She hadn't realised the tears flowing delicately down her face, she tried to wipe them away, she had become such a bitch, become everything she never wanted to be, everything she hated… she ended up on Phil's doorstep, hesitating to knock, she wasn't sure if this was the right thing, her heart was telling her to, but her head was telling her to leave. She took a deep breath before knocking on his door, knowing there was no turning back now
''Hey" Phil grinned, he then noticed Sam was crying ''what's wrong?" he held his hand out letting Sam in, shutting the door behind him. Sam made her way into the front room, and sat herself down on the sofa; Phil followed her in after about five minutes holding two cups of coffee.
"I've left Stuart" Sam wiped her tears away
"What?" Phil asked, slightly shocked, but happy at the same time, he had always thought Stuart wasn't good enough for Sam. He had only wished it had happened a few weeks ago; before he had finally realised he no longer had feelings for her. ''I thought you really liked him"
''So did I, but we were both too different, he was missing something" She smiled looking up at Phil, he was the something that was missing, when she was with him she felt safe, it was so easy to talk to him.
''I'm really sorry Sam, You know I'm always here if you need to talk"
''Thanks" she took a sip of her coffee
"What are best mates for" Phil grinned, he was glad they could still be that, best mates. Sam and Phil sat talking for a few hours, every minute spent with Phil made Sam realise how much she loved him, how much she needed him. She slowly leant forward and kissed him gently, she tried deepening the kiss but Phil pulled away, he looked away ''I'm sorry" he jumped up "this isn't right,"
''What?" Sam asked confused, hoping this was some kind of joke
''You've only just left Stuart…and well, I think its better we just stay mates" he sat back down and took Sams hand '' Sam I really like you, but ever since you and Stuart got together, it made me think, realise, that…I don't have those feeling I once had for you anymore, I mean it will never work, were both so different, maybe I once thought I would work but…" he sighed not sure what to say anymore " I'm sorry" he whispered. Sam just bit her lip and nodded, she grabbed her bag and coat before leaving, feeling worse than she ever had in her life, she had, in one day felt like she lost everything.
