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"Kelly, welcome back" the therapist, Dr Matthews said when Kelly stepped into her office. She had been a therapist for about three years, she had helped a lot of people with their problems, but she still got very moved by Kelly's story.

"Hello Dr Matthews" Kelly shook her hand before she sat down in the couch opposite from Melanie Matthews chair.

"How have you been?" she asked "Last time you told me you used to lose yourself in thoughts and memories, have that happened again?"

"Yes" Kelly admitted

"That was not so good" Matthews said and wrote something down on a paper

"It's getting worse" Kelly whispered and the Dr looked up at her, she was frowning

"What do you mean worse?"

"I – I…when I'm in that state, if anyone comes near me, I just…" Kelly began but her voice was shaking so much she couldn't go on.

"What do you do?" Dr Matthews asked

"That's happened twice now, and my dad happened to be the victim both times.. I shouted at him, told him to get the hell away from me" she said, "I didn't mean to do that! It just slipped out, I can't control myself when I'm like that…" Kelly started to ramble, tears started to fill her eyes.

"Kelly, no one blames you for this, it wasn't your fault. Have you told your parents what you're going through?" Dr Matthews asked and Kelly shook her head.

When Melanie Matthews looked at the fragile young woman sitting in front of her, crying, she knew she had to help her.

"You have to tell them, or they will have no idea why you are like this, you have to let them help you, family is so important when it comes to recover yourself from what you have been through." She tried to explain, and Kelly slowly nodded.

"Ok, I'll tell them tonight, then"

"Good, now, talk to me about what happened" Matthews said and Kelly hesitated for a minute before bringing up the terrible memories of her past.

At the same time, the phone was ringing in the Cohen house, but nobody was there to pick up.

Kirsten was sat at her desk at the Newport Group, she put down the phone and looked around in her office.

Kelly hadn't picked up, why? Either she was asleep, or, as Kirsten thought, she was not home. She hadn't been able to concentrate on her work this day, she had been too worried about Kelly's condition. Her phone rang; she quickly picked it up, hoping it would be Kelly calling.

"Hello?" she said

"Hey honey, it's me" she got slightly disappointed when she heard her husband's voice.

"Oh, hi" she replied, she couldn't stop the disappointment in her voice. She quickly realised that "I'm sorry, I didn't mean for it to come out like that"

"It's ok, what's going on?" Sandy asked, he had tried not to sound too worried, but his voice gave him out too.

"It's just…I've been trying to call Kelly all day, but she isn't picking up!" Kirsten said, noticing how panicked she sounded

"I've been calling her too; you don't think anything's happened, do you?" Sandy asked, but then he realized how stupid it had been to say that, his wife was clearly enough worried about their daughter.

"Oh God, I hope not. I'm going home; I'm going home right now. I'll call you." She said and hung up.

Kirsten got up from her chair and started to pack her things, but before she had a chance to leave the office, Caleb came in through the door.

"Where do you think you're going?" he asked and she turned around

"I'm going home, I'm worried about Kelly" Kirsten said and took up her bag and started to walk towards the door.

"Wait a second." Caleb said and held out a hand to stop his daughter "You have work to do, you can't just go"

Kirsten stared at him in disbelief "Dad, Kelly isn't answering the phone, I need to go check up on her" she said, trying to stay calm

"Well, can't Sandy go, it's his daughter too" he suggested

"Sandy has a job too! Now I really have to go" she said angrily and took a step forward, but Caleb stopped her again

"Kiki, come on" he said

"Ok, then I'll do something I haven't done in…ever. I'm taking Christmas vacation" Kirsten said and looked directly at her father

"Don't be ridiculous Kiki. What are you gonna do at home?"

"I'm gonna be taking care of my daughter and be wrapping gifts. See you" she said and walked out of her office, leaving Caleb alone.

Kelly unlocked the door to their house and entered. She put her jacket on the couch and went into the kitchen. She checked if there were any messages.

"Hi Kelly, it's mom. I assume you're asleep, call me later"

Beep

"Kelly, it's mom again. Call me when you hear this"

Beep

"Hey Kel, it's dad. Just checking if you're alright. Give me a call."

Beep

"Kelly, I'm on my way home, what are you doing? I'm so worried about you"

"Oh God" Kelly thought, she had totally forgotten about her parents!

Just then she heard the front door open and her mother's voice shouting her name.

"Kitchen" Kelly shouted back and the next second Kirsten rushed into the kitchen.

"Thank God" she said when she saw her daughter "Where the hell have you been? I've been calling you all day!"

"I know, I was just listening to your messages. I've been asleep, in my room, the door was shut, so didn't hear the phone" she lied, Kirsten calmed down a little bit

"I'm sorry, Kelly. I guess I'm just a bit nervous these days. But now I've taken vacation" she said and smiled, hoping it would cheer her daughter up to have some company, but she got surprised when she saw the shocked look on Kelly's face.

"You have?" Kelly tried to hide her surprise "That's great!"

Kirsten didn't buy it. She leaned across the kitchen island and looked into her daughter's eyes.

"Kelly, what is the matter with you? Ever since you came home from the hospital you've been acting strange"

Kelly avoided Kirsten's eyes; she looked down on her hands.

"That's not true" she whispered, though she knew her mother was right.

"No, it is, and both your father and I are really worried about you. So when you're not talking to us when it's so obvious that something's wrong, we get scared too. Does it have something to do with us? Have we done something wrong? Or do you feel like you can't talk to us?" while she spoke, Kirsten walked over to Kelly and placed her arm around her shoulders.

"No, you haven't done anything wrong" Kelly whispered. When she felt her mother's arm around her, she couldn't stop the tears from running down her cheeks.

"Then what is it?" Kirsten begged, she felt like she was going to break down too. "Kelly please tell me" her voice shook

Kelly took a deep breath, Kirsten used her thumb to wipe away the tears on her cheeks.

"Come" she said, took her mother's hand and went to the couch. They both sat down and Kelly began to speak.

"When I had been…raped…well, after that, I never really started to deal with it. I just ran away, tried to run away from the memories, the pain. I was drunk most of the time; I used drugs too, trying to numb the pain so I didn't try to deal with it then, just trying to forget. Then I came home, thought I was ready to move on, I mean, so much time had passed; I just wanted everything to go back to normal. But then he shows up again, brings up the memories."

Kirsten drew Kelly closer to herself; the warmth from her mother's body gave Kelly the strength to keep talking

"And all those things he did…And, when we were down in the basement, when I was hanging from the ceiling, and he took up that knife, cut off my top, cut me, I thought he was gonna rape me again, in front of Ryan and dad, that was all I could think off, having to go through it again. But I also knew that this time he would kill me, I wouldn't have to suffer afterwards."

Kelly took another deep breath, wiped away her tears. Kirsten was crying too, silent tears were running fast down her cheeks and she held Kelly closer to her chest.

"But then dad started to fight him, Ryan cut me loose and I tried to find the gun, I found it, and aimed at his back, I almost couldn't pull the trigger though, I was still so lost in my thoughts, but I did it. I killed him…I killed him" Kelly kept repeating those three words until Kirsten stopped her.

"Kelly, stop it. For God's sake stop it"

Kelly looked up at her mother, and she broke down completely. Kirsten got shocked by this sudden breakdown; she had a hard time to hold onto Kelly, she was shaking violently from her crying. She started to stroke her hair, trying to give comfort.

"Honey, it's gonna be ok. We can fix this, just let us help you. We can help you get through this, you just have to believe it yourself" Kirsten said, holding her tight. After a few minutes, Kelly seemed to have calmed down enough to continue talking.

"So now, when everything's over, I can't stop thinking about it. I'm going thought it over and over in my head, that's what happens when I'm in that state when you can't contact me" she sobbed.

"But why did you scream like that at your father?" Kirsten asked

"Because, I thought it was Logan, and I freaked out" she answered and Kirsten nodded to herself.

"You wanna know where I was today?" she didn't wait for an answer, she just continued "I went to a therapist"

"A therapist?" Kirsten repeated

"Yeah, I figured I needed professional help, that you couldn't help me, not with this. But I was wrong, I do need your help, and your support"

"Kelly, you know we love you, and we will always be there for you, no matter what" Kirsten said and smiled to her daughter, who smiled back

"I know"

They sat in each others arms until the door opened and Sandy's voice floated through the house

"Hello, I'm home. Kelly? Kirsten?"

"Living room" Kirsten shouted and seconds later Sandy showed up. He was smiling at first, but when he saw their tear streamed faces, his smile faded.

"What happened?" he asked worried. Kirsten looked at Kelly, who didn't look up.

"We have been talking, but I don't think Kelly feels like repeating it, right?" Kirsten said and Kelly shook her head.

"But…" Sandy started

"I will tell you later" Kirsten said and shot her husband a look saying 'Don't push her, she has gone through enough'

"Ok" he said and sat down on the couch next to Kirsten. He stroke Kelly's hair and she looked up at him, smiling weakly.

"Well, whatever it is, everything's gonna be fine" he said and wrapped him arm around his wife and the other hand was resting on Kelly's back.

"I love you both so much" she said and Sandy and Kirsten looked at each other and said in unison "We love you too"