"Like a Ton of Bricks"
By: PsychoHaired
Disclaimer: Sadly… only the experience is mine.
Summary: Hermione's thoughts on Ron
You know what? It hit me; just now, straight in the face, like a ton of bricks. He is my ex… It hurts you know? When you like someone for so long, and you're so happy together with them that you grow to love them… and days, weeks, months… even years go by in complete bliss? Then all of a sudden you hear he worst possible thing coming out of his mouth "It's over" or at least that's what I thought… he had to be brutally and inhumanely cruel by adding "I don't love you as a girlfriend anymore". It's funny how one single sentence can make you feel like the most horrible useless piece of shit. And I ask myself "How did this happen? Did I do something wrong?" but it wasn't my fault… He just couldn't stand the fact that he wouldn't be able to see me for two years… I've come to believe that is a cheap excuse. He's a guy! He just probably couldn't stand the fact that he was tied up while everyone else was hooking up. Didn't he think the same thing was happening on the other end? It's not like I was running around hooking up with everyone and having fun… I was miserably in love, I thought about him everyday, couldn't wait to hear his voice on the other line saying, "I love you. I miss you. How was your day?" even if it was just for a minute, that moment alone made my day… and now it's gone and it only just sunk in. No longer can I tell him that I love him, no longer can I say that I miss him, no longer can I send him letters with little hearts all over them… Even though I do feel all these things, I do want to do them, say them. And life is just so cruel too… Merlin is playing a sick joke; he must be. If he wasn't, I wouldn't have gotten two letters from my ex the day after he ended it all… One for my birthday ("I love you. I miss you") and one for our anniversary ('I Love you's written all over it)… I know I shouldn't have opened them… it would just kill me, but I did anyway… How I wish I hadn't. I should have just thrown them away or hid them… I knew this was coming sooner or later, and yet it was so sudden… so unprovoked, it just broke my heart into a million pieces. Today had been a good day, I laughed a lot; I went out, got home, laughed some more… and then it hit me like a ton of bricks… he's gone.
The End.
R&R
