A/N: This chapter's dedicated to genevra. Thanks!
Alright. I've got to get my act together. Ouch! My head hurts. It's a good thing I'm not on call at the hospital today. Some new year. All alone by my lonesome self. I can't believe I almost drank that whole bottle of champagne. I actually fell asleep with it in my hand and the remainder spilled on my new dress, my beautiful dress. It's ruined. Well, It's not like he's ever going to see me in it. God, look at me. I can barely walk a straight line. My hair's a mess. Disheveled! That's what I am. What a way to start 2006!
I've got to set my priorities straight. No more feeling sorry for myself. Snap out of it! He's not worth all the trouble. I surely can't make him love me. How could I possibly want to be with a man who doesn't love me? I'm only torturing myself. And I deserve better. I know I do. I don't want him to settle for me, just because! Life is too short. Life is too precious. I want to be with someone to grow old with, someone who'll love me as much as I'll love him. Hey, wake up, Addison! That one man might just be right around the corner. They say, there's someone for everyone and he just might be waiting for me and I don't want to miss my chance of a lifetime.
Never mind the talks, the name calling. Get a life, people! Is yours so boring that you need to discuss one's personal life with each other? I am sure there are a lot of skeletons in your closets. And I really don't care! So, to all of you at Seattle Grace...this is the new and improved Addison Montgomery-Shepherd. Look out world!
Here I come!
