Disclaimer: I do not own Yu Yu Hakusho. I wish I do own them, though.
I apologize for the fact that I have not updated in a while. School started back up, I've been writing a long chapter (longer than I have done lately) and I lost my notebook where I write my fanfic. So I'm really sorry, okay? ;p
WARNING: THIS IS A YAOI. IF YOU DON'T LIKE IT LEAVE. NO LEMON, JUST FLUFF.
This chapter is not funny, it is dark and bloody. I will make it up to you in the next chapter. Just warning you...
A Secret Journal
Chapter Six
December 20, 2005
To whomever it may concern,
I once again apologize for not fulfilling my duties and not writing in this notebook recently. Again, I have dealing with new problems that arise in daily life. Or should I replace the word "problems" with the word "disaster"?
I suppose it started out only three days ago. My younger brother was elected as president of the student council. I'm really excited for him! Because of this important task, my brother now comes home really late or is hanging out with his new friends. Well, I really hate to admit it, but I guess I'm a little jealous and a little lonely. It makes me sad sometimes, but I guess I'll learn to get over it.
Anyway, since my little brother was staying late that evening and Hiei has been avoiding me, I walked home alone. Well, I came home a tad bit early. I strolled through the door and was going to greet my parents, but was silenced by the yells of argument. I guess it's natural for couples to bicker; no relationship is perfect. But I really couldn't help over hear them about things like not having enough money to support my brother and me and things along those lines. Thinking it not best to bug my parents at that moment, I decided to go start my homework. Just as I turned to leave, my ears picked up my human mother's bloody scream. Father was hitting my mother. I….I couldn't move. Blood soon splattered the floor around my mother, patterned like rose petals. I just stood there. I wanted it to stop, but my body wouldn't allow me. I did nothing to prevent it or to stop it. I guess father was caught up in a bloodlust ad snapped out of it, because he was begging for mercy. I guess he said that he was going to get the first aid kit, but I didn't hear him. Finally, they took notice of my presence. They were talking to me, but I didn't know what they were saying. It was as if they speaking in a completely foreign language of some sort. I stepped into the room where my mother's bloody petals lay, looked at them for a moment, and then proceeded to my room to start on my homework. And that was that.
Since our last meeting, I guess I've been worrying over Hiei more than usual. He hasn't seen me in a few days (and it has rained a lot and Hiei hates the rain so he normally comes to my house!) so I proceeded to look for him. Besides, I wanted to apologize about the incident the other day. Of course, I did find him in his favorite tree at the park. Obviously, I apologized for the incident and asked if he was doing well. He said to forget about the incident, which I'm quite relieved, but paused for a moment on my question. Then I asked again, and he responded, "No. But it's none of your fucking business, Fox Boy. Why in the hell should I fucking tell YOU? Do you think you're special? Do you think that you're better than everybody else? No! Then why in the hell are asking me as if it was your god damn job to know? You're always sniffing that button nose into other people's fucking business, and it's fucking pissing me off! GOT IT?" I was surprised. What he said hurts, but what hurts even more is how he said it. And it is true! I guess I went into a flash back mode, because I remembered what happened to my mother the day before, and decided that Hiei's rejection hurt even more. I apologized for my rudeness; I just wanted to get out of there. His eyes held coldness, and it made me feel miserable. I felt so miserable, I started crying. I wanted to go home; I really didn't want Hiei to see me like this. Then I felt something soft brush against my face and I look up to see Hiei wiping away my tears. "Please don't cry, Kurama. I…I'm sorry. I...I didn't…mean it. I guess I've a bit…snappy lately. Don't cry. It's alright. Everything will be okay, you'll see." Hiei kept cooing to me. Hiei was cooing? Once again, he really surprised me. Even though Hiei really didn't know what was going on in my life right now, I knew he was right. I would get through this, hopefully with Hiei. I'm so grateful that I still have him. I knew it was getting late, so I left, but I think I forgot to tell Hiei goodbye, because I was to busy humming a song I know from this anime (called Fruits Basket) and the song really fitted the mood. It was called Sky Blue.
Oh, just today I got a call from Dr. Anuswholee. He is my very creepy psychiatrist. Anyway, it seems I have another appointment coming up. This time it's a group meeting. I hope I will make some new friends! And I wonder who else will be there.
Well, I guess it's about time I turned in. Yusuke wants me to meet him at the park at 6:00 tomorrow morning, and then I have the group meeting to attend to. So, goodnight!
Sincerely,
Suichi Minamino
aka Kurama
Yoshi: Thanks for reading!
large googoo eyes
Yoshi: Pwease review! pouting girly tone
Kurama: eyes light AWWW! SHE'S SO ADORABLE!
Hiei: Hn. I hate adorable.
Kurama: Can we keep her?
Yoshi: Like HELL you will!
Hiei: Nobody wants a pathetic kitten.
Yoshi: HEY!
Yoshi towers over Hiei
Hiei: Uh Oh.
Yoshi: glomps
