The Heart Doesn't Lie
Disclaimer: I do not own Gundam Seed, Gundam Seed Destiny or most of the characters in this story
Notes: To make up for the lack of Kira or Athrun in the last couple of chapters, here is a chapter that revolves around the two. And there is a nice little part in it. Hope you enjoy.
Notes to reviewers:
kc-animegal- Thanks, I'm glad someone thought that was funny, it was fun to write.
Furin-a -I know I don't write a lot about the whole school aspect of the story, but I don't think I could do that very well.
Yunih-Thanks, I'm happy you thought it wasn't so bad. And no I don't get bored with 'I like it' or 'Continue soon' that is encouraging.
Chapter 18
Athrun walked into his house and placed his keys on the hook by the door. It had been a long day and he was tired. Really tired, so tired that he had failed to notice the extra car in the drive way.
"You're late." a voice said with a trace of anger in it. Athrun looked up to see his father walking into the foyer from the living room. "You should have been home right after school."
Athrun had completely forgotten his parents would be back today, only for a short while though. On the days they were expected to return he was suppose to get home immediately so they could have 'family time' as his parents like to put it.
"I'm sorry. I needed to do something after school." he was not sure if he should tell his dad he had to go pick up his car from the shop. His father would get mad at what had happened to the car.
"What was so important that you had to be late on the day we would be coming home? This better be good, Athrun." Patrick said.
Athrun decided he better not lie about it, that would just make things worse when his father found out the truth. And he would find out, Patrick was good at that. Plus he, Patrick, would be the one paying for the repairs.
"I had to get my car out of the shop." Athrun told him, sighing.
"What was wrong with your car. It was in perfect condition when we left. Did you get in a wreck or something?"
"A wreck, who was in a wreck? Oh goodness Athrun, was it you? Were you hurt? Oh I should have been here to take care of my hurt baby, but..." Lenore said, walking in to the foyer only catching the last part of the conversation. She pulled Athrun to her in a motherly hug.
Athrun interrupted her, "No mom, I wasn't in a wreck. No one was in a wreck."
"Then what happen to your car to require it to be in the shop?" his father asked.
Athrun explained to his parents what had happened to the car. He also decided he better tell them about the computer while he was at it. He had found out a long time ago that it was better to tell his father sooner rather than later.
Patrick sighed, "So not only your car, but your computer as well. These are not cheap things, Athrun."
"Now dear, don't blame Athrun, he had nothing to do with what happened. It wasn't his fault." Lenore said, trying to calm the man down. Patrick could have quite a temper at times.
"Kira is looking at my computer to see if there is anything he can do." Athrun told his parents.
"See he has already done tings to try to fix the problems. If anyone can fix the computer it will be Kira." his mom said.
"Then we will talk about this more later. Go get changed for dinner." Patrick said dismissing Athrun.
After Athrun had went upstairs to change his parents went back into the living room to wait for him. Lenore sat down on the couch next to where her husband had already sat. Both looked concerned. Their jobs kept them away from home a good part of the time. Even now, Patrick would be leaving again tomorrow afternoon. Lenore would be able to stay a couple of days longer, then she would be off again as well.
"Who would do such a thing? I wonder if the same person person did both things?" Lenore said, frowning at the thought someone was out to harm her baby. Athrun was her only child, although Kira was like a son to her as well, since the two boys have always been close.
Patrick sat there quiet, deep in thought. He couldn't understand how someone had been able to get past the security system to get into the house. What about the alarm on the car? Either Athrun had failed to set both or someone knew what they were doing. He was betting it was the second one. Athrun always set the alarms.
"Dear, please tell me what you are thinking." Lenore said.
Patrick looked up at his wife. He could see the worry written all over her face. He didn't like seeing that. He had worked so hard to keep his family safe. He had installed the security system for the sole purpose of keeping their son safe when they were away on business, which was often. They were gone so much that they did not want to always intrude on others by asking if Athrun could stay with them. Athrun was old enough and responsible enough to take care of himself and stay home alone.
Patrick explained to his wife his thoughts on all of this. She looked down understanding what he was saying, because she had these thoughts too.
"I'm ready to go." Athrun said coming into the living room after changing for dinner. His parents looked up at him.
"Athrun sit down, I want to talk to you." Patrick said. Athrun obeyed his father and sat down.
"Has anything else happened that you haven't told us about yet?" Patrick asked his son.
Athrun sat quietly thinking about what he should tell them. He did not want to worry his parents, but it seemed to late for that. He decided to just tell them everything that had happened from the haunted house, their own house, and Miguel's car.
"We, my friends and I, think all of this was done by the same person, although we don't have any proof to say that." Athrun said.
Patrick sat there taking in all that Athrun had told him. He wanted to be able to dismiss this as nothing more than a teenage prank. But something inside of him would not let him. And that worried him even more.
"I think for the time being, after your mother leaves in a few days, you should stay somewhere else."
"What? I don't need a baby sitter." Athrun did not like this one bit. He had been staying by himself for a while now and was just fine. He liked staying by himself.
"Think of how worried your mother will be after finding out about all of this." Patrick said, not wanting to admit that he would be worried as well. "It will just be until we get to the bottom of this."
"Athrun I would feel much better knowing you were staying somewhere else. It is hard enough on me always leaving you here by yourself under normal circumstances." Lenore said.
"But..." Athrun tried to say something.
"I'm sure Kira would not mind you staying with him. It would be just like old times. I will call his mother and ask her before I leave." she said in a tone that let him know he had no say in the matter.
"Fine, I'll stay with Kira." Athrun said.
"Good. Now that this is all settled, it is time to go to dinner." Lenore said, standing up and walking out the door. Patrick and Athrun followed her.
X x x
Kira look over the pieces of Athrun's computer he had brought home. It did not appear that the hard drive had been damaged in the attack. Athrun would have to replace the case and several other things, but the hard drive with the history project should be fine. He had tried to call Athrun but all he had gotten was his voice mail.
"Kira, can I come in?" Cagalli said from the door.
"Yeah, come in."
"Is that Athrun's computer?" she asked looking over the mess he was working on.
"Yes, I think the hard drive is okay. And that was what he seemed to be the most worried about, since that is where his history project is."
"That's good. He'll be happy to hear that."
"Yeah, I can understand. Knowing him, he probably had most of it done already." Kira said.
Cagalli nodded, "Don't you have a project you are working on as well?"
"Huh? Oh, you mean my drama project? Yes, but it is almost done since we are working in groups."
"Oh."
"Is there something you needed?" Kira asked her, noticing she looked rather upset.
"I wanted to say I am sorry about what I said earlier. I was wrong about Athrun, he is not that way just like you said he wasn't. And neither are you."
"What brought this on? You usually don't apologize so quickly."
"I ran into Athrun after leaving all of you at lunch. He was pretty messed up. Really confused. He told me a little about what he was going through. Then I understood what you had said. He really doesn't want to hurt anyone."
Kira looked at her and saw the softness of her expression.
"I felt bad for him. He seems to be in pain not knowing what to do. Not really knowing what he feels, and for who. But I didn't know what to say to him to help him."
"I know, I didn't either. I hate that too. He is my best friend and I should be able to help him with anything. But all I could really do was listen as he talked." Kira said.
"I guess, sometimes that is all we can do is listen. There are things people have to figure out for themselves no matter how much we want to help them." Cagalli said.
"Yeah. I guess so. I just hate to see him in pain."
"Of course you do. Who likes seeing their best friend in pain?" Cagalli said. She did not know that Kira's feelings for Athrun were stronger than friendship.
"Yeah, no one does." Kira replied quietly, looking down. Athrun was not the only one feeling pain and confusion from all of this. Kira was too. He himself did not know what to do, if he should tell Athrun his feelings and risk causing him further confusion. He just could not bring himself to do that. The last thing he wanted to do was cause Athrun more pain. So he would keep quiet. That was all he could do.
"Kira are you alright?" Cagalli asked.
Kira looked up and gave her a soft smile, "Yes, I'm fine." He lied not wanting to tell her the truth. "I should get back to work on this. The sooner Athrun gets it back, the better for him."
"Alright, I'll talk to you later. I should go call Lacus and apologize to her as well." she said and left the room.
X x x
Athrun walked into his room and collapsed on the bed. His family had returned from their night out about 20 minutes ago. They had had a nice dinner in his mother's favorite restaurant, then after wards she wanted to go to a nearby store to 'pick up a few things' is what she said. They had spent almost two hours there. Then she wanted to go for a drive by the coast. They were finally able to return home after that. Now Athrun was tired. He looked at his cell phone to see if he had missed any calls when he had been with his parents. He always turned if off when they had their family nights since they didn't get to spend time together all that often. Plus he knew it would make his father mad if he didn't.
After checking his voice mail he dialed the number of his best friend. Kira answered on the second ring.
"Hello." Kira said.
"You called." Athrun said.
"Yeah, I wanted to tell you that I think your hard drive is alright. Can't say the same for just about every thing else though."
"Okay, thanks. I'll tell my parents, see what they want to do about it."
"Oh, they're home?"
"Yes, that's why I didn't answer when you called. I was out with them." Athrun said. Kira knew about what happened when Athrun's parents came home.
"How long are they staying?"
"Dad is leaving tomorrow, mom is staying a few days. I told them what happened with my car and everything else."
"What did they say?"
"They want me to stay with you after mom leaves again. They don't want me staying by myself until this is all cleared up. So do you mind if I stay with you?"
Did he mind? Did he mind that the guy he loves is going to be staying with him? No, he didn't mind, he was happy about it.
"No, I don't mind. You know you are always welcome here, Athrun." Kira answered, trying to hide the excitement he was feeling at the thought.
"Thanks. I owe you." Athrun said. "Hey you think we can talk more tomorrow? I'm pretty tired right now."
"Sure, see you tomorrow."
Athrun hung up the phone and turned over. He felt to tired to even get out of bed to change. It did not take long until he was in a deep sleep.
Athrun looked up to see soft lavender eyes looking down at him. He was amazed at the emotions he saw running through those eyes. Such gentleness, such love. He was so lost in those eyes that he did not notice them getting closer, until he felt soft lips on his own. He was pulled from those eyes as they closed. He closed his eyes in return. The feel of the lips now held his attention. They felt so soft and gentle. The lips broke apart, a tongue coming out and slightly lapping at his bottom lip. He opened his own lips to allow said tongue entrance. Their tongues dance a dance full of passion. Only ending the dance to get air and then plunging themselves back into the dance once more.
While the kiss continued, Athrun felt fingers running lightly over his body. Up his arms and neck, tracing his jaw and ear, before finally coming to run through his hair. The fingers griped his hair lightly and proceed to deepen the kiss once again. Athrun felt like he was in heaven, never wanting this to end. Everywhere the fingers had touched tingled with pleasure. The lips broke free from his once again and Athrun felt a loss. He felt like a part of him had just left. But that feeling disappeared as the lips found their way to his neck, placing small kisses there. The lips, the tongue running up his neck and jaw to his ear. Athrun let out a moan he did not know was in him. And another as the lips kissed, then nibbled on his ear, all the while the soft breath of the lips owner blowing in his ear.
"Kira" he gasped out, not wanting the pleasurable assault against him to end.
"Athrun" he heard whispered in his ear. That alone enough to send shivers down him, which Kira seemed to notice. "Athrun, Athrun, Athrun" he repeated over and over in his ear slightly licking it as he did. This brought another moan from Athrun.
"Kira, I love you." He whispered as Kira brought his lips back to Athrun's in order to capture another kiss. Only stopping long enough to comment.
"I love you too, Athrun."
Athrun woke up to the alarm blaring at him. He turned it off and laid back down. He thought about the dream he had just had. The dream had felt so real. He had been with Kira, and he had said he loved him. What's more, Kira had said he loved him too. He was a little surprised at how aggressive Kira had been in the dream, but he had like it. He felt disappointed that it had just been a dream. He wanted it to be real. 'I will be staying with Kira soon, maybe my dream can become real.' he thought smiling to himself.
Was that what he wanted, for a dream like that to become real? With Kira? What about Shinn? Athrun closed his eyes and tried to played back the dream in his head, replacing Kira with Shinn. He did this for the first part of the dream and then opened his eyes. It had not been the same. The feeling in his heart was not there. He did not want that kind of scenario with Shinn, only Kira.
X x x
Kira waited for his friend outside on the lawn before school. He looked up in time to see his blue haired beauty getting closer to him. 'My blue haired beauty?' Kira smiled at the thought.
"Morning" Kira greeted him.
"Morning."
"I went a head and talk to my mom this morning about you staying with us. She said that would be fine. Actually she seemed pretty happy about you coming to stay with us for a while. I know she has never been to happy about you always staying by yourself."
"I know. She worries about me just like my own mother does." Athrun said looking a little guilty. It was bad enough his own parents worried, and yes he knew his father worried too even if he didn't admit it, but it made it worse that Kira's parents worried as well.
"But you are going to have to stay in my room. She has the guest room in shambles doing some redecorating." Kira said, happy about this news. Not only would Athrun be staying at his house, but in his room too.
"Oh, alright." Athrun said, happy he would be staying in Kira's room, with him. Not that either one was telling the other they were happy about this. But they both had ideas about the time they would be spending together.
"You seem to be in a better mood today." Kira said.
"Yeah, I was able to sleep last night, and I had a pretty good dream." Athrun said without really thinking.
"A good dream, huh. What about?" Kira said, and Athrun was sure that was a smirk on Kira's face.
"Um... I'm not telling. Maybe I'll tell you about it some other time." Athrun said looking away to hid the slight blush on his face.
"But anyway, I have the answers I was looking for now, concerning the whole liking two people thing. Well maybe not all the answers, but I do understand which one I truly want to be with. Not having that tearing at me puts me in a better mood." But maybe it shouldn't he still had to answer Shinn's confession.
Athrun had been really confused, but after that dream he knew that it was Kira, the one he has had feelings towards for a while now, that has his heart. Problem is he hasn't told Kira this and has no idea how Kira feels. But he will deal with that when he gets there. First he has to answer Shinn.
Kira smiled at him, "I glad you figured things out. I didn't like seeing you in pain like that."
Athrun returned the smile, "I know, thanks for being there for me."
"Of course, I would be. I can't just abandon you in your time of need. If I did that what kind of friend would I be?"
Athrun's heart sank a little at the word friend, 'I'll work on that while I am staying with him.' he thought smiling.
"Oh, mom said she is leaving Friday afternoon." Athrun told him.
"Okay, so you will be coming Friday then?"
"Yes."
"Alright, I let mom know." Kira said as the two walked into the school. The bell would be ringing soon.
X X x x
At lunch Athrun went looking for Shinn. Shinn and him had been friends for a while. He cared for the younger man, he just did not feel the same way Shinn did. And he could not leave Shinn believing there was a chance for the two of them.
"Shinn, hey, can I talk to you?" Athrun asked after finding Shinn with Rey.
Shinn looked up, an uneasy look on his face. "Alright."
Shinn felt his heart speed up in nervousness, he was sure Athrun was coming to answer his confession to him. And he was not sure he was ready for it. Athrun had told him he liked someone else and was confused, but what if Athrun had decided he wanted to be with that other person? Then he would be rejected. Could he handle that? He would have to, like he had told Jet, he can't force Athrun to love him.
"Look Shinn, I'm..." Athrun stopped, looking away. This was harder than he thought it would be.
"You're what? Rejecting me? Athrun... can't you understand how I feel about you. Does this other person love you like I do?" He would have to handle it, but that didn't mean he could not fight for him a little longer.
Athrun looked at Shinn stunned. There was a pained look in Shinn's eyes, one that made Athrun feel guilty for putting it there. He did not want to hurt Shinn, but it would not be fair to either one of them if he accepted him when someone else had his heart.
"Shinn, I do understand how you feel, but those feelings you have for me I have for someone else. Would you really want to be with me knowing that? I don't know how how this person feels yet, I wanted to answer you first. But even if I don't know what will happen I can't just forget it. I have to try."
Shinn reached for Athrun's hand. "Why? Why do you have to risk it when I am right here. I can make you happy. And if it confused you when I confessed then there must be something there for me. Why can't you give that a try. You spoke of having regrets, but who is to say this won't be your regret later in life, 'If only I had given Shinn a chance'."
Athrun looked down, "I'm sorry Shinn. I am. But I can't."
"Because you care about that person to much?" Shinn said and dropped Athrun's hand. Athrun looked at him. The answer to Shinn's question in his eyes.
Shinn smiled softly causing Athrun to look away once more. "I had to try. I didn't want to have any regrets."
Athrun looked back at Shinn and watched him turn and walk away. Even though Shinn had pretty much expected that it still hurt. And even if he didn't want them he could feel tears coming, and he did not want Athrun to see them.
A little ways across the yard sat Kira. He was concerned by what he had just seen. He did not know what Athrun had just told Shinn. Athrun had told him he figured out his feelings, but he did not actually tell him what he had decided. For all Kira knew, Athrun might have just told Shinn he liked him too. Shinn had smiled and held on to Athrun's hand, from what Kira could tell. Kira had to wonder if his chance had just flown out the window.
TBC
Okay, about the scene between Athrun and Shinn, I wasn't just trying to cause Shinn pain. I don't know that I really accomplished it, but I wanted him to have a harder time with the rejection than any of my other characters have. Hence he was trying to change Athrun's mind. I wanted this because I think I played out his feelings more than like say Fllay's. With Kira Fllay was possessive of him, but I didn't show that she had some deeper love for him, unlike Shinn, where I did. Now Lacus is a different story, but she is Lacus so of course she will handle things well. Anyway, as I said I don't know that I really accomplish what I wanted too, but that was what I was going for.
I hope you enjoyed Athrun's dream. It holds a hint for the future of their relationship. Please read and review.
