AN: I do not own Teen Titans… if you didn't already know.
Chapter 6
The ride home was very very quiet. Starfire now sat between Beast Boy and Raven. The two couldn't even look at each other and it was very awkward for their three friends as well. This plan had gone very wrong. Both Beast Boy and Raven knew that they had gone too far. They weren't sure what had come over them, but now they knew that they shouldn't have done it.
The group finally made it back to the tower and Raven and Beast Boy immediately disappeared into their room. Cyborg and Robin went to see Beast Boy and Starfire went to see Raven.
"Beast Boy, what happened out there?" asked Robin.
"I'm guessing you guys somehow know," said Beast Boy, who was sitting on the edge of his bottom bunk.
"We went lookin for y'all and we sorta stumbled on your little… scene," said Cyborg.
"So was that part of your plan or did something happen or what?" asked Robin, who felt clueless, something he didn't like.
"I don't know," said Beast Boy looking at the floor, shaking his head. "I mean, it was all going perfectly. I was being all flirty and charming and then I went in for the kiss. I asked her if she had a crush on me, thinking that she would say she would, but she said she didn't. Then, the next thing I knew, we actually kissed!"
"Yeah, but what we were seeing wasn't a kiss," said Cyborg. "Y'all were kissing like I've never even seen. Heck, I'm actually jealous."
"Wait a second, Raven said she didn't have a crush on you?" asked Robin. "Then why did you kiss if she said she didn't have a crush on you?"
"I don't know," said Beast Boy, shrugging. "She said that she didn't and then we kissed."
"So how'd it get all… passionate?" asked Cyborg.
"I… I don't know," said Beast Boy. "We kissed for a few seconds then we stopped. Then… I don't know what happened. I looked at her and all I wanted to do was kiss her. So… I did. And then we didn't stop."
Cyborg and Robin looked at each other and decided that it was time all of this was out in the open. This little experiment of Beast Boy's was getting out of hand.
"Beast Boy, there's something we have to tell you," said Robin.
"What?" asked Beast Boy, looking up.
"Raven… Raven knew what you were up to," said Cyborg.
"What do you mean?" asked Beast Boy.
"She knew from day one what you were doing," said Robin. "She overheard you and knew that you were going to try and force her into a crush."
"…what?" asked Beast Boy, stunned at this news.
"And she decided to play your game against you," said Cyborg. "Give you a taste of your own medicine."
Beast Boy's mind raced. This couldn't be true. She had known all along? No, she couldn't have. Could she? Suddenly everything fell into place. Why none of his moves seemed to faze her. Why she had been acting differently. Why she hadn't yelled or hit him. She had known.
"Oh my God," he said, leaning forward and placing his face into his hands.
"But I don't think even she wanted it to go this far," said Robin.
"How could I have been so stupid?" he asked himself. "Here I thought I had it all figured out, that I was being so cunning. Of course she knew! I'm such an idiot!"
"Hey, man, there's no reason to go beatin your self up about this," said Cyborg.
"I think you and Raven should talk and work this whole mess out," said Robin.
"I don't think I can talk to her," said Beast Boy. "I feel so stupid and after what we did, how can we ever even look at each other again?"
"I still don't understand why you kept kissin her," said Cyborg.
"I don't even know!" said Beast Boy. "I just… felt something. Something for her, and I went with it. I know I shouldn't have, but it just felt like the right thing to do. Oh God, I'm so confused." He moaned into his hands and wished he could reverse time and stop himself for ever coming up with this stupid idea.
"Wait a second, you felt something for her?" asked Robin. "Beast Boy, could it be possible that… you have a crush on her?"
Beast Boy quickly looked up, his eyes wide. "What! Dude, no! I… I don't have a crush on her," he sputtered out.
"You sure sound like you do, B," said Cyborg.
"No, I refuse!" said Beast Boy firmly. "I mean, how can I like her? We're total opposites, light and dark, oil and water, tofu and meat!"
"You know, I can't understand how you thought that you could make Raven have a crush on you if you thought that you couldn't have a crush on her. If she can like you, then you can like her and vice versa. That's the way it is."
"I… I can't have a crush on her," said Beast Boy, more to himself than anyone else. "Can I?"
"Well it sounds like you already do," said Cyborg. "And, you know, there's been somethin I've wanted to ask you this past week. Why is it really so important to you that you make Raven see that you're good enough for her? And don't say it's to put her in her place, cuz we both know that's not true."
"What does it matter?" asked Beast Boy.
"He has a good question, Beast Boy," said Robin. "Why is it so important to you?"
"I… I don't know," said Beast Boy. "It just is."
"There's got to be a reason you want her to like you," said Cyborg.
"Do you think that maybe all this time it's you who's had the crush?" asked Robin. "And, yes, it is possible for you to have been crushing on her without even you knowing it."
Beast Boy sat silently, thinking all of this over. "I… I never thought I did," said Beast Boy. "But, suddenly, I don't know. I think… I just might… no, I can't. This is too weird! How can it be that I have a crush on her? Or that I've had a crush on her this whole time. It's crazy!" After her ranted like this he fell backwards and rested on his lower bunk, his eyes closed so he could think. Then, after a little more thought, he spoke again. "But it does make sense, doesn't it? I mean, I really do want her to like me and maybe even have a crush on me. I was the one who wanted to continue kissing and initiated us making out. And this week watching her flirt with me has definitely had an affect on me. So… so maybe I… do have a crush on her."
Raven sat on her bed, hugging her knees to her chest. Starfire sat next to her and tried to comfort her. It had taken a few minutes for her to calm her emotions down once the reality of the events of the past hour finally hit her. She told Starfire everything that had happened and was now feeling slightly ill.
"Do not worry," said Starfire sweetly. "All will be well."
"I somehow doubt that," said Raven.
"But, you have done the kissing," said Starfire. "Is that not good?"
"I… I'm not sure," said Raven. "Starfire, can you keep a secret? I mean really keep a secret?"
"I have said that I can," said Starfire.
"You have to promise me that you won't let anything we talk about leave this room," said Raven, in a serious tone that grabbed Starfire's attention. "Promise."
"I promise, or let my grebnacks be fed to a Tamaranean dror," said Starfire.
Raven felt that this was good enough and decided to continue on. "Alright," she sighed. "The truth is that I sort of… have a… crush… on Beast Boy."
Starfire gasped and covered her mouth. "Then… he was successful?" she asked.
"No," Raven said with a half laugh. "Actually, I've had feelings for him before this whole event even took place."
"Then, I am confused," said Starfire. "If you have the feelings for Beast Boy, why have you not told him? Did he not ask you if you had the crush on him?"
"Yes, but I don't want him to know," said Raven. "You should have seen how he acted towards me when he thought I did have a crush on him a week ago. He acted as if he was… disgusted by the thought."
"Oh, surely he did not feel that way," said Starfire. "Perhaps he was simply startled at the thought that you have the feelings for him. You have yet to show any affection for him. I suppose that is why I am mostly shocked by the news that you have the crush on him. You have never been very nice to him."
"That's just my way of telling him that I like him," said Raven, shyly.
"Again, I do not understand," said Starfire.
"Well, I'm really shy and afraid of what he'd think of me if he knew that I liked him," said Raven. "So, I've done my best to lead him astray by hitting him and yelling at him for any reason I could. Not to mention he always pays attention to me when I tell him not to."
Slowly everything began to make sense to Starfire. "Ah, I see," she said. "Perhaps you should let him know now, though. After you did the kissing he must feel something for you as well."
"No, that's impossible," said Raven, sadly shaking her head. "He's made it quite clear that he doesn't like me like that. He just wants the satisfaction that he can make any girl fall in love with him, and I'm not going to give him that."
"Then I do not know what to say," said Starfire, sadly.
"It's alright, Starfire," said Raven. "You don't have to do anything. This is between Beast Boy and me."
"But you are both my friends and I only wish for you to be happy," said Raven.
"And I appreciate that," said Raven. "But, at the moment, nothing can be done. If you don't mind, I think I'll go to bed early tonight. I'm feeling quiet exhausted after all of this."
"Then I shall leave you be," said Starfire. "I wish a night of pleasant dreams."
"Thank you," said Raven with a small smile and she lay down as Starfire left her room. She sighed and curled up, feeling lost. For those few minutes when she and he were tangled within each others' lips everything seemed so right. She had always hoped that someday he would kiss her, but now that it had happened she knew that things would never be the same. They would never be the same.
Starfire found Robin and Cyborg out in the common room watching television. She flew over and sat down next to them. They seemed as low as she was.
"How's Raven?" asked Cyborg.
"She is feeling the unhappiness," said Starfire. "It is all very complicated."
"Tell me about it," said Cyborg under his breath.
"Yeah, Beast Boy feels the same," said Robin. "The weird thing is that now he actually has a crush on her. Boy, did this plan of his turn out badly."
"I said it would get messy," said Cyborg.
"Beast Boy has the crush on Raven!" said Starfire.
"Yeah," said Robin. "And he may have had one on her for a long time. He's just never realized it."
Starfire wanted to tell them that Raven had a crush on Beast Boy as well, but she remembered her promise. "Think of your grebnacks, think of your grebnacks," she repeated to herself over and over.
"Huh?" asked Cyborg and Robin.
