This story takes place in the beginning of season 9. Chandler and Monica have been married for little over a year. Chandler is working in Tulsa and they've just started trying to have a baby. Rachel is still living with Joey but she is dating Ross. Emma is a few months old. Joey and Phoebe are single.
Disclaimer: All Friends characters belong to Bright, Kauffman and Crane.
Title: You Are Not Alone
Summery: Monica's life is changed in a matter of minutes.
Rated PG-13 for violence and mild cursing.
Chapter 4: Living In Fear
It had been a few days since Monica's attack her friends tried to get her to talk to the poilce but she refused. They tried to ge ther to talk to them about what happened but she wouldn't tell them anything, not even Chandler. They even suggested she talk to a grief counsler but she refused that too.
They were all worried about her she wouldn't talk much or eat much, she was afraid to leave her apartment, noises and shadows made her jump andshe was afriad to be near men including her own brother and bestfriend. Chandler as the only one she let get close to her, he was able to hold her and kiss her cheek but anything more would scare her.
Monica was alone for the first time in her apartment since her attack. Chandler had lost his job when he left with out telling anyone so she had arranged for him to meet with a guy she'd grown up with about a job in advertising. He was reluctant to leave her alone but she had insisted she's be okay and if she did need anything Rachel and Joey were right across the hall. Now that she was alone she wished Chandler had stayed home.
She sat down on the sofa and picked up the tv remote. She flipped through the stations looking for something good to watch. She found and old show on cable she loved to watch when she was younger. It was a cop show called Hunter but when she realized what episode it was it brought back the horrible images of her attack. It was the episode when Dee Dee McCall was raped and beaten and of course her partner Rick Hunter came to her rescue. She quickly turned it off and sat in the silent room crying for the millionth time in a month.
Monica hated being like this. She hated being afraid to be hear or hug her brother or Joey. She was tired of being afraid to have Chandler kiss or touch her. She hated the man who attacked her, who violated her, who'd taken her life. "I want my life back!" she screamed to the empty apartment as she curled up on the sofa and sobbed.
Rachel came running into the apartment. "Mon, you okay I heard you scream" she said. Monica shook her head. "No Rach I'm not okay, I don't want to be like this anymore, I want my life back" she cried. "Look at me" she whimpered. "All I do is cry all the time, and Chandler he has a wife he can't even kiss or touch" she cried. "Its going to be okay Mon, Chandler understands" Rachel said sitting down beside her. "How can he when I don't, I'm hurting him Rach , I can see the hurt and sadness in his eyes because he can't kiss me or touch me the way he used to" she cried. "I see the hurt in Ross and Joey too I...I don't want to be this person anymore" she sobbed.
Rachel had never seen Monica cry so hard before. "Mon, hun calm down" she said softly. "You'll be your old self again, It's only been a few days you just have to give yourself some time that's all" she said. "What if ..what if I..I'm never my old self again Rach" she cried "Chan..Chandler won't want to stay with me anymore"
Rachel hugged her crying friend "Oh honey that's not true he loves you" she said "He's really worried about you, we all are" she pulled away enough to look at her 'We really wish you'd go to the police and talk to one of us or a counsler" she said softly "No" Monica cried "No" she repeated "I never want to see that bastard's face or talk about him or what he did to me ever again" Rachel nodded "Okay" she said hugging her again. She didn't know what else to say or do. She was worried about her bestfriend she wished she'd
go to the police and talk to someone about what happened to her.
Author's Note: Hello all. Hunter is a cop dram from the 80's that I grew up with it aried NBC! Anyway hope yo'reall enjoying the remake of this fic!
