A/N: This is what comes when I stumble across a conversation in a forum that I missed about this particular ep..and L&O isn't mine.
He found it hard to believe that this could be happening. That after all they'd been through together, all of the hardships and triumphs, and everything else, this could happen. But it is. And now he found himself faced with an impossible decision.
It hurt in more ways than one. He felt selfish for wanting to hold on to her, knowing that she was hurting, knowing that there was nothing more he could do to make that pain go away. Nothing, other than for him to let go of her. It was somewhere he didn't want to go, but somewhere he knew he would have to.
So when the doctors came in to talk to him again, he listened, and told them of his decision. He saw them exchange glances, but they said nothing, and he closed his eyes, wanting this day to be over. Wanting it to be over, but only if she would be there with him when morning came again.
But she wouldn't be. And that was what hurt the most. He held her hand as they turned the life support off, and wept when she faded away.
