It's just you're Subconscious


Chapter Two: Fed Up

As the train chugged on, Sienna found herself playing Black Jack with Ana; they took over one of the seats, and faced each other, sitting cross-legged. Ana was the dealer, Sienna, was holding her cards, thinking hard about what she should do. Sirius and Remus, decided to bet on who would win the game, as there was nothing else to do. Remus bet eleven Sickles and seven Knuts on Sienna, he was going to go for Ana, but Sirius wouldn't have it. Sirius bet thirteen Sickles on Ana, confidently.

They watched closely, both girls staring at their cards, every now and then, looking up at one another. Sienna held a sixteen in her hands, she could hit, and end up busting or stay, and have Ana come out bigger, it was a catch twenty-two. She shifted nervously, Ana was staring at her.

"Make you're move, sucker." Ana said teasingly, she grinned, as she held her cards confidently.

Sirius sniggered, "Be ready to pay, Moony." He said looking over at Remus who scowled at him; he glowered, feeling Sirius was a bit too cocky about this. Ana could make a mistake; after all, she was human.

Sienna took a deep breath, "Hit me darling." She said grinning, trying to give off the air, that she was confident.

Ana smirked and arched both her eyebrows; she dealt Sienna a card, Sienna took it and looked down at the card, she got an ace, which was equaled one, she now had seventeen. She was stuck again, did she hit or stay? She had no clue, what Ana had.

Deciding she didn't want to risk it, she stopped, "I'm stopping." She said looking at Ana who smiled happily, Sienna swallowed hard, hoping she was only bluffing; both Ana and Sienna were very competitive.

Ana shifted, "What you got? I'm stopping too." She said looking at Sienna, more serious now, no longer a smile on her face.

Sienna shrugged, "Seventeen." She muttered, laying her cards out, for Ana to see, she leaned back and looked up, she couldn't read Ana's face, she couldn't tell if she had a better hand or not, Ana defiantly had a great poker face.

Ana shrugged, "Eighteen, read 'em and weep." She said laying her cards out grinning; Sienna pouted, and pulled out her favorite lipstick. Ana and Sienna had also betted on their own game. Ana betted that if she won, she got Sienna's lipstick, that she loved so much, and if Sienna won, she got Ana's favorite T-shirt that read, "Boys are toys, you can always get more."

Ana grinned, "Yay! Wanna play again, maybe up the stakes a little?" Ana asked, deviously looking at Sienna.

Sienna raised an eyebrow, "How high?" She asked, nervously, sometimes Ana's bets could get out of hand.

Ana placed a finger to her chin in thought, a smile graced her face, her blonde hair blowing in the wind, as Sirius insisted they open the window a crack, Remus was currently handing over his bet, grudgingly, "Oh, I don't know, I win, you have to do my Transfiguration Homework, as I can't stand it, you seem to be good at it." She said.

Sienna shifted, "Sure, but I don't want you to do my Homework, and if I win you have to go into the Great Hall and sing, a Beatles song." Sienna said, smirking.

Ana groaned, "Fine, fine. Let's deal-" She began, as Lily walked in with James, she was looking rather irritated, Ana looked over at Sienna with a raised eyebrow, and Sienna sniggered, feeling it was probably James being annoying.

Lily seemed to be in a bad mood, because she seemed annoyed that Sienna and Ana were playing Black Jack, so they decided to put the cards away for now. Lily sat down between them; across from James who had his arms crossed smiling sexily.

She was glowering at him, everyone seemed to be on edge, there was going to be a blow up at any moment, if James said something, Sienna wasn't sure if it was safe to breathe, Ana slowly reached her hand up to itch her head, and Remus slowly put his book up to his face to read.

Sirius however, didn't give a rat's ass. "Evans, you look upset?" Sirius said smirking; Sienna quickly grabbed a Chocolate Frog, turned around and began to shove it in her mouth, acting preoccupied.

It usually helped that, she had food in her mouth, then she wasn't made to give an opinion on the subject, she looked over at Ana who was having no such luck; Sienna had grabbed the last Chocolate Frog.

"Shut, up Black!" Lily growled lowly, staring at him, of course, common sense would be to take that advice and shut up, but common sense was something Sirius Black didn't always have.

"Aw, Lily, come on and tell ol' Sirius, you're problem!" He cooed at her, with a cocky smirk, he was leaning forward, laying a hand on her knee; she was glaring, and growling at him.

"Black," Lily said, "Take you're hand off me, you are so bloody annoying!" She yelled, shoving him over, "Right, Anne Marie?" Lily asked turning to Ana.

Ana was sitting in the corner, trying to look anywhere, but at Lily. When Lily was pissed, no one dared cross her path, the only one who seemed to be able to get Lily that angry was James Potter. Boy, could he boil her blood.

"Right, Anne Marie?" Lily repeated, looking at Ana with a death glare, that clearly said agree with me, or fear my wrath.

Ana laughed nervously, "Yeah, of course." Ana said, grinning, this seemed to suffice for Lily, she turned back to face Sirius who seemed to feel like, he could burst with laughter at any moment and James who seemed to want to say something.

"You know Evans," James began, she huffed, daring him to continue, "It's not nice, to make you're friends agree with you." That was it, he blew it, and Sienna was sure, that if James could go back, he would have remained quiet, he wouldn't have said anything, and if Sienna could have gone back, she would have grabbed Ana, and told Lily, they had something to do and ran out of there.

Sadly, you can't turn back time, so they were all stuck in a small old fashion compartment, with an utterly pissed off Lily Evans. She stood up, and pulled her robes off the seat angrily.

"JAMES POTTER!" She yelled, Sienna and Ana scooted next to each other, and were sure, everyone on the train could hear, her scream. Sienna smiled a little, wondering what everyone thought, every time Lily was mad you usually heard, "James Potter!" He was the cause of most of her anger.

Of course half of the people that went to Hogwarts knew James' knack for pissing her off, no one dared to ask questions, they all just assumed. Of course, all first years were given slack, because they didn't know Lily or James well.

James stood up frowning, "LILY EVANS!" He decided to say, feeling good about being a smart ass, he seemed to think it was witty, towards the subject, Sienna, Remus, and Ana shook their heads, Peter, just stayed in the corner, away from all the commotion, he hated confrontations.

She stomped her foot, "You think that's funny Potter!" She screamed, stomping on his foot in a heat of rage.

He hopped around, howling, "All I want is a date!" He yelled, "Just one date, what's so bad about that?" He said standing in front of her, towering over, this didn't seem to scare Lily off, because she stood her ground and glared.

She rolled her eyes, "Because! You're so bloody CONCEDED!" She said, as if this was the most obvious thing in the world which it was.

"Well, if you gave me a chance, you might find out, that I'm not as conceded AS YOU BLOODY WELL THINK I AM!" He yelled back, just as angry this time.

Ana and Sienna stood up, unable to take the screaming anymore, it was giving them both a headache, and they thought they were going to have their ear drums rupture due to all the noise, "ENOUGH!" Ana screamed, at the top of her longs, "I'm going to another bloody compartment, if you wanted to snog privately alls you had to do was ask!" Ana said, stomping out.

Sienna followed, "You two can be so childish, grow up!" She said, annoyed, Lily felt it was best not to respond with sticking her tongue out, she glared at James, as Sirius, Remus and Peter followed Sienna and Ana out, James and Lily, continued to scream it out.

They all searched for another compartment, but no such luck, they were all taken, one was taken but it was enough room for them, but Lucius Malfoy was occupying it, Sienna groaned and wanted to whine, but Ana glared.

They walked in, "May we sit here?" Ana asked, Lucius looked up; he had cold gray eyes and blonde hair, he seemed to look like there was a bad smell in the air, "No, I'm not sitting with any mudbloods." He replied, referring to Sienna and Lily, who was Muggle Born.

Ana huffed, "Oh come on, you don't even have to talk to us, and we're nearly there, anyway!" She said glaring.

He only turned away, rolling his eyes, they all walked in, and Sirius sat down next to Lucius, he seemed to be sour about this, neither would even make eye contact, Sirius had a huge scowl on his face.

Sienna couldn't remember him, ever having a scowl on his face, he was usually strutting about with an arrogant air about him and a cocky grin, Ana also took notice to this and smirked a bit, "I personally am tired of Lily and James." Ana said looking at Sienna.

"No shit, so am I, but there isn't anything we can do about it, we're stuck." Sienna said, leaning back, looking out the Window, they were passing a small lake, surrounded by overgrown grass, small lily pads were floating about in it, and it was small, so it was more of a pond then a lake.

Ana rolled her eyes, "Matchmaking!" She said excitedly, clapping her hands together, Remus, Peter, Sirius and Sienna all looked at her like, she had lost her mind.

Lucius looked over and scoffed, "Matchmaking? Isn't that a bit childish?" He said coldly, in his boring tone.

Ana laughed sarcastically, "Aren't you a little cynical?" She said sneering at him, and then smiling sweetly when he growled, "Anyway, we could get them together, get Lily to stop being in denial about her feelings with James!" Ana said happily.

Sienna sighed, "It'll be a lot of work, and how do we do it anyway? I mean, come on. This is Lily, she is so stubborn." Sienna muttered, Sirius nodding in agreement.

"Eh, I've gotten you to do things Sienna, and you're pretty stubborn yourself." Ana said, rolling her eyes.

Sienna smirked, "Takes one to know one, darling." She said, bouncing up and down on the seat.

"Never said I wasn't, anyway, come on, let's try it!" Ana said, looking at everyone, Peter didn't want anything to do with it but Remus and Sirius shrugged and muttered, "I'm in."

Ana looked over at Sienna who was trying her hardest, to look away, she made the mistake of turning around; Ana was pouting at her, "Please Sienna!" She said sniffing a little, acting as if she was on the verge of tears.

Sienna rolled her eyes, "Fine, fine, but if Lily yells at us, I'm pointing to you." Sienna said smiling, at Ana's scowl.

About fifteen minutes later, the train came to a halt, it was dark out, and they were all starving, the ride with Lucius wasn't too bad, but it wasn't enjoyable either. He seemed to make them all uncomfortable.

They opened the compartment door, and Lucius nearly ran out, leaving Ana to fall down and be stepped on by other students, Sirius pulled her up, and she pulled away blushing, "Ass holes." She muttered, straightening herself out and walking ahead, muttering 'thanks' to Sirius.

It was pretty quick out of the train, but it seemed like forever, to get to one of the carriages as it was raining, and Lily, Sienna and Ana were freezing, the guys, had found a carriage before them.

"Humph!" Lily said agitatedly, "Can't even wait for us girls, some guys, they are." She said shivering, as they got into the carriage, finally catching up to one.

"Aw," Ana began, shivering as well, "You have to admit, James is kind of cute." Ana stated looking at Lily.

She cringed, "No way, he's so arrogant, like he's God's gift to women. Which by the way he isn't!" She said, pouting.

Ana sighed, "No honey, that would be Sirius, he believes that. James' thinks he's the master of the universe." Ana said.

"Same thing." Sienna muttered.

"Not really," Ana said shrugging, as they pulled up the Hogwarts, they were let out of the carriage and led up to the doors by Filch the caretaker. He was an older man, he had straggly gray hair, but he was mostly bald, moth eaten clothes at an ugly cat name Miss Norris.

She was an annoying old thing; she was as bad as him, running of meowing like crazy, if she saw astudent awake, it made Sienna wonder if she was Animagus or something, they way she was. Sometimes, she wished she could just go up and kick her, and then make a run for it.

The huge wooden doors opened to show the even bigger opening, the castle, the ceilings were huge, and when you talked it sometimes echoed. The windows were long and glass, and the castle gave a feel of security to Sienna for some reason, she felt safe from it.

She had heard about You-Know-Who rising, she always wondered why no one wanted to say his name. After all it was just his name, a name doesn't make who you are, the name itself won't hurt you, only the person behind the name, yet, she didn't say his name because it seemed to frighten her friends.

Yet, secretly, she too was afraid of the Dark Lord that was rising; he was killing Muggles, and anyone who didn't believe in what he did, or defied him in anyway. It was scary, that's why Sienna felt so safe here, she knew he feared Dumbledore, and as long as Dumbledore was around, she felt no harm would come to her, or her friends. It gave her a sense of security.

She'd read the Daily Prophet and hear about another killing, and it would send chills, down her spine. It was scary, he seemed to be taking over, his power was scary, and all Sienna wished was that he was gone.

Yet, she was also curious as to what would make a person, act like that. What made a person want to kill, how could one person control so many and be so mean? How could that person not care? She just didn't understand it, although, it was because she wouldn't do something like that to someone, she didn't want to, and she wouldn't have the guts, to walk over and kill someone, in cold blood. To her, it went against everything she stood for, it wasn't right.

They came up to another set of wooden doors, although these were open, it led to the Great Hall. The ceiling was spelled to look like the sky, it was currently, stormy, but with some stars peaking through, hundreds of candles floated above giving it a warm feel.

There were students, seated according to house. Gryffindor, which was the house, Remus, James, Sirius, Peter, Lily, Ana and Sienna were in, it was centered in the middle, Slytherin was to the right of it, and to the right of Slytherin was Hufflepuff. To the left of Gryffindor was Ravenclaw. Each table had gold plates, silverware and goblets set out, along with napkins.

Ana, Lily and Sienna sat next to the Marauder's as there was no other place to sit, Sienna looked over to see that Remus was soaked wet from the rain, and she couldn't help but think, he looked good that way.

Sirius, looked like a wet dog, but Ana was sneaking glances at him, Sienna smirked, "Aw, you lo-"She was cut off by, Ana's hand covering her mouth, "Shh!" She warned glaring and then said, "Lupin."

That shut Sienna up, she looked ahead to see Dumbledore rise, "Welcome, to another year at Hogwarts!" He said jovially, his hands raised, "Before we befuddle ourselves in this great feast, I would like to say a few words," He said seriously, "As you have heard in the Daily Prophet Lord Voldemort," He said, as some people cringed at the name, "Is rising, it does no good to deny it, or act like it isn't happening, yet we also must have faith he will be stopped, because even in the darkest times, there is hope, if you just hold onto that small light of faith." He said, looking around, the Great Hall was filled with silence, "On a brighter note, we're starting a new year, with new students, so sit down, and enjoy the feast!" He said, sitting down, at his seat, in the middle of the table, between all the other teachers.

After the speech, there was a lot of chatter going on, Sienna was a little nervous, "Even Dumbledore seems a little nervous." Said one person behind Ana.

Ana rolled her eyes, "All this chatter about You-Know-Who, just brings one down. Don't know why people discuss it." She said agitatedly.

This usually meant, she uncomfortable with the subject, even if Ana didn't want to admit it, she was probably afraid. Magic could help in ways, yet it also complicated things, you didn't see Muggles worried about, a Dark Lord, killing people off like it was nothing, of course Sienna knew that Muggles probably had their own problems, but she couldn't help, but think that Magic seemed to make things a lot worse. Muggles seemed to have a pretty simple life, and sometimes that sounded good to Sienna.

They all dug in, Sirius excited for the feast, and James talking about the latest prank he came up with that they should pull, on Severus Snape. Lily glowering at him, Peter shoveling in food, and Remus and Sienna sneaking glances, for right now, things were okay, for right now, it was okay to worry about small things, like how someone was going to pull off a prank.

For right now.


Wizard Money: Remus bet eleven Sickles and seven Knuts which adds up to four dollars and eighty-four cents. Sirius bet thirteen Sickles which adds up to six dollars and seventy-three cents. Thanks to the HP Lexicon for the amounts.