Duo forgave me.
Duo forgave me for not even being human, for stealing the life out of people, for being evil. He was so naive, how could he just forgive and forget? Couldn't he understand what a horrible creature I was? Couldn't he see that I had almost hurt him in my thirst and greed?
He was human. That was his only flaw. He could feel for someone like me, he could forgive, he could love, because he was human. How could I ever compete with that? How could I even think of tainting him? But I didn't want to hurt him by just leaving. Maybe I wouldn't have to. Duo said he forgave me, but that didn't mean he would still want to be around me. As I looked at him, his expression was sad and he seemed to be very deep in thought. His violet eyes weren't really focused and he wasn't smiling. The loss of his smile in itself seemed to an earthshattering change.
But he suddenly came back to himself and turned to me. The grin was back. Everything was right in the world once again. Duo leaned toward me and I suddenly found myself wrapped in his embrace. Everything seemed to slow. His heart was pounding against my chest. The blood was rushing through the veins in his neck. He was pulling me close, my face moving to his shoulder. My fangs were descending, my head was moving to the vein. "NO!" I screamed and tried to wrench myself from his grip, but this time he held me firm. I struggled, but I couldn't get away. I wanted his blood so much it burned, but I couldn't hurt Duo! I found myself crying as I finally gave up my struggle and leaned against him, my jaw clenched tightly shut. It was then that I realized Duo was murmuring to me. "...it's alright. You've been running a lot and you're metabolism's bound to be high. I know you need this. It's alright, I'm giving it to you. I'll tell you when it's enough, you don't need to worry. It's alright. It's alright"
"It's not alright! I'll hurt you Duo! I don't want to hurt you! I won't! I won't! I"
"It's not like I'm giving you much of a choice here," Duo said. I couldn't believe him. How stupid was he? Couldn't he see how close I was to sucking his blood out of his neck through two tiny puncture wounds?
Unexpectedly, Duo released me with one arm. I thought he might have finally given up, but I was wrong. He raised a hand to his neck and created one long scratch where I would have sank my fangs in. Blood dripped down his neck. It was too much. I latched on to the wound and sucked eagerly.
Duo tasted like nothing I had ever had before. His blood was rich but sweet. Like wine. But it was different in other ways, too. It seemed to fill me up more and I found that I wouldn't have to take as much as I usually did. Bitter tears of regret for the pain I was causing my love cascaded down my cheeks, but there was nothing I could do. I was too weak to stop. Duo, however, seemed totally ignorant of the whole situation. Instead of crying out in pain, he began to stroke my back tenderly and coo reassuring words in my ear. He wasn't afraid of me. He was willingly putting his life in my hands. The thought made me want to cry out anew. He was so fragile, what if I hurt him? What if I couldn't stop?
I tried to stop three times even though I knew I wasn't done. Duo simply shook his head and held me down. It seemed like forever before he gently pulled back and allowed me to stop. I had taken a lot of blood, Duo was pale and shaky, but he still managed a small smile at me. "Feel better?" he asked. I was too upset to properly reply. "Hn"
"Heh. Back to normal I see. Well, I have couple things to do. Just yell if ya need me," he said and turned to leave. "Duo," I called. "Yeah?" he said turning back. "I-I'm still hungry. F-for real food, I mean. Could you"
"No problem, man, I'll bring up a little something in a couple minutes. Just no complaining about my cooking." "Alright," I said as Duo left the room. I was drowsy after he left, being in a real bed after days of catching a few minutes of sleep on the ground and months of nightmare infested sleep in my cell, all my body wanted to do was eat and sleep. But I was far too afraid. I knew, somewhere inside, that if I went to sleep I'd wake up back in my cell, or Duo would change to Dream-Duo and come hurt me, or I'd wake to find him dead on the floor, his blood on my hands. Those thoughts alone were enough to make me shiver in fear while tears leaked down my face. So I stayed awake and had time to think about just how pathetic I was. Sitting in Duo's bed, in Duo's house, too weak to get out of bed, too scared to stop crying, too insane to go to sleep. I had already endangered Duo, hurt him, stolen his blood, and become an all around burden. And I hadn't even had the guts to tell him I loved him. I wasn't the perfect soldier anymore. Everything I had just realized reinforced that thought. Dr. J had been able to teach me to perfectly control my body because he had said that it didn't matter what happened to it, because I was already dead, and nothing could kill me. He promised that if I fought for him in the war then he would give me my life back once it was all over. He would make me human. I could have a normal life. A family. A love. When I found that Dr. J had lied, I stopped believing everything he taught me. I couldn't shut down the pain, because I needed it to tell me what was wrong with my body, because I was going to be stuck in it for a very long time. I couldn't be emotionless, because the only emotional bonds I was going to get would be formed with humans who were deceived into thinking that I was one of them. There weren't any missions left. There was no way to say, "Just keep going and soon you'll be a human and you can forget about all of this. No more blood on your hands every night. No more being an outsider. You'll have a family. You'll have Duo..." It was all a lie. There was no hope. I would never have Duo.
My train of thought was interrupted by scratching noises coming from the door. I jumped slightly and turned to look at the door, freezing in shock and fear when I saw it. Two furry dog-muzzles peaked under the door. Four paws, two brown, two white, clawed at the carpet, trying to get in. I wanted to scream. The dogs that had been following me were here, trying to get in. I froze, wondering wistfully if perhaps I had fallen asleep, and this was a dream. Suddenly, I heard Duo's footsteps in the hall. I tried to scream for him to run, but there was something in my throat and all I could do was moan. Then the noses and paws were gone, and I wondered if they had ever really been there as Duo opened the door. He was carrying a large tray of sandwiches and four sodas. He kicked the door shut as he walked in and set down the food. Duo helped me sit up then sat at the end of the bed as we both ate. It was quiet, more because we were both too tired to speak. I was through with my fifth sandwich when I heard the scratching start again. "D-Duo!" I whispered harshly. Duo didn't seem to notice the sound when I called him, so I frantically motioned to the door. "Oh man, this is driving those two crazy," he said calmly as he rose and went to the door, "You don't mind do you? No one's visited here in a long time"
I didn't know what to say so I remained silent and tense as Duo opened the door and said, "Behave," in a commanding voice before coming back to sit beside me. A large white dog bound over to the bed and sniffed, her tongue lolling excitedly. She was large and beautiful, nothing like the dogs that had chased me. I almost had to laugh at my own fears. Putting her front legs on the bed to get a better look at me, she sniffed once at my hand, threw Duo a quizzical look that he answered with a nod, then licked me and disregarded me, bounding off the bed and over to Duo to beg a bite of sandwich. The second dog that entered was just a hair bigger and a dark brown color. She entered cautiously, her eyes darting from me, to Duo, to the other dog, then back to me. Assuring herself that none of her friends were in danger from me, she lowered her head and slowly padded to the bed, ready to react in an instant to any violent movements. Carefully, she pushed herself up onto the bed and sniffed at my hand, doing a more thorough inspection and even nosing my palm. I dared to gently stroke her cheek and she looked up into my eyes. There was a flurry of movement and the next thing I knew she was laying across my lap waiting for me to stroke her ears, which I did and she laid her head on my lap. Smiling, Duo rose to leave the room, the white dog following after him. He paused, casting a glance back at the dog on my lap, who raised her eyes at him but made no attempt to move. "Slut," he teased good naturedly, the dog raised her head and licked his hand in apology, but stayed with me. "Well, Heero, since she's gonna be sleeping with you, I had better introduce her. This is Scythe, and that little white blur over there is Wing. I've got some paperwork to do, so you two try and get some sleep, kay?" he said and exited the room, leaving the door open in case I needed him. Laying back down, Scythe shifting so she lay beside me, I slowly drifted to sleep, knowing that Duo would be here when I woke up. This truly was real. Unfortunately, when I woke up, I felt like I was back in my cell. My entire body burned like it was on fire and there was a pounding in my head that just wouldn't go away. Where was Duo? Had he left me? Had they taken me back? Everything seemed so dark. I realized, suddenly, that I couldn't see anything because my eyes were still closed. Slowly, I opened them, uncertain of what lay beyond. I was relieved to find myself still in Duo's room, only several things had changed while I was asleep. First, the dog was gone and the heavy blankets on the bed had been replaced by a thin sheet. Second, the towel I had on earlier had been replaced by a pair of shorts I didn't recognize. Third, there was a cold compress on my forehead and a bowl of water on the bed stand, and Duo's chair had been pulled up next to the bed.
Had I really slept through all that? I wondered, but it really wasn't all that unbelievable, given the amount of drugs I had been given over the last few months and the time I had spent running for my life the past few days. The thought of drugs brought a wave of memories that I didn't want, and I suddenly had the overwhelming urge to find Duo. I stood, but a wave of fatigue and dizziness hit me and I was forced to sit back down. I rose the second time, slowly, and walked into the hall, leaning heavily against the wall for support and balance. By the time I got down the stairs my legs were shaking from exertion and my vision was starting to blur, but more than that my mind was starting to panic. Where was Duo? Did he leave?
Why didn't he tell me?
Did he tell me but I couldn't remember?
Did something happen to him?
Did I do something to him?
Did I hurt him?
Was he.
I shut down that train of thought before it could end, it being simply to painful to consider. I managed to move a few paces further and was relieved to hear Duo talking in the kitchen. "...yes, I'm sure! I let him drink my blood! Heero is a vampire and he's sick... Well apparently vampires get sick, I'm pretty sure he's not weak and feverish just for the fun of it... Quat, I really have no idea what to do here, it's not like I can take him to a doctor or anything. I-I think they might have really messed him up with those drugs... Dammit! I don't even know what they did to him! ...yeah, I'm going to take him out soon. He's so weak, I don't know if he can stand the amount of sunlight that would seep into my room. I should get going, it'll be dawn soon. Make sure you bring Trowa and get Wufei to come. I need all the help I can get. Oh, and bring some explosives. Reap some vengeance and all that jazz... Mm-hm, it sure does shed a whole new light on what we've been through with him in the past, even explains a few things... Yeah, well, see ya soon," Duo said and hung up the phone, finally noticing me. So many emotions ran through me as Duo smiled and said good morning. A little anger that was soon wiped away by fear that I would reenact my dream of killing Duo accidentally...betrayal that he couldn't keep the secret I had concealed all my life...fear that he would take me out into the sunlight and let me die. Even though the sun couldn't kill me, it could burn me horribly and, in my weakened state, those burns might be fatal. Which was why I had hidden in caves and under the lab coat while I ran from my pursuers. But worst of all was numbing pain and hopelessness. Duo couldn't accept me and was going to kill me. And yet I still loved him. I didn't realize I was walking until we were a few paces away from the back door. I tugged at the wrist that Duo was holding, but was too weak to get away. After a pitiful attempt to break free, I gave up. If Duo wanted to kill me, so be it. Which is one more reason I was so surprised when Duo made a sharp left into a closet. Stunned, I simply stood there in the hall while he came out with a heavy wool blanket, draped it over me, then picked me up. I tried to struggle in his arms while he adjusted the blanket to cover all of me until he said, "Heero, knock it off. The sun is already up and I won't risk you adding to your injuries. Now be still"
I went limp in his arms. Duo wasn't going to kill me? But why would he take me outside? Was he going to leave me somewhere? But that didn't make any sense. I felt Duo walk out of the closet and heard him open the door. The sun was already up and even the little bit of light that sifted in through the blanket burned. Soon, however, I felt Duo stop and fumble with something , then a door opened and closed. He set me down and I began to pull the blanket off, but Duo stopped me. "Just a minute, Hee-kun, there's too much light in here," He said and I heard the creaking of wood before he picked me up again and walked down a set of stairs, then set me down again and closed something. This time Duo pulled the blanket off me. My eyes adjusted instantly to the total darkness. The first thing I found was that we were in a sort of basement. It was a little but cool and musty, but it was an ideal place for a vampire to heal, since I tended to heal better underground for some reason. The second thing I found was the lumpy mattress Duo helped me over to. It wasn't nearly as comfortable as Duo's bed, but it would do. The third thing I saw was a small cooler. "There, does that feel better? Vampires don't like sunlight, right? This used to be a storm-cellar before, but it never got a whole lot of use. There's food and water in the cooler over there if ya get hungry. I have to go back up and work, but I'll be back down as soon as I can. Ya want me to send Scythe down to keep you company? Man, it can be spooky down here all alone"
"Duo?" I wondered hesitantly.
"Yeah"
"Does Quatre hate me"
"No! Why would you think that"
"People hate vampires. I kill people. I'm evil"
"No, you're not. Heero... Why didn't you ever tell us about this? That you were a vampire"
"You would have hated me"
"No, we wouldn't have. We don't now and we wouldn't then"
"
"It must have been so lonely for you... Heero, you don't have to be alone, do you understand me? No one blames you for something you couldn't control. We won't desert you. I won't leave you, Heero. I won't ever leave you," Duo said, then rose silently and left. Tears of loneliness and pain streamed down my face. "Yes, you will, Duo. You'll die and leave me all alone. It will hurt, Duo. You'll hurt me and loving you will only make the pain worse. It hurts, Duo, it hurts..."
He was human. That was his only flaw. He could feel for someone like me, he could forgive, he could love, because he was human. How could I ever compete with that? How could I even think of tainting him? But I didn't want to hurt him by just leaving. Maybe I wouldn't have to. Duo said he forgave me, but that didn't mean he would still want to be around me. As I looked at him, his expression was sad and he seemed to be very deep in thought. His violet eyes weren't really focused and he wasn't smiling. The loss of his smile in itself seemed to an earthshattering change.
But he suddenly came back to himself and turned to me. The grin was back. Everything was right in the world once again. Duo leaned toward me and I suddenly found myself wrapped in his embrace. Everything seemed to slow. His heart was pounding against my chest. The blood was rushing through the veins in his neck. He was pulling me close, my face moving to his shoulder. My fangs were descending, my head was moving to the vein. "NO!" I screamed and tried to wrench myself from his grip, but this time he held me firm. I struggled, but I couldn't get away. I wanted his blood so much it burned, but I couldn't hurt Duo! I found myself crying as I finally gave up my struggle and leaned against him, my jaw clenched tightly shut. It was then that I realized Duo was murmuring to me. "...it's alright. You've been running a lot and you're metabolism's bound to be high. I know you need this. It's alright, I'm giving it to you. I'll tell you when it's enough, you don't need to worry. It's alright. It's alright"
"It's not alright! I'll hurt you Duo! I don't want to hurt you! I won't! I won't! I"
"It's not like I'm giving you much of a choice here," Duo said. I couldn't believe him. How stupid was he? Couldn't he see how close I was to sucking his blood out of his neck through two tiny puncture wounds?
Unexpectedly, Duo released me with one arm. I thought he might have finally given up, but I was wrong. He raised a hand to his neck and created one long scratch where I would have sank my fangs in. Blood dripped down his neck. It was too much. I latched on to the wound and sucked eagerly.
Duo tasted like nothing I had ever had before. His blood was rich but sweet. Like wine. But it was different in other ways, too. It seemed to fill me up more and I found that I wouldn't have to take as much as I usually did. Bitter tears of regret for the pain I was causing my love cascaded down my cheeks, but there was nothing I could do. I was too weak to stop. Duo, however, seemed totally ignorant of the whole situation. Instead of crying out in pain, he began to stroke my back tenderly and coo reassuring words in my ear. He wasn't afraid of me. He was willingly putting his life in my hands. The thought made me want to cry out anew. He was so fragile, what if I hurt him? What if I couldn't stop?
I tried to stop three times even though I knew I wasn't done. Duo simply shook his head and held me down. It seemed like forever before he gently pulled back and allowed me to stop. I had taken a lot of blood, Duo was pale and shaky, but he still managed a small smile at me. "Feel better?" he asked. I was too upset to properly reply. "Hn"
"Heh. Back to normal I see. Well, I have couple things to do. Just yell if ya need me," he said and turned to leave. "Duo," I called. "Yeah?" he said turning back. "I-I'm still hungry. F-for real food, I mean. Could you"
"No problem, man, I'll bring up a little something in a couple minutes. Just no complaining about my cooking." "Alright," I said as Duo left the room. I was drowsy after he left, being in a real bed after days of catching a few minutes of sleep on the ground and months of nightmare infested sleep in my cell, all my body wanted to do was eat and sleep. But I was far too afraid. I knew, somewhere inside, that if I went to sleep I'd wake up back in my cell, or Duo would change to Dream-Duo and come hurt me, or I'd wake to find him dead on the floor, his blood on my hands. Those thoughts alone were enough to make me shiver in fear while tears leaked down my face. So I stayed awake and had time to think about just how pathetic I was. Sitting in Duo's bed, in Duo's house, too weak to get out of bed, too scared to stop crying, too insane to go to sleep. I had already endangered Duo, hurt him, stolen his blood, and become an all around burden. And I hadn't even had the guts to tell him I loved him. I wasn't the perfect soldier anymore. Everything I had just realized reinforced that thought. Dr. J had been able to teach me to perfectly control my body because he had said that it didn't matter what happened to it, because I was already dead, and nothing could kill me. He promised that if I fought for him in the war then he would give me my life back once it was all over. He would make me human. I could have a normal life. A family. A love. When I found that Dr. J had lied, I stopped believing everything he taught me. I couldn't shut down the pain, because I needed it to tell me what was wrong with my body, because I was going to be stuck in it for a very long time. I couldn't be emotionless, because the only emotional bonds I was going to get would be formed with humans who were deceived into thinking that I was one of them. There weren't any missions left. There was no way to say, "Just keep going and soon you'll be a human and you can forget about all of this. No more blood on your hands every night. No more being an outsider. You'll have a family. You'll have Duo..." It was all a lie. There was no hope. I would never have Duo.
My train of thought was interrupted by scratching noises coming from the door. I jumped slightly and turned to look at the door, freezing in shock and fear when I saw it. Two furry dog-muzzles peaked under the door. Four paws, two brown, two white, clawed at the carpet, trying to get in. I wanted to scream. The dogs that had been following me were here, trying to get in. I froze, wondering wistfully if perhaps I had fallen asleep, and this was a dream. Suddenly, I heard Duo's footsteps in the hall. I tried to scream for him to run, but there was something in my throat and all I could do was moan. Then the noses and paws were gone, and I wondered if they had ever really been there as Duo opened the door. He was carrying a large tray of sandwiches and four sodas. He kicked the door shut as he walked in and set down the food. Duo helped me sit up then sat at the end of the bed as we both ate. It was quiet, more because we were both too tired to speak. I was through with my fifth sandwich when I heard the scratching start again. "D-Duo!" I whispered harshly. Duo didn't seem to notice the sound when I called him, so I frantically motioned to the door. "Oh man, this is driving those two crazy," he said calmly as he rose and went to the door, "You don't mind do you? No one's visited here in a long time"
I didn't know what to say so I remained silent and tense as Duo opened the door and said, "Behave," in a commanding voice before coming back to sit beside me. A large white dog bound over to the bed and sniffed, her tongue lolling excitedly. She was large and beautiful, nothing like the dogs that had chased me. I almost had to laugh at my own fears. Putting her front legs on the bed to get a better look at me, she sniffed once at my hand, threw Duo a quizzical look that he answered with a nod, then licked me and disregarded me, bounding off the bed and over to Duo to beg a bite of sandwich. The second dog that entered was just a hair bigger and a dark brown color. She entered cautiously, her eyes darting from me, to Duo, to the other dog, then back to me. Assuring herself that none of her friends were in danger from me, she lowered her head and slowly padded to the bed, ready to react in an instant to any violent movements. Carefully, she pushed herself up onto the bed and sniffed at my hand, doing a more thorough inspection and even nosing my palm. I dared to gently stroke her cheek and she looked up into my eyes. There was a flurry of movement and the next thing I knew she was laying across my lap waiting for me to stroke her ears, which I did and she laid her head on my lap. Smiling, Duo rose to leave the room, the white dog following after him. He paused, casting a glance back at the dog on my lap, who raised her eyes at him but made no attempt to move. "Slut," he teased good naturedly, the dog raised her head and licked his hand in apology, but stayed with me. "Well, Heero, since she's gonna be sleeping with you, I had better introduce her. This is Scythe, and that little white blur over there is Wing. I've got some paperwork to do, so you two try and get some sleep, kay?" he said and exited the room, leaving the door open in case I needed him. Laying back down, Scythe shifting so she lay beside me, I slowly drifted to sleep, knowing that Duo would be here when I woke up. This truly was real. Unfortunately, when I woke up, I felt like I was back in my cell. My entire body burned like it was on fire and there was a pounding in my head that just wouldn't go away. Where was Duo? Had he left me? Had they taken me back? Everything seemed so dark. I realized, suddenly, that I couldn't see anything because my eyes were still closed. Slowly, I opened them, uncertain of what lay beyond. I was relieved to find myself still in Duo's room, only several things had changed while I was asleep. First, the dog was gone and the heavy blankets on the bed had been replaced by a thin sheet. Second, the towel I had on earlier had been replaced by a pair of shorts I didn't recognize. Third, there was a cold compress on my forehead and a bowl of water on the bed stand, and Duo's chair had been pulled up next to the bed.
Had I really slept through all that? I wondered, but it really wasn't all that unbelievable, given the amount of drugs I had been given over the last few months and the time I had spent running for my life the past few days. The thought of drugs brought a wave of memories that I didn't want, and I suddenly had the overwhelming urge to find Duo. I stood, but a wave of fatigue and dizziness hit me and I was forced to sit back down. I rose the second time, slowly, and walked into the hall, leaning heavily against the wall for support and balance. By the time I got down the stairs my legs were shaking from exertion and my vision was starting to blur, but more than that my mind was starting to panic. Where was Duo? Did he leave?
Why didn't he tell me?
Did he tell me but I couldn't remember?
Did something happen to him?
Did I do something to him?
Did I hurt him?
Was he.
I shut down that train of thought before it could end, it being simply to painful to consider. I managed to move a few paces further and was relieved to hear Duo talking in the kitchen. "...yes, I'm sure! I let him drink my blood! Heero is a vampire and he's sick... Well apparently vampires get sick, I'm pretty sure he's not weak and feverish just for the fun of it... Quat, I really have no idea what to do here, it's not like I can take him to a doctor or anything. I-I think they might have really messed him up with those drugs... Dammit! I don't even know what they did to him! ...yeah, I'm going to take him out soon. He's so weak, I don't know if he can stand the amount of sunlight that would seep into my room. I should get going, it'll be dawn soon. Make sure you bring Trowa and get Wufei to come. I need all the help I can get. Oh, and bring some explosives. Reap some vengeance and all that jazz... Mm-hm, it sure does shed a whole new light on what we've been through with him in the past, even explains a few things... Yeah, well, see ya soon," Duo said and hung up the phone, finally noticing me. So many emotions ran through me as Duo smiled and said good morning. A little anger that was soon wiped away by fear that I would reenact my dream of killing Duo accidentally...betrayal that he couldn't keep the secret I had concealed all my life...fear that he would take me out into the sunlight and let me die. Even though the sun couldn't kill me, it could burn me horribly and, in my weakened state, those burns might be fatal. Which was why I had hidden in caves and under the lab coat while I ran from my pursuers. But worst of all was numbing pain and hopelessness. Duo couldn't accept me and was going to kill me. And yet I still loved him. I didn't realize I was walking until we were a few paces away from the back door. I tugged at the wrist that Duo was holding, but was too weak to get away. After a pitiful attempt to break free, I gave up. If Duo wanted to kill me, so be it. Which is one more reason I was so surprised when Duo made a sharp left into a closet. Stunned, I simply stood there in the hall while he came out with a heavy wool blanket, draped it over me, then picked me up. I tried to struggle in his arms while he adjusted the blanket to cover all of me until he said, "Heero, knock it off. The sun is already up and I won't risk you adding to your injuries. Now be still"
I went limp in his arms. Duo wasn't going to kill me? But why would he take me outside? Was he going to leave me somewhere? But that didn't make any sense. I felt Duo walk out of the closet and heard him open the door. The sun was already up and even the little bit of light that sifted in through the blanket burned. Soon, however, I felt Duo stop and fumble with something , then a door opened and closed. He set me down and I began to pull the blanket off, but Duo stopped me. "Just a minute, Hee-kun, there's too much light in here," He said and I heard the creaking of wood before he picked me up again and walked down a set of stairs, then set me down again and closed something. This time Duo pulled the blanket off me. My eyes adjusted instantly to the total darkness. The first thing I found was that we were in a sort of basement. It was a little but cool and musty, but it was an ideal place for a vampire to heal, since I tended to heal better underground for some reason. The second thing I found was the lumpy mattress Duo helped me over to. It wasn't nearly as comfortable as Duo's bed, but it would do. The third thing I saw was a small cooler. "There, does that feel better? Vampires don't like sunlight, right? This used to be a storm-cellar before, but it never got a whole lot of use. There's food and water in the cooler over there if ya get hungry. I have to go back up and work, but I'll be back down as soon as I can. Ya want me to send Scythe down to keep you company? Man, it can be spooky down here all alone"
"Duo?" I wondered hesitantly.
"Yeah"
"Does Quatre hate me"
"No! Why would you think that"
"People hate vampires. I kill people. I'm evil"
"No, you're not. Heero... Why didn't you ever tell us about this? That you were a vampire"
"You would have hated me"
"No, we wouldn't have. We don't now and we wouldn't then"
"
"It must have been so lonely for you... Heero, you don't have to be alone, do you understand me? No one blames you for something you couldn't control. We won't desert you. I won't leave you, Heero. I won't ever leave you," Duo said, then rose silently and left. Tears of loneliness and pain streamed down my face. "Yes, you will, Duo. You'll die and leave me all alone. It will hurt, Duo. You'll hurt me and loving you will only make the pain worse. It hurts, Duo, it hurts..."
